So, I’m in Hypomania | Hypomanic Episode Caught on Camera 

My daughters hypomania starts with irritability. If I can get her to nap sometimes that stops the cycle. She has not been able to keep a job because the stress brings on psychosis. Please take care of yourself.

Several years before I was diagnosed with BP2, I attended an entire job interview in this state. I talked for an hour and the interviewers never got a question in. At the end, one of the interviewers said that I sounded manic. This stuck with me and kept coming back in my thoughts and eventually I self-diagnosed and approached a psychiatrist who was outstanding. Like you, I still have no idea whether I am depressed or hypomanic and people have trouble understanding that. Occasionally I do. What still amazes me, is that out of all those people who have known me all my life (and I was diagnosed at 55), not a single one noticed that I was bipolar. BTW thanks for letting me see you when hypomanic - it helps me see how people must see me when I am in that state.

This makes me feel significantly less alone I see people with “mania” and it doesn’t seem like the way I experience it I hope you can calm down and not crash

Thank you so much for this glimpse into what hypomania is like for you! I've learned so much from the videos you took while you were in depressive episodes, so it was fascinating to see what comes before that. It's really cool that you realized what was happening in time to catch it on camera. What stood out to me the most was how much faster than usual you spoke - it gave me a good idea of how fast your brain is moving too, with nothing else being fast enough for it. It was also interesting to hear about your conflicting feelings of wanting to harness the hypomania vs. wondering if you should try to slow down. And I cackled so loud at that bee joke XD I hope you're having a blast at Katsucon, and that the combination of post-con depression and depression from this episode isn't too terrible. Thank you so much again for sharing this!

Wow… this just made me feel so seen bc this is EXACTLY what my hypomania is like. I do find it interesting though that you said you don’t usually realize when you’re hypomanic because for me I can always tell. The thing I don’t realize in the moment though is how annoying I’m being… and then once I’m depressed I look back at myself and I’m like god I was unbearable wasn’t I 😅

Pressured speech, it happens and these things do come in cycles. Best of luck! Hoping for the best experience at the festival. I don't have bipolar disorder as I didn't meet the criteria for it, but I do have a history of childhood asthma. Even as an adult, I sometimes need an inhaler and strong Corticosteroids to loosen me up because the coughing spells become intense. However, these things induce hypomania (and sometimes the full-blown thing in the case of IV SoluMedrol) and life simply feels so "fast". Likewise, the irritability is unreal and horrifying. However, in these scenarios, it's either hypomania or not breathing for me.

Having the knowledge that you're slipping into hypomania is such a great skill to have.

Always try your best to slowdown otherwise mania can get out of control. I went completely off a rails. My mind and body was not in my control. People had to physically stop me. Now I'm in the deep depression phase but I will take this depression over mania any day.

Thank you for sharing. This part made me laugh because it is so relatable: "Except for the dawning horror of the depression that is coming..."

hit the nail on the head. just found you. my friend just asked me what mania is and i tried my best but this is exactly. love you❤.

Im trying to type this as fast as I can! Also thanks for sharing and if you crash later we will be here for you. Have a lovely con! 😊

I’m so sorry for you. I totally and completely get it. I have hypomania as well as severe depression and mixed episodes. I don’t know if I’ve ever spoke as quickly as you are speaking, but you would have to ask friends and family members to be sure but I know what it feels like just a couple days ago. I literally felt like done three lines of cocaine or something, and I felt it on my insides. It felt like my insides were just gonna burst, I was just gonna burst open because I was so high but I don’t. I actually hate the feeling so that’s where I’m a little different as I actually hate that feeling. I think I usually get a little bit more energy before like you did there’s a little warning sign that’s coming on. That does feel good. I’m more productive and then I go into this drugged feeling but I got lucky yesterday or a couple days ago and it only lasted like a day, and then I take during these episodes. I take extra Valium so that I calm down. I know take a little bit and if that doesn’t work and a couple hours, I take a little bit more until it kind of pulls me down to a point where I’m calmer and it’s not as severe that way, and it really helps me get through the high but like you I dread the low because it’s so debilitating you’re so depleted of energy and I get that part too, so frustrating to live this way up and down up and down and the low is so low that you just can’t do anything. You’re so exhausted out like brushing your teeth feels like too much so I live like that most of the time unfortunately and then I get a high and I get a few things done and then not nearly enough, but then I go back to the low, so sorry you’re having to deal with this Nuro feedback is really helpful for me. I use lens LENS feedback and that has been really helpful. I didn’t. I don’t necessarily recommend any other type of Nuro feedback because the lens reads your brain waves in real time and gives it back to your brain and brain knows how to self correctso that has been the biggest help for me because I couldn’t tolerate. It made me a zombie on like a quarter of a starting dose like I’m so sensitive to medication so anyway thanks for sharing your hypomania. It’s really nice to see that. I’m so sorry for you but it’s nice to see that I’m not alone. Thanks for sharing.

