sometimes you need a good cry... Hawaii vlog 2 

First heartbreak is the worst, and I promise it WILL get better. You’re doing all the right things. Stay strong girl❤️

My first heartbreak I literally didn’t think I would EVER get over it. I could sleep, eat, or focus on anything else. I lost so much weight because i had no appetite and I had that pit in my stomach feeling you’re talking about. I would just randomly start crying for no reason just because I was so sad and my world was ending. It’s a looooong process but I do believe time heals.. few years later I’m in a good relationship and have a baby girl ❤️

I'm glad you let yourself feel bad and just cried it out instead of bottling it and pretending it would go away if you didn't look at it. You can only go up from there. Keep strong and keep up the good work girly :)

Hi babes my boyfriend of 4 yrs and I broke up about 7 months ago and I just wanted to say it does get better even if it doesn’t feel like it right now!! Feel what you feel and let it go don’t suppress it! you’re doing amazing babe and time truly does heal all. Take this time to live for YOU and rediscover yourself

going through everything you’re experiencing right now and I really appreciate you showing your healing with me❤️ love you Ellie

Never mind ellie, as long as you gettin better its ok to be cry its ok to let out the feel We love youu

Ellie your literally my inspiration and ily sm, 💗I'm currently going through heartbreak as well, and I just wanna say we all love you sm😭😭💔💔

YESS!! Bring out your inner child! Of course it’s important to take care of the adult things but it’s always always ALWAYS amazing to go back and act like a child when having fun. Even just watching old movies you would watch as a child feels good. Art, helps me bring mine out. I have a playlist of all the music I used to listen to. Even dancing weirdly and crazily makes me feel like a child. Honestly when I do bring out my inner child, it helps me get out of an anxiety phase I can’t get out of. It also helps me when I retrace my thoughts and I think “why am I feeling this way? What made me feel this way?” And I acknowledge it and accept those thoughts and understand them and I’m usually better. Summer 2020 I was anxious for the entire summer, to the point where I would throw up constantly and it would make me actually shake. It was bad but I started trying to find ways to help myself get out of it and it was reconnecting with my inner child. But I definitely am so grateful for that time period I went to. It was like shedding a layer of myself and I was reborn

please dont have coffee when you're having such anxious days, babe. caffeine induces anxiety like no other! go for decaf man.

I’m literally going through what ur going through right now and I don’t know how to get out of it. It makes me feel anxious about literally doing anything. I hope you feel better soon Ellie

Preach, Ellie! This is what I’ve been doing the past 2 years. Rediscovering, Reinventing and Refocusing!!!! Rediscovering the things that made me happy as a kid in order to get to know myself more. Reinventing myself by exploring new parts of myself in order for me to reach my full potential. Refocusing on what matters most. THIS HELPED A LOT !!!!!

You're doing great Ellie . it's okay to not be okay everyday , we are all here for you sending hugs & love from Philippines ❤️🤗

girl we are literally the same. we’re going through the same thing, i’m thinking the things you’re saying, i don’t know my hobbies or favorites of things. thank you, you make me feel like i’m where i’m supposed to be and feel like it’s okay to feel this way.

Ellie I’ve come home for a brief respite after 22 hours with my boyfriend in the hospital just to eat and shower before I go back. I really needed to cry with you, thank you ❤️

it’s okay to cry!!! you got this ❤️

these healing vlogs are really helping me with my own stuff right now. Honestly, having such a hard time transitioning to adulthood and getting beat down every time I try and put myself out there doesn't help. So hard to keep trying and to have hope and motivation when things keep blowing up in my face. So sorry that you had to go through this time, but also feeling a lot of comfort knowing that we can go through this together. Ellie, this year you are seriously my icon. Like, I see such amazing changes in you this past year and it makes me more motivated to get myself together and keep trying my best. You are so awesome and inspiring and you help me aim to do my best.

