Schizophrenia/Bipolar People Please Help Me Out. I'm Going Insane 

There’s highs and lows with these disorders. Just know the cloud eventually go away and it’s never forever.

You're stronger than you realize, and there is hope for healing and finding stability.

do the best you can, you do have friends, it's not an easy road, (I shld know) been hospitalized three times and it never gets easier. please keep making videos, let us know how you are.

I got C OVID three times and since then my brain seems foggier and I seem to have worse short term memory. A lot of people are calling this Long C OVID.

I'm constantly checking the time, I have a journal where I write everything I do in because I dissociate a lot. I also have these like visions of the future and things I need to do and its genuinely terrifying.

The psych ward room in California you gotta share a room and you sleep on a bed that is hard as a rock and they make you wear disposable scrubs unless you bring your own shit and all night you hear somone screaming down the hall and security running to see what the fuck is going on and the food taste like shit it’s basically like being in jail and we are in a locked unit with security all over the place it’s basically jail and that’s how they want it to feel like is being in fucking county jail im use to it though because iv been in so many of them.

My bro has schizophrenia and I now how it affects his cognitive skills,.but the meds also contribute to memory loss and brain function big time

Often when I try to recall things from earlier in the day it will seem as though the memory is hazy and feels as though I wasn't in control of myself and can't remember LARGE portions of time. I'm diagnosed bipolar with ptsd

Man I’m only 20 years old and I’ve been in and out of psych wards and er since I was 13 just got out of one in January I have the same thing as you and I have autism as well I’m based out of California I used to be very violent and I tried to kill myself 2 years ago and I was going to back in January then I was very agitated in the er back in January they said if i come back to the psych ward that they would be conserved and be put in a long term mental hospital cuz this was my 2 hospitalizations within 3 months and my 5th er visit within 3 months I’ve gotten kicked out of 2 schools due to my mental health sometimes Im currently living in a group home had to move out of my apartment cuz I couldn’t take care of myself and my family couldn’t handle me so I couldn’t move in with them and I can’t afford it anymore cuz California rent is higher than the sky I’ll prob be back in the ward in a few months like I said I’m always in and out of the er and psych wards I really want to be a nurse but haven’t gotten my high school diploma yet I was supposed to graduate in 2021 but never showed up to school so I got held back and when I did show up I always ditched campus or ended up destroying a classroom or got in a fight so I got kicked out In 2022 and sent to a adult sped program but got kicked out of that as well because of my behavior issues and I would hardly show up and when I did I got in trouble so i just go to this day program rn for adults 18 and older with developmental disabilities I have autism and schizophrenia bipolar and anxiety and adhd.

Meds most likely, although you didn’t say which you take. Have you heard of Dr Chris Palmer from Harvard, and his book Brain Energy? He treats conditions like yours.

I need to journal. Enjoy listening☺

I have imagined that people have said things to me and they stated that they never said the things I thought they said in the first place, also I dont forget what Im talking about in conversations with people but unlike you I am not able to organize my thoughts and speak coherently in for example a RU-vid video.

Please give an update on what your doc says

I hear voices more then I see things and I get paranoid and I get really angry real fast and I have manic episodes I use to be really violent I would attack people at school and I’ve had people call the cops on me before cuz of how violent I got and I used to get mad and break things iv broken windows destroyed classroom and gone after people I don’t do that shit any more unless I’m really mad or out of it I still get mad and throw things though the other day I had food I didn’t like and I ended up going ballistic and throwing it and I get really angry and cuss out people then sometimes I’m up every hour of the night can’t sleep I get really fidgety and trying to think of things I gotta do and I get real restless as well that shit all happens when I’m off my meds it takes awhile for it to kick in right away that’s why it’s so important for me to take my medicine so I don’t go bonkers