Thank you for posting and sharing your journey!

I am literally the exact opposite of this. I wonder if there is some kind of mental disorder/illness that causes you to want everything to slow down because I feel like everything (including my brain) is going WAY too fast and it constantly is giving me anxiety and panic attacks

When Things Go Wrong by Airwave may not be the most manic of songs, but it has this backing rapid ticking beat throughout most of the song (and right at the start if you're just curious) that may just help when you need something ticking fast while still being fun to listen to.

I feel not alone after this and I listened to everything you said

I can recommend psycore, specifically “FraktOsos Sucio & Hediondo Dj Set,” and then playing around with the playback speed to give it more of a mathcore feel

Misery business by Paramore and dancing is healing by Charlotte Plank, Rudamental and Vibe Chemistry

I have been questioning recently if I have bipolar type 2. Since treatment resistant depression in a study I read recently has a like a 40-60% chance of being bipolar 2 or has components of bipolar disorder and the drugs I am on and are mostly working are a mix that could be given to someone with bipolar. I also have a diagnosis of generalized anxiety disorder and ADHD combined type. This video helped me realize that my bursts of energy and want to clean, get stuff done and want to not sit still is more likely a symptom of adhd combined with anxiety and my depression being lifted enough that day vs actual hypomania since it lacks the dangerous impulsiveness, desire for the world to move faster and I am always aware of it happening. Sooo...if it is hypomania it is a more subdued form which I suppose could be the case but it is more a desire of I feel good today and more like myself and like I can focus and accomplish things so I need to do as much as possible while i am feeling good because I spend so many of my days having no spoons and having so much fatigue.

Drug Me by Dead Kennedys may sound "normal" at times like this. So what do you do? Is there a "compressor/limiter" medicine you can take when you need it? How do you keep your mood within a livable bandwidth? I wish you the best.

The problem is how to stop when you actually can't...for the firs time I saw how I really look during hipomanic episodes 😅 thank you Kit❤

I get hypomanic after an overwhelming event happens. I guess it's my way of coping(?) Also, when I'm hypomanic, it's a super sudden switch, and I stop fearing danger. Once, I actually SH-ed while hypomanic, and it felt great..I'm so confuseddddd..

Do you find that a combination of: 1. Doing something physical and useful (such as gardening), to burn off the adrenaline 2. Consciously trying to relax, such as deep slow breaths, letting the stream of consciousness float past, some tense-and-relax muscles. 3. Using an emotions wheel to identify your underlying emotions, and the reasons for them. 4. Giving yourself permission to sleep as soon as you start to come down. Reminding yourself that you WILL overshoot a wee bit into depressed, but only for a short time. 5. Letting yourself ride out these oscillations gently, like the bounces in car suspension when you go over a big speed bump. Helps to stop this escalating? I don't have ScAD, but I do have an up and down personality. And learning, as an adult how to manage this, rather than suppressing it as taught by my steady, level, unsettled by it, mother, has helped immensely. I can now safely ENJOY the highs, when I'm really flying, without bad lows following. Still need to work on awareness of pressured speech though.

it's because mania feels good. AND People don't wasn't to think that feeling better is a BAD thing.

You sound pretty cogent. Would you argue that hypomania could actually be a beneficial state relatively speak to a disorganized state?

