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imagine having to be stuck in your house and in your own head space during quarintene, god bless you.

I couldn’t even imagine the internal battle this young mans fighting every day

I wish I could hug him. I hope he’s doing ok today

I can't believe nowadays people use schizophrenia as a joke when it's a real thing people suffer from. I hope you're doing alright bro

When the voice told him to kill himself and he said “sometimes I debate if I should or not” :(((

Crazy how he knows the voices are not real but he can still hear them

"trying to make light of the situation" was a really good pun

This is no joke.. I respond to things that others can’t hear or see.. sometimes I have to analyze the situation to see if what I’m experiencing is actually real or in my mind. I do jump while I’m in bed because I feel stuff walking on my bed. I had to learn to not respond out loud to whatever I’m hearing. It is exhausting to have what most people consider a normal day. Praying for you.

My grandpa was schizophrenic and went blind so he would have yelling arguments with people and i felt bad for him because he truly couldn’t tell if the people were there or not.

The craziest thing to me is that his own brain is doing it to him, almost like he is in a constant battle with himself. He listens even though his mind is creating these voices.

My son has been battling with schizophrenia for over 12 years. He turns to drugs to try to feel normal....that's what he says. If I could switch places with my son, I would do it in a heartbeat. He's been in and out of treatment for years, nothing has changed. I wish the Canadian government would do more for anyone dealing with mental illnesses. What I've learned is that my son is just a number....so sad! I hope my son gets the help he needs before I die 😢

You are incredibly brave for making this and allowing us a glimpse or what you're dealing with. Thank you so much for sharing brother. You are loved by many

Who else found this in recommended and clicked on it instantly Wow thanks for the likes

U can see in his eyes when he’s hearing the voices

It is actually so crazy how people can life with this. After listining to an Simulator it geniuently seems like a horror movie. Mad respect for everyone who manages to have a semi-normal life

I feel like schizophrenic people are lucid enough to see their own life from a 3rd person angle while having unstable thoughts like... its mind blowing

Don't ever kill yourself! You're stronger than the voices.

The fragility of the human brain is scary, sad and fascinating at the same time.

Truly thank you for this video. My husband has schizoaffective disorder and when he goes through an episode- you being able to put into words what you are currently hearing helps me understand what he goes through. He’s expressed in the past that he’s heard almost the same exact things. His common one that he has is that someone is following him or stalking him. When he’s in a bad episode he’ll go catatonic. It’s truly a nerve wracking thing. I can’t even imagine what it’s like to be the one experiencing it so thank you for sticking around to tell us your story. I know this video is from a few years ago, but I saw that you’re still active on here and that made me happy. When you said that the one voice said to unalive yourself the expression you had on your face was one I’ve seen on my husband’s one too many times. So thank you for sticking around. Thank you for not giving into those voices. Again, I can’t imagine what you go through on a daily, but as someone that is a partner to someone with a form of schizophrenia, it means a lot that you keep pushing and that you’re on meds. The fact that you’re also pretty aware of it helps too I’m sure. At least it helps my husband.

I’m so sorry, kiddo. My son was recently diagnosed. My heart goes out to you and your family. This is very brave of you to share, and is helpful to me as a support person for my son. Thank you with all of my heart. I wish you tons of great things on your recovery journey. ❤

the way he was talking sounds like he’s trying to ignore another loud voice talking to him and he keeps losing his train of thought and that is so scary to me

Such a nice kid I feel so bad he’s gotta deal with this constantly.

My grandmother has Schizophrenia. I love seeing people spreading awareness on this, no one understands her so she was appreciative to see someone shining light on this. Thank you.

I would just love to give you a big warm hug. You are so brave. Thank you for showing what is your experience of this awful illness.

This dude is so strong.

I can't even imagine living in constant anxiety...he should really have a service dog to help him or maybe a good friend to check on him everyday... :(

"I really debate if I should or not" that really made me sad.

Hope this young man is doing good this day and age!

It must be so weird for him to watch this footage, since it won’t contain anything of what he’s hearing in his head and the silence must be startling.

Imagine consciously staying lucid while your own mind is actively working against you. Your willpower is very impressive my man.

" sometimes i debate if i should or not " no, please youre amazing and you deserve to be here on this planet, please you make the world a better place and you spread awareness to the world. Dont listen to the voices🙏

KEEP POSTING MATE. YOU ARE NOT ALONE IN THIS ILLNESS. We are here for you. You have an army battling with you and supporting you. Letting people in to what is happening is the cleverest idea EVER. You are so smart to do this. Many brains are better than one!

