reacting to my FIRST EVER youtube video *anorexia recovery* 

Time genuinely goes so fast. Imagine if this was reversed - she got to do a reaction video to the u now , more independent and free and living with friends and a happy relationship. She’d be speechless ♥️

i think this video was so popular was because it’s so real, it’s so raw. there’s so much perfected, filtered content on youtube that where everything looks and sounds perfect. when you hear the crisps bag and the background noises, it’s almost like you’re really there with her.

I think the most amazing transformation I’ve witnessed from this whole journey is watching your Personality blossom. I remember watching your first videos and thinking how quiet, sad, and how little you let your presence take up in the space around you. I’m so happy this journey has allowed not only people to get to know you but to watch YOU get to know YOU. The loud, silly and creative you! I love to see it! sending you the tightest hugs. Keep blossoming 🌱xx

The most striking difference to me is in your eyes. Your eyes have become so bright and full of life now! Your skin and hair are also completely different now, brighter skin and fuller hair! I’ve recently relapsed due to a huge stress in my life, so come back to your channel to feel inspired to recover. 31 years I’ve had an eating disorder. I just want a life and some damn energy. I’m so tired all the time. It’s frustrating. I’m on the waiting list for trauma therapy for complex PTSD, if I lose any weight I’ll be taken off the list. I can’t let that happen, thanks for inspiring to try again ❤

A video on committing to recovery even when weight gain is not such a priority anymore would be really helpful. Now that I'm a 'healthy weight' I do find it harder to justify sticking to my meal plan when I don't have the mantra 'I need to gain weight' to fall back on. x

Watched right from the start and beyond proud of you girl - you are smashing it every day and really help me with my mental health and accepting the set backs xxx

I genuinely miss your dad and mom’s reassuring voices behind the camera. They were so wonderful and warm with you! ❤️ I hope they are doing well.

Can completely relate to not recognising the ill version of ourselves. I get this when I look at ill photos and also when I think back to the way I behaved and the fears and rules I had around food. It's like I was possessed by the illness quite literally!

It’s funny seeing the little flashes of genuine Ro personality in the first video beginning to break back through. I remember watching those videos when they first came out and hoping you made it through. So so glad that you did.

You have come so far and we are all extremely proud of you! Thank you for going through this process online for us all to see that it is possible to overcome

Ro every time i falter in recovery, i watch you and it inspires me to get back up. thank you so much

Your hair is so much shinier and fluffier now! You're absolutely glowing with health. Your skin and eyes are so much brighter, too. Congratulations on your recovery, you've done fantastic work! You're truly an inspiration, ups and downs included. You've provided such an honest and refreshing take on recovery and shone a bright light for others at the end of the tunnel. We started recovery at a similar time and your videos made me feel less alone, and made scary meal times much more manageable having someone "there with me". Thank you for what you do. Keep shining, love!

It’s crazy how time flies, you are genuinely the best version of yourself once in recovery and this goes to everyone struggling with any ed:))

It's weird how one can feel so proud of somebody they never met. Every time I see you smile, see you with friends, see you enjoying (even the tiniest bit) I just feel a pang of proudness through my body. You are doing this!

Ro, I think a video about stomach bloating and this part of recovery would be really helpful. I'm dealing with it, but it is really hard every day having this feelings. I would totally appreciate it.

I love how your parents were handling this! They're being so open with the topic and really supportive and helpful and remaining calm, even though it certainly can't have been easy for them either.

You are looking so healthy and so much better. My daughter is now eating solids, still in hospital but looking forward to getting her home. Miss her soooooo much xxx well done you kick it's arse!!!!

I remember watching this video when it first came out - when I too was only just beginning recovery. I actually feel like I’ve grown alongside you, so thank you for making these videos 💗

This was so emotional for me to watch. I consider myself 90% recovered now, and I completely relate about look back at a past version of myself who I genuinely don’t recognise. I was crying at the end, it’s so beautiful to see your growth, and just know that there is a light at the end of the tunnel, your videos helped me so much in my journey so thank you❤️🥺💗💘🌸

11:47 -> the look of compassion and love and pride on your face! It's powerful and heartwarming. It's like you're watching your spiritual daughter, if you see what I mean.

it’s so great to see you now: relaxed, diverse facial expressions, humor and many things more. Congratulation that you made it!!! 😃 You can be so proud and happy, even in difficult moments.

you’ve done so well!! you are so inspiring, i’m so proud of you!!

perspective is everything. it's amazing watching you look back and see how much you've grown. my fave part of those old videos was listening to your family's encouragement at the table. it was so heartwarming.

