Rock, Paper, Scissors - a Short Film on Teenage Depression & Cutting 

“I just noticed your arms” Never, and I mean EVER comment on someone’s scars bro

idky everytime i relapse after a longish time i come to these short films

Self-harming is not a suicide attempt. Also every time I self harm, for some reason I always come running back to the short films about self harm😢

"I made a mistake" "I went too deep" "I won't do it again" all things I've said. Six months clean but it feels much longer considering how long it went on. It's still hard to believe it happened and that I'm here watching this and seeing a very familiar story.

I've struggled with this for 16 years. Started when I was 11. The worst part about it is that you get so good at hiding it. Because if someone finds out, then you get locked up. People treat you different so you pretend it doesn't exist. The happy smile, the laughter. "Insert normal person here." Talk to someone you trust and learn better coping skills. You don't want to be almost 30 and still doing this.

Im 182 days self-harm clean!! Go me!

The therapist is just so kind

My scars have all faded away, and I know it's stupid but I wish they hadn't. I want something to show for my pain. Something to remind me all I've survived. People say that cutting is temporary, that it doesn't make the pain go away forever. But it makes it go away a hell of a lot longer than my therapist does. I'm so stuck, and I don't know what to do. And I'm afraid because I met someone who made their skin their canvas and their blood their paint. And I was able to save them. We cut ourselves together once, in a bathroom stall. I couldn't sleep for months afterward. I had always told them that I used to cut, but I was better now. I was fixed. That was a lie. You can't fix something if you don't have all the pieces. But I wanted to save them because I knew I couldn't save myself. And I did. I held them close and I told them, "I love you. Never fucking forget that. I love you so much." I haven't seen a mark on their wrist since. I can't say the same about myself. But I'm never going to see them again, and I'm afraid of what will happen. If they'll be okay without me. They have no other close friends, and their parents are negligent and selfish. And I'm not okay. I'm not okay, I'm not fine, I'm not good. And I'm sick of saying I am. Because I'm losing the people that have kept me alive, and honestly I'm starting to think that means I would be better off not living. I'm so scared, but at least I haven't been alone. But soon I will be. Soon I will be alone again. I can't be alone again.

the fact that made me start sobbing was that whenever they say jess it sounds so much like jas

my parents act all su[ortive but when I relapse they be all like why do you do it and they threaten me with psychtric stays

This is why I’m never letting my parents know

I’m always scared to come out to someone and tell them abt what’s going on but then the therapist just sends me to hospitals

I have scars on my left arm. I have scars on my shoulder and wrist. I can’t help but run my fingers over them and think about cutting and feel the blood drip from my arm. I relapsed twice and in both times i still think about cutting. I hade multiple therapists that either helped my mom than me, that I couldn’t keep (due to financial reasons), or because they weren’t consistent with scheduling/ didn’t attend to meetings. I see my scars and wish for mor, but reading people’s stories of overcoming and surviving is the thing that actually motivates me to seek out for help. My brothers makes me feel comfortable more than my mom does. I struggle so much mentally that I wonder if my mom is even trying to understand what I’m going through or if she is just trying to convince me to follow her religion.

Wow... like literally i've started cutting when I was 13, now im 18 and still cutting...

I love how real the film feels and how respectful the therapidt was to ask if she could pray for her. Because not everyone is comfortable with it. This just feels so natural

18:09, when she tossed the scissors aside I started crying again.. because it reminded me of a point when someone else did the same for me, and I hope one day I’ll get to help someone along the way

13:03 this part just reminds me of me and my friend, I'll probably never see her again but I've always tried my hardest to be there for her, even while I was miles away. Know your never alone, there will always be someone there gor you even if you can't see it.

Anyone else been doing this for so long that their just tired and wanna quit but like u go back everytime because it's ur only hope other than doing it

I never thought I'd find a video that has captured my relationship with someone and how it reflects the chain of help. My friend has been guiding me through the past month or so and I know they had someone who filled the same role for them a while ago.

