re-reading books I loved as a teenager 📖 a vlog 

One of the things I really appreciate about Twilight is how perfectly age appropriate it is. As in, when I was a teenager, I too overanalysed every glance my crush gave me, every time our hands brushed over each other, and I remember my first breakup feeling like absolute end of the world. I feel like few other authors that I read as a teen actually managed to capture how exciting all those little things are to teenagers. And I lowkey appreciated lack of segs, too. That topic really scared me at the time, it was kinda comforting to read about a relationship, where both parties were perfectly fine with leaving it at a kiss and just hanging out all night. That was my teenage dream!

I love Twilight to pieces. I too went through a fase when I hated the books, and the films, but, on a rainy day, a few years ago, I decided to re-watch the first film (that I love) and then I read all the books again, and Meyer published Midnight Sun, and now Twilight has a soft place in my heart because I really think that its girly and melancholic vibe helps me access my femininity on sad days. 😅😅

The Perks of Being a Wallflower helped me in one of the darkest times in my life. That book will always have a special place in my heart

omg yes honestly the vibes of the twilight movies (soundtrack, scenery, colour grading) are so immaculate, in 2008 i was an 'edgy' twilight hater but now these are honestly some of my favourite comfort movies and i'm currently doing a rewatch :') (i don't think i have the resilience for a reread though)

It's definitely interesting re-reading books at different phases of our lives. Last year I re-read through all of Virginia Woolf's novels in order of publication. I first read them about 20 years ago, in random order, and have re-read a few of them since. The difference between reading To The Lighthouse as a 22 yr old, versus re-reading it as a 43 yr old (me, last year, in winter)... holy moly. I sobbed. SOBBED. And it's not even my favourite VW book (The Waves is my fave) - but the expression of a particular phase of life, and what I was going through at the time, hit me to my core. I've never read Twilight, nor have I seen the films. I've read Looking For Alaska. I saw the film of The Perks of Being a Wallflower, but I've never read it. I'd like to though.

You are such a pleasant and gentle person and I enjoy listening to you so much. Can’t wait to see how your project teacup will do in the future and I am looking forward to reading it, should it ever be released 😊❤

My dear Christy I subscribed to your channel almost exactly 2 years ago, in late March 2021. My first ever video of yours was "To the people who feel paused"- I then binge watched almost the entire channel content within 2 days. What appealed to me the most was that you're not afraid to be honest and vulnerable. I haven't missed a single video ever since. I'm happy to follow your journey to growth, success and happiness. Happy channel anniversary ♥

This was so fun and really made me want to reread Looking for Alaska. My favorite John Green is Paper Towns because I feel like it goes even harder at tearing down the manic pixie dream girl trope, but I wonder how I’d feel about it as an adult.

the nostalgia when you read Twilight...I used to love Twilight when I was a teen and I was obsessed with it, and now I need to listen to the soundtracks for the nostalgia itself. Happy Channel Anniversary as well, Christy!!

I read Twilight in 2005 ~before it was cool~ and The Perks of Being a Wallflower and Looking for Alaska in 2006. Regarding Alaska being a manic pixie dream girl, I thought that Looking for Alaska did a good job of saying that she was more that what Pudge perceived her to be. There was a bit in the book when she was crying and she tells him that he loves the girl who plays video games and watches 🌽 but not the girl who shows up crying. I thought that line alone showed Pudge liked an idealized version of her, and not Alaska as she actually was. I remember feeling so strongly about that that when I read Paper Towns in 2008, I felt that John Green had recycled Looking for Alaska and did so with less subtly. At least with Alaska, I had the experience of getting to know along with Pudge. We're with him when he first meets her, and are able to see every step of their relationship, so we can decide that "oh the way that Alaska is acting is inconsistent with Pudge's perception of her." But with Paper Towns Q is already obsessed with Margo, everyone is telling him that Margo isn't all that, and he comes to an earth shattering realization that Margo is a person and not his fantasy of her. I just thought "duh, that was always obvious." And because I didn't care about Margo and because she voluntarily left and wasn't in any real danger, I didn't care about the mystery aspect of the book. With Looking for Alaska, I was definitely very interested in the mystery of The Big Thing, and finding out if it was intentional or an accident. Another thing that I really liked about Looking for Alaska was the discussion of religion and the afterlife. I felt that too many YA books at the time played it too safely when it came to controversial issues, so I liked that it dealt with that. I haven't gone back and reread it in the past 16-17 years though.

