Raw emotion? an update on what's going on for me. 

Avoir réussi l'écrit de l'agrégation en n'ayant pas eu autant de temps que la plupart des autres étudiants pour lire et étudier fait que tu es d'autant plus méritante et, très probablement, plus douée :) Tu devrais (loin de moi l'idée de passer des ordres bien sûr) être d'autant plus fière et confiante en toi! Réussir l'écrit de l'agrégation tout en ayant travaillé à plein temps durant la préparation, et en ayant continué à poster régulièrement du contenu sur internet, c'est juste admirable.

Oh Emy, I don't know how much this means to you but when I started learning french it was you and your videos that kept me going whenever I hit a wall. I'm subscribed to a few french youtubers but I don't watch them as much as I watch you. You and your travels encouraged me to be adventerous and apply to university in Montréal (I got in, I'm in a good accelerated program for teaching french as a second language) and to teach. I always knew I wanted to teach but not until your videos on literature and your thoughts on all these things did I have the inspiration to follow this path. I know it must be so hard for you, but every time you upload I get so happy and I really appreciate all your insight (although I remember a video where you said you don't like Rimbaud, but I can overlook that XD) no matter what you do or what happens to you, you'll always be an inspiration to me and many others to pursue dreams of teaching, learning a language, traveling, feminism, veganism. Thank you for everything you do for this channel and really taking the time out to make these videos as well as work as well as study as well as prepare to move (I got tired just writing that) keep going, I'm not stopping either!

Teachers are so important. I wish in America we valued teachers much more. I hope you take the rest you need and get through these busy and stressful times!

This is very relatable right now. I have my final exam in about a week and i know i havent worked hard enough and i have been really depressed the last couple months and sleeping everyday without doing much. A lot of times when you're going through depression people just think you're lazy and that doesn't help at all. Just wanted to say thank you for your videos, and it's okay you're not alone ♡. Sending you love and courage.

new hair? look stunning on you

Sending so much love to you Emy. I've only ever taught in a volunteer setting but it's been enough to make me realise how hard teaching is, it's exhausting and putting together a curriculum, keeping things lively, making sure you're expressing yourself clearly and simply, making your students feel valuable and listened to and trying to cater to their individual needs... it's exhausting. Also feeling the burn out with studying right now, too. I'm in the middle of uni right now and it's competitive because my uni is the best in the country, so I'm feeling incredibly privileged to be here, but I also feel out of place and not smart enough. It's getting me down because everyone around me seems SO SMART and I study differently to others so I can't work out if I've done enough or done it fast enough etc. Agh, hugs to you friend, thank you for making me feel less alone!

I'm so happy I found your channel. I'm Italian and I'm studying French at a beginner level, so I'm not able to understand the spoken language yet. But I really love the themes of your videos, so I look forward to seeing them in English, but, on the other hand, they are motivating me to learn French faster.

Good luck with everything! I really hope you'll successfully make it through this year ; your content is great and you'll always have viewers supporting you

Je ne commente jamais d'habitude mais je me retrouve beaucoup dans ce que tu dis... Je passe aussi l'oral d'un concours de l'enseignement très bientôt et en candidat libre ! Et j'ai fait comme toi en attendant les écrits et même avant les écrits: en me comparant aux autres j'avais l'impression de ne pas en faire du tout assez...je me suis donc persuadée que je n'y arriverai pas. Admissible, je fais pareil pour les oraux. En fait, comme toi, je travaille vite et donc peu en termes de temps comparé à d'autres qui font plus de 12h par jour... J'aimerais te dire de ne pas te comparer, comme tu le dis on est tous différent, mais bon c'est un concours alors on le fait tous forcément. Je t'envoie plein d'ondes de courage pour tes oraux, dis-toi que tu as une force et une expérience que beaucoup n'ont pas !

Je me demandais si tu avais été admissible justement. Bien joué, bon courage pour les oraux ! 💪💪

I can't imagine how busy you are. I really hope it all pays off. You deserve to succeed. Your passion for literature really shows. Good luck once again.

A pleasure to hear you. Courage for your exam 😊 (and you help me so much for my English bac, thanks)