This is so amazing. Sad, but amazing. I suffer from depression and cutting too. This film helped me a lot, I was not at a good place, but now it`s better. Thank you for this.

love how the therapist prayed for her. spirituality definitely plays a role in our mental health

I been struggling with this since I was 12 this short film made me realise your never alone and there’s people that want to help you out there. I been questioning for a long time now what job I wanna have when im older. This made me know it. I wanna be a therapist for mental health.

I wish all therapists were like this. So sweet, and actually cares about your opinions. Mine were all just desperate to get rid of me.

Been suffering this pain bottled deep down for 12 years and I recently relapsed into cutting and punching my body again. Surprised that I didn't even die somehow. Just end up bleeding to cope with it. And of course having autism makes it more hard to open up and for me I just don't want my feelings hurt by the wrong people again. Had my 15 suicide attempts in the past but just to not have my 16th I end up hurting myself everytime I deal with that blackhole of pain again. Wheather if it's mma punching or cutting with blades or barbed wire. This is a good film thought to make me melt out and crying to where it feels like I'm bleeding out emotionally. Definitely a good crying spell for me to let loose. Very good film that saves me from thoughts of my 16th attempt.

Came to watch this because I was this close to relapsing right now

The ending hits hard, from both POVs

9 days clean I really want to relapse but I want to do this for a friend I really liked

I live vicariously through films such as these.

This is me....I've only had one relapse this year and I distract myself so I don't do it again.....now I'm counting down the days until next april when it will be a year free and am hoping I make it. It was march when I relapsed and idk when nor do I recall why. It's one of those things where you just feel it as an instinct to do it ya know

I just relapsed and this shows up as soon as I open RU-vid

this is one of the most underrated short films on this topic!!

i grew up in a toxic / poor family my dad would drink often and not care about his kids or wife’s feelings it would be the smallest things that made him mad him getting mad while drunk was the worst part i have so many childhood memories but not the good kinds their was this one time that my dad was mad at my mother and my mom was sitting on the couch my dad pushed her head down bending her and sat on her back nearly crushing her i remember hearing my siblings scream and cry in fear their was another time where my dad was beating my mom this may not have been the smartest idea but me and my siblings ran to the park i remember my sister saying “ stop crying or they will call cps” i wish they did call cps but after my sister said that my mom speeded to the park in her car and told us to get one or two of my siblings got in the car then my dad pulled up and said “ ashlynn if you get in that car i will hurt you “ or something like that i wonder what would have happened if i got in that car their was also another time where i was doing bad in school and he told me if i didn’t do good he would drill a hole in my head i remember being so scared and sobbing while he was telling me to stop crying or he would beat me there was another time where i spilled popcorn in my closet by accident and i was picking it up and my dad walked in for some reason and my closet was open so he saw it and got mad and started yelling and then my mom walked in and was defending me my dad wasn’t to happy about that and they started fighting i started crying and then this is stupid but my mom told me to stop crying and that this was my fault i couldn’t even feel safe at school as a child i was considered “ugly “ people bullied me so much i was convinced i was ugly but i didn’t care that much i was 9 but when i got to the age of 10 i started caring i used to cry myself to sleep nearly every night at the age of 11 i started cutting but with dull scissors i am currently 12 i now use blades and have a big cutting addiction my dad doesn’t beat me that much anymore but after all that trauma my anger turned into sadness I’ve cried so much and also held back so much tears i can hardly get any tears to fall my parents are so annoying i hate them so much if i get caught crying they will say “ stop crying whiney baby” and make a total fool out of me they also sexualize me any time they get i can’t wear anything without them saying i’m gonna get raped at this point they don’t even care about my feelings they only care about money being in their bank and their feelings this is what causes me stress all of these memories it shatters my heart and makes me stressed with the urge to cut myself my parents asked me if i want a therapist and i’ve said yes but they just ignore that and move on with there life i am only 12 and i don’t want to continue life anymore everything seems pointless school is just stressing me even more i have all of this hard work to do and annoying people picking on me i haven’t got the help i need yet but hopefully i will soon