I wonder if omega 3 supplement or MCT oils might help support and soothe the brain during a hypo mania? (Also amino acids/pork fat)

My meds are working i havent been manic in awhile. Except when im high off weed it makes me manic. But im no longer going to be able to smoke weed in two weeks and ill be drug tested i need to be clean beforehand

is it linked to diet somewhat? if you avoid sugar, simple carbs or processed food does that make a difference?

I actually transform into a hulking green giant as the result of an accidental overdose of gamma radiation.

I got 50 out of 50 on the bipolularity test. And I'm scared that I'm going to be bi polar even tho I know I am cause I act like this a lot

Pressure from 'normal' people demanding that 'you need to calm down' (primarily because THEY'RE unsettled by your mania) is awful. I learned to understand and manage myself better by DELIBERATELY going to an exciting rugby game most weeks. So I had a stimulant/trigger that I could control, and that didn't really matter. I learned my cycle of: Saturday: high Sunday: still high, but brittle Monday: feel normal, BUT... Tuesday: depressed, can't see past it, but KNOW it's just the reaction Wednesday: provided I didn't panic yesterday, fairly normal again Thursday: actually normal Friday: actually normal, and ready for another practice at this beginning tomorrow

How do you know if it’s hypomania or mania? I am dealing with this now and I can relate to this all so much! Thank you for sharing

I imagine it feeling like a mix of speed, cocaine and mdma. Super excited, flat breathing, butterflies in the stomac, ideas and the urge to run and yell.

Hypomania ist just like living Gilmorgirls movie.

I feel you I bought a 2000 pound mountain e-bike safe to say it collects dust 😂

Yup this is how I'm feeling so it's hard to think straight l too. I'm actually less productive when I'm hyper. I don't think I have mania but I do think I have a bit of whatever symptoms you have lol. I hate the feeling tbh

4:15 I dread the crash so much that it really dampen the euphoria. Hypomania should have at least one perk 😂

I don’t know what’s wrong with my son schizophrenia, psychosis, bipolar with paranoid delusions idk but I do notice that he will have a few good days and when that happens I know a major mental episode is coming so that’s usually weekly we have 1 major episodes. So good, stable, calm (3 days), then irritable, then irritable to the point of can’t control it a constant. Then major episode where we usually call cops. Definitely not like you lol, he is flat ! Any input?

Yeah I relate to you but unfortunately my comment had a returned error because it was too long. Anyway my headache seems to have disappeared. When it disappears the anhedonia disappear which is why I think it is a downregulation of dopamine when the headache happpen. and then the dopamine goes up. when I'm in a really good mood I'm like you and in my best moods I can't sleep at night but laying in my bed speaking constantly out loud rapidly and sitting in my bed rocking back and forth laughing excessively. Glad no psychiatrist seen that cus they would definitely hospitalize me for that. It reminds me of one of those movies in which a mad patient is just laughing out loud. No, I don't have bipolar on paper and I don't want it. My therapist tried to investigate this at one point I suspect which is why I steered away from answering some questions. People around me tell me I'm manic sometimes when I speak or when I behave a certain way. There's been a few more serious situations but not everyone viewed this as deviant behavior so a lot up to interpretation. my mom said once maybe some months ago that she thougth I might be bipolar when I was at her home. People say I get too low and up. One person made hand gesture showing a calm wave and tell that it's supposed to be like that and a neighbour did the same thing, I disagree. Anyway this comment ain't near in length to the comment that had returned error, so I hope this won't get returned error but I can't guarantee. It is not up to me if this comment is published or not.

Liked the joke so much I got hives! 🐝

hypomania reminds me of adhd x10 😭

Hello im 15 years old from Philippines when iwas get bepolar hyper and now im 17 years old when i found out ihave this disorder.😢

I’m so fucking depressed being awake for weeks sleep only 3 hours a day. I already know that I won’t see an old age. Sounds kind of emo but I don’t care either. 😅

I remember when though that maybe a drink will help since it's a depressant and thought it down slow me down and calm me. Ended up feeling sober but starting real talk with people like impulsive truth serum xd so it doesn't work.

Enjoy it and take care! 🌞 A music I listen on reapeat while i'm manic is : mirrors from DJSM

0:21 oh, no. It’s DEFINITELY hypo.

