Rushing and intentional busyness 

When you slow down you feel. When you feel, you heal. And when you heal, you grow. Sometimes slowing down is the most productive thing you can do - especially in recovery! 🥰💜💕💕💕

I began to consider EDs as a traumatic experience. Besides harming our bodies via malnutrition (bodies store traumas), they badly affect our perception of life. Rushing, busy mood, toxic shame/guilt, and serving others are signs of trauma - they relate to fight, flight, freeze, and fawn response. No surprise that my body repels against me if I dare and try to restrict my food intake.

Thanks Tabitha ❣️ I love that you’re addressing these types of issues that so many people including psychologists don’t seem to link with eating disorders. Very on point 👏 I know the feeling of anxiety and rushing out the door in the mornings so well, and claiming that I never have time to eat in the mornings. Truth is, I hated how my stomach felt after eating and much preferred how my clothes felt in the morning on an empty stomach. Good luck with the tests 🤞

Feeling exactly the same! I try to preoccupy myself, so I don't have time to be with myself and my thoughts (becuase they are horrible) and to actually have time to feel anything, because I'd feel hungry. I'm scared to feel any emotions. Being a feelingless robot is a kind of a "safe" space.

I have quite a weird question: I’m around 6 months in in recovery, doing amazing, but I’ve noticed I have this little fear at the back of my mind that says “what if I’m FORCED to skip a meal/a day of eating by accident (like getting stuck somewhere without access to food), does that mean my ED will come back? Like I’m so scared of it coming back once I’m fully recovered. It’s just annoying that my fear of weight gain has been replaced by fear of getting stuck somewhere without food…..is there a way out? I’m tired of living in fear..

Feel it I can't tolerate stress since I am in recovery. But I also make me some stress about movement. I know where my obstacles are to fully recover and for full enjoyment. It makes me sad to see my dad never really come to rest without an eating disorder but I think he has similar things going on without restricting food in the way I did.

You’re totally not trying to be a guru, however you speak more sense than half the self acclaimed gurus and eating disordered experts out there. You have an uncanny way of knowing every facet of eating disorder behaviour that is 90% of the time completely overlooked

Hey Tabitha! Good to see you making content again :) I was wondering if it's normal to miss having extreme hunger or mental hunger? I genuinely have neither the desire nor the appetite to eat the way I did early in recovery, but I want to want to...if that makes sense. Thank you!

Ive been growing a bigger and bigger fear of freetime. For many years back I dont enjoy to do anything anymore, nothing is fun and I dont look forward to anything. It wasent like this before ED but now it has been for so many years. I have tried several antidepressants but no effect. This is a big obstecle for me cause im getting in my head that with recovery there will be moore freetime cause no OCD. The OCD related to my anorexia takes up some time and if i recover then i have more time to try to fill up. :'( Its just feels awful. Also very very hard to distract cause i dont now what to do cause nothing is fun. Please help or give me som reasurance. Am i the only one? Do this to pass with recovery? And another question - what to do when recover? How to fill the days? What do u other enjoy doing? I dont really have the peace to see a movie or something like that, I be really bored even if it is something i use to like. How to distract from unbareble anxiety? Also have no money for activities that cost, no friends and barly no family. HELP 😢 (sorry for awful english, not my main..)

Talking and driving. Is that intentional double busyness? 😂