You lose some, you win some. How balanced is everything. How much of thoughts have been put into making this universe balanced. Today, you've lost everyone, ten years from today, your future will be your present and this present will be past and when we look back, we see how miserable we were as as we are happy in the future present. How amazing it is, life doesn't stop. We get hurt, we get happy, we are in pain, we are smiling, it's so balanced. And I guess, we have to live with this irony of life till death. The sooner we accept it, the less it will hurt. But at the end, getting hurt or saving ourselves from pain, is not in our hands. If it's destined, it will happen. Nobody can stop it. And if it's destined to be happy, nobody can take away your smile. We cannot fight with nature, we cannot fight the universe.
he really gone isnt he ik from the moment the line was severed guys i already know who forgive me i told crystal who guys we are griving for not one but for jesse we are praying for him for his salvation for what he did ressesting arrest of a leo he has gotten 5 yrs but honestly 13 yrs ago jamie you left my life no note nothing i have change i needed time okay what im going thru is a lot more then you know god damn it jamie i am in deep in a drug turf war im not part of it i am being the solution and bringing peice but honestly i never belived you when you said you loved me you wanted me you was there for me you support me and everytime i came home late you be already into your 3 or fourth glass of wine and not knowing i just needed a hug and being held you dont know okay i am healing the mental and emotional scars i went thru i am dealing with people helping i was forced on sick leave bed rest for i wasnt okay when i am in grief i will over load myself in work just to not let myself feel anything i have made many mistakes and now every dream i have it is either a flashback or a vision of the future
this is part of the agreement with DCF okay and honestly you drinking wine every night then just expecting me to have your way with me 13 yrs ago you the one who dissapeared not me no note no letter no post card to even tell me if you was okay you know what actually got me by and made me okay using my shine
you dont know me anymore that girl you knew 13 yrs ago is dead i change okay why jesse gave me a song he was saying he missed the old me nick asked me last holloween liz you used to be full of laughter full of smiles you grew dark what happened i change i grew stronger became more independent then my past caught up to me 6 yrs worth and then having jesse like this its hard okay you dont know what going on i tried telling you i tried being your women but when i said i was in meetings and i wrote things down and begun my decoding something i cant tell you i swore a lot of people i wont say a word put this way you dont need to know how bad its getting we are dealing with people