People say I talk slowly and calmly. I would probably secretly annoy you haha

Liszt Hungarian rhapsody no 2 from 5.30 Seconds Mania in music

My doctor thinks I may have bi polar. But after watching this and a couple of other videos, I can't see how I've got it. I'm never this fast and hyper. I'm confused 😞

One of the many frustrating things about having a mood disorder is having to do detective work on yourself and your patterns in life. I remember all of these instances of having conversations with people, especially older relatives and them asking me to slow down my speech, which as you probably know, takes concentrated effort. Getting used to the ebb and flow of the speed of thoughts, going from racing impatience to the molasses fog of depression can be such a jarring contrast- both as the person experiencing it and to those around us. I’m glad your videos are helping folks to relate to and surf the tides of these mood states.

I just finished watching this to the end - thank you for your vulnerability in sharing an inside view of one of your hypomanic episodes, SchizoKitzo. You continue to contribute to the acceptance and community around psychotic disorders. I hope that you are feeling better now.

The sad part is that you know its not gona last forever 💔 but you still question whether the sad part of your is over

That doesn’t look like hypomania to me. That looks more like mania. Hypomania is pretty chill and not overwhelming, and actually very enjoyable. Honestly, I think what is referred to as “hypomania” by the narcissistic DSM authors who are very uncomfortable with challengers of authority, is the way all humans should be and would be, if we lived in a much healthier world, more connected to nature. You feel very confident but not superior, all of your senses are heightened, and you feel deeply connected to people and animals around you. This actually looks more like what someone who doesn’t experience hypomania imagines it looks like. I personally don’t have any diagnoses(though I did experience depression, anxiety and OCD as a child), but when I am in a mindful state, not bogged down with all of the thoughts that typically haunt most or all humans under patriarchy and capitalism, I experience so called “hypomania”. I’ve never experienced mania or psychosis, though my sister does have a bipolar diagnosis. I think a lot of people unconsciously manifest symptoms of mental illness(and even physical illness) when they aren’t receiving the attention and validation from other humans that all humans need. It’s a reason for them to see a doctor and get more attention from family members, and they have no idea they are doing it unconsciously but on purpose to meet a need.

You talking fast af is finally fast enough for me lmao otherwise my brain moves on from whatever someone is talking about because they’re wayyyy too slow, my brain needs more info more stimulation asap

I'm hypomanic right now and you make perfect sense. I can follow everything. I even chuckled because I relate

Thank you for sharing. As a therapist intern this was so beneficial for me to see what this looks like and hear your experience. I will be better able to help and recognize what my clients are experiencing because of your willingness to be vulnerable and share

If a crash has hit, I hope it’s being gentle with you. I hope you’re getting whatever help or just affirmation and companionship you want through it and thank you SO much. Thank you for trusting your followers with this part of your life

Thank you so much for showing what this can look/sound like. Before I would have thought you were on drugs but now I understand that I can't jump to this conclusion with everybody. This has been very eye opening. Thank you

This is so much what happens to with me and I have bipolar 1. Higher energy, world too slow, irritated that the world is too slow. I feel you so much and all of us who have this.

You have much more clarity and self-awareness then I tend have. I'm 37 and have only been recently diagnosed.

I just now had my first real hypomanic episode and finding out, I'm currently coming down, laying in the couch with a blanket watching this video relating to everything. An hour ago I was dancing around the apartment with speakers on max filled with euphoria, self confidence and my head going immensibly fast, after driving (faster than I should have) home from the hairdresser because I left work early to do so. I still dont know if I'm in my right mind to share all this here but at the same time it seems like the only right thing to do at this moment. You get it.. While I'm writing this now I'm experiencing a strongly heightened clarity and it feels like every word is just flowing through me, which is strange since I usually find it hard to articulate myself. Anyway. Flow stopped. I recently after alot of appointments and hard effort managed to persuade my doctor to send an application for the diagnosis of ADHD (It got declined) which became clear to me that I have been struggling with my whole life. I can only imagine the look on his face when I tell him I think (I know) I got bipolar disorder type II. So here we go, round two. The journey of self discovery continues, and life truly never stops giving. Take care everyone.

