rejected from my dream college, acne tips + food binge | Glow up Diaries Episode 3 

★ WATCH ALL OF THE GLOW UP DIARIES: bit.ly/37O0bX6 ABOUT: This is a 6 year docu-series of my coming of age story. I originally thought I would end this series after a few months but ugly truths unraveled as I went further into my glow up journey. I began recording the glow up diaries at 17 years old and finished when I turned 22 years old.

"I wanna reach out for help but idk who to ask" I feel this.

I tried the five second thing once... I fell back asleep at three

This series is low-key changing my life

Best accidental click of my life. Got rejected by my dream college as well and during the prep period, I stress ate a lot and it resulted in a very unhealthy weight. Shit treated myself the whole September, and realized that this wasn't the way to live. Starting October, I'm trying for a healthier lifestyle for better physical and mental health. These series are super inspiring. Keep the good work up.

There’s a reason you weren’t accepted, You have something better waiting for you in your future and it’s your job to find that out, trust me just wait and be patient and you’ll be thankful you weren’t accepted :)

I absolutely love this series, especially the "health journal" segments! Have you ever thought about making them available to download or maybe even to eventually combine them all in a book? I would certainly buy it and I feel like it'd be really helpful for a lot of your viewers!

This reminded me of when I suffered from anorexia. When I would binge and then have full on mental breakdowns. One of the worst times of my life.

she’s gonna be a great mom

You should be a motivational speaker

IT'S OFFICIAL SHANE DAWSON AND ALIVIA D'ANDREA HAVE THE BEST SERIES OF THE WORLD

Girl, when you started crying I did too. I struggle with hormonal acne, with accepting my weight and ... also didn't get accepted into university! ( Had to rewrite my Life Science and Maths exams so I could get in but now I don't even know what I want go study) Thanks to your videos, I don't feel alone. There are people that have gone through what I go through and maybe worse. WE LOVE YOU, GIRL!

Every week I get so excited for this xx

Ayyyy to all y'all who may be still waiting for acceptance letters or may even have gotten rejected. I got rejected from my dream university last year. It was the only one I applied to. Why? Well, since literally generations of my family went there, my grades and credits were way above the requirements. Everyone told me, including my principal talked to me as if I already got accepted. But I'm from South Africa, and due to protests and riots of uni fees, a lot more studente applied to my uni since we barely experienced those, and it looks like basically every dream uni. (surrounded by wine farms, boutiques etc.) Cried for weeks, which led to me spending my 2017 stuck at home, trying to keep myself busy but to only fall into a deeper depression, especially since all my friends got it and I felt like the rejected one of the group. Shit happened too in that year (got attacked by dogs, lost my dog and two cats, got evicted from our home due to fucked up reasons etc) So, I applied for this year, a totally different course, and got it! It's not only a course that's my passion, but this year was one of the best of my life! I've met people who I would take a bullet for and vice versa, in 2017 my mom realized that my depression was a real thing and I got this amazing therapist who helped me so much, so now in 2018 I have amazing coping skills, medications that help me be who I know I was meant to be. I even buckled down and got my lisence and just... I actually felt worthy enough to try and lead that life one only reads or dreams about. And I wouldn't have done a single thing differently. So, yeah - I know, it sucks, it's sucks so *fucking* much being rejected, but this is your journey. You are suppose to get this obstacle now, just breathe and take it day for day, step for step and you will get through this. And if you need someone to just rant to, hit me up girl/boy/alien/etc. 😌

Why is it that everytime I see you crying I cry, everytime you smile I smile? The music just made me sadder :(

this video should be trending on all over the world tbh

My heart broke for you. You are such a strong person.

dang your words are so powerful alivia. you are such an inspirational girl💜✨

Alivia, I got rejected too and for the past few days, I've been feeling quite useless, stupid and angry with myself for not foreseeing something that wasn't going to work out and for wasting so much time and money into it. Thank you for your words, they gave me the hope I needed and the motivation to keep going. Lots of love, God bless you!

i bet that the school she got rejected to wants her now after this series-

4:56 i mean shes not wrong hope is literally sunshine

i honestly love this girl.

