Somatic Full Practice #1: Body Scan 

I cried like a child! I don’t know what it was! And now I feel lighter.

I cried too.

I hope this has continued ❤

I can relate totally. It’s almost as if I wrote your words. I don’t feel alone - and I hope that for you, too.

I hope you feel better. You deserve healing and peace. Sending it your way!

I’ve been going through something similar too. Waiting to see the light at the end of this tunnel. I know it’s there and we’re going to find it. Sending you love and healing.

Kind of relate as someone who has selective mutism and developed avoidant personality disorder and self-isolated. My brain does not function well

I think u have written a very coherent message, you have not expressed yourself in so long that may be why your faculties are rusty along with the superadded damage from anxiety and depression. Now I am not a medical expert but I went through a similar phase, and what helped me were people who were nice to me, treated me well and boosted my self esteem. You can take therapy to feel that as I did, second was feeling the void I have and not avoiding it with distractions like mobile phone or food, sitting with it being irritated with it and then having a compulsive need to express myself. In the beginning it will be very difficult but u will have to come face to face with all the shame, guilt and self hatred that made you depressed and anxious in first place and take action to fight it. If u hate your body start lifting, if u can't do that because u have a disability accept it and know there is still actions u can take, which will take time because most of the time we are in a trap of instant gratification, don't be, just know your action is in right direction and be patient. Secondly watch self help channels like Dr k and therapy in a nutshell and talk to your healthcare provider about new ideas u get from the video and start doing them. Just sit with your discomfort put action to improve your life and be patient. I recommend a good therapist and regular Journaling to release trapped emotions. You have written your thoughts clearly in the comment, so i feel writing will help you even when depressed to know what you are feeling so do journal

Same

as many as it takes

well she says pick one session at a time and it is advisable to pick sessions in order , so day1 -body scan , day2 - conscious breathing and so on ..so you just need to put 15 minutes everyday

Me tooo 😅

Blockages traumas that are locked subconsciously.. A lot of times we need to clear emotional staff. UNFORGIVENESS causes nausea...abusive behaviour. Many times we want to feel well but to our own benefit but we seek NOT changes within...

yes it is possible, as the trauma is stuck in the physiology and it may get released in form of yawn , burp , fart , shaking or vomit . If you nausea leads to vomiting(you can drink some water to help you with throwing up) that's a good sign it probably is very old trauma stuck in your body that is getting released.

This made me gage repeatedly It was so strange Never experienced anything like this

What do you find terrible about it?

For me personally just standing and listening to someone talk gives me anxiety and is upsetting. Obviously it's just not for me.

listen to the ladies routine that's all she is trying to pass on. listen to her do the moves even practice the routine whilst sitting concentrate learning the cycle pattern of movements takes a bit of practice.......then, when youve mastered to an extent you can turn off the nice lady and all the distractions electrical devices etc and zone out.