Hey kit, I really love your videos and appreciate your take/transparency. I was wondering if you would make a video to talk about how menstruation cycles affect you and play a role (if any) in your mental health. Sorry if this seems unrelated to this specific video, it just popped into my head as I was watching and thought I would put it out there

Not annoying at all. Loved it! Thank you for sharing. Hope you're able to navigate the ride as gracefully as possible.

Thanks for pressing record and capturing the moment. I hope you beehave at the convention 🥁

Oh man, I feel you! I hate hypomania…because all I can think about is the drop(which lasts way longer, for me). You a fan of Dragon force? VERY fast metal, super intricate with LOTS going on. Good luck on the bipolar roller coaster my friend, hopefully it’s not too crazy!

3:59 Thank you for your honesty and courage to share this with all of us. I am much happier knowing now I'm not hypomanic and just more positive and happy.

I recent had my first officially diagnosed mania. Diagnoses is currently officially schizoaffective from the hospital. But it turns out that my "voices" seem closer to the headmates/alters in OSDD and DID than in psychosis although I do have psychotic tendencies. They are less external and more internal but occasionally I mix them up as external because it's sort of like when you have a song stuck in you're head and it gets so loud you start to actually hear it but it's coming from the center of you're skull so you can tell it's not actually there unless there is a lot of background noise. I can feel their energy and emotions and they can make my muscles spasm.

Learning to cope with next week sounds like the hardest part but the more awareness you have of what's going on the easier it is to control that and you seem like you're getting that. We're also not perfect and we all live with regrets. I hope you enjoy your time at the con and don't overspend but if you do try not to be too hard on yourself for it.

Thank you for sharing this kit. I would never have the courage to be as open as you are. You are extremely brave! Videos like this remind me that there are other people like me. This kind of stuff is extremely valuable for the mental health + bipolar community as well. Hang in there kit and stay strong! I hope you are doing well now

Hi Kit, I have a question as I notice a lot of patterns and crossover between probably almost all neurodivergent conditions and have a very simple theory that ties them together. The only difference between anxiety and excitement is how the mind interprets those exact same chemicals released, which is why sports psychologists teach athletes to interpret their anxiety as excitement. I have 2 very young children that would likely experience hypomania if we as parents let them. I've heard people also refer to this as a happiness meltdown. Unlike a stereotypical meltdown where the person also wants it to end, when you are that happy why would you ever want to stop that feeling of immense joy and speed. It is likely why they call it emotional dysregulation as over excitement also triggers it. It is also why anxiety leading up to/during an event etc would also not let that same feeling stop. I have also frequently heard people "misdiagnosed" as bipolar which later turns out to be autism but I also notice that there is always some truth in what everyone observes. What I think happens for people experiencing bipolar episodes (not sure if that's the correct terminology) is very similar to an autistic person experiencing a stereotypical meltdown/ or shutdown followed burnout. I find all neurodivergent people are very similar at their core but find the medical label categorises how their brain expresses their anxiety/excitement and how the amygdala outwardly responses to that. The reason I bring this up is because the trigger for what causes your manic episodes is exactly the same for an autistic person (ie a hard transition, possible social overload, followed by shutdown or burnout which can often lead to depression). My question is (though I've forgot what it originally was) what are your thoughts on this? And if you don't know what an autistic person is (outside harmful stigmas and stereotypes) then think of them instead as a highly sensitive person (which is essentially all neurodivergent people). I also like to encourage every neurodivergent person to look at ideas from different neurodivergences on how to cope and manage as we all are essentially trying to manage very similar problems. My suggestions for you (with not much knowledge for what work for you) to try are binaural beats (try a few different ones as they each affect me differently but should in theory be fairly stimulating for your mind) and a weight blanket (which you can pace around in but should also help calm you down). Also try removing stimulation with noise cancelling headphones and turning off/blocking out lights and other stimuli (like have calming scented oils in your room). Try going for a walk in nature and pause to observe your surroundings (like bird/animal spotting etc). Hope that helps somewhat.

I hope your come down was manageable, Kit 🤗 Thank you for this video - it was very helpful.

