My boyfriend just passed away a little over a month ago, he had a problem with drugs and got diagnosed with cancer, he kept doing the drugs even after he found out about his cancer. He went to the hospital one night bc he couldn't handle the pain anymore and a few days later they were calling me to come say my goodbyes, he was in a coma, so I got to the hospital and as I was getting ready to walk out of his room he flat-lined while I was holding his hand, the week before he passed he had asked me to marry him, he didn't have a ring or anything yet and he has asked me a lot over the years but that time just felt different, I was so upset because I didn't understand why he didnt fight, I have no idea how this video came to my youtube but I'm convinced he left this for me to find, and I can't thank you enough for making this song, because it comforts me very much and makes a lot of things make sense
Addiction has stolen the most beautiful souls I know because my son Ken was an addict and behind addiction is trauma and pain and the world needs to understand this #addictslivesmatter💜
I was sent to a pain care clinic that never wanted me to get better…I am a retired RN, and I believed I knew what addiction was, bec alcohol was my demon to kick…no problem…but when I got hooked on opiates in my 50’s at that pain clinic with the completely wrong diagnosis from my Ortho Dr, I lived that nightmare…I OD’D 3 times, once alone, but I guess my body did a last gasp and I woke up over my steering wheel 30 miles away from my house…GOD was with me…then I OD’D from fentanyl twice and the ER Dr screamed at me that I almost died…I am grateful I had been protected by God himself…I was determined to get off so I went out of town to my BFF’s farm and stayed for 3 of the hardest months of withdrawals I can never describe…BUT I DID IT and if u have the WILL, so can u…When I get weak, I think of the withdrawals and say no…never again….You don’t know addiction unless you’ve experienced both sides of it, bec my son fought drugs in his 20’s and I did not get it…NOW, I do….thank u GOD for keeping my family safe,bec my daughter fell into that, too..we r all in recovery….
I am an addict still getting high.But for the first time in a long time been thinking i might wantbto go on a different direction .I want all of yall music is the reason i started thinkingMaybe i could kick it and have a life.This one went deep down in the depths ofy soul caught my hesrt on fire!!!!!!i love you all thank you for keeo putting these out OutlawNation Rise up
September 1st 2006. I promise you can get clean. You've got to find that peace within yourself. I still smoke herb like a freight train, but I'm 15 years clean
It's not easy I been going thru it for almost 30 years but I have 1 year clean my life is amazing in just that short time I've made leaps and bounds ! Never give up !! It's worth it !
You can do it,just set your head and heart to do it and don’t be afraid to ask for help and I won’t say that it will be easy because it isn’t easy but you can do it. I was way out there in addiction and I got clean but I had to change my life not just the drugs. I had to quit going places that I did and quite hanging around the people that I did and always remember a true friend will not offer it to you or come around you with it. Get clean and then that’s when you find out who you’re friends truly are.
My wife kicked me out a week ago. My nephew I was trying to adopt got taken from me. I'm homeless staying in a motel. This song has exactly what I wanted to say to her. Great song. Hits home. Much love to all those that struggle with pain in their heart.
Dam ! Bro I been struggling with drugs my whole adult life and even in my teens I'm 47 now I been married for 25 years I'm just now getting it together ! I struggle with all I've put my family thru but there is no going back not to fix shit and not to be that person again ! My biggest regret is dragging my wife and kid thru the bullshit ! Good beat brings tears to my soul ! Love it !
I meant SAVE THEM THE MISERY N ITS A FAMILY DISEASE.. ITS NOT WHAT WE DO TO OURSELVES BUT THE CHILDREN THAT R WATCHING US HURT OURSELVES N MOST OF ALL I DIE CHANGING THIS CYCLE FOR THE BETTER FOR MY KIDS THEY DESERVE SO MUCH MORE THAN THAT..
