National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 suicidepreventionlifeline.org/ Okay, guys, a past few weeks I've been seeing a lot of heartbreaking comments about suicide attempts, so please, everyone - pushing you into that decision is not what I wanted when I was editing this vid. It's hard to read that kind of stuff, especially if you decided it after watching my video. I know it's difficult, I know it's hard, but no matter what - your life is important, there's always people around you that will help. Please, don't give up, give your life another chance. You are important and loved more than you know. If you need help you can text me directly to my email - the1black1cancer@gmail.com or here's National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 suicidepreventionlifeline.org/ Stay strong, my loves. I love you. You are matter.
@@thatswhatshesaid8618 you shut up and people do suicide bcs of people like you who do shit and talk like they know whats going on in other people lifes you need to stop
I wish I could talk about how I feel even when I feel like crying I laugh and make jokes so they don’t think I’m weak , I only cry when I’m in my room 😂
I feel the same way... I mean, there are days I am fine, really everything is okay. But there are days where I'm just crying, again and again, I want to give up. I think I'm just sad but for no specific reason so that's kind of strange... Idk if you understand me but I just hope you are fine and you passed through this and feel better now
I watch this once in a while. It makes me remember where I've been mentally. Glad this doesn't hit close to home anymore. It gets better, who ever is reading this. I promise.
I wish so bad it would get better and that ur right but it’s been so many years and it never did. Im glad you are happy now, but maybe it’s not for everyone...
I found this video a few days ago and wanted to leave a comment to say that this was absolutely beautiful and just heartbreaking. I've been watching this a little on repeat for the past few days and I can relate a lot to it. Thanks for making it, you're a brilliant editor.
Omg, this literally made my day, seriously, thank you so much for this, I really appreciate your feelings and the fact that you write this touching comment!
_lola _ I know it has been 5 months but you do not have to apologize for trying to speak another language. Like that takes so much time and everything good for you.
I already knew 2020 will never be better. Its gonna be the same, like every year before. I'm still a loser, barely holding on. Gosh, people won't even surprise if I kill myself. I'm sorry dear self . . .
Yeah me tooo n feels useless... But when u think u never be enough please listen to this song then u will feel much better ru-vid.com/video/%D0%B2%D0%B8%D0%B4%D0%B5%D0%BE-oZvKJl1kK8g.html😊
@@drugs.. Happy birthday buddy. Know it probably dont feel like it now but one day your gonna find something or someone you love and everything is gonna change, trust me. You just keep holding on and when everything does change whatever troubles you face then wont be half as hard as what you been through
Please don't. We could talk. You are important. Amazing and different and I know the feeling of nobody understanding. I've felt it it's hard I know but please stay alive it will be ok
im just gonna wait till i’m older. that’s what i tell myself i guess? i think i just tell myself it’ll get better so then maybe i’ll trick myself into making it? i’m gonna wait... yeah.
I thought I was getting better but why am I back to watch these again I can't even cry watching them anymore it's so numb it's so empty 3 years and 6 months still hoping it would go away
I know exactly how this is. I can’t explain my situation because it’s so bizarre & even if I do talk someone I’m afraid of being judge & being asked what is wrong with you. Even if my situation doesn’t make sense to others, what I go through makes sense to me or least I think it does. But even if it scares me cuz I don’t know how to let it go
I tried my best. To be nice and kind to everyone but I always find myself alone and betrayed. I lost all the people I thought where my friends. I tried every shit, alcohol and drugs. But I just end up crying or passed out. I think of ending all this once and for all, but there is this voice which always says why and for whom.
suraj nath, I too always try to be nice and kind. I too am alone and betrayed. You and I, we are survivors. We are strong! We give others happiness because we don’t want them to feel our pain. So, believe it or not, people need you! They do, they’re just too scared to admit it right now. But they need you more than they need anybody else!
This is perhaps one of the best multifandom videos I've ever seen omg, wow. I'm speechless. You captured the perfect amount of emotion seriously, wow. There's some awesome transitions in there too that I noticed, like the drinking part. Well done :) Definitely subscribed, I can't wait to see more!
Chatroom, Suicide Room, Orphan Black and Kill Your Darlings are things that made me cry individually so this just killed me. Excellent editing as well, that was very well executed.