You are in crisis. Go find a dr to find correct medication and add CBT You can go cycle and one day you will crash for a long term. Go to Dr you are not annoying. You are chemically imbalanced. I know. I just crashed for an extended period. Like the worst ever experience. Please take care. In a few months of treatment dr will titrate the dosage. My life is stable in a way I could never have imagined. Your brain is popping like popcorn ❤

Hey I just started watching you and I was diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder and I was wondering if a switch in moods happens often and if you feel detached from reality

I thought i was either bipolar or bpd. Struggled to live with the diagnosis of bpd. For a while i forgot about bipolar as i couldnt see the signs clearly and now holy shit what your explaining sounds bipolar. I think im borderpolar. Its so crazy that switch. I Have those rapid mood swings and those highs and lows. I go from speaking fast to barely getting outta bed. So i got diagnosed with adhd but it aint consistent enough to be classic adhd. I randomly moved 2500km and got a job despite not being able to work 4 months until i relapsed it went away and i feel a major relapse. I found myself spending a lot of money. Now the money is gone i feel low, paranoid, irritable, pessimistic.

I’m hypomanic now! I love it lol I took some good magnesium called Calm. It helps stabilize mood swings too. It helps with medicine too. We are extremely deficient in that mineral. You look like your going through the onset of mania. I have bipolar 2.

Hi kitz, im a new follower of you. I love your videos. They are very helpful. They are one of the best videos that explain schizoaffective to us folks. My 14yo daughter was recently diagnosed with sza, and you vids help me alot in understanding what she is dealing with. Some also give us insight on what she might be having (internal auditory and prorprioceptive hallucination). Anyway we love you, and stay strong.. if you dont mind, please make a video on how you deal with school and college.. since hers is all over the place, grades and absency are plumetting down..

Try going for the classics. What I mean is like ministry from the 90s. Tv2. For good music to try, if you haven't yet. That whole psalms album really. Also filth pig. I shop at goodwill too

Appreciate your openness about this. I don’t feel as alone , thank you

This was me yesterday from the entire night before. After about 2-3 days with no sleep shit finally hit the fan and yesterday I was a word salad mess and spent an hour cleaning my fan. Today it’s not so bad.

It is preposterous to my reasoning that you have no brakes to slow down your flow of thoughts. Some medicines, of course, but that is all there is. I am happy that you make these videos! You are making progress.

Hello! Now I know (hear) what my divorced husband dealt with as i was on warp speed so often. - Have you been diagnosed with bipolar 1 or 2? - 2 here and it sucks as about 93% is depression... horrible divorce process but he went through alot after 20 years. Bipolar 2 depression sucks. Atleast with 1 you get a little fun in there? albeit dangerous sometimes i hate this illness

Why don't you just enjot the present moment. Don't think about the crash or depression. It is not wrong to have fun moments in life. Think about the other peopöe who don't have this ability and they would need drugs to feel that way. Dopamine low follows dopamine high but the depression itself is not neurotransmitters, it is the guilt/remorse that does it. If you think you are fast aome day and slow some other day, wouldn't that be a better way look at it. Why don't you channel this state on doing work. You could achieve a lot. Additionally, if you feel the anger side of dopamine high, there is a remedy for that, 5-htp supplement is quite effective to cut sad/angry/whatever feeling. Too many milligrams causes inconvenient side effects. Do not mix serotonergic drugs with 5-hrp. And SSRI especially would be quite detrimental anyway. Adding serotonin precursor (the 5-htp) however on demand, is benign. I am not having any symptoms and not treating anything, but I do adjust my neurochemistry with 5-htp when feeling angey or sad to limit my exposure time to that kind of mood situation, and have found irregular use of 5-htp beneficial. Except one day I took too many, 500 mg, and it was quite unpleasant as there are serotonin receptors in gut which aggravate from it.

Whatabout Forza 5.

In the process of possibly getting therapy and going to a doctor to figure out if i have it because this sound really similar to what i do and its been driving me crazy so, thank you very much for this video It's actually really helpful Byeeeee have a good day/night? Wtv time it is

Lastly.. my greatest accomplishments came out of my mania.. if channeled correctly.. and the crashes were shuddering... Having purpose and responsibility helped.. Take care and thank you....

the "I gotta figure out how to sleep." me currently watching at almost 3 AM for the fourth night in a row.

