It's crazy when movies or shows seem to have more understanding of what's going on in someone's head than the level of understanding this person's family or friends have.
Sorry for ruining your 101 but I'm 102 but thank you. I lose myself in shows and my parents care more about themselves than me and I don't understand 🥺 If I could have children I'd put them first 😭
"I buy what I want. I don't want it. I do what I like. I don't like it. i don't feel anything. I'm just so bored. I wake up every morning like... again? really?" only us with real depression understand
I don't cry, I don't scream, I don't ask for things to get better. I honestly don't feel anything. My family hates me, convinced my friends do too, it's been years since I've got to see my family I just want this all to be over because whenever I think about ending it, it just makes me feel so free, like I finally wouldn't have to wake up and face another day of nothing.
Its crazy to me that people make these shows and movies with all these people in pain but when it comes to real life they chose to not believe that this is how we feel untill we chose to do something about it but even then they still chose to ignore it.
Lately, I've started to recognise how my sadness has turned into anger and Im suddenly tilting at games and basicly everything. Everything that used to be fun is just making me mad because I cannot succeed in it. I really need help but I feel like nobody wouldn't understand me. I also think that my friends don't care about me 'cause I've felt this way long time and nobody haven't noticed anything.
This might sound crazy to you, but I envy you. At least you're capable of feeling these emotions, I'm not. More than anything else in the world I would love to feel angry, or sad, or absolutely anything else at all. Maybe you feel differently, having experienced these emotions, but to someone who hasn't felt them in over 5 years, pain sounds like bliss. This video hit the mark perfectly: the boredom. I feel nothing, I want nothing, I exist, but I do not feel alive. Sure, I experience some brief reprieves, fleeting twinges while watching a movie or reading a book, bu most of the time I feel like an emotionless observer, simply watching the world go by from afar. It is the loneliest feeling in the world, and at the same time it is not, because I cannot feel emotions. I'm not gonna tell you that it's gonna get better, or to stay strong, because it might not and I'm fucking tired of pretending that it will. I am [happy] to hear what others think, but please spare me the God loves you, it will be fine, just stay strong BS. Thank you for sharing Benjamin
@@alejanelrosmark7220 i know exactly how you feel. i've tried looking into this before, why i don't feel emotions as strongly as other people but haven't been able to find any possible reason except for depression, but i haven't been through anything sad, i've had a good life, with nothing traumatic or sad, so i'm definitely not depressed. but i don't get excited, i don't get happy, i didn't even get sad when my dog died, the only times i ever feel anything is from a book, a movie, or games, but even then i don't feel much. maybe a twinge of frustration at a game, some excitement from a novel, and a bit of watery eyes from a drama series. i just wish i had an answer as to why my emotions are muted for no apparent reason
@@divinrth5187 Hi divinrth, first of all, I'm as genuinely sorry as I can be that you're going through this, trust me, Ik what it's like. Everything you said, I can relate to. I do think, however, that you might still be depressed. You see, depression can be caused by trauma, stress, medication, abuse or a multitude of other similar reasons, but there doesn't necessarily have to be a reason; depression can also sometimes be genetic. The thing is, we don't really know much about depression yet. It's still an illness that is being studied. No one knows, for example, why the hippocampus tends to be smaller in people with depression (some scientists think this is caused by the excess production of cortisol, a stress hormone, which could have a shrinking effect on the hippocampus). But sometimes people also develop depression for no apparent reason. So not to be alarmist, but it is entirely possible that you do have depression, even if you haven't personally experienced any significant trauma in your life. Know, that you are not the only one out there who's battling with the same issues and I wish you all the best. P.S: I strongly recommend listening to the artist 'NF', who makes music about depression, anxiety and related topics, if you want to release some pent up emotion.
@@alejanelrosmark7220 turns out you may have been right about actually being depressed. i had some sort of evaluation a few weeks back, regarding my mental state and sort of like an iq test, and the psychologist in her report mentioned i show a lot of signs of dysthymia. i hadn't even known it'd be a psych eval, i thought it was solely about how i perform in school and them determining if i would need assistance in higher education due to my autism, like extended exam time or separate settings. turns out i show very strong signs of dysthmia and adhd. thank you for your comment and recommendation of NF, i checked him out, i quite liked Let You Down.
