★ WATCH ALL OF THE GLOW UP DIARIES: bit.ly/37O0bX6 ABOUT: This is a 6 year docu-series of my coming of age story. I originally thought I would end this series after a few months but ugly truths unraveled as I went further into my glow up journey. I began recording the glow up diaries at 17 years old and finished when I turned 22 years old.
I feel like them being roommates wasn't great for either of them because their unhealthy beliefs about food were negatively effecting each other. No hate to either of them, that's just something i noticed.
totally agree i had the same type of friendship with my ex best friend and she ended up having anorexia and going to the hospital and i ended up with depression and psychiatry thinking it was my fault she got an ed
I binge watched this series like how she binge ate during this episode... Just kidding. I taught myself self-control (whether watching videos non-stop or binge eating). I fail sometimes but I'm doing good and getting better every day. Consistency is key (best line in the video).
@@feifeijay wow. How did you taught yourself? I tried stop binging and overeating for like 4 months, but I still fail and regret about my existence. Can you tell about your motivation or some tips to stop this circle?
People in the comments are saying that "oh she didn't have to loose weight, 123lbs is totally fine" yeah, sure, but it's not about her loosing weight... It's about her learning and understanding that healthy lifestyle isn't being skinny, having salads and fruits 24/7 and cutting off fast foods and sweets from your diet. It's a long and painful process but at the end of the day you learn to love yourself and understand what it really is about (hopefully). Also, Alivia I am so grateful I found your channel like 2 years ago when I became interested in stretching. I was around 16 at the time and I had no idea I would stay with you for so long. You motivate me to keep going even when it gets hard and I just wanna lay in my bed, binge eat and watch Netflix. I'm kinda in the same place as you are in those videos but now I can see my mistakes and hopefully stop them before it'll be too late. Lots of love ❤️
@@liarenne9087 she might not like how she looks or something like that, because we aren't her we don't know. Besides, if she isn't happy with her body, that isn't good, so if she is doing what she needs to do to make herself happy with herself, then let her. Its not like she is starving herself or anything, so she is fine.
@@liarenne9087 She had an unhealthy relationship with food and her weight. Instead of wanting to train her body and enjoy what it can do, she tried to lose weight. She has acknowledged it and that is what the series is about.
Last summer, I went on a pretty strict diet: I would eat oatmeal I'm the morning, go to the library till the evening and then eat dinner. Between that I wouldn't eat anything and only drink water. Because of this, I naturally lost a lot in only 2 weeks (~4/5 kgs) and I couldn't be happier. Them school began. In the beginning, I did pretty good; breakfast, bread for school and dinner. My weight loss was slower, but it still happened. And then my birthday came. I had deprived myself of sweets for so long that the thought of eating a cheesecake made me nauseous, but I still ate. And I ate and I ate. And that whole week this continues; I binged everything I was and, I'm return, worked out hours a day to burn it off. And I still gained weight. I was afraid I ruined it, so I almost quit. But I didn't. I saw one Instagram post: "a bad day doesn't equal a bad year" and it motivated me. I searched up more on healthy eating (all the good nutrients) and how to snack without feeling guilty. Now (2 months after the beginning) i have lost 6 kgs in a healthy way and allow myself sweets again. If I eat a cookie, so what??? It tastes good and makes me happy and it won't mess up my progress. Sometimes I still feel guilty, but it's starting to lessen and I feel better (and healthier!) Than ever before!
@@iwatchbtsoneshotsnowiamver3414 don't worry. If you want to eat, eat but in moderation. It's okay to binge. My binge periods continue for atleast a week. Haha. But after that I again start eating healthy, but I don't restrict myself.
This sounds like you and your mate developed a fully grown eating disorder at this point. I am studying psychology and an eating disorder is not distinguished by how skinny/obese you are or how little you are trying to eat. But how much your mind is occupied thinking about food and weight loss. How much thought and time it consumes. I hope you got professional help. I wish you all the best.
@Snow White no psychology takes in all variables possible. That’s just how diagnosing works. She had/has an eating disorder. Otherwise it would be a reductionist revision of the problem lovely.
@@peachesandcream8851 So from your comment I can tell that you didn’t really read what I was saying. I can also tell that you are either at the very beginning of your studies or you are lying. If otherwise please give me the name of your professor XD That you are suffering from an eating disorder and explaining the situation from your view just shows that you are biased from your own conditioning which is highly unprofessional. I explained what the variables of eating disorders are. I never said that one could just stop. So please inform yourself better the next time. And good luck with your studies and your own mental health.
@@peachesandcream8851 Also professional help is only support ne’er a cure. One is indeed able to cure a mental disorder by themselves, that’s what they to with professional help as well. Eating disorder doesn’t always mean anorexia or underweight. There is a difference between the physical act of disordered eating which can quickly become an obsession of your thoughts influencing occupying nearly all aspects and actions in your life. That’s an eating disorder.