Hope you’re still doing well! Same age and keep focus on family ! Counselor told me there was no such thing as “Catch up” in this mess but the blessings and respect most people have for us changing our lives is beyond more than we deserve, it’s hard to look in rear view but just a glance keeps us pressing on in right direction. Never too late. I just pray for one more day free from the chains for all of us !
@@duanegoldsmith8710 still plugging away your right it's hard not to look back and the hardest thing for me is choking on my past mistakes but none of that matters it's what's now I can control thank u buddy
My husband played this song for me a few days ago. We both struggled with addiction I Am now sober have been for 25 months today. My husband failed to mention his temper and he was haunted by a demon since he was 18 years old til this past year I totally got in there way. I absolutely 💯 love this song. Yall keep your head up out there.
NEVER EVER APOLOGIZE FOR BEING WHO YOU ARE!!!! We all have our demons, trials and tribulations. Who you are and how you are uncooperating it into your music and telling your story is helping many many people deal and cope with the same situations. You give people a healthy outlet to release the emotions they keep bottled up. SO YOU SHOULD NEVER BE SORRY FOR BEING YOU. STAY STRONG BROTHER AND STAY REAL!!!
I meant incorporating it into your music, stupid typos, my phone still thinks it's smarter than me and I do not know what I am typing. Well, it aint to "smart" of a smartphone if it can't learn that I know what I am typing. Lol.
Then relapsed and overdose again almost dying but your music brings me out of my suicidal depression a lot and your song world so cold I love it keep making music man you're good at it you deserve to reach for the stars and beyond because you will get there peace mad love and respect
WoW, that one hit like a carbon copy of my past. But you can always make the change. Because even after beating my addiction for 23 yrs I still have my demons rear their ugly head from time to time. But today is better than yesterday. Because I no longer let it control my thoughts and actions. Now I can help others in their struggles. Awesome song, thank you. Keep it flowing.
Wow....who knew I'd see you here?!! Hope all is well with you! I love Dirtys music...I can relate to his songs so much! And, Dirty this is one more added to my Playlist!! I don't think I've missed adding any of your songs! Keep'em coming...Peace✌ & Love ❤ p.s. take care sinister! Maybe our paths will cross again one day!
This song is very deep and you don't have to be sorry for what your dealing with. We all have demons in our heads, like I call them "Flying Monkeys in My Head", got from the movie "The Caveman". I've seen a lot in my life. It's not easy trying to get the past out of your head, those you hurt. No treatment can help. You are the one who has to be strong enough and want the change in order to leave your demons behind and when they try to tempt you just think of who you've hurt when you were an addict, when your Heart hurt so bad you didn't even want to be in this world any longer. Write your thoughts down when your feeling weak. Set it aside then later go back and go back and read what you wrote. You'll be surprised and say...Wow I wrote that? Then you'll see what you need to work more on. God Bless You. Peace & much Love. Big Hugs to You.
That was well said it could work with for people with depression or whatever the demons are fighting. We all are going through or have gone through tough times in our life. I like your idea of writing down your thoughts and going back and reading them I'm going to use that myself thank you for your wise words and thank you boi for this song
That's really amazing. I used to be on diff things then went to Suboxone clinic, was on them for over 12 years,...then decided to just quit last month cold turkey,... It's been pure hell but I look forward to when I can wake up and just feel good on my own again. I feel like for so long, I was kinda numb and on auto-pilot, the world kept spinning, and time kept moving,...yet I was stuck in the same place. I was tired of being tired, and being a slave to something....
You should be so proud of yourself!!! Every morning when you look at yourself in the mirror!!! EVERY MORNING!! CONGRATS TO YOU FOR KICKING THAT MONKEY OFF OF YOUR SHOULDER!!!!
You Recognize And Apologize... First Giant Steps In Recovering! Lying And Denying Get You NO WHERE !!! Stay On That Path To Freedom 🙌🏼🦋🌹✨ We Do Recover 🙌🏼
My hat tips to brother onevof a kind music artist forever i feel ur music is going to change the worlds dark soul into a unique kind of heart of one love congratulations
I seen the title and was blown away, I say it all the time.Im sorry for being me,you have the best voice and lyrics since Axle Rose , your better actually.keep on keeping on brother.