Some music my ADHD brain enjoys (hope it helps): Skywings: Promised land, Dear Lucifel and many other on their official youtube (there is a lot of fast stuff) Minstrelix: Eternal Journey, Frozen Promise and more, also officially via youtube, not complete, but e.g. Chronostrings full album is also on youtube. Marchen station: Kingdom of the sky, Starlight Chandelier all on youtube but not officially All the best to you! May the force of power metal be with you ;)

you should listen to rap god in 2x when this happen

One rare yt video that I don't have to speed up to 1,5x to be able to listen attentively to 😂. They say I am subclinicaly hypomanic and I try so hard to remain sub not to be caught and deprived of human rights. But depression is more and more prevailing, usually at the same time as excitement or rage. It was easier when I was younger and my body could stand it better. We have to find the right environments and a measure for outer excitants. Changing places helps to calm down without falling. Get out of your room ( before you start destroying it). Eating bananas, too (tryptophan). Post festum depression is normal and is a call for a good rest. But, aging makes it all worse. Nobody ever wanted to diagnose me and didn't allow me to go into group support therapy. I imagine the medics are provocateurs waiting for my suffering to get worse and to arrest me. A long walk in the woods or some physicallity is better invested time and effort. I really don't want to be 'normal' like them. So, I wan't to say hypomaania is a gift and living like that with all the consequences is an individual choice we have right to. Don't bother with shame, guilt, sorrow and other lower feelings and off you go. Have a good creative rich life ❤

One of the things I most relate to is wanting the world to speed up to your level. Everything is so slow! 😂

Does anyone in the field tried to connect menstrual hormonal cycles with cyclotimia and BPD, I wonder. I haven't find any resources regarding it yet, but from my own experience the connection is obvious. Any hints?

11:23 "Crap, I deserve this" You DO NOT deserve this. You are a wonderful person and you deserve happiness always. My heart broke when I heard you say that about yourself.

I can an hear how rapid your speech is and how tangential your thoughts are , and i hear you when you say you get triggered in the lead up to conventions. Please do what stops you from going completely manic. For eg, eat even if not hungry and go to bed even when not tired. Lay off the caffeine. Things like that. God bless you 🙏🏼 ❤

some hypomania music i would highly recommend is the album "dancefloor muthafucka! digipack" by goreshit, especially the track "goretrance 3", which is split into two parts on the album. enjoy! and take care of yourself!

Hoping you're recovering from the crash well. I know how hard this is for you.

I think i'm in love. I love your energy and, passion (I live miles away don't worry) i do have moments the same as you. I love the hyper feeling and just seeing the feeling of someone else that feels they could take on the world - its infectious. My downside afterwards is the feeling of suicidal ideology coming back again, which i endure hoping for these moments of godlike feelings.

really high high but really low low my friend its a sucky place. I always forget the drop and it hurts like the first each time....

Watching this makes me think of the version of this I get I have schizophrenia and ocd I get times were I can't sleep for days mixed with adrenaline and some mania but then mixes with delusions and I'm up for days I have to stay on my meds to keep it under control thanks for the video I'm wishing you the best take it easy take care

Hey sweetheart, use that extra energy on cleaning that damn bedroom. I have Scitzoeffective-Bipolar2 also, I think there may be a few loose screw, short circuilts or marbles floating around my dome.

It's like looking in a mirror right now. Very happy I found your channel. Some meds I'm taking for a long infection is massivly effecting my ability to manage my schizoaffective mood. Gotta make sure they make a note for a next time, some pan's or maybe a stabilizer would not be a bad thing next time, but for now it's great! So lung infection, still did everything and more then normal. Shopping, cooking for my family, cleaning. Feel like superman and no increase in voices. Caught up a whole week of work in a day! Can't stop talking, wrote like a thousand lines of code on my frigging phone. Have it for two days now, still able to sleep altho allot of waking up ofcource. But euhh yeah, not gonna be pretty when I get off those meds. Luckly I never go very low, I mostly go up. Hope it went well for you afterwards as well.