I’m literally crying I need someone 😭😭😭

how did they do to fake the sh scars/cuts? it looks very realistic

I am 1 year and 8 months clean from self harm but I really want to do it again but since it’s almost summer I can’t find anywhere to do it without my mom losing her shit

I relpased with my bilimia and self harm last night but im trying im gonna come back from it

These films always make me wanna relapse

Whoever is going through self harm, past, present or future, remember.. your not alone. You are strong and you have a life worth living. Life is a gift from God, a gift to humanity. If you have impulsive thoughts to cut... I will literally beg you to stop, your skin is not paper. You are valued and even if you dont believe it, the world would be a terrible place without you... I love you so much, and please 🙏 keep this in mind everyday.. you're not alone, we will get through this together. You will get the life you were meant to have: a happy one ❤❤❤

“I’m fine I won’t do it again I promise, I made a mistake” I’ve said that to her before. She’s caught me twice since 2020. And both times I had to tell my therapist because she made me. I have not gone to a hospital yet for it

im trying to be one year self harm clean and one month clean from bulimia .... i just wanna stop but i dont know how... i feel like no one cares and im not good enough

just know that your life is worth living and worthy and I will always love you 🥰

I cut to forget. But I always remember 💔

Damn this hits hard.

17:22 that is past me I still do it everyday one time I almost died it scared 😱 the sh out of me I couldn’t breathe my lips were blue my lungs were almost out of air and my eyes were red cause I went through the skin and it cut multiple veins I thought I wasn’t going to make it but I went to the ER and they saved my life so that was my experience of life and death and my face was covered all over with tears I was hard crying 😭

I wished people understood me like they did... Instead im seen as a psychic patient.. my dad scares me telling me that i ruin his life that everything i do gets reflected onto him that I'm not the victim... He is.. i have been suffering so fucking much, i just want it to stop..

I feel so alone

This reminds me of me and hurts because I have gone through this (minus the near suicide) and my name is also Jessica, and everyone calls me Jess.... I cut myself almost daily, in fact, I am laying in my bed with a bit of blood running down my arm... (Don't worry, I'm not in danger to suicide atm. I also cut pretty shallow so it's all good).

1 year 4 months 4 days clean

Such an important topic to shed light on. What gave you the inspiration to create this?

6 years in XD trying to skip around heading to mental hospitals :P

And my parents trust me with a knife in my room 😅😅

I started cutting when I was 11 I’m 12 now and it’s been on and off. It started on dec 12th 2023 and I first used an extra sharp candy cane. Then I used scissors but they didn’t really do anything so I starts using a box cutter. That’s what I’ve been using and probably what I’ll keep using. My parents don’t know and 8m never going to let them know. I’ve told a few of my friends and they haven’t done anything. I started skipping up to two meals a day in June and it’s August now and I’m still doing the same. I have problems with friends and school and it’s a mess. I do go to therapy but I don’t talk to her about the sh or suicidal thoughts because I’m afraid she will tell my mom. If I tell her about the suicidal thoughts she will tell my mom and make me get more help but like I don’t want that. I’d rather just get out of it alone so I don’t worry anyone and then I will have something to really be proud of. I’m a week 1/2 clean from sh so that’s cool. I’ve been able to escape the sh a lot recently but some days have been extremely hard lately. I’m still skipping meals and stuff and like I’m probably not going to stop for a while. If anyone asks about my scars I will panic and lie. I always have some bracelets on either hiding cuts or scars depending on where I am. No one has said anything and like I’m happy about it. I think I might have depression but like I don’t care I’m not going to get help until I’m 18/out of the house. I don’t want my mom to know about any of the stuff I’m going through. I don’t really like her I just lost my trust in her a while back. I only have one adult I can talk to and it’s my mom’s cousin. I haven’t told her anything about the sh or any of that stuff yet. I don’t think I will. But she really helps because I can talk to her about my mom and not liking her and stuff so it’s nice. I’m really insecure about my scars and my body in general but like I’ll get thoughts it. Mb for venting here I always just find these types of videos as a safe space to vent. Thanks for reading and I hope y’all have a good day and get through whatever is going on in your life :)

2022 and I’m still here

why are my dermal cuts tingling while watching this

what do you do when you need help but you don´t have anyone there with you? When those who you though you could ask for help leave and those that remain you are afraid to ask because you don´t want to be a burden. What do you do when you´re alone? No one to support you in all the steps and then again, you relapse in that bad live and habits. How can you ask for help?

