Just done exactly that. I'd played a fair bit of RtJ around this album's release but must've missed this one. Lauren Laverne just played it on BBC 6 Music and of course the beat hooked me in, thinking this has to be RtJ before she back-announced it. I had to come straight here to play it again and add it to my liked vids playlist, but it wasn't until I read these sad tales in the comments that I realised there was depth behind the music; I've always been a beats-first,lyrics-later type of man. So then I play it again, pay attention and think of my good mate's cancerous decline & funeral just two & a half months ago, and my head is nodding whilst shivers run down my spine... In memory of Sean Cooper...x
im currently dieing from cancer , im over come with empathy for my loved ones cause i see the hurt they feel losing me. hold tight the one that are dear. dope song.
This track has me straight sobbing yet this comment made me laugh my ass off. RIP to my homies Kevin and John, and RIP to the homies of everyone that reads and feels this.
When I found a match and a RTJ song played, I almost couldn't believe it. THen, after finishing said match, I was welcomed by another one. Rogue Company got a new player, man.
@@MubeDSO i noticed this game wtih this song and played for 1 hour then seecond day im loggin in and they have changed it , that was a moment when i stopeed playing this game ;p
"How do you feel 'bout yourself when you know that sometimes you had wished they were gone? Not because you didn't love 'em but just because you felt too weak to be strong" Ouch.
This song is so fire and so heartbreaking all at the same time. Lost a Brother-Cousin to gun violence in 1999 and a very close friend to a stroke in 2016 and BOTH verses hit me like a brick. I groove and cry to this song each time.
Can we take a minute to appreciate, among all the amazing things about this song, just how brave El-P's verse is? That line about wishing Tao was gone so he wouldn't have to see him suffer anymore, the way he ends it straight up telling Tao he loves him. El-P was putting a lot of really dark, difficult emotions out there for the world to see. The vulnerability he shows on this track is just so powerful. Remember fellas: there's nothing more manly than telling the ones closest to you how much they matter to you.
Right for a right, wrong for a wrong This is clearly not life's design Figure out quickly that nothing gets answered When you ask the universe why Life is a journey, to live is to worry To love is to lose your damn mind But living's a blessing so I am not stressing 'Cause some of my friends ain't survived That's the release, but in much bigger pieces, I'm living on limited time Like how do you look in the eyes of a friend and not cry when you know that they're dying? How do you feel 'bout yourself when you know that sometimes you had wished they were gone? Not because you didn't love 'em but just because you felt too weak to be strong You couldn't bear to see someone who prided themselves on the strength to feel weak You prove to your randomness, hold it for ransom, that life will not fade in your dreams You see that they're fighting and know that they're losing but still you make jokes and you laugh 'Cause you know despite all the sadness that you better get the good times while they last Now every new word that they speak you are already feeling like it's in the past And when they all gone you just try to move on 'cause the memory's hurting too bad Grown up so much and I wonder who you'd've become if you stuck for a while Just know that I love you, good friend, ain't forget you, and when I remember I smile [Killer Mike & El-P:] And I guess I'd say I'll see you soon But the truth is that I see you now Still talk to you like you're around And I guess I say you left too soon But the truth is that you never left 'Cause I never let myself forget [Killer Mike:] An eye for an eye, and a tooth for the tooth Will leave us all mumbling and blind So we stumble blind through depths of the dark Looking for something divine Life is a journey, to live is to suffer And I have been suffering through mine But living's a blessing so I ain't no stressing 'Cause some of my n_ggas ain't 'round He got no drama but his baby mama is still on my line and she cryin' I searched for the words to give her some comfort for her soul and spirit and mind I tell her that it'll be fine But deep down I know that I'm lying The family came took rings and his chains The bank took the house and the rights The only thing left was his child, and she had a smile in his eyes So much to the soul, when the grandmama kept her, she'd look at her sometime and cry The very next day she cried And day after day she cried Then called baby mama and told her "I'm sorry, can't keep her no more, I have tried" No killer was captured, but I know he listening So I'd like to tell you in song The streets was a jungle, I pray that you made it, I hope that you righted your wrongs I hope that you learn, I hope that you changed so your mama won't know this pain So my homie's name will mean something more than a n_gga got killed for a chain [Killer Mike & El-P:] And I guess I'd say I'll see you soon But the truth is that I see you now Still talk to you like you're around And I guess I say you left too soon But the truth is that you never left 'Cause I never let myself forget
I lost my step dad last month to a long drawn out battle with cancer. He came into my life when I was 19, and into heavy drinking and drugs. His influence and love got me clean and 3 years later he's gone. That all being said, This song really hit me. El P said exactly how I feel beautifully. So amazing.
