"If the Book''s not falling apart then the addict might be." Those are some POWERFUL words. We do recover (even after relapse) ❤5/18/18❤ It works if you work it! One day at a time! Just for today!
Lindsey Albright sane here. This isolation in quarantine is really getting to me. I just looked up documentaries on drugs on RU-vid and I am so triggered by seeing all the needle use on them so I’m trying to find more recovery centered videos now...
I am coming back into the rooms. Back to my sponsor, back the rooms. I can't physically do 90 in 90. These are helping me so much!! I need y'all so much!
I had a sponsor tell me after I relapsed and found the rooms again, he said " Tell me.... is it getting any better out there?" That was 14 years ago. And it stuck with me, everyday.
@rochellechambers9691 Oh my goodness I am so sorry to hear that your sponsor did that to you 😢 I hope you're doing much better today then you were at the time that your sponsor fired you for your first time relapsing!
Good morning i am an Addict and I have 6 months and 25 days being clean and sober and so very happy to be here and able to share my story with you all 😊 Thank you Sean E for sharing with all of us, it really hit home for me and you're so inspiring 😊
Who came here for a meeting besides me? I’m scared but my higher power has my back and my front no need to fear. Just sharing for strength. We will get through this together.
Dude you really spoke to my heart. I'm coming back after 10 months clean over one stupid choice and you opened a gate in my soul that I one day will have ability to not care what people think but to just remember my clean time is prime. Thank you dude. The future looks bright I have to remember the love people have in NA and why I'm here.
Hi I am Kathy and I am a addict with 4 days clean..powerful message on recovery n relapse..I am soo grateful to be back..due to this Coronavirus mtgs have basically shut down in my town..but speakers are helpful..my sponsor..my network.n most of all my Higher Power is keeping me connected..
Addict named Braden here- I relapsed in 2015 after a beautiful 3 years and 11 months in the fellowship. I won't say I picked up right where I left off, but I sure as hell ended up in the same place. Skid row is in the mind, my friends. It took me 3 weeks to get them, but today I have 4 days clean IN A ROW and I'm so happy to be back home. Thanks for sharing Sean! Love you guys.
I am an addict. I am turning 27, I started drinking and smoking pot regularly at 13, by 16 I was physically addicted to Roxy 30s, by 18 i was shooting heroin, by 19 I was shooting basically anything i could get my hands on. I have been arrested and forced to get clean for a couple months here and there, once I stayed clean for about 7 months. But other than that, I haven't stopped. I have destroyed my life, i have destroyed my kids lives and I'm fed up with myself. I want to change and I don't know how. I pray for strength and willpower, I want to change, I need to change. I'm at a crossroads, if I don't change, my life will be this forever, I've gotta do it now.
Hey Amanda. I know how you feel. Learning the programme is going to blow ur mind. which is achieved by doing the steps with a role model sponsor who loves literature. And has done the steps. And lives them.
My names patrick and I completed 10 months of rehab, have been out of rehab for 3 months and have relapsed, I’m day 2 of being sober And ready to get my clean sober life back
I got kicked out of rehab in Ft Lauderdale (Faith Farm) in 2014 and had to find my way home back to Gainesville. It was a nightmare and I'm still not clean but I have 2 days and I'm ready to try again.
All i want is to be free from my addiction. I feel so alone, I mentally fight temptation every day and night. Sometimes I succeed for that day, and sometimes I fail again. I want to be restored. Anyone who read this, I could use some inspiration. I have a great responsibility, which I'm afraid to share, for I don't want to lose it. I love my son.
I am 9 days "clean" after 14 years. I am on maintainance. I look forward to the day I don't have a desire to use. Stumble into an NA meeting. Talk to someone after it. Hear the message of NA: Any addict can lose the desire to use. I don't know about you but I didn't want to live that life anymore and I believe them about losing the desire.