I tried the 5 second thing I got to 5 And kept counting Fell asleep again at number 7

I love your channel it’s such a breath of fresh air and a raw and real look into being human! Thank you for sharing your truth and your story ♥️

Alivia just make sure when you drink your apple cider drink it with a straw as it damages tooth enamel

I was eating ALOT of junkfood while watching it and towards the end i threw it all away. You motivate me so much

Hi Alivia, this is the first video I'm watching. The minute you said you got rejected, out of nowhere I started crying. I paused the video, and I am still crying. Idk why! I think I do know... But... Idk. When you gave that msg of fighting and working, it... Idk... I appreciate it, I needed this! Much love, God bless!

I feel that on so many levels. I actually cried when you binged .

I really appreciate that she’s so real. It’s a hard struggle, and it makes me feel better that I’m not the only one messing up

I'm planning on doing the same thing, and I've been failing so bad...until i seen this series, I know I'm late but you are such a inspiring person

I'm so happy I found this :) ....at the same time I'm sad I didn't find it earlier!!!

I'm so happy this is out!!!

When i started following you, I tought you were the perfect human. But now I see that "dont judge a book by its cover". I love seeing that I'm not the only one with this type of problems. You give me motivation. THANK YOU!

I relate so much to this. Last year, I also got rejected by my dream university and I ended an "almost" relationship with my crush. I felt so down like I wasn't enough. Not pretty enough to have a boyfriend and also not smart enough to be accepted in the uni. So that summer, I gave myself time to grieve. After one week of binge eating and feeling pathetic, I decided to start my glow up journey. There I realized that the reason why I fail in losing weight is because I'm not doing it for myself but for other people. RuPaul's Drag Race really helped me be confident and comfortable in my own skin. I also watched a lot of self-improvement or self-love videos on RU-vid. At the same time I worked really hard to write a reconsideration letter. I did a lot of self-reflection and got into Law of Attraction. Rewatching this now feels so great because things do work out in the end as long as you don't give up. I got in after a month of being waitlisted, I got a call from the uni that I need to pass the requirements for the enrolment and that I don't need the interview. I still have a long way to go in this journey so thank you, Alivia for sharing your experience. It helped me a lot and watching your vdeos everyday reminds me to keep track of my goals.

The binge eating part made me cry... I have an eating disorder called binge eating disorder and I felt your distress. I love this serie, it makes me believe there's hope

Is this the best part of my week? Most definitely.

I literally cried watching this even though I’ve watched it before because i have never related to something more then not being able to lose weight

I´m on day 2 of my new healthy life. Almost a year ago I fell down in a cave and started to eat whenever I was bored, so I began to gain weight. I´ve tried sooo many times this year but i always gave up after a week because I did not see any result. Now I´m starting over and this time, because off you´re videos I know that it´s hard and you can´t see results in a few days. I´m only on day two and but I already feel so much better and I´m finally starting to study for school. Thank you for inspiring me!

Rejection is sudden pain but don't reject yourself from yourself. Help yourself. Be bright. Be happy.

2:59 YOUR SHIRT IS GORGEOUS!!! ❤️❤️❤️

Ah alivia ilysm u have helped me change my life for the better so thank you you are an inspiration to all 💕

This video literally made get out of bed right after i finished watching. You're powerful girl

this channel literally pulled me out of depression

ur before body is my goal!!! you really motivate me and i will try my best to start my journey again :)

Honey I’m so sorry you have to go through all this suffering at such a young age. I know it’s tough right now but you will soon realize that you always were the woman you should’ve been proud of all along. You are already that woman.

I just realized some days are beautiful for other while they can be depressed and filled with disappointment. March 5th was my birthday a beautiful blessed day, but Alivia made a mistake, but continues to work hard and got back up.