Brad Hanks that honestly is a shitty predicament man. That isn't something that's easy to go through. I've been going thru my own patch of shit luck for the last few years with my family. Right when it seems like it's getting better, it gets worse. Maybe u know what I mean. It's real shitty. I'm only 18 and at the end of the day, I feel like I'm 40 years old with too much shit on my plate. I hope ur situation gets better dude. Stay on the good path. Keep his influence strong in ur heart.
Me too man. Two years we took my dad to chemo, 6 days a week sometimes. Sorry to hear about your loss. It's been three months for me and I can say it's getting easier. Just keep him in your thoughts and hold onto those good memories, they mean everything now.
Brad Hanks best friend got cancer in middle school and for some reason I couldn't bring myself to visit him. I'll see him again soon but there is a chance he's gonna get it again either as a young adult or a teenager.
I listen to this track regularly. It opens up that wound that never quite heals. I still dont know how tf my best friend could die at 23 from cancer. RIP brother
Sister OD’d on Oct. 5th at the far too early age of 24. She didn’t know her place in the world but still loved her family. She walked out the night before to go eat out. Cops found her dead only a few hours later in the morning. This song has helped me cope. All you can really do is remind your loved ones what they mean to you, and try to live the best life you can for the dead. Rest easy.
Dear Katae, I am sorry for your pain. I hope you are doing ok some 11 months later. I got pain too, so I feel ya. May the universe turn in your favor. Bring you some good things. Peace.
lost my father this summer to cancer. he was the strongest man i ever knew. So many lines in EL-Ps verse ring so true to how i feel. he was my best friend. thank you.
My brother has a couple years left on this Earth. Cancer is ravaging his body. Through all the tests and chemo he stays positive. But now he has chosen to live life and say fuck chemo and all the drugs pumping through his body. Goddamn this shit is hitting me hard right now. Edit: brother passed on 4/16/21 I'm gonna miss you everyday bro.
Body works off of frequency. Ancient healing playing a specific frequency has been proven to kill cancer cells. A good stereo system and the proper mghz can do the trick. Look up sound frequency to fill cancer cells. I would trust it over the pharmaceutical industry
For every Legend Has It, RTJ has a Thursday in the Danger Room, and its absolutely incredible. I watched my mom battle cancer and liver failure for two years that must've been agonizing for her, and this song captures that feeling of helplessness and desperation for hope so masterfully. I've cried and will continue to cry to this song.
I did in fact come here from Rogue Company, but I'm not leaving. I'll stay here and shed tears with y'all, my brothas that are grieving. I heard this beat in the menu and had to give it a listen. I was glad but now I'm sad thinkin bout all the peeps I'm missin.
601 days since you left us, Chris. I remember listening to this song every day after your death, and listening to this again has brought back some feelings I thought I buried. The thought that it has almost been 2 years hurts me more than I can describe. I guess it's late nights like these that bring the sadness out.
Hypo Jack same. My grandpa shot himself on 10/13/16. He was more of a father than my actual dad. Unlucky day I guess. It brings u at peace inside tho if u look at the positive message rtj is sending. I'm not a religious guy, but this song makes me realize that he is still there right by me. Pretty cool if u ask me. It's amazing what music can do for so many people
+Beunibster "best lyricist" No. Great producer, good MC, only a decent lyricist. If you think he's "best in the game" you haven't looked deep enough in the game.
"That's the release, but in much bigger pieces, I'm living on limited time Like how do you look in the eyes of a friend and not cry when you know that they're dying? How do you feel 'bout yourself when you know that sometimes you had wished they were gone? Not because you didn't love 'em but just because you felt too weak to be strong You couldn't bear to see someone who prided themselves on the strength to feel weak The cruelty of randomness, hold it for ransom, that life will not fade in your dreams You see that they're fighting and know that they're losing but still you make jokes and you laugh 'Cause you know despite all the sadness that you better get the good times while they last Now every new word that they speak you are already feeling like it’s in the past And when they all gone you just try to move on 'cause the memory's hurting too bad" This hit home real hard....
