Hey , i don't know if i'm reading the topic of the vent correctly , but im taking a guess bc the song choice , i am so terribly sorry you went through something like this, i genuinely hope you are doing better, and that you can have the resources and support you need to heal from this , stay strong
While I'm not 100% sure whats happening in this vent but I'm sorry that what I think happened to you happened to you and I hope you can recovrr from it.