I read all these comments and Im crying. People answer to each other and maintain each other. That makes me feel better. That gives me a hope. I love you, guys❤️
GUYS, PLEASE CHECK THIS BEFORE START ASKING ABOUT VOICE OVER/SONG/MOVIE/TV SHOW I started answered to the same questions, so I decided to write ALL FANDOMS WITH TIMELINE FIRST, voice over at the start is from the song "Never Alone" by The Amity Affliction (link ru-vid.com/video/%D0%B2%D0%B8%D0%B4%D0%B5%D0%BE-JaPeXEsP-wU.html) SECOND, song after the voice over is "Never" by Young And Dramatic (link ru-vid.com/video/%D0%B2%D0%B8%D0%B4%D0%B5%D0%BE-sG1KpwTCjFs.html) And the last one ALL FANDOMS WITH TIMELINE: Kill Your Darlings ( 00:00 - 00:09, 00:48 - 00:50, 1:03 - 1:12) Remember Me ( 0:10 - 0:12, 0:39 - 0:44, 0:50 - 0:51, 1:48 - 1:56) Orphan Black ( 0:33 - 0:36, 0:54 - 0:58, 1:01 - 1:02, 1:45 - 1:47, 2:10 - 2:26) Requiem For A Dream ( 0:13 - 0:16, 0:29 - 0:32) Mr. Nobody ( 0:17 - 0:19, 0:52 - 0:53, 1:13 - 1:16, 1:39 - 1:44) Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind ( 0:20 - 0:24, 0:45 - 0:47, 0:59 - 1:00) Sucide Room ( 0:25 - 0:28, 0:37 - 0:38) Chatroom ( 1:17 - 1:24, 1:57 - 2:04) Scream ( 1:28 - 1:38) Fear The Walking Dead ( 2:05 - 2:09) The Fault In Our Stars ( 1:25 - 1:27) If you've read all of this GOD BLESS YOU
"I think it.. you don't wanna hear this. I'm a mess. I'm sorry man." Living with such pain that keeps growing every day, not knowing when it'll ever stop.. it changes you.. I've been in this shit for 8 years now, probably lost all hope of it ever getting better. I don't think I'll kill myself any time soon, but I probably won't live another 10 years. I'm sorry for whoever is reading this. I hope shit gets better for you, I sincerely hope so. Much thanks to OP for this edit. It's so real and sincere that I can't help but marvel at it. Great work! Thank you and I'm sorry.
This is incredible. Puts into words the emptiness and the monotony and the pain I felt back when I was suicidal. Whenever I wanted to tell someone how I felt, I showed them this video. It captured it completely. Wow wow wow
All I know is it's getting worse as year passes by. Crying over same wounds , laughing over sadness , embracing the loneliness. I desperately wish to have control knowing I will be ruined if I don't but it's just so hard. So I sleep away my problems.
It's been years and i keep coming back to this video, because there are days when it's the only thing in the world that seems to understand what it feels like here. my heart feels like an empty fucking vessel and i keep screwing things up. i keep trying not to, but i keep fucking up, maybe it's in my nature. I go to this video when my heart hurts because it lets me know I'm not alone, it's like a sort of release because I have no one to talk to, nowhere to scream. i cry alone in the dark. thank you for making this. it just understands.
This is absolutely gorgeous!! And so heartbreaking! This is a beautiful video.... I can't put together the right amount of words to describe how you've made me feel. This is mesmerizing. Really. I adore Orphan Black and rewatching that scene of Sarah deciding whether or not to kill herself made my heart tighten because I was so scared. Again. Even though I already know she survives. You captured the pure essence of being stuck with this feeling of depression and being suicidal, with the questions of whether you should do it or not. Of being afraid that you're alone and knowing that you're not okay and not knowing if you ever will be. to sum up all of my love for this video: thank you. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
I think this may be the thousandth time I’ve watched this masterpiece, but the feelings it gives me are always the same. It’s heartbreaking and beautifully edited but somehow this video makes me feel understood, like I’m not quite so… alone. So thank you. Thank you for making such an amazing edit, it really is a work of art.
