The sadness feels nice when you are so empty. Remembering all the good and painful memories from the only/most thing/person you love in this world. We learnt to love the pain in our throat, the tears in our eyes and the knife in our heart.
It's dangerous dude. I went from romanticising my depression to nearly dying a couple of times because of cutting or simply cause I intended to die. Still love cutting tho, I cannot dismiss it.
Cutting emptiness as though it will fill me As though something can heal this pain I cut and bleed Rivers red down the beautiful aria Of a wedded august night It’s beautiful.. and then I realize How alone I am And then i collapse back into the crawling sorrow that is me Holding at my legs rocking back and forth Nails into my skin and rivers flow down my legs As cold as this summer night And I remember this sound Of the dusken crickets And I remember the warmth of her arms I remember when the tears were blanketed and washed away But I’m drowning now… For years I’ve bled Bleeding into empty rooms to somehow feel like I’m not alone Filling voids with red And disturbing tears burning silently down the pale face There’s poetry on these razors Silver friends of mine Silver embraces There are the stories that have never been heard And no matter how painfully I scream How mournfully I cry How afflicted I bleed cutting hands They have never been heard… Everyday I try to keep hoping When I look down at my hands and see the illusions vanish I tell myself That it’s okay That someday will be a better day That arms don’t need to be so long That they will be reached But every day just builds more pain and insanity And I tremble and shake Flailing my arms and ripping my neck Because time never heals It’s not getting better All the lies that the suffering won’t last forever How I always tell myself that maybe tomorrow will be different I lay in a room Shaking… manic… empty Only lit by the august moon Reminding me… Reminding me of all that I want to forget And I sit in rose gardens Hallucinating their blossom Redder every day...
@Andrew Wayne cringe accelerated You can overcome your concept of cringe if you embrace it, be non conformist and simply reject any standards or measures of society.
Этот человек создаёт невероятно проникновенную и чувственную музыку, но самое удивительное как тонко и красочно он передаёт атмосферу и эмоции. Лучший dsbm проект. Pure sadness.
I wanted to write a long comment about the many projects you have and how they are all so very accurate representations of distinct and extreme emotion, or the lack thereof, but I can't keep a long text very consistent. I love you and your music and I wish I more often had the energy to tell people I love them. I never do and so I am... Left alone Lol
This is harmonizing with my head big time. - One more thing I wanted to say and I don't know if it'll make sense is that I feel that this like if fentanyl turned into depression.
Omggggg mand you've really improved my life and always do my mood with all your musics especially en las que le metes piano, Carmen y Encontrarnos thank you so fucking much for doing and having done all that you do 😭😭😭😭💔💘 I wish you a not-so-sad life and that everything meliorates for you there and eventually, hopefully someday thrive pal, do take care please.