I haven’t seen too many reading vlogs, but I’m glad I watched this one. watching your reaction to Perks is so raw, and oddly, it makes me feel seen? I realized that I really haven’t been in community with many other avid readers (at least of heavier/more emotional books), so I haven’t often seen reactions I know I have mirrored in someone else. it was refreshing, and I’m feeling inspired to reread some of my more beloved books I had as a younger person :’)

What a wonderful way to celebrate your 10 years of being on RU-vid. I have never read The Perks of Being a Wallflower, but now I think I need to!

Love your discussion about your journey hating effeminate things, I had a very similar experience with all the aspects and media you mentioned, love how relatable that is 😂❤ I think it speaks a bit on societal expectations and how we tried to rebel against those intrinsic parts of ourselves in an attempt to appear worthy to ourselves and others, and I love that we have both healed from that experience 🥰

Happy channel anniversary! I've never read the Twilight books, but I've seen all of the films. The snippet you read of Bella asking who the brownish, redhead is made me picture that scene from the film, down to some of the facial expressions.

This is how I feel about Throne of Glass, so nostalgic for that series. This was such a lovely video ❤

This video was so nostalgic , cozy and beautiful . Thank you christy❤.

Happy anniversary!! Thanks for 10 years of amazing sweet videos! Also, The Perks of Being a Wallflower has been in my wishlist for sor long, but now i just need to read it right now!

i'm 65 and i love Twilight because i remember being an insecure teen . the young women that hated it in my opinion just wanted to deny that part of themselves and then made it very difficult for the author and the actors in the movies.

Love your videos to pieces! I also recently re-read Twilight and honestly struggled between how nostalgic it was from my tween years and the parts that I found kind of alarming. Overall I agree with your review though. Can’t wait for your next video!

happy channel anniversary! I also reread Twilight during the pandemic two years ago and actually really enjoyed it because it was so nostalgic for me and transported me back to the time when I used to watch the films with my friends :) rereading your favourite books is such a good idea and I’ve been meaning to reread some of the books I’ve read in school because most of the time I think one is just too young to understand or appreciate what they give you to read… this was such a cozy vlog and you really make me want to reread more books I enjoyed as a teen, thank you Christy 💕🌸

can I just say - I absolutely adore your reading vlogs! 🌸have a great day Christy!

This is such a great video !! Some of these were my favourites back in the day as well❤

What a great idea for an anniversary video. I really enjoyed it. Makes me want to reread all the books I loved as a teen.

i'm currently reading looking for alaska and was really put off at first by what you described- how miles sees her. but then i remembered talking to my friends when i was a teenager and i definitely knew people who were "in love" with attractive girls and romanticized them in that way without truly knowing them, so i do think it's somewhat realistic. it's a good thing that we recognize it as unhealthy, but as a teen you definitely put people on a pedestal and idolize them and think that it's love when in reality it isn't. i also saw some posts by john green and he seems aware of this/like that was what he was trying to do. for example he explains the knock knock joke alaska tells miles by saying it symbolizes how miles isn't able to answer because he doesn't know her (this is the quote: "I had all kinds of super symbolic reasons for this knock-knock joke about Alaska asking Pudge, "who's there?" and Pudge not being able to answer, about his failure to really know Alaska, about how her air of mystery was mostly about his just not being very perceptive, etc. ") also there's a scene where she tells him directly that he doesn't really know her. so that seems to be his intent. anyway it was the first time i read the book and i enjoyed it but like you didn't really connect emotionally or cried at all, but i can see myself as a teenager probably liking this a lot more (i'm 25 now) which makes sense because that's the target audience.

I read The Perks of Being a Wallflower when I was 15 and it was the book that’s made me cry the most ever since. When I read it, I didn’t remember that what happens to him also had happened to me. This book, alongside with Mysterious Skin, opened my eyes and made me face memories I was yet to comprehend. It’s funny because my emotional response to both the book and the movie was so intense and life-changing, but at the time I couldn’t really understand why. Then I rewatched the movie, knowing my why, and it still triggered me so heavily that I had a depressive episode, years after overcoming the depression brought by mine and Charlie’s common life experience. Last year I found something that I’d written when I bought the book. I had already read it in my computer in pdf, but of course I had to have a physical copy - though I never read it…,and I found a note about how confused I felt, how I could feel there was something I couldn’t understand inside of me, how my depression just could never fully go away because I’d feel it lurking at every corner and I knew it meant something deeper, but I couldn’t tell what. So, yeah… this book will always have so, so, so much meaning to me. Nothing could replace its impact.