Every once and awhile for the last two years, I come back here to listen to this again, hoping that maybe something changed and trying to think about how I felt before when I heard it and what scares me is that nothing's getting better, I don't feel better at all, I'm still in pain, lost and exhausted and that's terrifying me. That it's been two years but nothing's changed. At this point I don't even know if anything's gonna change. I really think I should just end it
What you wrote has touched my heart. And it feels like you have no way out. And when you finally have a better day, you cannot enjoy it because you know that after that day it's getting even worse
@larissafauland8085 Hey, it's been another two years but I decided to drop a small update, maybe it took me to long to realize that but the thing is that every day we slowly heal, bit by bit, might not realize it but things change even if we don't notice it :) it's been another another two years and i still come back to this video but I won :) and you definitely can win as well
this video means so much. the best part is that you can go down into the comments and see all these people saying, “this is exactly how i feel,” and suddenly you’re not alone
Recently I've been going through one of the hardest parts of my life and I've just felt so down and anxious... This video sort of captures every emotion I've been feeling this last year. This edit is truly fantastic! Keep up the great work
This always makes me cry, it’s a genuine edit and I love it so much - I watch it every few days and cry every time . Thanks so much for making this because it’s legit one of the best edits I’ve watched ✨
What a video... (First I am French so my English might be weird sometimes. Sorry for it) This explains my mind right now, so well. I am depressed. I only dream nightmares I live the same day everyday. I don't like myself. I have no confidence and it sucks. I have dreams, a lot. I want to be real. And I want my dreams to be real. If there's someone who reads this, keep reading because you may feel as destroyed as me... I'm going out that black place called depression because I want my dreams to come true, because I want to like myself and to know that I'm able to do things and that I'm not only that 'big shit I think I am'. My comment really is messy, I am sorry about it but it only follows my thoughts. Just want to remind you some things: We all see the same moon, sleep under the same stars, breathe the same air. We all have different skills and talents. But we all have. We all are able to dream our life and live our dreams. Do you see, that cloud that comes out your mouth when it's cold outside, while breathing, and that just makes your vision blurry? Think about it. Now, realise that when the hot days come, you don't see that blurrying cloud. The temperature represents your spirit and your mind. It's not a very good methaphore probably. But I thought about that while walking under our stars in the cold night. The first person we should love is ourselves. You cannot move on and be loved sincerely if you don't think that you are a good person, I guess. We just have to keep in mind that there always is a light in the obscurity. Just trust in you. You are an incredible person. With qualities. With beauty. With dreams. With a life to be lived. You can be whoever you want to be. Just believe in yourself. Nothing can stop you, except your own. Make all the chances together to finally reach the stars and be the one you want to be. It may means nothing but... We just have to believe in us. We should stop judging the others, but supporting them instead. It's not reality, unfortunately. Or fortunately. After all, if sorrow wouldn't exist, what would happiness be? Just to remind you that, even if your life's complicated and hard, be tough. For me, it's just my dad who has a problem but doesn't want to see it. And he destroys me without really realising it. But anyway. We just have to keep on living. I'm not speaking about surviving. I'm speaking about living. Living an awaken dream. Just that. Try to go through the darkness and fly to the sky. As they say, Sky is the limit. Know that you are not alone. You always have people by your side. Here to listen to you. To comfort you. To advice you a good music to feel better. And yeah, there are some shadows in the light too. But it's life. Know also that you are the only one who can change your life. So yeah, if you wanna quit that daily life, which is getting boring, only you can find an escape. Be hopefull and happy. Keep on smiling. Live. And dream.
@@justaagirll1419Hey, you may never see this, but I am the one who wrote that text. I totaly forgot about it, I was totaly fucked up at that time. I noticed many English mistakes btw lol Anyway This may mean nothing to you. But trust me, read it this you can cause I want to give you hope. I was in a tough depression. I used to be depressed. It went on for more than a year. I cried reading that text because, the one who wrote this, the one who felt this way... That wasn't me. It broke my heart and brought me back then, there, crying until I had no tears left. Look, I went to a therapist, it wasn't so helpful (at least not for me), but just, tell people about how you are feeling because there ARE people to help you out. You are never alone. When I wrote that text I never thought I would be the one I currently am. One morning, I just woke up and thought, "I can't keep on living like this." And so I tried. I fought my own mind and people were also here to help me. At first it was so unsteady. I was always breaking down so I thought my depression would never end. But after 6 months of hard work and people around me and positivity, I finally managed to reach a steady state. And you know what's the best? I am even a better me than who I used to be before being depressed. I am getting self confident I finally am feeling what self love and esteem means. The guy I love loves me back, I have many projects that I wanna pursue... Yes, in the beginning the break downs happened quite often. But now they are REALLY rare and I am so happy about this. I wish you the best only and if you ever need to talk I am here ❤
Basically my life the same as yours. I have depression and everything here. Im ruined. I had enough inspirations none worked. What I feel is just darkness and emptiness.
That was maddening. And raw. And honest. And beautiful. And hopeful. All at the same time. Thank you for taking the time to write all of this down. My favourite line from everything you write is, “Without sorrow, what happiness would there be?” I love that. I love this whole thing. You are very brave to write this all down. I too have gone through a time in my life where I believed I was depressed. I was not clinically diagnosed but last year it went on for almost the whole year where I felt down for no reason all the time. I stayed in bed longer, I drifted away from people and I wrote a lot of poems that I have a hard time going back to and reading again. I just wanna say thank you again for writing this all down. And I hope that to whoever sees this if anyone does that you will be okay. You will be okay. The sun will rise again and you will be okay. Please, don’t give up.
I'd like to thank you for this viedo. It is the most precisive and the closest way to show how I've been feeling when I suffered from deep depression and what the terrible mental pain means. The video is extremely valuable to me. Especially that mental disorders are incredibly difficult to be expressed by something in material world. After long treatment I'm happy again but then I was sure there was nothing for me in the future. Don't lose your faith. To anyone suffering from mental breakdown: it can get better even if you cannot imagine overcoming. THANKS to the author!