It’s a dogs life and I too have let the lion out of the cage after doing well but was on a Maintenance which I know now is legal over the counter using. Day 5 better understanding of powerlessness and manageability smashes me every time. Il keep coming back don’t give up wish all well
Thank you for sharing I really needed to hear this after relapsing and what you shared has just helped me to get into meetings starting today and reach out to my substance abuse counselor to hopefully sponsor me because I can’t do this alone and I learned this the hard way… isolation is in fact so dangerous and I need a space to release the good and bad that comes with sharing and working the program so that I can start to get my soul back as well as my children and learn to live life clean again.. thank you so much for sharing🙏🏾
Made me ugly cry. Got me to see I've been in denial about complacency in my recovery. Thank you so much. Very well could have just saved another life. Thank you
I got 6 months clean... then used thinking I dont need the fellowship and I'm honest in saying I do need the fellowship and na.. I'm 3 days clean and back in the rooms.. thank you for this share
I needed this it's before I go into work . And that's all I been doing so much. It's always good to make a time for this if I can't get to a meeting . It's important to stay connected
Im 13 days clean and am in a mental hell that never ends. I have a sponsor, I have online meetings but not one moment of peace in my mind. I know I can't change what's going on with me and what's going on in the world but I need a real meeting so bad.
@@nicholashamilton4197 I am listening and reading the comments. Just want you to know I feel you, and I pray for you. Hopefully you are doing better day by day.
I had no idea RU-vid had Narcotics Anonymous speaking recordings. Awesome! Since they've shut down the meetings due to the current Coronavirus pandemic, this, along with online meetings helps.
I'm glad it's helping you. I'm 13 days clean and my head is so f'd up. I have a sponsor, a psychiatrist but I'm spending every waking hour in a nightmare. No peace, so uncomfortable I can't even laugh or find pleasure in anything. The only time I get any relief at all is while I sleep then I wake up and still feel miserable. This isn't the first time I've been here but this is an all-time bottom. Embarrassing. I just want to have one day of feeling ok, Im not even trying to have a great day just an ok day. I hope things are going good for you.
Nicholas Hamilton ZOOM has plenty of NA meetings online, Nicholas. First go directly to Narcotics Anonymous meetings on line. You'll see the VIRTUAL NA ONLINE MEETINGS LOGO. That'll direct you to the meetings they have on either ZOOM or the bluejeans.com website, if you prefer that. Good luck!
i got 7 yrs clean time and relapsed. I used almost 5 yrs and last 2 of them i was thinking coming back to na. But i was too shamed so it took long time before i find courage to stop using and come back. Now i got 60 days clean time and im thankful im still alive!
We hear the voice within our minds before we use and we drown it out.We choose to use regardless of how painfully we know the consequences will be.This video speaks a lot of truth we all go through.I will one day be a sponsor and be of service.
ive been free from addicition for a year and 4 months and im still in recovery, i cant wait until the qaurentine ends so i can go back to NA. reaching that 1 year milestone isnt easy and ive been down that road, recently i found that im not superman, i dont have super will powers to fight off temptations to use. so i picked up the NA book and it helped alot. so if your struggling with addiction whether it is today or your sober 3 days and are fighting to stay clean (which must be really difficult now because of this quarentine) just know we all face that same temptation whether 1 day sober or 1 year sober, having that under your belt helps alot though so i encourage anyone working on there recovery, your not alone, amd your goals and reasons for getting sober are yours and your higher powers motivation forever, so focus on each day! much love
I really enjoyed listening to Sean's message. I'm on day 2 on quitting K2 / spice. This is like the third time I've tried quitting. But what's different about this time I'm actually going to an intense outpatient program and I'm also going to meetings. Pray for me please!
Hi! I'm an addict named Dameaus. I so needed to get back into hearing this message. I just got today clean and I want it to stick this time. Thank you n.a
I never done drugs or never drunk heavy alcohol in my life. I am taking a course so this was part of my assignment to watch this clip. But watching this clip and reading some of your comments. My advise would be to watch videos on cooking and make hobbies for yourselves to keep you busy or think of inventing something that you are all good at. Keep your spirits high and believe in yourself. Don't let your minds play your bodies or wise versa. It's only a matter of time. Be winners.
Thank you so much for this , Just what I wanted to hear We can do this with the work of the 12 steps relapsing over again coming back from 4 years LETS DO THIS
So i just got out of treatment love me some Nexus, in Dallas, tx thankyou everybody that works there and all my sisters in recovery love yall miss yall!! sobriety is fucking awesome!!!!! Sober life loving it!!!!