This is a sane person with schizophrenia and he actually realizes it

Was with a friend who had a episode. He always heard his Mothers voice, he looked at me with pleading eyes and said, "Can't you hear her?" It broke my heart

You're such a sweet person. I'm so proud of you for fighting this everyday and yet still being such a light. Im rooting for you ❤

I am so impressed with your awareness and ability to cope with your illness. Putting yourself out here in such a vulnerable state is admirable. You are a strong young man that is clearly utilizing the tools and resources available to you and that is commendable. I realize this video is 5 years old but I intend to watch all of them and to follow along on your journey. Sending so much love and appreciation for your daily struggle. You're an amazing human. 💚💚

This poor baby is so brave. I couldnt do this. He is very strong.

He has the prettiest eyes but they are full of so much pain I feel for him

I have bad Anxiety and Moderate Depression (DNA) and PTSD from an event in my early 20's. THANK YOU FOR SHARING THIS! Mental Health is still too Taboo. WE MUST TALK ABOUT IT TO BREAK THE STIGMA!

Just discovered your channel now. My brother was schizophrenic throughout most of my life (sadly he passed a few years ago) and it wasn't easy watching him struggle. He was a very kind-hearted soul that was dealt a crap hand, and what he had to go through was anything but fair. Thank you for sharing your experience with us, I wish you all the best

Poor boy, I just want to hug and hold him. He is very brave.

To be honest I wanna be friends with him. He seems like a chill person.

You are the best and yes it was educational! Great job sharing and telling everyone what you’re going through. We all love you for who you are.

MUCH LOVE!! ive been through similar things during and shortly after bad psychedelic experiences. im rooting for you brother.

So I noticed this video was taken a year ago I certainly hope this young man is healthy and alive

This was taken two years ago, i hope he’s doing okay.

Thank you so much! I have a grandson with the same problem He talks to his voices It's a little scary but you are doing very well with the way you're handling it. Please don't ever try to kill yourself! Your whole life is ahead of you! Plus i imagine that you have many many people that love you! God bless you and keep you!

Dude, I'm sorry that you have to fight this difficult battle everyday in your life. Thank u for share this video and i hope one day this stop and you never can hear/see this situations anymore. Much love from Brasil to your heart! 🇧🇷❤️

For anyone wondering, those voices are loud and clear, the brain can generate sensory inputs from within that are even clearer than those from your ears

The fact that you’re aware that you’re having an episode and talking about it is amazing Edit: I have learnt a lot more about schizophrenia since I left this comment. This came from my personal experience and had no ill intent

Thanks for doing this. I'm extremely interested in psychology, specifically mental illnesses. I wish there was an easy cure for sufferers like yourself. Keep doing your thing and raising awareness

When he said the voice told him to kill himself my heart shattered

It's almost like schizophrenia is when a person's random, negative subconscious thoughts are run through an amplifier and brought to the level of their conscious thoughts.

I have Schizo also and one of the voice just said "we support you not turning off the recording software"

Thanks for the video, I too suffer from schizophrenia, meds made it worse and I've learned to tune the voices out and after lots of convincing I know the auditory voices aren't there but just in my head, no one understands or really knows the true extent of the things going on in the head, I now know I'm not the only one. Thanks, hope your able to find some peace

The look of discomfort on his face saddens me. He is very strong the way he talks him self through it.

Thank you for sharing to raise AWARENESS of this illness and let people see for themselves the reality of it. Stay STRONG brother keep pumping that hip hop

Thank you for sharing your thoughts and emotions in this situation. It's helpful to understand how a person with that disease feels

Seeing this helped me understand that there aren't crazy people, just crazy things happening to normal people. I hope he found some peace and tranquility

If i hear a voice shout "gotcha" behind me and it's not there, i would genuinely shit my pants. You're a brave, pure and funny human being. Much love man

I get what you mean I experienced the same kinda things and it is very helpful to watch this, really appreciate you and I hope you feel better

Thank you so much for your vulnerability. Thank you for putting yourself out to educate people. I hope you know how much this is helping

I work with schizophrenic folk all the time. Its very rare that people are this aware of their delusions. The amount of willpower this takes is far beyond anything I could even comprehend, you're strong dude. Keep that head up.

I want to be his friend really badly

Sadeness is a great song, super informative video, interesting perspective, thank you for uploading.

I'm so sorry you struggle with this. Please don't ever kill yourself!! You seem like an amazing guy. You've got a great personality, funny, friendly, caring & much, much more. Do you take medications for this? Do they help if/when you do? It sounds like you're close to your parents because you said you talk to them about it but if you ever need/want someone just to talk/chat with we could exchange emails, FB messenger, or thru here, although I don't know if we can chat thru here, I've never tried that :) Anyway, you're a very strong & brave guy with lots to offer this world & I wish you more good days than bad. 💕

I really want to give him a big hug. He is so strong.