Happy Easter Christy! Great to see you back! Have a great week!

I still love Twilight the book as an adult. The reason is simply that it's been written in an entertaining way. Does it have problematic issues? Yes. Does it hinder my enjoyment as an adult? Surprisingly, no - I think it's good to be aware of the issues, but in the end, the book captures really well the feeling of powerful first love and I enjoyed Bella's sarcastic remarks, etc. so much that reading the book now feels like watching a movie with warning labels: once you are aware that there are issues, you can adjust your thinking accordingly and then enjoy the experience with that awareness. :)

Ahh! This was such a good video. Also, congrats on 10 years

I loved and still love perks of being a wallflower. You’ve inspired me to reread it actually. For a small young adult book, it has so much in it 🥰

I loved this!! Please do more on future 😊 I really want to reread the perks of being a wallflower now 😊

Nunca un vídeo me a hecho llorar como tu en este. Ver tu reacción de "las ventajas de ser invisible" en la parte final, wuuuaauu llore!!. Que buen vlog.

watching this as I get some breakfast and in so happy omg

Happy 10 year anniversary Christy 🥳🧁 apple & cinnamon is such a good combo. I used to be obsessed with Twilight too when it came out. Other favs were the Guardians of Time series which was about these teenagers that travelled back in time, and The Princess Diaries were also really fun.

Fell all over in love with your content. Now, I want to reread perks of being a wallflower .

I was in high school in the 90s, and I feel like there weren't many books written for high school age teens. Or if there were, I didn't know about them. YA tended to skew younger... 12-14, rather than 16-18... There were Christopher Pike books, which I read in middle school, but after the age of 14, all the books I read were written for adults. Anne Rice, Stephen King, Frank Herbert, + whatever Harlequin romance showed up at my grandmother's house that month... 😅

this was such a wonderful video, i'm so happy i found your channel 😭💗

Omg these were my favorite books as a teen too! Now I want to read them again :)

I am 27 too and I had the same growth with twilight and feminity... I loved rereadinh twilight every few years...it changed every time, its a WEIRD book and going into feminism I started to think about the problematic stuff but still enjoyed it. Also, perks of being a wallflower BROKE ME... I could never recover

I've reread Inkheart so many times and even though I can't read through it as quickly I love that book with all my heart and the trilogy stands proud and mismatched on my shelf

Love your videosss❤

Happy easter Christy! 🐰

Congratulations! It's so important to celebrate personal milestones ✨🌙✨

"Perks of Being a Wallflower" was one of those books that just killed me when I was in my late teens. When I re-read it at 30, it was the same as the first time I read it (except I did know about the sad parts already). My experience re-reading it mirror's yours almost exactly. What a book! I also really liked the movie. This is a great video, thanks!

4:13 I mean, I'm a soon-to-be 16-year-old, and I have quite the vocabulary, lol. There are times I'll be talking with my mom, and she'll stop and say something like, "Only you would use the word 'indefatigable' in casual conversation, and you're worried about your intelligence." Then I usually respond with "MoOoOoMmM" Although there is the downside of when I'm talking to my friends, and they're like, "I don't understand half of what you say sometimes, but that's cool." And my face just goes -_-

Honestly hearing u speak...its so soothing, calm serene.....

Lol these three literally (and I mean literally) were my favorite books as a teenager. Like exactly these three were my favorite books as a teenager (I even posted these on my instagram long ago). We had the same book taste!

"And many more" to your channel, and may your wishes come true!!

I love this idea! I want to reread Jonathan Strange and The Never-ending Story. Maybe even The Colour of Magic, because it was my first Terry Pratchett book that started an obsession. Omw I wish it could be the holidays so I can read all day. I also LOVED Perks of Being a Wallflower. What a book ❤

Ha you started your channel on my birthday, love that. Also getting a copy of The Perks of Being a Wallflower today, you are making me jump out of my skin to experience it!!

I still have my copy of The Perks of Being a Wallflower that was one of my favorites in high school too. But I graduated 20 years ago 😅. It’s highlighted and worn. I need to reread it now at 38

Loved the video. Keep up the good work 🙂

great video! I love your vlogs. I still have my Twilight books and films. I've just started to read (first time) Stephen King's IT, Lee Child, Jack Reacher series and Hush, Hush (which is an angels vs demons kind of series) by Becca Fitzpatrick. I'm also doing a re-read of the Last Song by Nicholas Sparks. but love this vlog and Happy Easter!