Relapse is a part of my recovery story and I am always isolating myself and it’s hard with the pandemic. I have using thoughts and am often around using people but they are not addicts. I except that l can’t use no matter what and that relapse is not a Requirement but it is possible if l don’t do the work.
I Don't listen to speaker tapes that often, and with the Coronavirus closing all the meetings , it's nice to hear someone's message. I've about 5 years clean, since I was 21. My brother and I were heroin addicts, and I was lucky to have gotten clean so young. My brother went through the jails, institutions, and ulitmately his death from heroin about a year ago. We are the lucky ones.
Just relapsed today. Literally taking the first hit and my wife walks in. The look on her face and me realizing how i f’d up again. I hadn’t have suicidal thoughts for months, but suicide thoughts are coming back strong. Just shaking (of shame and guilt) and just keep listening to NA tapes. Death is better than using again.
I was just over 18 months in recovery up until November and have been in conflict since. then I listen to this share tonight and the realisation that I’m heading for big trouble if I don’t get stuck back in to this stuff right away so I am trying to practice humility over my ego right now. 🙏
I had 15 months and just relapsed...the stove is still hot. Today 2 days clean...moving forward with a deeper understanding and acceptance of my powerlessness...NA is my only way!
Hi shaun, im cathy in England 2022, ive listened to your story now for the 3rd time and i fukin thankyou mate coz i felapsed after 4and a half years and i too am shamed to go back, but i keep listening to you and your strength is hitting me hard. I must get back to meetings and put my pixy pioe down. Thanks again so much. Hope you are doing well today. X
I relapsed on Friday Sept 9th after 3.5 years clean. I was apparently having nightmares last night. I don’t recall but my partner was telling me it was like I was possessed. This all stopped when I got clean. Now it’s back. I have been sober for 15 hours now
Quarantine has obviously made getting to meetings impossible right now. I have 9 months clean now and I need a meeting. I had never thought about YouTubing NA and tonight I really felt like I needed to hear something so I searched and I’m so happy I did. This is great. Thank you.
I've been 2 month and a couple weeks clean and I stopped going to meetings cuz I got s full time job but I need to hit a meeting tmr for sure thanks for this
Get to a meeting. I got 6 months clean then I went out and got a job, a car and a shit ton of responsibility that I wasnt ready for. That was 10 years ago and I have 5 days clean.I had to work when I wasnt able to and needed to get help, but couldn't because of financial responsibility. Get the steps and the tools before you get the life.
That's just how it is. My advice is get some hobbies. My recovery isn't as exciting as others because I'm done with it all. It's an achievement when you get a year and what not when you walk the line. There's no room for relapse. Ever, no exceptions. So I sit here almost a year sober and it's just no big deal as far as celebration. I'm not into the community in of recovery anymore. Where I live there's a room but they have to state, "no violence or threats" during the readings. I'm not dealing with that shit. I'm capable of some really twisted things so I avoid those situations. I'll work some steps at one year. I figure if I can't even get one year through dedication then there's no need to build another foundation, on top of this foundation. No support system, no need for complaining, no excuses, no room for failure. That's my base foundation. Sometimes I think of drugs but by the end of the day I enjoy my natural strength. Instead of the augmented strength I gain through various drugs. I've done them all except shrooms and ectasy. I'd rather be good at things I enjoy instead of doing drugs anymore. I enjoy my Xbox and being able to remember what I've done in a game, building friends through RU-vid and Xbox is definitely better than Facebook and all the mainstream stuff imo. I'm a freak but at least I'm a sober freak. Hentai, video games, martial arts, studying, original thoughts and writing short stories is a hell of alot better than the false reality I build for myself in addiction. Still a false reality I have for myself but at least it's tangable and mine. In addiction nothing belongs to you. You sign away everything.
It's great listening to these n.a speakers I've been torturing myself with drug abuse for long time now . I am surrendering an going to try with the help of my higher power to commit to an n.a program in my life an get a life worth living back . With the help of God
So I have been in prison for the last 2 1/2 years I am now at Hollywood work release with 4 months left and there is no na meetings available for us I am extremely scared I feel stronger than ever but we all know how easy our demons can grab us and takes us so quickly this meetings are amazing big help