It's been almost a year now since I started to watch your videos. That was about french election and La France Insoumise. Though at first I was a kind skeptical about you and thought you were just a random youtuber, there were something in your talking that ignited my curiosity and thank God for that, because he enable to discover your enriching mindset and cleverness the uniqueness of your simplicities, the greatest one being your sheer humilty. And this video once again proves how humble you are, that's a teaching, a blessing of yours. I, too, have experienced parents divorcing. I, too, have been stressed with university and exams. I, too, was scared to never reach my goals and failed in living for literature. But you know what ? One day, a girl named Emy made a video about Tolstoy. I did some research and Tolstoy told me this : " les deux guerriers les plus puissants sont la patience et le temps". Believe me or not, it changed my life. Then, the same girl named Emy made a video about Specism. Once this video watching finished I open Dostoevsky last book and I read that: "on compare parfois la cruauté des hommes aux fauves, c'est faire injure aux fauves". That Emy who gave me strenghts to keep struggling, to keep living.... has enough strenght within her to succeed, while she was thinking that she would failed the first part of her competitive exams, i knew deep down in my heart, that she will pass it. Finally, thing were not as bad it was supposed to be. So Emy, please, it's far from easy what your living now, we know, it's even a bit scary but believe in your ability to suceed as you always make us believe in ours.Notwithstanding the multifarious problems you are facing now, I and other viewers firmly believe in you. You can do it. You have to. You already did it. Your teaching will be a blessing for all, a great achievement. Take cares, Emy. Thank you, also. And I hope to see you soon, with good news and great videos as always.

Emy, sois confiante pour les oraux, tu as une aisance assez exceptionnelle à l'oral, je t'envoie plein de courage! Et franchement, c'est abusé le salaire que tu reçois. Je suis seulement assistante de français en Allemagne (12h/semaine) et je reçois une bourse de 850€/mois pour ça.. Mais vraiment j'ai hâte que cette année se termine pour toi, et que tu puisses passer à autre chose (qui sera bien plus positif)!

Ce genre de périodes difficiles... Je te souhaite plein de courage et d'amour

I miss so so much your raw emotions videos and i wish to have to same courage of you to share a similar contents. When i will immigrate i will make them fro the other side and in other language so i can be free and safe hhhh

We are all rooting for you ! :)

Missed your videos, but i understand the situation, wish you all good

I relate so much to what you say about teaching. I really love my job as a literature and french teacher, but gosh is it exhausting! I also suffer from social anxiety and I'm an introvert. I'm really good at communicating with others, but it takes so much of my energy! I wonder if it will get better with time...

It is so good to hear you're not the only one having fucking doubts about yourself all day long...

You don't need to hide the number of subscribers you have ! I usually check how many subscribers the RU-vidrs I follow have ( due to personal curiosity ), and I was surprised and a bit disappointed when I found out this number is not available on your channel any more. Cause you have a big following :)

I can completely relate to you! It’s hard not to worry about something you do differently from everybody else and think that you are doing it all wrong. I also know how it is to be misunderstood by people around you when you try to explain that being stressed like that is physically draining! Just know that at the end of the day doing what you have to do is what matters the most and I wish you peace of mind.

I am a teacher as well and yes it is exhausting and I too feel drained each afternoon/evening and I have assignments and exam (and oral to prepare). I'm counting down the seconds until I will (hopefully) have my final assessment in (it's like 6 months away but still, that is closer than it was yesterday). I also have to move soon- like 2hrs away because the subjects I need aren't available at my current local campus and I'm not doing that drive every day. I look around and I think everyone seems so fine and why can't I do as much as them without crashing? I think some people are more sensitive and give more to things and that's why- other people disengage and stuff but we can't do that. We have specific exams and requirements to be a school teacher too (I am going to be/am (unpaid) a geography, society and culture +maths teacher)- I passed the first exam, just have all the unpaid hours to do- like 9 weeks/40days (business days). Can't wait to finish and like you, can't process what will happen if things don't go smoothly and I cant keep me finish date. Sending lots of love as watching this, I don't feel so alone now

It's interesting to watch YOU : all of you, when you're highly happy & also when things are difficult. Je t'aime pour qui tu es :)

Take care and don't apologize for being human

I always identified myself to you while watching your videos because of the topics you are dealing with : I really like reading, english and rethinking about consumption ! We also had the same bleached hair dyed in blue (and the same kind of glasses). Discovering that your name is also Emy and that you also live in Paris was kind of weird. Today I was annoyed at my dirty blond-green hair ends and I decided to dye it in black, just to discover that you did the same ... Anyway love your videos, doppelgänger !

I am in the same boat, Emy. I have spent the last year taking tests just to get into a program to get my secondary (high school) teaching certification. I did great on reading and writing, I have a bachelors in literature, but I have been stuck on math. Don’t ask me why I need to pass a math test to teach English/literature because I sure don’t know. My mind has been so scattered and restless for a year, especially thinking about if I just can’t pass it, like you, I’ll have nothing. Just a bachelors and a retail job that is killing me. I, too, am exhausted. Keep going girl and don’t let your brain defeat you. I know how hard it is when you’re already exhausted. Love from America.

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Bon courage, tu es une personne qui partage sa finesse d’esprit dans ses vidéos; une personne dotée d’une sensibilité littéraire incroyable. Nous croyons en toi, tu es vraiment exceptionnelle. Merci pour ce contenu de qualité, et encore bon courage !