Christy, you have mentioned multiple times that your apartment gets very hot and sunny and you that can't swap out the blinds; have you considered curtains? You can buy cheesy tension rods for a few dollars and put cheap little curtains on them, totally nondestructive and very inexpensive. Another option: I have put a tinted film on my windows that block out a LOT of the sun and heat; you can find it online listed as sun blocking film/UV reflecting film/heat control window tint.

Congratulation for 10 years on YT ❗️🙋❗️

Twilight isn’t exactly literature but man does Stephanie know how to paint a picture for the romantic teenage girl.

Happy 10th anniversary, Christy!

twilight will be in m heart forever

John green has spoken a bit about how he meant for looking for Alaska to be about realizing that the people you idolize are really just people

Last year I did the same thing as you and reread some of my favorite books, Twilight included 😂 I went through the same phases with this book as you did and my reading experience as an adult was exactly the same too 😅 I saw the problems but it was sooo nostalgic and I had so much fun 😭 But if I'm being honest, my favorite book of this series is New Moon (even though most people hate it) This year I also read The Perks of Being a Wallflower for the first time. I probably would have cried had I read it as a teen. Now I didn't but I still felt it was a solid book. I've never read this John Green's novel but you kind of made me want to do it 😂

i love eclectic bookmarks too lol, currently using a scrap of yarn 😂

It's definitely John Green's thing to explore the manic pixie trope; he enjoys writing about a delusional boy's journey to realising he only loved the idea of the girl. In Looking For Alaska, Pudge had to accept that he knew nothing about his dream girl until he ultimately gave up trying to understand her- in his words, he stopped looking for a ghost who didn't want to be found. In Paper Towns, John explores the same theme again when Quinten spent a whole book convincing himself that Margo left clues for him to look for her only to discover that it was never her intention- so it turned out he didn't know much about his dream girl either. Looking For Alaska, despite its flaws, has a stronger emotional hold on its readers, making it more timeless even though Paper Towns may have conveyed the deconstruction of the manic pixie cliché better.

I am 66 yo and Twilight is one of my favorites!

Video idea: Reading all the books mentioned in Perks of Being a Wallflower ❤

Omg I adore your outfit (white blouse and checkered pants) 😍

hahah omg this idea is genius!

If you like perks of being a wildflower and 500 days of summer you should DEFINITELY read Eleanor and Park ♡

Loved this video! Just wanted to point out that from what I remember, the mpdg was about the over-idealization of the girl and how the main character disregards her flaws but that is how he gets to a better place. Problematic? Maybe, but I do lnow a lot of teenage guys who learnt not to over-idealize women.

Twilight will always be a comfort read and movie. I watched Perks of Being A Wallflower, I don’t think I ever finished it. I’m going to though. I think a good example of a manic pixie dream girl is Cara Delevigne’s character in the movie, Paper Towns.

i was reading looking for alaska in 2014 and i still havent finished it lol, really did just have to check my shelves cause i wasnt even sure if i had it anymore.

yayy....!!

Thanks Much ! Christy Anne Jones

It would have been awesome to hear your thoughts about the problems with the characters in Twitlight!

I knew the writing was bad while reading the Twilight Saga but there was still something addictive about it that kept you coming back for more, and I do enjoy the films (especially the soundtracks). I also read Midnight Sun when it was (finally) released, (I did my waiting, 12 years of it) and that is way more problematic, getting a whole chapter from Edward's perspective about how he's planning on killing everyone in the classroom to get to her, another whole chapter about climbing in her window to watch her sleep (and oiling the window so it doesn't squeek). But we also get a lot more Alice which I very much appreciated!! I just need a Twilight book from Alice's perspective instead of Edward's extremely problematic perspective. There was also a level of nostalgia, even in reading Midnight Sun, because you're already familiar with exactly what happens, but just getting a different take on it all.

This was a nice and interesting video. Your video makes me want to read some of the books I remember liking back in high school, to see how I feel now. When I was a teenager, I thought books written in letter form wouldn't hold my interest. So, I never read Perks of Being a Wallflower back then. But, I really like the movie. So, now I do want to read the book. I just haven't gotten around to it. How did you feel about the Perks of Being a Wallflower movie?

