READING VLOG: if he had been with me (SPOILERS* i cried) 

I finished this book 2.5 hours ago & cannot stop thinking about it - i am so sad. They deserved so much more.

The tiara 👑

The fact that Autumn said she would never kill herself if Jamie died but when Finny…

the ending of this book genuinely has stuck with me like no other... the writing was so strange but omg. i loved this book.

All I know is I need a movie about them, cause I cannot bring myself to read Finny's book😭

SPOILERSSS*** I finished this book today at school, I was smiling the whole time till the last 4 chapters. I was in class when I suddenly started sobbing and every one was looking at me. Anyways that was off topic, but I really really enjoyed the book butI just wish that the ending didn't happen, I was finally getting excited till everything went downhill. I imagined so much for their future when they found out that they were meant to be and how they finally got with each other. I loved the characters and that made it hurt even more when finny died. I still randomly start crying when I think about finny. (I cried while writing this) I love autumn and finny forever and this is one book I'll never forget.

I read chapter 85 in class and almost had a panic attack. Why did it have to be Finny!? Best book I’ve ever read but also the saddest. Luckily, I didn’t start crying in class but I almost did

I finished this book 5 minutes ago and I’m still choking up…they deserve the world

I was really anti autumn most of the book until the shit with Jamie. And I was kinda on the fence until that point. But after finishing it I’m just so empty? Like my chest aches and I feel unfulfilled. It’s like someone dangled a carrot in front of me for years and gave me one bite and then hit me with a bus.

I just finished the book today and I have just been depressed this whole day I can’t sleep because I’m focusing on not haveing a meltdown and crying the whole night it really hurts it really does. Finny and autum deserves each other and all they when through together just came tumbling down when he DIED. I am absolutely DEVASATED!!!😱😭😭😭😭😢😭😭

this book broke my heart!!! I'm with you, like why did that ending even need to happen? who would want to read tragic endings for fun?

I just finished the book and my heart is shattered. Such a beautiful book but dam I am devastated

i just finished that book and man i hated it in the beginning but god damn, my heart is shatteredddddd

i just finished this book and SOBBED, i am not okay

read the last chapters at 2am. i was bawling and i cant get this book out of my head

This book pissed me off. 😂 I am excited to read the next one from Finny’s perspective.

I finished this book at 3am and literally cried at the end I can't 👋🏽😭

I think my brain went blank at the 1st chapter and I ignored all of the red flags and this isn’t typically a type of book I read… I swear I laughed when I read the almost last chapter which started by saying Finny died… I was like “HA, just a dream”… and then I realized and I could not stop sobbing. Finished it like an hour ago and I just can’t, idk, it wasn’t supposed to go that way

Literally they needed more time TOGETHER

Love reading vlogs!!! I'm so glad you decided to start a channel this year. Looking forward to more of your content.

if you guys like this book, i highly recommend “forever interrupted “!

This book was really heartbreaking and it actually put me in a slump, i couldn't read anything after it nd it was all i could legit think abt. but its nothing compared to you've reached sam. every page of that book had me sobbing until i literally couldn't breathe. u have to give it a shot lmao

Kinda spoiler?❤❤ 8:17 YEEESSS me too omg i finished the Book last night , and all thru out the book I’ve tried to convince myself that this finny is different but I couldn’t. I kept laughing imagining phineas from Phineas and ferb was the one dying

This is the first video I watched in your channel :) Your channel seems comforting and cozy! :) Keep it up!!

Yess... Sara's reaction made me read this book a month ago and now you're spoiling us with this vlog ❣️ PS: I love this book

omg yess i also thought that it gave love and other words and every summer after vibes in the childhood friends to lovers trope!!

CAN SOMEONE EXPLAIN THE ENDING!!!!!!!! Also am I the only one who was team Jamie until he started hanging with Sasha?? I also loved their group even at the end of the book.

I read the entire book during state testing this past school year and I had to go to the bathroom because I had too many emotions.

i finished the book about 15 mins ago and it had me SOBBING. i only wish that the author could've just let finny live a few more years. :(

You are the cutest!! I would love to see more vlogs and a hair/makeup routine :))

I finished this book about an hour ago. I almost started crying in the middle of english class.

You and Sara should talk about this book together!!

I finished this book two days ago and ic couldn't get it out of my head. The only reason why I'm watching reading volgs about this book rn is to convince myself other people have a normal reaction to this book and i shouldn't be too sentimental as well, but yall brawling your eyes out it makes me wanna cry again

So obsessed with you already 💕

Lol I thought I was the only one who thought about our little cartoon Phineas the triangle head while reading this book 😂

The day after reading, and I still feel numb/angry/sad?? IDK WHAT TO FEEL ANYMORE!! But you should read the second book for this (if only I had told her) so the ppl who are reading it rn (like me) can watch when we’re finished! I’m going to SOB I just know it😭

I loved this book of course I Cried 😢

i finished it at 6:12 am and I’m still sobbing bro I saw a TikTok made from it and when the children pics started showing I was a wreck all over again

Ok now you need to read the second one i was sobbing when he was talking about the Christmas he never got

I’m gonna like this vid even though I can’t watch it bc this is on my tbr 🥲🤍

laura nowlin is paying for my therapy thats all i gotta say this book damaged me forever

I finished it 5 mins ago. brb turning emo.