I’m actually shocked to say that when I watched your last episode I haven’t purged since?? I’m recovering from bulimia and I’ve started eating again in healthy amounts and I’m honestly astonished that watching one of your videos would make my mindset flip into something that’s healthier than what it has been in all my previous attempts of recovery. I even had a cupcake last night because I remembered you saying that refusing brings obsession. You have no idea what this means for me, thank you so much for documenting your journey! I find so many points in this series that I was doing that I had no clue how to fix and some that I didn’t even realize I was doing. You’re literally my life saver. Thank you❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
Omg, Im so glad ur better just keep on trying! I'm tryna loose weight, not much but a bit to feel more confident. These videos helped me a lot too and especially realising it's not that from one day on ur eating completely healthy but that it's normal to have bad days and binges and you can still reach your goal. Good luck, you can do this!💖💖💖
me: watching a video about eating healthier and exercising the video's ads: "indulge in the rich creaminess of Lindt Dark Chocolate Lindor Truffles, crafted to perfection"
@@indi5040 ikr I saw one with tons of ice cream with so many unhealthy toppings and I felt such a huge cravin like I want to lose weight and eat healthy but Im like surronded by unhealthy food
Interesting that she mentions that she CANT workout at night. I absolutely cannot workout in the morning, I have no motivation or muscle energy. I find that I’m much more motivated and limber at the end of the day. 🤷🏼♀️
I run towards the jeep terminal and towards the school gate when my class starts at 5 AM. LOOOOLL. That's how I lose weight naturally. 😂😂 I also ride bike when buying school supplies and when I forgot to buy something I go back again. 😂😂 It's like it's natural for me. Maybe I'm happy doing those things? 😅 I Don't really have skin care routine, I always drink water and wash my face with water now and then. But my skin doesn't have much pimples. I guess it's about habit.
as a past, and sometimes present, binge eater, i can tell you its living hell. you don’t eat during the day, feeling tired as hell, and then come home to eat so much food you feel awful and like you’re going to throw up. it’s a continuous pattern of bad coping mechanisms and feeling awful about yourself afterwards. to everyone out there who’s struggling with an eating disorder, it seems like it’ll never end. but one day it will. so keep on pushing through life because you are beautiful and strong. ♡
thank you:( im in the cycle of starving myself and later on binging for a few days then repeating the process. it makes me hate myself and its so hard to imagine that i could get to the point one day where i have a balanced diet
Ikr. I weight more than that and i feel totally fine. And i go to the gym and everything. I think weight is not that important. When you gain muscle you weight more that when there is fat in ur body.
Honestly, how she interacted with her roommate reminds me of pro-ana forums. Obviously, there’s a difference between someone who’s very impacted by diet culture like she is and someone who’s genuinely ill, but the fact that there are so many similarities is so scary.
Finally, someone said it. A lot of people think the toxicity started in season 2 because that’s when she got backlash. But, rewatching these now, they are screaming toxic diet culture disguised as wellness. I’m sure she meant well, but this is not advice to be followed. It didn’t start in season 2. It was here all along, and we were all too young and impressionable to see it.
I cannot express how similar this experience was to me. I wanted to lose weight so I dieted and went too far and then gave into temptations. I started again new every Monday and starved then failed. Eventually I starved for a period of time lost a lot of weight and then binged the hell out. And I binged so hard all the time and just forgot how to eat normally
Yeah. This is my current situation. It is so depressing. Can't believe im wasting my adolescent years crying about my weight. I had tried to reach for help. Yet, nothing seems to work. " You just need to stop eating too much. " I really hope it is that easy.
Had also a similar one, one day I was just so over it, I ate everything to the point that I didnt have a sense if I’m hungry or not and then because of Ramadan i realized that I don’t need that to be happy and i started to eat what I want when I want but because I allow myself everything I can control it and don’t even want to eat shit all day and stuff myself with food
may quilter but that is the opposite of what she has intended with showing this. She wants people not to make the same bad decisions she made. Please be healthy and eat enough and in moderation.
Alivia, even though you stumble and mess up throughout your glow-up journey, I am still so inspired watching you venture through these struggles and giving us motivation to continue living a healthy lifestyle! You taught me how to achieve my front walkover and my scorpion, you helped me with cutting out excessive sugar out of my diet, you showed me that anyone can accomplish anything if they have the will to do it! Love you xx
"Wait until tomorrow when you get on the scale." I used to tell myself something very similar every time I put something in my mouth. This led to crash dieting, mild anorexia, and excessive fasting.
i hope you know that you dont have to call your illness 'mild' (unless you really feel like it was that way), if it hurt you, you're allowed to call it severe 💗💗
At one moment this episode got me to tears. I've been overweight all my life except for when I was a child. Losing weight is a really hard thing to do, especially mentally. The mental struggle to be the boss of yourself and to eat healthier and workout more is really, really, hard.Especially if you're used to eating more and not knowing when to stop. I really like watching your videos Alivia because they motivate me to change every day. I really hope one day I will lose weight to be healthy, be happy and wear the clothes I want to wear. But the biggest goal is for me to feel more confident! Being overweight stops me from being the real me, when in public, with friends or family. I hope one day I can comment again and say I lost weight and that I feel so much happier. One day!