I'm sorry for your loss. I lost my grandma 3 years ago. I still talk to her like she's around. Don't be afraid to talk about it with your friends and family.
This song's lyrics makes me wanna cry but the beat makes me wanna smile. I feel the pain of loss everyday... (its lyrics were stuck in my head and sure enough I cried. I hope Rtj never breaks up. Such amazing lyrics and beats.)
Put my dog down 3 months ago. Had him for 12 years. It really sucked, but I mostly shrugged it off and said "fuck it, that's life." Then today at work this song came on in one of my playlists. Once it rolled to the chorus it felt like I was punched in the chest and I almost had to turn the song off before I lost my shit. Takes a damn good song to make someone feel something like that, and I can see through the comments that a lot of other people were hit the same way I was. RTJ - cheers for making an incredible and meaningful piece of music here.
saw rtj earlier this year in LA, was rolling on MDMA when they performed this track. ain't afraid to admit I was bawling like a goddamn child by the time they finished the song. i had lost a good friend of mine to suicide a few months before that. I still get emotional every time I hear this track. RIP John
I lost my dad in May of this year, watched him fade away over the span of a few years. This song touched my fucking soul the first time I heard it. Bout half the time I listen to that first verse, I end up sobbing. Those are words of someone who's been there. Mike's verse is just as tragic and emotional. Hes underrated as a storyteller.
Me too. I was stunned when I read through the lyrics and tried listening to it for the first time. I could barely get through it. Didn’t expect myself to start sobbing. The way they capture the feeling of grief and regret is hard to describe.
A childhood friend of mine died of brain cancer 6 years ago. I was best friends with his sister for a long time. They introduced me to hip hop amongst other things. I thought of him the first time I heard this song. RIP.
this song is haunting me. Each word, it all resonates deep within. odd to say, but whatever happened to inspire this song, must have been very similar to what happened to me. Never shown any fucking weakness, and then a brother of all, just.. nevermind. Great song, keep it up RTJ
This is one of the most heart-felt, heart-wrenching pieces of music I've ever heard. It reminds me of my dead homeboy. And the truth is that he never left. Because I never let myself forget. Mike and LP, I love yall for this joint. If yall can keep going, then I can too.
Hard to find any music that means more to me than these guys. They just have so much passion and fire for what they do, it's contagious. Love these guys so much. But seriously who has more character than these two?
So apparently There's this ancient tale, about a couple of divine music notes and beats, left by the gods, made for humans. The legend says that listening to these music can make you experience a true ascension. I have a feeling those guys found it
We lost our 13yo son to cancer recently, this song breaks my heart but it perfectly captures how we felt the last 2 months on hospice. Trying to joke with our baby while we were all painfully aware he was dying.
I lost my dad when I was 10 my best friend last Thanksgiving who we wanted to become the next RTJ and anytime this song plays it brings tears to my eyes and I listen to it everyday in remembrance of them. R.I.P Much love to Killer Mike and El-P
I've been listening to this song for 4 years, and it definitely hits different when you go through a dear friend's death. RIP mate. I wish I would've been there for you.
"The streets was a jungle, I pray that you made it, I hope that you righted your wrong. I hope that you learned, I hope that you changed so your Mama won't know this pain." Such profound emotional maturity and a true show of empathy.
I'm here from Rouge Company. But can you blame me? Its on the main menu & this shit slaps. It makes me regret finding a match. One of those songs that makes you feel high.
I had only heard the instrumental from this song for the longest time, and I always really liked it. It wasn't until couple months after my best friend died that I heard it with lyrics. Never been hit so hard by a song. See you now buddy.
This song's got me all fucked up. I haven't seen much in the way of hard times and loss compared to other folks, but I still think about a really close friend I lost not long after high school who was like a brother to me, and this track has it all rushing back like it had happened yesterday. Shout out to Killer Mike and El-P for keeping it more real than most rappers dare to.
definitely my favorite song at the moment. There are so many different levels of depth you can discover in this song. both in the lyrics, and even just the instrumental, I find more meaning every time i listen.
Fuck this hits home. Love Mike and El. My dad died like two months ago and I can relate to this very much. Nothing in this world is harder than looking your loved one in the eye when they know they're about to die. Cherish your loved ones and spend time with them now. My dad was 59 and I'm not even 30 yet, you don't know what's gonna happen.