People on the phone Hiding behind the door of their room Telling they're fine Then telling to leave They say this is the way they want to chace When we all know inside That that is not the case Goodbye is forever But the memories will stay We've all been hurt But not in the same way Some hear voices Telling them to stop being themselves Others try to keep in touch with the wrong kind of people People that will ruin their day Their lifestyle Happiness We all have a different story that we sometimes don't want to see But just need to admit, tell and explain to people To the people you can trust in this world
i remember watching this, a day before i attempted suicide. i had never related to something so much. the pain was unbearable, i just..HAD to go. and i couldn’t find peace at all. it has been 3 months and i still feel as depressed and plan on ending my life. not now, but one day. and i know it shouldn’t be the way but, i have no help at all. i just need to ease my mind. thank you for this video.
@@kareemrussell4930 facts, it’s easier to talk to people online and express yourself about how you feel then to fake ass people who don’t give a shit about you in reality. Some people admit they’re depressed to help get the pain out and to stop hiding how they feel.
I can't stop listening to this, it's so true in every way that's possible. I hate being alone and I hate not being able to tell me what and how I truly feel. I'm depressed all the time and there's no one around to listen or hear me. I wanted to do stuff for myself but then it goes back to the way it's always been and that's being alone and sad all the time. it gets better sometimes but not always it's hard but faking a smile and pretending your okay is better than not actually being okay. when people see you they think you got everything good handed to you in life and how well your doing but feel down it's not true your just scared to face reality and let people see you depressed and that's me I keep it bottled up for a while and then when I'm not strong anymore I just blow it all out. 😒
I know your intentions in this video isnt what some people think they are, I thank you for posting this so people know they arent alone and they can feel free to vent. usually I dont even have a reason to be sad I just wake up in the same mood everyday hoping something will change but in the end nothing changes, the only thing keeping me motivated is this girl that im with, she is my motivation; I love her to death. But sometimes I feel as if she doesnt love me back then I begin to overthink then everything goes downhill.
I don’t think I’m depressed. It’s not that bad I guess. It’s just... this emptiness. And I feel so alone and helpless. I don’t even know... It’s like... even when I’m laughing and smiling it’s there in the back of my mind and I know it’ll come back, it’s always going to be there. And I don’t know what to do.
Ive been here with you mate..there's so much pain right Ik...yea u said right time can't heal all wounds ....I feel like just resting for my whole life and never to wake up....
Thank you for this video. I'm exactly in this mood right now. I cannot sleep. I don't know what is wrong with me. I'm losing my mind. I don't want to talk. And I am too scared to tell my "friends" that is something happening with me. I can relate to this moment (1:16-1:22) most. Cause it is me most in my life. I edited a video about my feelings about two days ago and I thought "This is what is happening with me." But Your video just proved that it's something more, something more deeper than I thought. I hope you'll getting feel better. If you want to. Thank you.
Idk how many of you feel this out there. I don't even know how many of you are going to read this.... Have you all felt like as if your whole life has loops in it ? Same things happen everytime Over and over again But with different people Ig the worst feeling is when you try to stop all of it , hoping that things might be different this time and people would finally stay back in your life but they don't ..... I personally think that's the worst feeling ever
Why are we alive? To experience? To survive? To be happy? We're all just feathers of the same bird. When one feather falls, another one grows back and it just happens again and again and again like a cycle. But it doesn't mean anything in the end. We just exist.
When I ask my friends help they will just start talking themselves or saying there’s worse things happening in the world right now. He told me this after telling him I was using pills to escape the reality. No one takes me serious that’s why I like to hide it
You're not alone, I feel you.. I'm using valium to sleep like everyday. It helps alot I understand. Maybe what we need to do is just time, hoping for a better day..
My boyfriend is telling me how much he loves me as I am thinking about calling it quits.. I know that people support me but that beside the point, in my own mind I feel so alone and helpless.. I can't sleep properly because I am up always thinking.. Always wondering.. But I've been here way to many times before and I am so done feeling this way
I know this feeling... Some people support me, at least they try, but when I go home, to my room, its just.. the walls are falling, u know? And I'm feeling so empty and weak again and again, and it doesn't stop. Not for now. And every day I think that it will be easier soon. But its not. And I dont know how to handle this.
I read so many comments about depression coming from relationship...am I the only one who cannot relate to them ? It’s as if I am hollow and on one side there is anxiety and on the other there is nothing...just a void...life just seems dark and nothing can make me happy or normal ... I’m actually envious of the people who are sad due to love life because there is hope for them
I can relate buddy ...i know how it feels when you have no reason to be depressed and still fucked up...and you don't know what is okay for you anymore.....we will survive buddy ...we are trying