Audio hallucinations are so much worse than visual hallucinations, this poor boy must be tormented.... what a scary thing the human brain is, I hope this kid gets all the help he can

Thank you for sharing such difficult content. You are brave and should be commended. I hope that you are in counselling. You're an amazing individual. Kudos!

I’m very happy you posted this my cousin is in the same boat. It started when he went to college. He is different though. Like the old cousin died and this new one emerged. He doesn’t want help and doesn’t believe he has it. I wish he would watch your videos. Just so he understood that he isn’t alone. He lives on the streets in Chicago somewhere now… 😢 I’m glad that you can make these videos so others can understand somewhat of how you guys are when you’re in it.

It takes some proper mental strength to talk and stay focused on a task during an episode. This dude is so strong I’m impressed

This kid has a enormous amount of strength to even talk about what he's going through. You'll find your happy place soon enough.

Keep your head phones on and the hope in your heart strong. Youre extremely self aware intelligent and brave. Youre honestly like a breathe of fresh air as much as it was heart breaking to watch. Stay strong❤

We have to do better!! This young man and others need us to do better!! I'm sorry. You're a brave and sweet young man. They are still treating this illness the same way with the same meds for 40 + years. We need to do better!! Thank you for sharing yourself with us so we can help learn how to help you!

he sounds so sweet and genuine. i just want to be his friend and give him a hug :(

Why is everyone getting recommended this now. It’s 1 am and this is so scary.

God bless your soul brother. Nothing else to say but a true WARRIOR. I hope you're keeping up the good fight sir

watching the whole thing now and this really is so heartbreaking..it’s not even living😞🖤I feel horrible for the people that have to go through things like that. you make me feel less alone🩷stay strong soldier💖

When he said “I don’t know why. There’s a lot we don’t know.” that broke my heart. I’m hoping one day we will know, and we can help.

"I should have written a script" --- no, you did great. And it was very honest. Thank you so much for sharing this with all of us.

I am sending love and saying prayers for your peace. My older brother also has schizophrenia and is now in his 70's. He was lucky enough to have a wonderful doctor who helped him become a sucessful in life. I hate that the voices are telling you to kill yourself, because life can get better. Please hang in there, and seak support when you need it. Also you are very corageous to be so open with your struggles, I doubt I could ever do something like that. Thank you for sharing, and I am sending love and saying prayers!

ur aware of ur episodes and that’s very good, this will help me understand how hard is it to live with schizophrenia

Why was everyone recommended this? Interesting to hear though.

Poor guy, I can’t even begin to imagine how horrible this must be to deal with on a daily basis.

Thanks for doing the video some of us not knowing what your going thru its hard but thanks for the video you are so brave going thru this

Thank you for your bravery and honesty! I wish you nothing but the best and I’m glad you’re still here with us. Please don’t ever harm yourself! You’re such a strong warrior!

The fact I can’t personally help him sucks.

U can literally see the sadness in his eyes

Watching his latest video from 10 days ago I couldn’t be happier to see him doing well ❤️

You’re so strong for making such a video and I’m so proud of you for trying to fight this. Much love

When he said that he's hearing voices telling him to kill himself but he doesn't and he says "i guess that's a good thing". Man, that's a real great thing. You're so strong to fight it off like that. I know it's hard not to listen to it but I'm proud of you holding on this long. You're doing great!💙

This guy is so tough mentally. My uncle got schizophrenia and killed himself. Its not easy when you have so much shit going on in your head. Stay strong man. The voices are real but you can fight back.

You're so strong. I pray good things come to you and you stay strong!

Thank you. My daughter is schizophrenic. This helps me as her mom to better understand. God Bless you.

You can really tell that this dude is trying to focus so hard on keeping a coherent train of thought. Interesting stuff.

I have a friend that has schizophrenia. Whenever he is having an episode, he would focus his attention on the time. He says that focusing on something that grounds him in reality really helps him to be able to stop focusing on what's in his head. Stay strong friend, much love.

Wow, i respect yiu so much for sharing it. I lived with someone who had schizophrenia. This will help others, and hopefully yourself. It's learning how to throw out all negative thoughts and embellish the positives and love. Very difficult. I wish you well

Oh honey.. your trying to fight it and that takes alot of courage and will power. Thank you for sharing this. God bless you sweetheart

This honestly terrifies me the most of all. Imagine hearing voices talking to you and turn around and there is nothing there what so ever. You are incredibly brave I I hope you stay strong

*uses a laser pointer* “I’m trying to make light of the situation” 💀