I am always the first person to finish exams too. Its funny because i can tell how well i did by how fast i finished. Usually if i take a long time i didnt know the material well enough

I usually don't comment on your videos because everyone else basically expresses my thought before I get a chance to write something but this videos really hit me hard. From the beginning when you said about everyone being different when it comes to studying. I also write, do test etc. really quick finishing the fastest not rereading what I wrote and I also feel like I failed because I hand the paper first before anyone else. I look around the class and everyone is sweating and being nervous doing their thing and I just sit there and feel like I'm either a genius or a failure. 99% of the time I pass with one of the best scores but it doesn't matter for me that much, what matters is that I feel like I don't put a 100% of my mind into the test because I finish first. Then when it comes to anticipating and being preoccupied with thing going on in your life I do that too. There is always something that draws my attention from my main thing at the moment. Which sucks so much. As for work, I feel you so much. 3 weeks ago I had shitty job, it was draining me so much because it was physical work that I did 2-3 times a weeks but the environment and work it self was not good. I was sexually harassed by my boss and co-worker and it made me feel really bad about my self ,about my appearance, my behavior and also psychologically it was kind of a shock to me. On 15th on May I finally had enough of this and quit my job (low-paying) job. It was an impulse decision and I was afraid I won't find any better because of the thing that happened to me in my previous job. But I did, I found an amazing job thanks to my friend and I start on next Monday. And now I worry that I won't make it because I'm an introvert and this job requires to be social with people all the time and sort of be the center of attention which, as you said, for an introverted person is really exhausting on a daily basis. Hopefully, I'll manage to get use to it. Owners (3 women) made me feel like I have potential and means to do this kind of thing and I can't wait be successful and appreciated for my skills and not for my looks. I strongly, strongly believe you will make into PhD program! You will make an excellent literature teacher and you finally be able to show your full potential as a scholar in the field you are passionate about. You kind of made me into person I am today. Through you videos I became vegan, feminist and learned to not be afraid to speak in English (which sort of landed me the job I got recently). You are an amazing person and I wish you all the best! When I will be able to I will pay for your Patreon as soon as I get my first (normal) paycheck :)

We’re rooting for you, Emy! Life’s tough but you’re tougher.

May all your wishes and dreams come true. I'll be praying and cheering for you. Much Love!

I will write this in english but I send you all the energy possible for your final exam, please do not give up all things end even this period of stress ! About your parents, have you ever consider talking about your views on marriage/divorce rate/men leaving their wives for younger women and do you believe that it is possible for a couple to last a lifetime together , this kind of stuff? I love your videos and I would so like to have your opinion on this, obviously I'm not talking about the personal situation of your parents, it's private and the only person who knows what to talk about is you! Thanks again for all that you do and keep going :)

I find that the fringe+black hair suits you more than any haircut or colour :)

My favorite Chanel in this time .. I am always waiting for the new video .. just keep it .. Thank you so much Emy

Courage. We love you

Émilie, je prépare le CRPE cette année et j'ai encore les oraux à passer. Je compatis énormément avec toi, je sais que l'agrégation est beaucoup plus dure mais je ressens aussi cette fatigue mentale que tu décris. Je te souhaite plein de courage, merci pour tes vidéos ❤❤❤❤❤

We all do things differently. As long as we get to the end goal it is OK. Also despite what people say a bit of comparing is also OK. Stay true to yourself and have faith and you will be fine. All the very best. :)

Merci pour tes vidéos. Parfois, personne de mon entourage me comprends, ils ne comprennent pas pourquoi je suis devenue végane, ou pourquoi je m’intéresse au féminisme, et tes vidéos me rassurent, je me sens moins seule. Et grâce à toi, je m’intéresse de plus en plus à la littérature, merci beaucoup. Bonne chance pour tes examens😊

Bravo pour ton courage ❤ je t'admire.

C'est peut-être égoïste de ma part, mais j'ai été touchée par cette vidéo surtout parce que les choses pour lesquelles je stresse ressemblent aux tiennes : écrire un mémoire de licence, passer des exams, préparer la paperasse pour m'inscrire en master en France et travailler à temps partiel pour pouvoir me permettre cet éventuel master. Le plus stressant est vraiment l'incertitude, je trouve. Se tenir fort sur une longue période de temps sans même savoir si tu auras ou pas la chose qui te motive est dur. Je t'apprécie beaucoup pour ton courage et j'espère que tu réussiras cet exam. Vu que je laisse jamais de commentaires, je tiens aussi à te remercier pour tout le partage de tes émotions et tes idées qui m'ont fait remettre en question plein de sujets... Des idées que je partage des fois avec mes amis. Bon courage en tout !

I am in your same DAMNED situation rn

Sending energy and strength your way💙

L anxiete cela déforme la vision du monde et qd on est anxieux tout devient probleme Pour cela il faut lutter contre .l age aidera beaucoup.