The Chick-fil-a you have to ur sister was honestly (and I am not kidding AT ALL) the most nicest thing I’ve ever seen a sister do! I hope I can be just as good! Btw I love your videos! You constantly inspire me everyday! Thank u!💜💜

I didn't know the countdown thing was an actual thing! I get up by counting down from 3 and I though it was just me

You have inspired me for the the better I have my own journal now , I have been excersizing, and even have become vegan ...I feel a brighter journey ahead ... thank you so much 🖤 I believe in you and hope for the best for the both of us and for whoever take this opportunity to change for the better ❄️

Its okay that you ate the cookie. Self love journey is really tough and i love that you were trying so hard. YOU TAUGHT ME TO FORGIVE YOURSELF I LOVE YOU

5:47 "i think it's like day 6" me: oh, I love day6! ok imma shut up already, bye

When she said she will never lose weight and her face expression made me cry and I feel sympathy for her

You are actually so inspirational. I’m also trying to lose weight. I’ve always had excess weight on my thighs and I get really self conscious about it. I hate getting weighed for competitions because i know that I’ll always be in the heavyweight division for my age. ( I am really tall as well for my age tho ) . I’m extremely active which is why I’m always shocked at how big my legs are. However I’ve recently come to terms with the fact that exercise isn’t everything. I need to start watching my diet too. You’ve really inspired me to try harder and you are the exact definition of the phrase never give up. It’s extremely hard to make change but you are so amazing at trying and trying until you achieve your goal. I’ll always continue to watch your videos and support you because you really and someone I inspire to be like

my heart actually melts during this. The fact that she is so young but represents such a powerful message really inspires me xx

ah i need more! PLEASE POST PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE

she's proof that we glo differently when we love ourselves more

Amazing series 🧸🎻 I'm watching it for the 2nd time :))

When I saw “rejected from my dream college” I lost because I’m there

okay nobody gonna say how sweet her voice is

I'm so thankful you're younger than me and you have the resources, motivation, and mentors that I had tho it took me 2-2.5 yrs!!! (understated, that in hours is more accurate) when I hit rock bottom (20-22) to learn, unlearn, and relearn things that helped me to get back up fully. I'm not the type who would document my life digitally but I'm glad you did---for yourself and for others' growth. Thanks for coming through! 😊

All these videos are making me cry right now. My life style and relationship with food is awful. Most of my calorie intake is from crap food and beer. I'm skinny but that's just genes, I feel like crap most days and I'm a mother to a 4 year old child who also happens to have autism and is very very hyper. I don't have the strength or energy to keep up with him or the household most days. My acne as an adult has gotten increasingly worse which all of this has decreased my self-esteem to almost zero. My boyfriend has been attempting to encourage a healthier life style and also leads a life revolving around healthy food and excersise. These videos are really pushing me to take him up on his offer to work out with me and help me make better decisions with what I put inside my body. And also to do it for myself and find that will power within myself. Thank you!

This year I feel so bad emotionally, I skip the school a lot, with my ex, with a friend or alone. Now I think If things don't get better I will repeat the year and the only think I do is eat and cry. Your videos make me think a lot about the change, about be healthy and take care of myself this time. Maybe in the end of the year but I wish I can get it. I love you so much for this, I really pray for all will be better for all of us.

I love you so much for making this, it has really kept me going on my own journey! the thing I love about you and your channel is that your human, you don't hide all the hard struggles and you don't look like a supermodel, you look like me but healthier and happier :)

I love this series. It empowered me to get out of my depression and to become more active in my life by eating healthier, and exercising. Also to find purpose in living. Life is a beautiful thing and you make me realize to make the most out of it. And i want to thank you a lot. I wish you the best for your glow up journey😊♥️

This series is making me question my life thus far, and I only started watching yesterday. Today is MY “day 1”, I don’t want to lose weight, just be more healthy for me. Thank you for being so real and vulnerable. P.S the tips are SUPER helpful! I especially like the 5 second count down one. ❤️

Omg in the beginning I wanted to give her a big hug! Her motivation is amazing though she really is lowkey motivating me

How I avoid binging is just to not have unhealthy junk food at all. The only thing I have to binge on are kale chips so...

