Ren - Su!cIde Reaction 

This one always makes me want to be able to give ren a big hug 🥺💜

Your insights, tenderness and intelligence are so appreciated in these reactions. You are a great match for Ren’s art.

First thing I am going to say is, you did a great reaction to this song, Guy. 🙏❤️ Some of my thoughts about this song are as follows. The first part is see as Ren describing his inner struggle with thoughts of ending it, how he feels like he does not fit in, how he struggle with even the most basic things in life (due to his sickness but also because he is different from the norm) and how he is fighting to hold on to hope and not give in to the temptation to end it. ("Dig deep when the feeling hits ya") That line always stand out to me a little extra. That he keeps going back to how some people see him "some say trubble, some say sadistic" "narsassistic kid with a split lip" makes me thing he must have felt so misunderstood. Deep down he is feels lonely and as a outsider. In The second part of the song he is trying to put in words his experiances when Joe died and his guilt that is constant for him, like you also mentioned. He is working through some of his deepest fears and sorrows and he is facing them in this song. One big step on his way to processing this loss. Its Ren being as raw with his feelings and thoughts about this loss as he can be. He show his strength in being so open and hide nothing from us. ❤ Just some of my thoughts this song gives me.

I like your reaction, very thoughtful, intelligent and insightful. I appreciate you sharing your thougths around this song. 🥰

Fibonacci sequences show up in nature and give order to the chaos of that system, and his use of double Dutch is the same as yours. So he is seeing the world split between strict order and complete nonsense. He wrote the first part of this song about his own thoughts of ending it (but he never made that decision in part because of Joe). During an interview with Knox Hill, he spoke about Joe for the first time in years. This song was already in final production, but Ren felt he needed to add something about Joe to complete the song, so he wrote the last part and filmed himself playing it to send off to get it added to the video. That's why the second part is so different. A few weeks/months later, he used that section as the opening to For Joe (which he also used his first tribute to Joe - "Freckled Angels" as the end of For Joe).

I know this was not an easy one to react to, especially with a camera on you. 😢 I think he said in an interview that his heavy breath at the end signifies how he was out of breath when reached the bridge only to find that he was tool late. When he says “My skin felt counterfeit, silicone, rubber…” It makes me think of numbness caused by nerve damage, when Lyme’s disease ravaged his body unchecked for years.. Thanks for showcasing this song. It is really an incredible piece of art… 💔❤️‍🩹❤️

I cried again... Thank you for showing us your own emotions. I think you are filled with thoughtfulness which shows through all of your reactions. This incredible song is beautiful, haunting, and gut-wrenching. Your response to it and your witnessing of Ren's still raw emotions was perfect 💜

The first verses are about Ren's own struggle with his illness, and how he felt like giving up sometimes. The last, spoken part is about his friend Joe

What a beautiful reaction to this powerful song! Thanks for this 💜💜

What you said around 9.15 about his strength so true Thank you for your deep thoughts on this track It all adds to the impact this conversation needs to have in our world

It’s a gut punch. It hurts so much to lose someone you love and where if only you could have run faster, or seen the warning sign you might have saved them. The beauty of showing this grief in such a raw way here is that is leaves you in no doubt about the impact of Suic!de on those around you - knowing the pain of Joe’s loss helped keep Ren from going ahead with it. And he’s sharing that very personal lesson with the world.

You’re not human if this doesn’t get you in the feels, especially for so many of us that have experienced Trauma from similar situations! In spite of the pain, I’m incredibly grateful that Ren has found a way to cope through his beautiful artistic expressions🙌🏻

‘It’s a sorry chorus’ What a beautiful description. That instantly resonated with me. Thank you for your reactions, I appreciate your insights and heart. Much love from the UK. 😊xxx

This one always gets to me.

The internet cried the night this dropped 😢 🇬🇧

First? Oh...props to me 😂 Here for another great one!! Goodnight & an amazing weekend ahead Guy 😊

This one is a hard listen, but there is a lesson for us all in this, we are living through crazy times so take the time to reach out to those we care about and make sure they are managing, great reaction as always, stay strong Brother.

Fibonacci sequence as my favorite band. TOOL sings about is a pattern that creates a spiral a specific pattern of numbers that can be proven.. double Dutch has no specific pattern and is random. Man that ending is so rough. I’d probably seen this 20 times. I cannot make it through that part without getting choked up. Unfortunately similarly I lost my two best friends to suicide so it’s a shitty place to be and it’s hard not to blame yourself even though deep down, there’s nothing you really could’ve done..

You gotta do the live version it’s incredible and Genesis live is my favorite Ren video. Seriously, though if you think this one, give Joe respect you have to watch the live one playing keyboard in the background I don’t know where it is maybe like Australia backdrop is unreal.! Are you really a therapist? Your breakdowns are so deep and on point. He couldn’t get over his sickness until he found the right doctor, but he said the first step was acceptance instead of being mad at the world why me he had to accept. This is the hand I was dealt, and I have to make the best of it.. and I’m sure that you know this part but after a year he told his mother if there was no cure the following year, then he wouldn’t be around after that, apologized, but when he saw the impact that Joes suicide had on his family and mother he couldn’t go through with it. Suffered eight more years.. you hit the nail on the head when you said such a strong dude! Not many would be able to make it.

Hello Guy! I wish you spoke my language and we didn't need the translator's crutch, I wish you had been the companion who taught me to walk years ago among my worst moments years ago, many years ago... I found psychiatrists who buried me in pills; I found psychologists who They wanted to adapt their studies to my circumstances, and even...apply to me the fashionable therapy of which they were faithful lovers. Many, many years have passed and the problems have become chronic and increased; but the funny thing about this is that I am fine although I live with a sick mind and body. I celebrate life every day and take advantage of a gap of energy to sneak inside, even if it's just minutes. I want to tell you that you have made a truly intelligent analysis, at the same time empathetic and moving. That in my opinion defines a professional. Thank you for your work and of course I subscribe. More Ren please!!!!

I swear i keep trying to catch groot over there dancing lol

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Doing something bad to oneself is masochistic not sadistic