I believe in you! Don't give up. I know it can be a tough toll on you, but the outcome will be worth it. Remember, learn to have a balanced lifestyle.. don't do the crazy "diets." You got this!
I'm crying reading this. I actually was skinny till I was 11/12 but then slowly slowly I started to gain weight & now I'm 19 & I'm overweight. I don't feel confident in front of people & feel hesitant always to express myself. I had tried to lose weight last year. It was going well for a whole month & I even lost weight, only with a few changes in my meal. But then there were family programs so I lost the control and started eating food with much calories & felt guilty & eventually I stopped doing the things I used to do. I felt like I would never be able to lose weight and this makes me feel like shit. Also people here judge u so much that makes it even worse. I just hope I'll be able to lose weight & get a healthy body. Although I don't eat food from outside often still I gained weight maybe cz I eat rice and all so :)
god I was so confused because she was talking about Halloween and November and stuff and I'm just like but its still October 4th? And then I realized this was from last year
“does anyone see this” Me: converts 123 lbs to 55 kg Me: realising that I weigh like 10 kgs more. Me: am I fat? love urself and stream chicken noodle soup.
It starts with restriction then it goes to binging and if you don’t stop it next think you know it’s purging and once you get there you are risking your happiness and your life. So don’t get there if you are in this situation, please don’t get there.
i've binged watched this entire series in one day so far and uh i've had so much water because every time you say to get up and get a glass of water i have lmao
She has rlly helped me feel more confident. Although this is about weightloss, this video made me more confident and determined to finish the rest if my end of year exams. I already feel like i flunked almost everything but she just lit up that spark of hope that i can do well and im gonna try .Thank you so muchhhh:) Edit:Wow never expected thus many like...:)
junk food isn’t even all that. the way i limit myself from eating processed food is by not introducing myself to them😂 the less candy bars i know the less i’ll eat them lol
Periodt, i really disliked junk food and candy as kid but because everybpdy liked it and I wanted to fit in i started eating it... worst desicion ever.
i've had that kind of relationship with friends. you try and motivate each other but when both of you think its healthy and helping each other and genuinely dont realise you're harming each other, it can be bad
just know that: whenever you’re hungry, IT’S A GOOD THING !! because it means that your metabolism is high! and to stay high, you have to EAT so that it stays high!!! it’s a really good thing to eat when you’re hungry! and it’s normal
not at all, feeling hungry is from hormone 'ghrelin', it also promotes fat storage. always eating when you're hungry is a good way to gain weight. if you eat a lot of carbs, you get insulin spikes which also promotes fat storage.. so if you eat more times a day, your insulin on average is higher. metabolism is just the breakdown of food to be used as energy, it has less to do with whether you feel hungry or not. if you want to make it faster, you need to eat a proper diet, and become move active. Protein takes longer to burn so you dont need as much of it, and fat gives twice as much energy, so you dont need as much of it. carbs does the opposite.. of course having protein,fat + exercise will help you build more muscle which also increases metabolism.
저스틴 학습 한국어 100% agree apart from the eating when you’re hungry is a good way to lose weight. most ppl listen to their hunger cues and you should listen to your hunger cues e.g. intuitive eating. yes you shouldn’t eat mindlessly but you shouldn’t ignore your body when you’re hungry and go starving
@@kelsey2425 "hunger" cues happen when your body is expecting food, not when your body needs food. if you change your eating habits, the hunger cues change as well, its not static but dynamic. starving, more specifically starvation is a word describing something long term.. not over a few hours or 1-2 days. Skipping breakfast doesnt mean starvation.. We wouldnt have gotten to where we are today as humans if we were never able to go days without eating because the fridge didnt exist, thousands of years ago.
I like how she still acknowledged how for her working out at night didnt work but for others it did because personally, working out at night has been helpful for me personally and helping me sleep earlier and waking up earlier to finish schoolwork instead of staying up until 3am every night.
this is so real and authentic, i sit here and when you binge or this and that... i know exactly how you feel. I will keep going, i can do this but sometimes... your videos are the last motivation, i need before almost giving up x
I'm probably not the first person to say this but: "it's hard the first time. hard again the second. But it gets easier. after 10 times, it feels like you're unstoppable."