Au cas ou tu n'as pas l'agreg (mais fingers crossed!) tu as pense a une bourse pour faire un PhD a l'etranger (soit une bourse francaise soit un financement par l'etablissement d'accueil)? Je ne sais pas si ca t'interesserait et quelles sont les opportunites en litterature. Mais c'est peut-etre une possibilite.

Hello Emy, Je te souhaite vraiment de réussir et de tenir le coup. Je sais que les examens en France sont terribles et hyper compétitifs. Je me permets de commenter et de te demander; as-tu pensé aux PhD. en Belgique? Je vais t'avouer que connais très peu le système en France et je ne sais pas quel est le but ultime de tes examens mais je sais qu'énormément de français se tournent vers la Belgique. Je ne dis pas que tu peux faire ton PhD facilement mais les critères de sélections sont plutôt orientés résultats à l'unif, travaux et publications, etc je pense que tu aurais tes chances. Enfin, juste une petite idée que je voulais te donner but hang on in there. It will be all over sooner than you think. 💪

quand on est heureux tout est facile (communication) mais qd on est angoisse tout parait difficile ca ressemble à ce que disait La Fontaine ,tout vous est aquilon et tout me semble Zephyr.

Great hair by the way. Keep up.

Merci pour votre vidéo. Courage ma belle. ❤

Love your videos , your mentality and personnality..just a gossiping question: can you be friend with a non vegan person ?🤔😉😘!

courage !!!!

Courage Emy!

Mon chat, je l'ai appelé Neptune parce que c'est une planète qui est le symbole de l'empathie, du sacrifice, de la dilution du moi, des mers et des océans, de la spiritualité, de la drogue et des paradis artificiels, parfois de la trahison et du crime, du rêve et de la musique (schème symbolique qu'elle partage avec vénus), des idéaux, des aspirations illusoires, des ressentis et surtout, c'est une planète dite COLLECTIVE. C'est pas une maison de haute couture ou un putain de parfum qu'on se fout sur le cul et sur la tronche pour jouer le/la michto ! Putain de gourou.

coucou emy, je sais pas si je l'ai déjà mentionné mais je pense que tu devrais t'intéresser à la douance (sourdoués, hauts potentiels zèbres, tous synonymes) , je suis quasi certaine que tu es à haut potentiel, ça pourrait peut-être une source de nouvelles infos sur ton fonctionnement particulier (c'est ta façon de bosser et le fait que tu te remettes beaucoup en question qui m'y fait penser sur cette video ci mais la liste serait longue) et sur les relations aux autres et au monde en général. J'ai entendu une émission là dessus sur france inter l'an dernier www.franceinter.fr/emissions/grand-bien-vous-fasse/grand-bien-vous-fasse-12-septembre-2017 et pas mal de points m'ont parlé, mais comme je trouvais ça hyper nombriliste et hautain de me croire "supérieure" aux autres (ce qui n'a en fait rien à voir) j'ai mis des mois à aller passer un test... Mais après résultat ça a été un énorme poids qui m'est tombé des épaules et pas mal de choses que j'ai pu comprendre rétrospectivement. Une meilleure acceptation et moins de violence envers moi-même. Même peut-être plus de bienveillance envers les autres.

Hors sujet mais j'adore tes cheveux !!

Pour les profs en Lettonie on a 500 euro après les impôts

what do you teach?

curiosité: c'est une perruque?

Hello Antastesia, Love your videos and your English is quite good but you always pronounce : home \ˈhə:m\ instead of \ˈhəʊm\ known \ˈnə:\ instead of \ˈnəʊ\ so \ˈsə:\ instead of \ˈsəʊ\ etc. Actually, you don't finish the diphthongs. There are other weird pronunciations such as busy \ˈbʌzi\ instead of \ˈbɪzi\

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If you finish your exams early, why not review what you've done before turning it in? Being quick would then give you more time to perfect your work than other students.

I know its tacky especially w the new age philosophy being so trendy on social media. But meditation is really helpful when u feel lost and need grounding. When ur thoughts are sortof out of control, breathing techniques are scientifically proven to be effective

hey, you are awesome, intelligent and beautiful. We love you. hugs =0D

Garde courage 😊

0:07 LoL ..

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vos diplômes multiples votre fonction vous font un peu sortir de la société il en est ainsi de tous les hauts diplômes mais revenir à la société il y a un risque'!

just don't work too much.

tu veux devenir prof ?

Does anybody think she’s such an infj or is it just me???

I realize you are anxious to rush towards 'security', but don't you think it might do you good to live in the real world for a bit? It's never good for people to go from University to teaching. It leaves people naive and institutionalized. There are few things sadder than teachers who have never experience the real world. Being opinionated and unworldly is a horrible combination

Fake exam - you mean mock exams Emy :)

first!

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