It's always valid to be vulnerable and let it all out. I'm glad you are in a better mental state now. You are strong Ellie!

I went through a shitty heartbreak and girl you will come out the other side dont even worry it just takes time!💓💓💓

Ellie- I’m going to be praying for you! The Lord is growing you through this, He wants you to find your identity and affirmation in Him before He puts the right person in your life. Only Jesus can sustain you, and He will never leave you or forsake you! I hope that the Lord brings someone in your life that will strengthen you in your weaknesses and help you love the Lord and others better! Love you girl💛

Always remember it's okay not to be okay. Thank you for being so vulnerable with us and showing us how authentic you are. We are always here for you and love you Ellie! 🥺💕

Seems like every tick tick RU-vid young woman struggles with extreme emotional disorders. Does your therapist ever recommend getting off social media? It’s a soul sucker.

I can literally feel this. There are days like this too. And it happens with me and everyone else.

This resonates so so so much with me. I am finally quitting drugs and finding the beauty in life and the world, and I cannot wait for the days, experiences, and people yet to come in my life. This video was extremely important and courageous, and you have earned a new fan in me for sure.

What helps me whenever I’m crying over a recent ex….I remind myself the pain I felt when my fiancé died years ago and that usually puts things into perspective for me and makes me realize how special life is and the world doesn’t revolve around that person. It revolves around YOU.❤️

I’m so proud of you Ellie for showing your vulnerable side even if it’s hard. All of your advice is so helpful and your videos always make my day!

i understand this stage of the first heartbreak, you’re doing so amazing, my first heart break i also ran away to hawaii for two weeks😂😂 my heart is w u

watching these newer videos make me feel so good. i hate to hear that you're hurting, but it makes me feel like it's okay to feel. It's okay to have these days, and watching one of my favorite youtubers address this makes me feel so whole. thank you.

Pls dont You cry🥺💖I Love you so much💞

Ellie, its okay if you cry, we're all here for you, we love you so so much ❤️❤️❤️

i love u sm

I was crying right here with you Ellie ❤️ I love this video. It was so comforting and honestly helped me a lot to watch. Thank you for sharing

Thank you for being open about these feelings, I’ve been having a year and half so weird, I don’t know anything who I am or what I want.

thank u for being real. i used to wonder what i was doing wrong when i would look at your life… which now i’m in a much better mental state but i’ve been watching you for years and have always looked up to u. im proud of u for this it means everything! ❤️

Hi! I totally understand what you're talking about in this video & can relate. Having gone through a similar situation last summer of a lot of sudden change relationship/life/living situation wise, I felt so much anxiety and could barely sleep and felt similar to what you were talking about when you woke up early and felt anxious and uncomfortable. Social media definitely makes it worse. But luckily time heals and helps so much. In the moment I thought I would never feel better or comfortable living with uncertainty and not knowing what the future held for me, but now almost 8 months later I'm so happy I went through that and grew as a person. Therapy, spending time with friends, doing things you like to do that make you feel good, spending time outside all helped a lot. Honestly shopping helped a little bit too lol I hope you're feeling better 💕

it is SO beautiful to see you moving through the emotions...feeling that anxiety, pushing yourself to have beautiful moments with your sister, feeling it all again and then picking yourself back up with your sister and hannah....thank you for sharing this, ellie. you are a superhero! even if you dont always feel like it 💖

Loving these videos, loving this series. I feel so at peace and comforted at the fact that I'm not the only one struggling sometimes, and that people with picture-perfect lifestyles (such as Ellie) also are human and experience human emotions; it's easy to forget that sometimes, I think.