One of the things that got me in this video is how supportive your parents are throughout. They’re like your cheerleaders and it’s a beautiful thing to see. Love that ❤️

Must be so strange to watch yourself back like this. It's so lovely to see how your mindset and whole demeanor has changed. I remember watching this video when you first put it on RU-vid. I had no idea how your recovery was going to go but I was SOOOO hopeful that you would be able to do it. So proud of the progress you've made so far. I know life isn't rainbows and butterflies but it has definitely changed for the better in so many ways 💪❤️ so glad you chose to be brave and challenged yourself constantly in recovery 🙏 thank you for continuing to make these videos as I know how helpful I find them, certainly during an unexpected relapse last year. You're a 🌟 xx Loving your curtain bangs. Really suits you, your hair looks so lovely and healthy compared with this first video ❤️ Also very jealous of your very healthy looking cheese plant!! Lol

Honestly Ro you are glowing! You're skin is flawless, your hair, I want it lol, and you have the most pretty eyes. I'm so happy for you. I remember watching this video when it first uploaded and was invested in your journey and you've come so far. Very proud of you🥰

That video was your first video I ever saw and also what made me finally recognize and admit that I had an eating disorder. Following your channel in the following weeks was a huge part of the reason I committed to recovery. I am so thankful for you and the inspiration you have been to me and so many others. I committed to recovery and never gave up. I totally relate to your comment of not feeling like I can say I’m fully recovered, but I haven’t wavered and can fully experience life without being afraid of any foods. It’s been so freeing. It’s so wonderful to see how well you’re doing now. Thank you so much 💕

As you were eating your cereal and talking with your dad it made me so emotional. I'm so proud of how far you've come.

It’s actually amazing how untriggering this video was! so many of these sorts of videos dredge up bad habits and thoughts but this is so positive 💛

This gives me so much hope, everytime I feel like recovery isn't worth it I watch one of your videos because you prove that it always is 💗

I want your hair! This is such a powerful video to see. You're super brave, you're a warrior. Congratulations for beating it love.

I just watched that video and straight onto this one, and my goodness girl you’re GLOWING!! In the other video you were beautiful, but your eyes are sparkling now! Keep smashing it girl, such an inspiration

I‘m struggling with recovery bloating at the moment and i really hate it like i feel so pregnant all the time… could u do a video on your experience with that sort of thing?like how long it took u to get better and what helps… love ur videos! Been following since the beginning🤍🤍

I was just thinking a few days ago seeing your stories about how much you grow ❤️ your journey is not finished yet but you already achieved so much and you can be so proud of you! Keep going ❤️

I’m a teenager, with an eating disorder,,, I only recently spoke up about it to professionals, thanks to the support i got from watching your videos I no longer want to suffer :) I’m currently recovering!! Thank you do much for posting that video, made me feel heard and seen

Today was the hardest day I've had in weeks. This video made my day. Made me eat normally. Made me say no to my ed thoughts. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Stay strong, stay loved, stay nourished, stay alive friends.

Whoa! This channel just popped back into my recommended after a year away & there’s such a massive difference between the old and new her! Looking healthy, strong, and beautiful - honestly the transformation and the courage it took is mega inspiring 😮

It's wonderful for you to see how far you have come, and best of all be proud of it. You look so much healthier and happier now, and it is clear that will continue far into the future. Fingers crossed you can overcome those final anorexic feelings soon so you can finally leave that part of your life behind and fully embrace the newfound view on life this has given you. You are still such an inspiration for so many, myself included, and you showing us recovery is possible is more precious than any self-help resource out there. Thank you Ro! Xx

your hair has become so much thicker!! i started all in recovery around a year ago and i also forgot how many behaviours i used to obsess over; eating is just so much more normal for me now that i cant even believe it had so much control over my life!! as much as i still have harder days in terms of body image im finally starting to feel like im recovered rather than still in active recovery which is such a lovely feeling :)))

Your parents are so loving and supporting it feels UNREAL. I always forget parents can be like that??

