I can feel the pain in your words . The word of God tell you about man kind heart desperately wicked. Each time we try to do good 😈 evil present it self but Psalm 23 warn us Psalm 91 tell us read them people. I speak into your life Deuteronomy 32 -30 :35 who know, know you feel it youth so you express it.that is it.no joke.💯