Its okay and you are doing great and its okay to cry sometimes i totally understand thay

you’re such a bright light in this world, i love you so much ellie ❤️

Stay off instagram!!! Archive everything upsetting & LOG OFF💕You realizing your spirals + triggers + behaviors is SUCH GOOD PROGRESS. Social media is so toxic, our brains are not build / designed to be constantly receiving criticism. I’m so proud of you 👏 🥺💕🌈Balance is key, girl. You got this

God will help you. Just cry out to Him. 🤍

I love this video. Sometimes it feels so foreign to feel sad or bad cause you just don't see people feeling sad or going through tough times and it feels kind of validating to see someone else experience it at the same time as me. Thank you so much ellie

I just moved to Spain to study and this is literally how I'm feeling. Felt really good to hear someone else feel the exact same things I did. Well get better ❤️❤️

thank you for being so vulnerable online I know it takes a lot! but this is going to help so many people

Ellie 🥺💓 thank you for being open to share with us your highs and lows. It definitely must not be easy!! We love you and just remember that it’s okay to feel your feelings. If you cry, then cry until there’s nothing left to cry for. It’s so healing!! Hope you have way better days ahead of you!

Healing is definitely a rollercoaster. Sending you hugs and healing vibes❤️‍🩹you’ll get through this I promise!

Good morning ellie I'm proud of you and you are sweetheart because I enjoy your channel and you are amazing Supporter because you are amazing

I’m hoping to move to Hawaii in the fall for school. I love your series so far and sending you lots of love ❤️

i just know that when i feel at my lowest il come back to this video and really make it a safe place where i won't be judged or my feeling will be invalidated. ellie u have no idea how much I needed this truly u are and angel i really hope everything works out ok for u bc u deserve the best of the best

sending you so much love baby girl 💖

I resonate with A LOT of the things you're saying. I know this is old, but I do know where you're coming from, it gets better, and I hope your journey gets better. It definitely felt like you were talking to me because I was literally sitting here nodding and just affirming everything you were saying LOL. Great video!

Love how honest your being with us❤️

Proud of you, Ellie. You've got this,

Also not sure if you’re into this….but psychedelic mushrooms and the use of psilocybin IMMENSELY helped me on my healing journey and helped me go back to that “childlike wonder” that life was before all the criticism of the world hit me. Shrooms drastically changed my view on the world and I think could be a great resource for you along with the journaling, routines, reading, etc!!!! Check out the book How To Change Your Mind by Michael Pollen

i cannot stress this enough do not let yourself sit and think back if will not help! keep busy and find things that help you relieve your stress! i know it’s hard but surround yourself with good things and good people to help you! you can do this💗

It's ok Ellie,no cry no more,free Starbucks if you calm

my bf of 3 years just broke up with me last month. you’re not alone ❤️😣

Awww Ellie 🥺 sending you hugs through the screen 😊💞

Girl make the podcast NOW

ellie you are such an inspiration to everyone and coming for someone who even been in relationship but deals w loneliness and currently in the process of gaining control over myself and loving my time alone. thank u for being a friend to me (virtually throughout the hardest times and never left). im so proud of u beyond

it's just so important to show both sides of your life on social media. a few weeks ago I was having a rough time and going through your vlogs made me feel so ungrateful for my own life. i was comparing my life to yours and honestly wishing i just had yours instead. but this vlog made yours look more realistic and made me realize we all thrive in our own time and there are ups and downs in everyone's life and that's just a part of the journey.

I think these vlogs are good for you Ellie.It gives you a chance to open up and learn more about yourself.Thanks for being vulnerable in front of your fans.❤❤

why did I start crying when she started crying

I cried for 5 months straight last year out of a breakup and im now the happiest ive ever been. It will come with time❤️

I love this style of video and the vulnerable moments you are sharing. Pls make more!! I relate to you sm

Welcome to the real world you only have 60 70 yrs of WTF mornings to live through

Hi, friend! How are you and why are you crying?I am your subscriber from India assam Bodoland.

Crazy how I’m going through these exact lessons right now too - feels really special to not be alone in that thank you ❤️

You are so amazing and strong. Sending all love

Thanks Ellie,i like color green,go to Denpasar, Bali, sometimes

I really appreciate you for sharing so much of your life and to remind us all that sometimes it’s just OK to not be able to be living the best of our lives, hold on tight tho ellie, u got this!