Oh my gosh, I watched your fear foods video back when you first posted it, and I was deep down in my own ED at the time. Your video helped kickstart something in me, cause deep down I was sick of it all too and hated where my life was and was headed. So thank you so much, I'm on the other side with you and it feels, ironically, so much lighter! ❤️

wow!!!!! this gives me so much hope this made me so emotional how much youve changed and grown and became a incredible girl !! i cant believe it either

I watched that first video and I was so impressed by how far you had come then. So happy to see how much further you progressed and were you are now! Also, your personality was already showing in that first video and that is why it took off. And because you were brave enough to show your inner struggle to help others understand those who suffer from eds better. I think your parents might have had a little part in it as well, because I personally was really impressed by the way they supported you through every meal.

yes PLEASE do a video on how you managed bloating/stomach pain it'd really help!

I can't thank you enough Ro, you are such an inspiration❤

So proud of you Ro! 💞 I too understand the hardships of ed recovery. Even though I also get ed thoughts from time to time, Ive conquered nearly all my fear foods. I can finally eat freely, which makes recovery SO worth it. These days I find myself feeling nostalgic and grieving for the girl I was before my ed, before it took away my identity. I don’t know why, but does anyone else relate? It’s hard to accept that the past me is no longer me, and that in order to move on, I should treat this as a loss. What should I do? Should I grow and become a new version of myself,or is my past self still here?

This is now my favorite video of yours. Wow. I feel so honored to listen to your thoughts on your old self. Such valuable information

OMG your eyes.... your nails..... the leafs in the backround.... it´s just the perfekt fit!!!!

Your channel is better than therapy, you're literally an angel 💙 I felt like crying too thinking back of how I bullied myself and how bad I now want to say to me "Sorry for what I did to you, you deserved none of that"

Wow, I haven't watched your videos for a while but for some reason this video randomly showed up on my recommendations list today. Ro, you look amazing!! It's unbelievable to see the difference between where you were then and where you are now!

So excited to watch this new video !! Thank you for all these videos and your hard work Ro. All the support you’re giving each and everyone of us is just amazing, so I really hope that we can support and help you as well in any way possible ! Please always remember that you can take all the rest you need and there is absolutely no need to worry about not posting every week or taking breaks ! Please feel free to take a break whenever you feel like it. Your happiness and overall (mental) health is the most important thing. I wish you all the best and I am more than proud of you. You did great today and as always, you look absolutely stunning :) xxx

I love seeing you smile and glow right now! I saw some of your videos way back and related to them in a completely different way (specific phobia related avoiding behavior) and was so proud of you for how you challenged your anorexia, because I could see how much fear it induced. Coming from my own phobia, I know how extremely hard it is to challenge that fear again and again, day after day. Wow, I am excited for you and I feel proud of you, it is great to see you smile and in such a good place!

girl you are glowing, I'm so happy to see how much progress you've made. I feel similarly looking back at old journals!

The little chuckle to yourself at 10:20 is so heart warming and gorgeous

Been watching from the start and it's crazy how fast that times has gone! You've done so incredible 💙

I like your analogy about if you were in a room full of spiders. I'll be honest I couldn't fully understand until you said that - when you did my whole body shuddered.

It's amazing how far you've come mentally. You seem so more confident and happy and free these days. What an amazing job you have done getting here! It's been a long struggle for sure. But you're doing so well.

You can't even imagine how much your videos help me in my own recovery. Even though it's temporary, I always decide to end my restriction and eat something when watching. So thank you. I'm literally crying. 🧡

Your dad is epic in that breakfast clip - reminds me of my dad's support in my anorexia recovery right now

I used to follow you on TikTok and was recently thinking about your channel since I haven’t seen in over a year. I was worried you deleted your TikTok due to a relapse, but I remembered that I watched your first RU-vid video so I searched it up and was so so so happy to see this video. Thank you for continuing to post and congratulations on how far you have gotten in your recovery. Seriously a role model. ❤️

I want to say to you thanks for every past video's.because i started recovery with you and seen 6 month ago i am free of anorexia. I love you dear♥️