I'm not sorry. 4being me cuzz we all have to fight 4 what's right 4family an friend s no matter what happens in life dont let it get u u fight theme and don't think an say to ur self what s this guy saying cuzz my name is pony an the people know who u are God blessed
Addictionz, strongholdz,weak spots in us.. are parts of us that bind us all together ..not perfect..but humans who share their struggles through beautiful soul numbing art..that is real..thank u..for the honest ..raw realNezz...heart is acting..but real...well it is key to heal...we are our own worst critic,enemy,destroyer, punisher and sabotage specialist, let's try to stay strong positive and KNOW not many yuppy goody tooooo goods could make it one day in any real addicts life..I love my life and having a best friend who shares many of my experiences..well that helps immensely..take care of yourself and try to listen to your first instinct..we all know right from wrong..if you plan on doing wrong...well do it Right..don't beat yourselves up..there is always tomoro..live and love being alive..:÷)
that one dislike had to be a accident...you aint made a single cut that hasnt left a mark on me my Brother...you are so fuckin talented...DIRTY LAUNDRY FO LIFE
Keep ya head up. .... We all love you and will forever have your back and always remember there is no (i) in team... never be sorry about who you are we all have an addiction of some kind... just gotta deal with it on our on but always having family near
Keep it up brother nvr be srry I'm a recovering junkie and get alot out of ur songs keep it up for all us recovering junkies trying to make it in this shitty world
Im an addict to so thank u for your courage on saying what i was afraid to say for so long to someone i loved but its. Here now that i have courage to say or show now what i was hidding forever your in my prayers for doing this heartfelt song
Oh Dirty, your music hits my soul man….your an amazing artist, and don’t ever ever ever forget that…MY PEOPLE 👊👊🤟🤟🙌🙌💙💙👏👏🤘🤘❤️❤️🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥
My girl saved me. She always blees me with her forgiveness. I cant imagine living with out her. Shes my evrrything and my forever. Thank you Becky Sue for your forgivess and your love
My God this hit me hard I have told this to my wife of 30 years about 1000 times but she stell here with me tanks my Gril I love you for saving my life 😘😘😘😘😘🐾🐊
To everyone fighting any demons STAY STRONG!! This does NOT have to be the ending in YOUR story. I PROMISE ♥️ My brother Bobby used for over 30 years. He was what you called a “functioning addict”. I know may people who were user who didn’t get to experience the recovery. The demons won 😢 My brother did 🙏 He found a program in NYC through the Salvation Army and “IT SAVED HIS LIFE” We are not our past. We are not what people have called us. We are not our recorded. Getting clean is a fight of your LIFE but are you not worthy of happiness love & FREEDOM. I lost my brother this past July 2021 he had a heartache and past alone. I have great peace knowing. He was HAPPY. He was CLEAN. He was SAVED. R.I.P brother you are so missed but I know the kingdom is a better place.
I gotta say Dirty, from wence you came....."you've come a long, long way baby"! What a dramatic change ive seen happen to you through your lyrics becoming music and your method of helping heal yourself is also touching others...CARRY ON
I'm so sorry for you lose. Addition is a very ugly creature. You just don't realize how ugly, until someone you love deeply has that monkey.. ((Sending Good Vibes Your Way Always))
I lost my nefew so I raised up with my boys in April 2023 from a overdose. I begged him to let me take him to rehab and I would go to even though I've been in recovery since 2016 I feel your pain
I love all your music man I listen to all your music I'm dealing with someone that has an addiction, my brother I showed him your music and it helped him
I couldn't stop the tears right now if I tried. Feel like my son's father sent me this song from the grave. I loved him so much, but it was never enough. I'll keep raising our son and making him proud from above. I am thankful he's not struggling with his demons anymore and is finally at peace. Even though our flesh hurts like hell, here on earth.