I'm going through it right along with you girl. 💕

Plssssss notice me, "Zayne Hailey" from the Philippines,,

amazing vidoe i enjoy we are all here for you sending hugs break my heart youa re cry youa re so pretty love greeting

Where are your therapy headphones from??

ELLIE READ THE ARTIST WAY. this book was life changing for me but its alllll about getting back to CHILDLIKE mindset like you want and literally finding out what you like. EXACTLY what you said!! Julia Cameron, artist way amaaazing !!! do it

anyone know the music at 6:30?

To be honest, the last 6 months I’ve been struggling like you and more.. but now I’m in a great place in my soul and mind.. thankfull for that. So i want to say to you is just give it time, and listen to yourself and trust your heart.. i did that, and I feel that I understood myself, that’s what important. To get to understand is so so so important to feel better.

I really appreciate you putting yourself out there for the world to see that everything isn’t rainbows and unicorns and I’m twice you’re age ;still trying to figure it out. ;-)

I always thought girls were tough, but after seeing this video, it really opened up my eyes. Women are just like men, they are human beings.

I’m sorry Ellie were all here for you. This is personal but literally last night I was watching videos of you and Hannah in Hawaii and started crying because I feel like I’ll never be able to live that and I’m wasting my life. And showing this side of you made me realize it’s not all sunshine and rainbows. I knew that before but it just confirmed to meet. So please know you being vulnerable has done so much

you got this queen. we're routing for you!

Re-parent + LOVE your inner child 🌈💕💖 buy silly things you wanted your entire childhood but never got. Pick your favorite color & paint it on your bedroom wall to inspire you. Buy things that spark joy & bring you inspiration & forget anything that doesn’t! You are completely right 💖

Couldnt relate more, going through my first heartbreak and honestly the sadness feels like it will never go away. I keep waking up super early and stressin so its comforting to know I am not the only one going through this

i care for you ellie

Your "how your life feels is more important than how it looks" quote hit deep. Thank you Ellie for your vulnerability and showing women that it's okay to not be okay. I know you love working out, so think of your heart healing like a muscle that's been stretched and worked and is a little sore now. After leg day, you may not be able to climb stairs, or arm day wash your hair; your heart is going to feel sore right now because it poured out love. It'll heal, it just takes time and taking it easy, like you're doing. You are a beautiful soul and an incredible role model for many who need it ❤️

Love u💜💜

ellie we share the same birthday, i'm going through the exact same rn and have the exact same feelins. guess it's our scorpio energy haha

I am happy for your break up.Welcome back to single life❤️Single life is the best❤Sorry to sound selfish here, I love you❤️

I literally had the same thought a lot lately. In my childhood I made a lot of cool things/hobbies etc, but that all left when you’re growing up. Pretty sad actually because I had a really nice childhood. I started to make a list of what I love doing when I was a child, hopefully this brings back some memories.

That's actually a wholesome moment

It'll be fine Ellie, you got this!!

I like to watch your blogs, be happy Ellie)))

I am from BHUBANESWAR INDIA LIKE YOUR VIDEO

You are strong even when you are at ur weakest !!!!!!! All ladies remember that !

Sending love Ellie♡

You'r soo beautiful we love you we are supporting uu💖💖💖

this is immensely inspiring. i cant thank you enough for your vulnerability and sharing your fears, thoughts, and your wisdom. it really boils down to having each other and having community. you got this :)

you’re the best ellie. so so grateful for you. missing you so much 💘💘💘 so proud of you & your healing. i love u

ELLIE! You are so strong and amazing. Thank you for your vulnerability and thank you for sharing your journey with us. I can tell that you are a healer. Your authentic self is beautiful!

Stop ellie, I am I literally crying with u? :( I love how vulnerable you are in your healing!