We all go through that phase when we hate pink, we are way too old for Disney movies and we could NEVER admit that we actually still like things like Barbie because we are way too cool for that 😂 happy it was just a phase

Could you try Truman Capote's writing routine? According to what I read somewhere, he said that he could only write if he was lying down and wrote for four hours a day.

omg you look even prettier without make-up ❤

Have you read the new Charlie letter that was published in a newer edition for the anniversary? It broke me. In the best way.

“for them! haha” Robert Pattinson is iconic XD

I agree with the whole 'Edward is 100 yo and doesn't need to be in high school', but also taking in consideration the fact that the character is forever stuck looking like a teen (let's not focus on the visual of the actor RP portraying Edward, but rather on the book description) it's a struggle. Forever in Limbo. Looking too young for a proper job (depending on what kind of job, but it would be unlikely to get employed unless he forged his ID and age), never aging, not having consented age to drink either in the eyes of everyone else he wouldn't be considered a child anymore and yet not an adult either. Instead he's a coming of age grumpy teenager. And yet with the weight of over 100 years residing upon him and his shoulders. Growing tired of seeing the world change around him while he doesn't keep up with those changes other than trying to adapt himself to his surroundings. Where else could he be other than High school? Maybe he could try for every so years here and there to change the perspective and be a teen school drop out and live life on edge. Try to give his adopted parents a few (impossible) wrinkles to whatever trouble he would cause. 🤣 Or maybe he could skip the High School years and get himself into college like a genius with an high level IQ would 😂 instead of repeating the same old boring years. Oh the possibilities would be endless if he wanted to, but sadly neither would change his outer appearance. He then became a student for eternity by default. The worst nightmare when teens, everyone's dream when reminiscing about the golden years. While his knowledge is vast for the century that he has lived as an immortal sparkly being, the fact that he remains immutable is forever his own stigma to carry. No wonder he is sullen all the time huh. Learning History that he has witnessed. Stuck in fractions. And let's not get into chemistry because it's lacking. His behavior is certainly old fashioned in most ways and rather concerning indeed. From possessive, creepy, and awkward. But then again so is Bella. She's far from the normal and plain Jane she claims to be. The typical FL in a teenage romantic novel that claims to be plain, boring and that proceeds to point out most of her defects as if others are perfect when perfection doesn't exist. Besides all of these rather silly things and more into the novels, the one thing I find most hilarious and equally disturbing is to have glittering vampires. Even though, their descriptions were made to sound ever so poetic as the author tried her best to describe their unique beauty to be perfectly carved into shinny stone of Swarovski crystals or something within those lines, all that comes to mind is them shinning like disco balls on a Saturday Night Fever 🤣🤣🤣 We all crave for that break of normalcy in narratives. Something unique, not too cliché. And yet when authors try it out, to step above that bar, we bash or joke about it because we find ourselves used to the old pattern in most themes. Like with vampires, they combust or burn when exposed to the sun, they don't stand there and shine like pretty marbled figurines. So, in a way we refute to accept anything different than what we're used to. It's always interesting how our POV changes within years. What we've read in our teens, sounds so foreign when we pass the line of adulthood. 😌

oh… the point of looking for alaska is that she’s also the anti manic pixie dream girl, there are many consequences that are permanent and painful to miles’s romanticization of alaska. and a lot of people complained and misunderstood this idea, which is the ENTIRE reason john wrote paper towns afterwards, going deeper into this idea.

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Twilight got me back into reading in 2008. I’m not a fan of perks of being a wallflower I just don’t get the hype

When she says effeminate she actually means feminine, right? Sorry, English isn't my first language so I can easily get confused.

I don’t agree with your reading of 500 Days of Summer. Tom may learn a lesson (for me that’s debatable) but, Summer is very much the archetypal manic pixie dream girl. Summer has no personality and is given no interiority. She isn’t even a character, just some collection of traits that the writer thought was attractive.

Love your vlogs and this idea especially, but I have to voice my disappointment at your lack of awareness concerning how truly problematic Twilight was and is. The fact that you would still give it 4 stars boggles my mind. Twilight instills a dangerous idea of what romance and relationships should look like in young girls’ minds and promotes and idealizes emotional abuse in a criminally covert way. As a fully grown adult woman, I had hoped you would point that out and revised your original infatuation with the book.