the comments about the food at the beginning made me smile. pretty sure the prepping/planning to eat but not getting to being much more grave for ed'd people than others is a universal thing. Also I relate to the notebook situation. I used to put so much pressure on myself back in middle school to have a well-kept diary, then later I discovered small (a6) journals with an ugly front for less than half a dollar each and i would often just transcribe lyrics i liked or write only one sentence per page with no structure whatsoever. I had filled nine of these when they stopped selling them. I didn't have anything but the notes app in my phone for a while, but then a friend of mine gave me a bulletjournal/planner that nowadays has a lot of pages of just random words/parts of sentences that i need to get out of my mind.
Aaaaa I missed the princess carolyn poster so much!!! Anyways I’m sorry that you’re going through tough times but I’m super proud of you for going without b/p’ing for so long. I’m like one day b/p free atm but I’m planning to get rid of purging at least for the summer because well money and time… You know the drill. But idk it’s really really nice to hear about you again and seeing you post more regularly. You’re super comforting to me and idk you talking about everything it makes me feel a little less alone and I’m really thankful for you for making me feel like I’m totally not alone dealing with this bs. I hope you feel a little less alone too.
I love fermented food so much and being half Korean means I always have an amply supply of kimchi in my fridge to eat. Gentrified kimchi is completely fine cause when you need a fix, it's always there. I recommend white kimchi (baek kimchi) as it's refreshing in the warmer months. Also, love the editing and consistent updates! wishing you much luck on your journey
Kimchi is so good, it's a shame that it is so expensive in western supermarkets😭. I try to "kimchify" my daily cucumber salad sometimes with gochujang, garlic powder, and vinegar, and that usually tastes pretty good although not fermented . Also, don't stress too much about triggering people! I really appreciate your honesty and clear articulation of your thought processes, because I can relate to many of the things that you discuss 👍
Cucumber salad is such a high tier food. I've tried it with powdered peanut butter + soy sauce as well but I don't know how far out that combo is. Also, sesame seeds.
loving the constant updates :)) im also listening to new music! like taylor swift (which is also a shocker bc i thought it was not my style at all). for me, b/p was also a way to punish myself for not being productive. i havent study as much lately and normaly i would self-destruct but im just vibing tbh😴. the half done to-do list doesn't haunt me as much
Gentrified kimchi is spot on! And I always feel conflicted when I see it like, man I want to buy this because I want kimchi and I'm too lazy to go to the Asian supermarket, but it's also overpriced and I feel like I'm being inauthentic in some way...
