realizations about sm & a talk about how life's been currently 

Soo proud of you and all that you still have ahead yeaa🎉 love you!!

This mental health issue can be resolved by finding out the root cause of it. What is the root cause? Think deeply on it. Don't take life too seriously. And try to slow down your thoughts. I'm extremely sorry you've reached this stage. This happens to alot of people. Use your inner strength and peace to deal with life and the world. Maintain inner peace. Don't be forced to do something. Don't let anyone force you to do things you find overwhelming. You need a stress free life.