Hey, I actually was searching for a video bcuz i just have gained the motive to recover from anorexia, and i found your video (the 24 hours challenge) and after i watched that i immediately came to your channel for more and i found this video...yes I cried, you look so beautiful and healthy, i'm proud of you eventho we don't know each other....you gave me hope and motive....I will start my recovery today, hopefully i will make it. I will always remember you for helping me and many other people to go through this :") thank you Ro, we love you ❤

I’m so proud of you!💕, I’ve been trying my best in recovery my parents still don’t know about my eating disorder but I think my mum has caught on because she has had anorexia when she was young too, but I can say u have definitely helped me so much in my journey💙, every day is still a battle I promised my self I will heal💗 xx

Eating disorders really do rob us of ourselves. I look back on my recovery insta and the photos, videos, and food pics from when I was so ingrained in my ed I genuinely don’t recognize myself because I wasn’t myself, I was in the depths of my ed and I lost all of what made me me. My newer posts might be less “perfect” and “regimented” but I am so much more free and happy. I have followed you since day one and it has been so amazing to see your growth! I found you at a great point in my recovery but you reminded me of myself and I was rooting for you and cheering you on the whole way!!!

Kind of off topic, but your hair looks absolutely amazing in this vid!

I'm so so proud of you and work you've done. I was in very similar position to your's and I remember watching your videos while eating. Seeing you now is just incredible and makes me want to cry. I remember recording myself when I was in a really bad condition and your old video remind me of that. It's so scary how even a simple smile was a challenge not mentioning walking or talking. I'm so glad that we can finally see how horrible this disorder is and thank you for inspiring me!

I was in hospital 11 years ago with an eating disorder and even now I still have the thoughts, I don't know if they ever fully leave you but now I eat whatever I want and have learned to ignore the thoughts. It's about knowing the thoughts are there but not listening to them. You're doing great ❤️

your parents are amazing! recovery is so much less miserable when people who love you are cheering you on

Ro, you wonder why this video was so successful and I'd like to suggest, as someone who followed you from day one: Your authenticity and vulnerability was so compelling. The loving support from your family was so endearing. I subscribed right away; I really, really wanted to see you succeed. And throughout your journey, you have shared insights that really challenged my own relationship with food. So grateful for your wisdom and strength 💚

I cant explain how proud I am of you I just hope that I reach a point in my life where I can eat a dessert or fast food without freaking out and panicking im feeling really motivate right now about recovering but then a week later it goes down hill its a constant cycle for me but this time I want to past through it and pish through it and get my life back and truly be happy..❤🎉🎉

Holy fuck you look like a brand new person, I'm so happy for you.

I am so so SO proud of how far you've come ❤ I was going down a slippery slope just before finding your channel and you helped me recover & I can't thank you enough. Cheers Ro, you inspire so many and you should feel proud of yourself ❤ you look absolutely stunning, youthful and just so beautiful PS- I still absolutely love biscoff spread and wont deny myself of it anymore ❤

I went out for a spontaneous fancy pancake diner for the first time in years, being able to enjoy the whole thing felt so freeing and wonderful. I promise anyone recovery is so very worth it!

i still remember when i first discovered your channel, i am so so proud of your strenght and journey 🫶🏼 thank you ro !

ugh this is so encouraging to see how far you’ve come!!! i’m so happy and proud for u ❤ i struggle currently w binge eating disorder which is kinda on the other side of the spectrum in some ways, but watching your journey and how you tackled recovery actually is really inspiring for me and has helped a lot on my own recovery (which is still ongoing lmao, but im in a better spot than i’ve been in the past at least) finding a healthy relationship w food again is harddddd so it’s so encouraging to see that it’s possible !