It happens...that we sometimes just don't feel anything. Sometimes just want to get rid of this body and mind...just the soul floating somewhere beyond everything.
I went through depression although I didn't think I did. I failed almost everything I tried to do, eventually someone who was a part of my strength left me. My family situation went through a big financial problems while I couldn't do anything better to help. My study went to hell... At that time, I could feel frustrated, sad, or angry at myself. But after a while, I can't feel anything neither sad nor frustrated. But I do know I don't want to talk about it and always want to be alone. I tried talking to a few people but it didn't help only turned out that I don't want to hide it deep down there even more. I try doing something I enjoy but still the same, I don't feel the joy or anything. I don't know if it's getting better or worse....
I’ve gone through the numbness and also family issues. I have lost many people in my life. I sometimes think what if I am just better alone. Then I can’t hurt anyone and can finally leave this terrible fucking planet. I am mostly just tired of the same shit every day. School, then work, then homework, then sleep, and finally repeat. I can’t do this for the rest of my life. It isn’t worth it.
So wht is the answer for this numbness....? Should we be like this forever Or Wht shld we do to heal ourselves And what shld we do to get the old ourselves back Can someone please answer....?
Me too, like I don't know I'm trying to cry if I'm sad let that tears come out but I just don't want to see tomorrow it's just idk I can't describe I am sad but I can't feel it like it's crazy☹️ everyone just seems upset on me but like what should I do? I can't make them happy. I want to live life like normal school girls but I just can't seem to enjoy a thing.😞
It's funny when I tell people how I always cry when I'm going home because I can't handle being their, and how I'm not gonna be here anymore on a certain date, but ive been so happy thinking one more month, that everything thinks I'm better. I'm smiling so I must be okay right? I'm happier than ive ever been so I must be okay right? Anything can happen to me and I'm still okay, my best friend died, the person who helped me and was the only person the talk to me for months is gone and I'm okay
I’ve felt like this my whole life. No one understands, no one. I tried talking to my mom and she shamed me for feeling how I felt. “It’s like you’re screaming but no one can hear you.” If I let go today at my funeral they would say “she never said anything about how depressed she felt “. 🥴😪 no I did but you weren’t listening.
After being so depressed, now I cant feel anything.. Is this normal? Am I improving? Is this normal? Please can someone just tell me what this is.. pleasee
So wht is the answer for this numbness....? Should we be like this forever Or Wht shld we do to heal ourselves And what shld we do to get the old ourselves back Can someone please answer....?
We've been manipulated to feel this way so that the weak does not succeed. But you are not weak! Just lost and confused. You need to embrace that pain, not by feeling that pain every day but but changing that sadness to anger. It should anger you so much that it evolves that anger into aggressive motivation. What do I mean by aggressive motivation? Well, it's stronger than your regular motivation because a person with just your regular motivation is most likely someone that has not been broken. Aggressive motivation is a unique motivation that a select few of us get to experience through emotional trauma. Once you achieve it and take control of it. You cannot be broken again. People with just motivation can still be broken. But not people with aggressive motivation. If you a DBZ fan then think of motivation as UI Omen where aggressive emotion is MUI. You've gone past your limits and no longer act emotionally but instinctively.
Its good thing if you still able to cry......your heart still working fine....imagine people that really want to cry but tear wont coming out...nothing excite nothin sad anymore....
There are just too many people who wants to express every little mistakes regrets in life but won't care any longer because they know that no one would really understand after all why do you think I'm watching this because I've grow colder every single day .
Refrain Some days I don’t grow any older Some days I grow too fast Some days the world is on my shoulders Rest assured these moments pass Brief moments of glory Strings and pins on times past Map out your tiresome journey Memories make moments last -Luke. P.
I find myself at the looking Glass trying to find my old happy self it left long ago and haven't found again. I can't fix what I've become. Life happens and changes you.
I cant take this hard, ii cant feel anything i did everything to make someone happy, i forgot myself what i am who i am i am that man who give everything to that one who care about me buy suddenly now i cant feel that feelings from that person something somewhere went wrong please help me god