I just finished the book. I didn't know finny was going to die. But I'm still confused how he died. Like Autumn said she saw finny to go over to see Sylvie. So it means he was alright. Is sylvie dead too? I'm a bit confused. And also I saw that the book jas 3 hundred of some pages but mine is just only 269. And it has 89 chapters. Am I missing something?

Bro I finished this book like 4 days ago n it is constantly on my mind

At the start my reaction was the exact same

I guess the second book comes at the 7.02.2024 from Finny‘s POV I’m so exited but i guess it will let me cry again so hard…

✨Spoiler ✨ I‘m so impressed that it‘s not the typical car crash death. Finally another way to die including a car,that’s not just getting thrown against stuff. I‘m sorry that I might disturb some of you with this. I‘m just happy that it didn’t take the typical stuff like the Cancer-Card in any movie involving sickness does😊.

Definitely have to read it now ❤

Aw this is great (:

No bc this book made me want to scream cry and throw up

you at the end was me half hour ago and I am still not over it

Hey if I were to think of how sylvi looks I'd say like you. I picture her looking like you 😅

Welcome to the club! I can’t get over this book and been randomly crying when thinking about it. 🥲🤝🏾

I had to DNF this bc it was so slow and boring. I feel like if you have to wait till chapter 21 for the book to get good.. its not a good book

they made a second book called if only i had told her its finn pov. you should def read it. its sadder than this tho.

if this book was written by colleen hoover people would say its toxic...

You should read, you’ve reached Sam ! 5⭐️s

You should read How to make friends with the dark!

i finished reading it last night and I was not okay with the ending why it had to be Finn 😢😢😢 and yes same at first I didn’t like autumn in the beginning of the book

Jamie is whole red flag hate him i can't believe autumn wasted all this time with Jamie like if she had could finny all this that she love him he wouldn't have die literally every show or movie the person never tells that other person how they feel but when they finally told the other person its too late i hate that😭

i seriouslu got a herat atttack and cried to death after reading that sh*t f**k it man

(Forget me not) is a great book and better then this smh who wants to be depressed and still have no happy ending smh.

I would love to say that you're going to be ok, but you're not. I knew that Finny was going to die from the very beginning before starting to read it. I had heard that it would make me cry. I would always judge people who balled their eyes out when reading this, I would judge people but now I get why. It is mentally torturing. I recently finished reading the second book and it's even worse. They deserved soo much more. It was even more sad because she was waiting for him. When she woke up from the footsteps she thought it was Finny but then she found out that he had died. 😭😭😭😭😭😭whyyyyyyyy

I know this is off topic but that movie she was watching towards the beginning I watched literally last night 😅

Hey somebody please help, I saw that one girl video who mentioned two books which was interconnected or I don't know the exact word for it but you can read either of two first and then other one after as there is no sequence but by reading one at first and second after but if you do vice-versa , it would change the end completely. someone please tell me the name of that two books please (color was something like blue and pink I'm not sure tho)

11:14 ❤ i just finished the book today

Is there a lot of spice?

Sophomore year and she’s still wearing a Tiara 😂

I had so much expectations wid this one cz where ever i watch or see,I see about this book,I see everyone is saying its sooo emotional and they are crying so much after reading,and finally I read it! It was sooooooooooooo much streched from Autumn 's childhood days to her graduation day like soooo boring for me cz I believe May b i m a bit older i m 29 years old and I dnt like teenage shit this much soooooooo sooo sooo I mean almost half of the book is about all the crap and if we expect plzzzz for god sake tell something to each other Autumn and Finny plz u have known each other for like forever and can't jst express your feelings! What kind of stupidity is that and finally finally there are olny last 50 pages cz of that I enjoyed the book!!! And ya I didn't cry sorry but I kinda knew something bads gonna happen so if she had like not streched the story too much,i would have liked it!😊😊

no because i read this yesterady morning finished it faster than ive ever read a book in my life and- tell me why i started to read and i was in complete denial. i legit thought "oh finny probably gets arrested for killing sylvie or smth" NO. AND TELL MY WHY I BOUGHT THIS BOOK THINKING IT WAS A ROMCOM. the whole time i thought it was gonna be a funny cute childhood best friends book so the ending got me sdfhkjg the worse part was that i read the ending while still at the begingin of the book cuz i hate myself apperantly. so like reading the book and knowing he was gonna die a few chapters in, i was crying every time he came on bc i KNEW he was gonna die

Try reading A Little Life

it was so bad