You’ve come so far ☺️ Seeing how much more energy and happiness you have is such a good reminder of how worth it recovery is, but it’s so difficult. So proud x❤️🙏

This is amazing to see the contrast - like I think you forget how bad it was when you started vs how good your doing now but it's impeccable

i found you from quite the start and im mean look how far you had come and iam soo proud of you( not even the universe is so huge) ;)♥️ keep on going i think with your personality you can do everything

i don't know why, but this video especially maked me feel so much better?? like, you saying that those ththings that were a huge deal for you, just aren't anymore. that they're normal. and this is what comforts me, knowing that enjoying food freedom is normal. also the COMPARISON, you look so much happier, full of life, even younger (? idk how that is possible), more you. knowing that this is what i'm gaining as well as weight motivates me so much. thank you for everything you do, really, u r special

This video was so wonderful to watch. I worked in a residential treatment facility for a while a couple years ago and it was one of my favorite jobs I've ever had. It's so beautiful to see you doing so well and sharing such helpful content with others. You should be so proud of yourself.

Hey Ro! I remember seeing that very first video so long ago. I watched you for ages but I've lost track of your channel over the past year. Im so proud of how far you've come, you're a truly wonderful person.

After clicking on the original video while eating my breakfast i jumped right in here... to see your own reaction. You look so beautiful and i hope u also feel much better

Your nail colour really brings out the colour of your eyes, It suits you so well!

this insane to watch now. i remember being there for those early on videos and just hoping for the best for you. now here we are, your personality is back, you look happy and genuine and you also eat all these foods with ease now. i didn’t realize how truly not okay you were in that video back then because i didn’t get to see the kind of person you really were until now! it’s a beautiful thing, watching you grow on this channel 🥹🫶🏻

I’ve been in recovery for 2 months marking tomorrow! thank you so much because your videos have helped me loads with going all in for recovery. I’m so proud of how far you’ve come and it’s so inspiring to see where you are now!

Yes please a video about bloating. I'm weight restored for so long but still struggle with it

this made me go and look back at some of my old, private videos I recorded when I was at my worst. It’s really eye opening to see, how far I’ve come - and I’m so thankful for trusting the process. Thanks for reminding me to keep fighting Ro ❤️❤️

wow i remember watching that video awhile back, i believe this is the first time that i am directed back to your channel since i watched that one and you seem so much happier and healthier and i just want to say that i am so proud of you, you made an amazing recovery. you seem so lively, and lovely!! 🌸

Gurl, the colour of your nails and how it matches/sets off your eyes!! *ugh* STUNNING

i subbed to you when you posted your very first video! i loved you (and i think others did too) because you were so authentic and kind, and comforting in an odd way? although i’ve never struggled with a legitimate eating disorder, something about watching you and supporting your journey felt like i was supporting a friend. and with every video, as you got a little step farther and celebrated your little wins, i felt like i could celebrate mine too, and you gave me so much hope and still do. it’s incredible to see how far you’ve come.

i saw that video yesterday and i didnt know your channel or you so i just thought "oh, i hope she is ok and pray that she can make it" and today i'm seeing you all healthy and beautiful!!! thats amazing, mind blowing!!! I'm so happy to see you now, and i'm so happy 4 u. all my love and good wishes for you!!! ♥♥♥

I remeber watching this Video so vividly and then following you since then. Ive loved seeing your progress. I live how honest you shared your Problems and how you sometines struggled, but at the same time how Hard you fought. Really inspirering

You were pretty regardless of your illness but girl you're glowing right now! and don't take it the wrong way but your features fit more accurately on your face now. You look like a fairy and it's so incredible to see how far you have come in your recovery already!

I’ve been here since the start and you have helped me so much in my recovery. I remember watching ur earlier videos so deep in my eating disorder, thinking I wouldn’t ever recover. Im so proud with how far you’ve come :,) ur doing amazing ro. We love u

It’s crazy how much healthier your skin and hair look- you’re glowing girl! So happy for you

I love your early videos. You are so real and so forthright in them- you were desperate to recover by any means necessary and I truly believe that’s what resonated with so many people. 💜

Its amazing to see how far you have come. You are glowing! Your parents must have been terrified of losing you and now they must be soo proud and relieved.

tonight will mark 3 weeks since i decided to go all in. tomorrow i start college and i’m so thankful for you ro because i truly don’t think i would’ve had the courage to begin recovery and challenge myself the amount i do without your content, and i don’t know how i’d be able to get through college while being sick. truly thank you!! :]

You helped me so much with my recovery! I'm so thankful that I got to "recover with you" and so glad to see that we are both in such better places nowadays

Woman, YOU are looking so so beautiful! Love your hair! And I’m so proud of you, look at where you at now!