This reminds me so much of my addiction to alcohol. It's like at some point you start to laugh off your addiction as a quirky personality trait and others will too...until it hits a certain point.
alivia has showed that the glow up diary doesn't only change the way I look but it also change my negative thoughts of my body and motivate me to love myself more and belive in myself . thankyou so much for bringing the glow up diary to us alivia
I have an activity watch that every hour says “move” and whenever i just sit and watch tv, youtube, netflix etc. I get up for 5 minutes and walk, do squats, etc for those 5 minutes. And after i drink a glass of water.
I started slowly, taking out something every week I started off with soda. My family drank lots! Let me tell you you forget about the soda right after supper. I noticed the difference after a couple weeks.
This came at the perfect time I’ve had a bad day and I ate all my feelings I had : 3 big tubs of Pringle s 4 packs of Oreos Box of brownies Bowl of french fires And a jam donuts Sadly I’m not lying Bear in mind I’m barely 5 ft tall
thats the thing about binge eating or having bad eating habits in general. theres only black or only white. no grey. you either eat too much or too little. its fucking awful.
its crazy how people hate that these videos are "triggering "but if people really wanna act like they didnt read the title it clearly says DIARIES NOT GUIDE so ya'll dont have to even click it if you read the title. good luck with everyons journey dont shoot someone elses down because YOU gave in to YOUR cravings. Be strong than that. Much Love to Alivia! Girl your doing great keep it up!!
Your rant at the end was so uplifting, and you and your roommate are hilarious. I know this video will help a lot of people who are struggling! It’s so well edited ahhh this is amazing
this is seriously one of the best series on youtube- i love how honest you are in showing us the real struggles of weight loss and helping all of us by seeing that were not alone in our struggles
Just crying... This motivation was really a therapy for me... I was regretting about my habit of binge eating and getting trapped in vicious cycle.. I am so much in love with this girl.... Thanks alivia🥺❤
I've been trying to overcome my binge eating for 5 years now. I'm still fighting. You make me not wanna give up, i recently lost 60 pounds but I still see my old body, and I can't get out of it. I'm hoping to heal soon but your channel makes it a bit easier!! Thank you Alivia
It just came to me that your voice overs give off real strong Michelle Phan vibes ❤️ and I looooove it 👌🏻❤️ so happy you’re continuing your glow up diary videos
as many times as these videos trigger my eating disorder, i always push through because i see how strong you are. i see myself in you when you’re struggling but to see your mindset change and talking about the process/end goal is so inspiring and makes it all worth it. thank you ❤️
I love watching Alivia's glow up series, I watched it n times, over and over again, never sick of it, its like watching another you, a sister you never had (I never had basically) who 100% understands what you are going through, went through it, and can give you advice needed. Please never stop this glowing up diaries and forever continue it! Love to see endless seasons of it :)
Thank you for making these diaries it’s currently 1:00 am if you’re living in la atm and uploading and editing takes so long, I know, so appreciate all these videos despite all the other extra stuff in your life😁🌞
I love that she's not one of those influencers who only give recipes and exercice tips when filming a video about weight loss. She helps us grow a stable and healthy mind set that we need in our life
I absolutely love Alivia but this is not a stable and healthy mindset. I know from experience as it is basically a mirror image of how I was a few years ago too.
When ever I watch your video, I always cry and it hurts so much because I am dealing with the same things. Thank you because now I don’t feel like I am struggling alone in this world.
I really did started my healthy life style since i started watching you i lost 3 kilos in holiday and than school starts.... I eat alot but i didnt gain a thing its because i lost it in a good way its just i dont feel good and always tierd .. im backing on track this month and wish me luck 💕
Alivia is outdoing herself with the editing omg 🥰 i don’t think she realises how much this series is helping a load of us, I’m hooked, inspired and moved. I relate to her so so much (I’m overweight though, so I’m aiming to look like her). PLEASE CONTINUE TO DO THESE OMG THEY ARE SO SO SO MOTIVATIONAL AND SOMEHOW EDUCATIONAL 🤩
i teared up because i spent the last two weeks straight up binging and almost convincing myself that i'm gonna end up stuck in this forever and never ever get the body,skin,grades, and life i wanted...but when you said that you had it all in your head " i just knew there was light at the end" part hit me so hard...? You've always and still are inspiring me to do better and i re-started working on myself NOW. I'll go wash my face and drink water, finish my hw and re-write in my journal... Thank you Alivia, keep fighting, inspiring and glowing up...
YOU ARE AMAZING. I recently fully turned my life into health/fit lifestyle, and feel like i’m literally watching myself. you encounter the exact same situations i do, and to learn from everything you do, has seriously helped me so much. i’m obsessed with this serious and keep coming back to it when i need to. every time something different stands out depending on what i’m currently going through. thank you so much for sharing you journey with us. the good and bad, since it’s all normal and experienced by us all. you are amazing!!!! :)