Im scared my parents would be informed i cant tell anyone

As soon as the lady said “Do yk where my scissors are” I said out loud, “Don’t give her the fucking scissors.” Known from experience.

i always like watching these but the gore and thought of if makes me feel sick. i did “minor” self-harm never with razors. i wanna watch these but man my brain really fucking hates them.

once I cut and went to deep blood was pouring out I couldn’t breathe my lips were blue then I fell I thought I was dead somebody saw me and helping me it was my best friend Kate

7:10 Saving my spot! Interesting story so far

This is literally me

I’m sorry but the blood was so dramatic every time I’ve tried no blood

Does anyone know who the actress who plays Jess is

at this point im just gonna jump off the 5ft floor of my fkin school why am i searching for this again

That’s good! 😌

Cutting pain won't work, the only way to heal is to talk to someone, I promise it will work

At first my parents did not believe me

I get threatened that when i relapse and summer comes by they will publically humiliate me. They promised me 7 months ago i would get help. it was a lie. At this point i dont even care i cant even make 15 hours clean and ive prepared for the 13th of may (my mother's birthday) to give her the present she always wanted- peace and to not be bothered from my bullshit lol :3

I need help

💕💕💕🥺

i hate the mum. using the daughters therapist to tramua dump.

This is sad

July 27th is an important day for me

TW: I started when I was 11 about or at least that’s when the thoughts started and though it was never anything too serious with any kind of scarring it still scarred my heart and put me through A LOT! Never underestimate the pain and inner turmoil of someone with any kind of self harming problem. I’m about 5-6 months clean now and that feels so awesome to me. I just never want to go back again but instead spread my story to bring hope that it does get better and to bring awareness. Sometimes I wish I had a sign on my face telling certain people so they understood and knew and sometimes I hate myself so much for it thinking it has ruined my future life. But I now know that is only controlled by me and one day when I do find the person I love and trust to date and marry I will share it with them proudly and maybe a little reminiscent of the pain. But I’m so excited to leave this far in the past and talk about it as such. 🫂 Please to anyone with struggles read this and know I’m just like you, take something, anything from it.

I’m always scared to come out to someone and tell them abt what’s going on but then the therapist just sends me to hospitals

I been struggling with this since I was 12 this short film made me realise your never alone and there’s people that want to help you out there. I been questioning for a long time now what job I wanna have when im older. This made me know it. I wanna be a therapist for mental health.

Parents should comfort their kids and not make it about themselves. Instead of “where did I go wrong as a parent” they should say “its ok. I will get you help if you need it” yk?

Why do people like Samantha always think everybody could have the same thoughts and healing. PEOPLE JUST WANNA HELP SO THAT THEY FEEL GOOD ABT THEMSELVES!!!!

life is hard, you know? i wish that just telling yourself that its gonna be okay worked, but it doesn't, so people just find other ways to numb the pain. I have scars too, and I barely wear short sleeves because it's embarrassing for people to know what I do in the dark, and when I'm in pain. all I know is that it gets better, and I wish you all the best:)

I’ve been in and out of mental hospitals all year long 4 this year and it’s may, 8 in total. Ive been put in holds and administered medication through shots I’ve been through the ends and outs of mental facilities from perfectly normal stays to borderline psychotic. I’ve had 29 attempts and I’ve lived with these thoughts and scars for only a couple of years, 6 years at most. I don’t really see much representation so I appreciate the efforts.

Why no tw that scared the f*** out of me

18:04 The end made me cry😢