Lost my wife and mother of my two children to fentanyl addiction. I would play this song on repeat while we used. She haunts me constantly. I miss this person with all my being. Her existence was essential to my reason for living and loving.
Even if you don’t see this comment, you are a good person Lee. Please be strong for your kids and come out of this. I’m cheering you on thousands of miles away sir 💪❤️
@J C F$&*k that doomer bs. You have the power to and clean yourself up for your children. You just have to put yourself in an enviornment that allows the change. If you can't create that enviornment externally, then create it internally. Books, reaching out to friends, youtube videos, meditation. You can pull yourself out of it if you have a strong enough reason and ask for help. Two little pairs of eyes looking up to you is more than a strong enough reason. Blessings.
I lost more than 10 friends to opioid overdoses the year I got sober and this song is almost too painful to listen to. The lyrics on top of the emotion brought on through the synths inexplicably capture the complicated tragedy of years of pain ended in a moment of bliss. Something so horrific you can’t escape the grasp of that lures you in with lies. The promise to temporarily escape the hell you’re living in only to rip the soul out of so many amazing fucking kids before they could ever experience the beauties of life so many take for granted. So many amazing people live through fucking hell everyday. If you’re reading this and you know that feeling, I promise you, if you don’t give up and you keep fucking fighting no matter how many times you’ve been beat down over and over, you can get through this shit. And PLEASE, if you have any time sober at all and you relapse, TAKE A VERY SMALL TEST SHOT. Your tolerance can drop significantly in a short amount of time and with the amount of fentanyl in dope now, you have no idea how strong your shits gonna hit you. Every single person I’ve lost to overdoses has died from the first shot they took after having some time sober.
From burning to shivering, screaming agony is replaced with hollow emptiness. Living through this life seeing red as a means of generating will is a quick way to crash and burn. Perseverance means nothing if no one lets you out of the endless maze. Sometimes God is the only way out. That’s all.
I love the idea, and it's, kind of, the dark side of those happy techno goofy cartoony emotes that promoted pill use in the early 90's. Loving your comeback, guys, keep it up!
I still miss you all so much! My greatest friends. My people who were dying in the streets, i miss you so much. My love is with you forever while I am still alive.
1 year sober off opioids, but the feeling I might be gone soon still persists, but fuck it I only have this one live and i will let myself be free. staying strong till the end is all it matters!
and also, dont let the cylce of pain lead you back to this shit. find a new valve, me after getting sober got into grafitti and urbanex, so i still got that adrenaline tingle, which is much more profound than any other fake-ass opioid "highs". just stay safe and keep on living!
This is absolutely fucking chilling. Opioids are the fucking devil. Stay safe out there, Test your drugs Don't get high alone or with people you don't trust I love you.
I'm not a drug addict, but the clip hooked me with the fact that it personifies me last year. I've been lonely all my life, and for a second it seemed to me that I found people who understand and maybe even like me, but it all ended so quickly, since my social skills leave a lot to be desired and a few months ago I was diagnosed with schizotypal disorder and other, I am addicted to the past like drugs, I cant forget everything that happened to me, I get drunk in hope that I will finally accept the past and move on, It doesn't help. This world has come up with a cure for drug addiction, but alas, there is no cure for loneliness yet ..
stay strong, i'm of course just an other lonely stranger, but it kinda feels nice sometimes to think about other lonely people out here, listening to same music and shit
The booze will make your emotions and thoughts worse. Please, try and stop if you can. I went through the same situation and the booze made me more depressed and suicidal.
"Fires in Heaven" is such an awesome album that I have listened it for 100+ times, and I still can't get enough of it. In this album there are very, very beautiful songs, and DieWithMe is one of my favourites. You have a great talent, and I very much hope that you will continue to explore the beauty of sound and keep making new music! I can't wait to hear it!
This song and video definitely hit home, not with pills but cocaine felt so good first couple times then I got hooked on it and started getting that terrible crash of cocaine every time, leaves you so insanely depressed when you’re hooked. It was a nightmare but I am glad I overcame that
@@junny3000 man there’s just always that one person who thinks they know it all. I shared MY story. I wasn’t using it every other week it was a daily thing for me and not little key bumps I was going big on it losing sleep, not eating, feeling confused at work, everything felt fake because of the amounts I’d consume losing sleep makes you feel like shit and sad combine it with cocaine there you go mr know it all want more from my experience? I got tons more lmk I can tell you about the harsh withdrawals you get too
@@junny3000 haha I like how you deleted your comment did you realize you were wrong there buddy? I don’t have to answer your ignorant questions apparently you know it all don’t you? You should know what they’re like
Maybe this doesn't make a lot of sense, but I also link the visuals with my obsessive love disorder. Everytime I really get infatuated with someone, start thinking about them on the daily and glorifying their personality. After they are just unavailable or nothing comes out of it, and I feel hopeless. Obsession like addiction tries to fill a void, which can never be fixed unless you live a life by the schedule and not think too much about it. I find myself in the midst of this cycle again. I don't know if I will be with this person in particular, probably not, but I just hope that when I come back to this song again and see what I've written I would have changed and would have let myself be free. I hate existence so much, it only brings me pain...
Be a well, not a bucket. A bucket always takes, a well always gives. When you're a bucket, you get addicted to people easily because you feel empty without their nourishment.
ну только отцы вича могли выдать такой стопителлинг, визуал, в нем видно каждого из нас на определенном этапе нашей жизни, мрачновата концовка правда🖤☠️
I think its depicting how at first oxy is one of the greatest feelings but after years of abuse it begins to weigh on you physically and mentally hence the pill getting sicker
@@asifvomit it's damn hard :-( It only takes a 2 day relapse for me to have withdrawals. 2 days to ruin 10 days of utter suffering withdrawal :-( or I will spend 2 months tapering right down to a tiny dose. But then I will have like 3 days of weakness and the entire taper is wasted :-(
@@mikesully110 It happens man. Reality hit back to me on Tuesday and yes, had the withdrawals too. Didnt know much of what happened within the 2 days. Stay strong buddy. We'll get through this.
Starts off as if an happy-go-lucky humpty-dumpty is having a morning walk and ends up as a death-row walk wallowing in despair and regret. Misery abounds > now that's SALEM! (probably the gloomiest track off of 'Fires in Heaven' alongside "Crisis".)
2 weeks ago my best friend overdosed smoking heroin cut with fentanyl, he's okay but only because I was here and called 911. I've spent sleepless nights just sitting and staring, scared that a friend is gonna stop breathing after they smoked 8 pills in 2 hours. Fentanyl fucking terrifies me, and I hate seeing what it's done to people I care about. I've gone thru heroin addiction, but this shit is on a whole different level.
Please get fentanyl tests for your drugs and be careful guys. Almost lost my sister to opioid addiction three times in a year. I'm glad I didn't lose her but some people really do lose them.