Girl, I am in love with your style and your videos. These diaries are better than Netflix. Seriously. Chapeau.

I like how she shows the reality og it and how the struggle is

She's gotta be one of the most amazing inspirational RU-vidrs there is. It doesn't make sense how she only has 2.17M followers!!

I significantly like people who do not give up just like you.YOU ARE MY INSPIRATION FR!

GIRL U ARE A QUEEN you look pretty the way you are. KEEP TRYING! Ur a rock star. We are all here to support you.

it makes me sad to see you cry and give up I know we all have these moments when life just wants to just get back at you for somthing you did wrong thats why we change its the hardest thing to pass but if you start doing these right things life wont get back at you and we turn strong like alivia thanks for geting us going and helping just like we help you thanks 💖

It's like i don't know how many times i watched this already but i rn I'm still crying cuz of watching this. Tysm for making this video olivia

Ok I binge a lot I’ve been doing exercise and haven’t seen any progress and I couldn’t fit into this crop top and I felt disgusted at myself but I’m pushing really hard pls help

My only motivation right now is you, every time I want to sleep till 7:30 or when I don’t feel like taking my dog for a jog that day I just say “what would OLIVIA do” and I push myself to do better :)) you are my favorite RU-vidr rn. Thank you so much

This is so beautiful! Its like ..Youre so real and you talk about and face problems other youtubers dont talk about.

Hi there. When will be the next episode

I love how Alivia shows the truth and not just what's best.

Step 1: Watch a documentary. (This is me watching a documentary)

1:29 Am I the only one who lowkey thinks that the way she says it, is so cute?

Oh my God you are so so so good at this. I thoroughly enjoyed your editing. It is so effortless yet impactful. Great job!!

Years of hard work not knowing that your plan is sooo much better❤❤❤

Honestly I am so grateful that she filmed it❣️

This has changed my life and also made me rethink my life decisions. Super inspirational video.

I felt TERRIBLE today, so I decided to skip school. All I did today was lay in bed and eat... it's now 5 pm and I'm watching this, I'm about to get into the shower to feel better. Thank you ALOT!

It’s 12 am right now and I suddenly want to be healthy

Thank you for being vulnerable.

youtuber of the year award goes to....

Ok, so I love the fact that she is showing her struggles in this series...but come on! please don't cry😭😭😭

Alivia: No one is going to force you to the morning jog dog: Am I a joke to you?

literally the best series that exists on yt rn .... pls don’t ever stop doing them . you show such a real side of human being . I struggle with similar problems that you have . I hope one day I will get to where you are rn . One more time : big thank you for filming those kind of videos 😫❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️😭

Please keep going omg this is changing my life

Am I the only desperate one? Waiting patiently for your videos?

she went running at 7 a.m? My school starts at 7 a.m

I was a 4.3 GPA student and had a 1440 SAT and I was rejected by over 80% of the colleges I applied to. Fun fact: I was rejected from Cal Poly SLU, but two classmates of mine who had B’s and C’s in school got in. ( I’m a straight A student ) Sometimes life isn’t fair but we work our way through it.

"In life, unlike chess, the game continues after checkmate." -Isaac Asimov Remember this next time you binge, sleep in, don't exercise, ... Losing the battle doesn't mean losing the war.

Make sure your weight loss journey doesn't turn into an eating disorder because that is what happened to me and I have just recovered x

Ur the most realistic RU-vidr I've come across. Unlike all the other fitness ppl I've watched, you film your challenges and weaknesses and it made me feel so much better to know I'm not the only one who binges and breaks down. Thanks

I appreciate you for posting these. I feel like when people post a glow up diary, it almost is like taking a bath and doing a face mask and that’s it. Thank you for taking your time and being vulnerable with your emotions to inspire not only your subscribers but also yourself. One day you are going to look back on this and be so proud of yourself for not giving up. Thank you.