Relapse/Flux - spoken word poem 

this really touched me, man. my brother also struggles with addiction and the past 8 years have been really difficult on our family; i can really relate to much of what you said in your poem. it is really beautiful how you were able to put all of those thoughts and feelings into words so eloquently. i hope things get better for you and your bro, man!

It couldn't have been easy writing that, but I imagine it was even harder reading it out loud. It was easy to see just how emotional and choked up it got you. I'd say it's also pretty brave of you sharing something so personal and that means so much to you on the internet like you did, but I hope it gets back to your brother and he can listen to your pain and honesty, because if that doesn't make some deep set part of him want to get sober and on the right track, I don't know what will. That was wonderfully written, Sky :)

I hope your brother gets sober and get better and I hope u see him again real soon. I will pray for him and for all of you.

Wow! this poem really touched me. Just like you, I know what it's like having a loved one struggling with addiction. It can be a scary ride sometimes. I hope all is well with you and your family and I hope your brother gets the help he needs.

Your brother, your family and you are added to my night time prayers... Wish you all the best of everything. Loads of love

The whole 8 minutes I was just sitting here with tears in my eyes. That was beautiful, your brother can be happy to have a brother like you.

I really felt this poem. I don't haver addiction in my family, but I'd love to have another brother like you. Much love and respect.

A most beautiful expression of your love for your troubled brother. Thanks for sharing with us viewers.

Oh sky I wish I could tell you everything, on how much I admired you from a far, how your charm makes me smile or that this made me really sad because I relate to this feeling oh so well, but I guess we are never alone.

There are almost no words for how beautiful this is. It's amazing to see you channel something so personal into something so incredible. Don't forget that we all support you, even if we just appear as letters on a screen.

Oh my God, that was so beautiful. Good luck to your brother.

Oh my gosh. I thought no one could capture the emotions of a struggling with a relationship with a brother like that. You are amazing, Sky.You are so brave. There are no words for how much I admire you.

You had me sobbing by the end of the video. It was quite courageous of you to spill your guts like you did and it was beautifully written. Prayers for your family, particularly your brother. May you get to see your brother sober forever and have a happy life together. You deserve as much. Xoxo Nathalie

This is so beautiful honestly. My eyes started to water half way through because it hit home. I don't have a sibling battling with an addiction but I am that sibling and honestly watching this and seeing how you as his brother just always wish to see the better in him made me rethink everything. Being the addict is so hard because you want to be better for others but that demons inside you holds you back and makes you want them more. This really opened my eyes up because I see my best friend as a younger sister. She always wants me to get better but I'm just always so narrow-minded I just didn't want to listen to anything she had to say. But this made me realize that maybe she just wants me to ignore the darkness in me and have me see the light. I'm crying typing this up god thank you so much for this video... it's shed a new light for me.

This is beautiful, well done for making it through so well and I hope your brother does too

I just spent minutes crying after hearing this, before I could write anything....I am in love with an H addict and I just wanted to take you into my arms and cry for a few hours. I am so touched by this, I have no words to express this. Thank you so much for this!!! Stay strong!

wow dude. this hit so close to home. this is powerful. wow. i've been struggling with similar things for the past couple years and this showed me what my family goes through. you're not alone.

goddamn I nearly cried. this is touching and eloquent and beautiful, Sky. as someone with an addiction I can appreciate the immense difficulty of recovery, and I'm telling you that it must mean the world to him that you continue to support him and be such a good brother. Much love for you, your brother, and your family

This was amazing to hear. It was beautifully crafted, and then spoken so passionately. I really don't sit for these things well, and I just literally couldn't draw my attention away for anything, the house could of been burning down and I wouldn't of even so much as batted an eye, until it was over. Good job, Sky. And thanks for sharing such an intimate story with us. I hope all will be/is well.

This was really deep. I just wanted to hug you all throughout this video. *hug* Stay strong, Sky!!

This was so beautiful. Sometimes I watch things like this and have no idea what to say or how to form words together and this is one of those times

This was beautiful, Skylar. My mom struggled with alcohol addiction when I was really young and about a year ago started with drugs again. I can't thank you enough for this.

This is so incredible, Sky. Sending my prayers and thoughts to you and your brother.

Damn Sky, it is beautiful. There were tears in my eyes at some point. I hope everything will get better

After 25 years of sobriety and thousands of meetings I'm sitting here crying my eyes out. Recovery works, but you've got to want it. It's not easy, but you've got to want it. Your brother can do it , but HE's got to WANT IT. You and yours and I can only watch and hope and pray. I will hope and pray.

Ur the best brother ever :) this is beautiful and so touching!

Sky, that was beautiful

"I stopped drinking right around the time my friends were all turning 21" deep asf

This is very beautiful. I am very sorry for what you are going through.

wow skylar. As for him and knowing every word you go through with your sibling who is 2 years older than you. he is lucky. my sister is lucky. forgiveness is the only way. I have a tattoo on my chest that says, "I never saw a wild thing sorry for itself"..the rest is...I never saw a wild thing sorry for itself, a bird will fall frozen dead from a bough without ever having felt sorry for itself." D.H. Lawrence an amazing writer and poet you NEED to read, and start by reading about who he is as a human and who he is as a writer. Anyway..I guess that was a weird comment. but its what I felt hearing this. Your grace and pureness is very refreshing. KEEP DOING EVERYTHING YOURE DOING AND MORE! and keep being CRAZY EXCITED about EVERYTHING :) Im starting T this month. Here we go :) I share your excitement right now too! LOVE.

This was perfect in each way possible

I hope your brother can get over this

That was so incredibly beautiful.

Stay strong, love you.

Powerful! Thanks for sharing!

Wow! This was powerful. A big cyber hug to you from me.

Beautiful Skylar...

thanks for sharing sky, many hugs

This should be put into a rap song or something if it weren't that personal, but very deep and beautifully done

Hope he gets back on his feet for both himself and you

This is deep. Keep it up bro

That was beautiful, tears

That was beautiful!

Beautiful, thanks for sharing :)

I love you and that was beautiful

gosh this is gorgeous

this is so good!

I want to hug you. Great job.

This really touched my heart and even though I don't know what this feels like because I'm still young but the future scares me and it can all change. but I hope that everything will be OK and that I wont have to go through the pain of some people. I will have my own obstacles and I will have to make it through, maybe not on my own. I hope every one will be OK and we will make it through the tough times together. XxX

beautiful

That was beautiful:')

Amazing...

that was amazing

I wish I had the lyrics so I could read this over and over holy fuck

this was soo hard to listen to, [nothing to do with your writing skills] i kept listening, so ready to, turn it off, i needed to hear it, i don't know why, or i do not want to know why, you were so honest, and still full of love, well mate i wish you the best, till next time. x

just W O W... really touching.. hope you can see eachother again soon

This is amazing.... D:

This is really beautiful Sky. Your Brother and I love you so much. This video is officially Fiance approved... Please txt me sometime I would love to answer any questions you may have.

WE HAVE THE SAME DAMN LIFE WTF

This is so beautiful honestly. My eyes started to water half way through because it hit home. I don't have a sibling battling with an addiction but I am that sibling and honestly watching this and seeing how you as his brother just always wish to see the better in him made me rethink everything. Being the addict is so hard because you want to be better for others but that demons inside you holds you back and makes you want them more. This really opened my eyes up because I see my best friend as a younger sister. She always wants me to get better but I'm just always so narrow-minded I just didn't want to listen to anything she had to say. But this made me realize that maybe she just wants me to ignore the darkness in me and have me see the light. I'm crying typing this up god thank you so much for this video... it's shed a new light for me.