Story Time: My family died 

Thank you for sharing this.

That’s the truth.

I felt this. My husband passed away at 37. 10 years later and I cry every day

Very true, you never forget or heal completely but learn how to live around it.

Best explaination I ever heard was by a hospice nurse, grief is a giant red button that sits inside a box and that box is your everyday life. Whenever someone passes away, the box surrounding the button is very small and the button takes up a majority of the space inside. And every time that button gets pushed it causes a physical pain like an electrical shock. And someone releases a bouncy ball inside the box and shuts the door. So it bounces off the walls and hits that pain button a lot. But over time the box surrounding said pain button gets larger. The button never gets smaller, it is always the same size. The pain felt when the button pushes never diminishes, it feels the exact same level of pain that you felt the first time it was pushed. As you go through life and the box gets bigger the button gets hit by the bouncy ball less and less. But when it does, it is all consuming agony. It never gets less and the button never gets smaller. The worst part, you can’t see the bouncy ball, you have no warning when it’s going to hit the button. You simply just live your life, hoping beyond hope that the button doesn’t get hit by the bouncy ball. But you know it will eventually. Sometimes it happens backed to back and you have to deal with another shock of pain before you have recovered from the last hit. And then sometimes it doesn’t get hit for a long time but when it does, it still brings you to your knees just like the first time.” I hope that I explained that correctly.

No such thing as coincidences in life. My heart hurts about this whole video. I lost my niece in a car accident and I was talking about it today..... before I was recommended this video. AI and algorithm is CRAZY! They always listening (our phones) 😢

Same here. Sometimes the algorithm shows me just what I need to see and hear. 💔

@@jondra1693Your phone is always listening…

The same scenario for me. So much love in us 🙏🏼💕💖

i,m so so sorry gir your loss, I eish the best in the whole workd for you your family, love from denmark

Me too, it's directed us all here for a reason, whatever that reason is, we're here x we're here together to try to support Rachael and for her baby girl Oria and for each other x ❤

Same here, it showed up on my recommendations and I felt compelled to hear every word. My heart aches for you and I’m sending lots of love and hugs to you. It is obvious you loved her deeply and were a wonderful mother to her. I’m so sorry this happened and I can’t imagine the pain you’re feeling. I’m sure sharing her story was extremely difficult, but you’re keeping her memory alive and now she also lives in the hearts of lots of other people who have watched your video of her story. ♥️

Same here. I don't watch stuff like this usually because my mama heart just can not take it. But i felt completely compelled to listen to every word. I am so so very sorry, Rachael. Oria is loved by many & Oria will never be forgotten. I am praying for you. From one mama to another, I love you. 🫂 Thank you for sharing your story, I hope it helped even just a little bit to share it.🙏❤️‍🩹

@@PBJ22525 same.

Same. This is gut wrenching. I have four girls. 💔

That’s exactly what I was thinking as tears stream down my face feeling so much empathy for her no mother should ever bury their child

This sounds terrible. It doesnt come off the way you think. Its psychopathic

@SwampFoxMike how so swamp lad. Are gonna explain or just insult without it like you have a right. Seems fairly psychopathic in itself

@@SwampFoxMike Yup. Justice for Ashley...

@@JLYT2024 either both "is" or both "was"

I am so incredibly sorry.😢❤

I’m very sorry for your loss. Nobody should have to go through anything like that.

Im praying for you...May God's comfort embrace you & grant you healing. May you find love again, be a Mum again and be happy and at peace...🙏🙏🙏❤️❤️❤️

I'm so sorry for your loss.

No❤❤❤❤❤

It's impossible not to cry, after hearing such a heartbreaking story 😔

Oh you poor darling may God wrap his arms around you and heal you, I am in tears 😢 💔🙏🙏🙏

@@marcioramos2632I think you need to calm down. What you’ve said just now is very insensitive, I’m not very religious myself but you can’t just say that..

@@goofyrat2938 you are right. my bad...

​@@marcioramos2632that's a hateful thing to say God is our only salvation I pray for you that you don't find out the hard way your life is in need of a Savior

I was really struck by that too. And the grief her mother had to go through in identifying her daughter. Empathy like this is truly a rare gift and you shine even though it is so terribly difficult right now. You don’t need anything more than yourself to give. That is MORE than enough! I believe you are just what this world needs right now. I’m so sorry for your tremendous loss. Never give up.

I am so very sorry your beloved daughter is missing from you . As well as the man that you had loved as a husband and father- though you were seperated it had to be such a horrible blow.😢😢😢😢

I thought that to😢

Yes, it's a true testament to one's character and their remarkable kindness to not only think about a total stranger's feelings but to genuinely consider them in a moment when selfishness would be entirely warranted and expected.

That is exactly I thought when she said that.

💔😞. 🙏🏻🕊️

Yes! Amen 🙏🏼💔

Was praying the same. Amen❣️

🙏 Amen

Amen.

You feel that you’re able to communicate with god via the RU-vid comment section?

​@matthewnewton8812 If you had God in your life, you'd realize he's everywhere... I pray you find him and don't leave comments like this in comment sections. ❤️🙏🏻❤️

Amen to that.​@@goose7574

​@@matthewnewton8812God is omnipotent, omniscient, omnipresent. He can hear everything, see everything, He knows everything. God can bless this woman just because someone ask for it. He can do anything. I pray He saves this poor lady's soul. This much pain is unbearable for anyone. No matter what you believe you should as least send positive vibes her way. To go through so much like this is horrific.

Amen

God BLESS you sir. I am excited for the reunion you will experience when that moment comes and Jesus calls you home or the moment Jesus is told to go and receive His Bride. They are watching and waiting for that moment.

I'm sorry. That was beautiful.❤

What an amazing man ❤

That is truly one of the most beautiful things I've ever read! I'm sorry for your loss, she's with you in spirit though their never truly gone! I know it's not the same, I truly am sorry for your loss

😭😭😭 man im crying, God bless you and your beautiful wife and unborn child. ❤

To hurt the xspouse deepest pain ever, so sorry 😞 😢😮

Satanic

They probably weren't in their right mind at all. The lady is at peace with it now, doesn't take away what's happened but yeah 😢

A monster

He was a deliberately HOMICIDAL person. He has killed everything. This poor woman has had her entire world ripped apart by someone whom she LOVED. His selfishness is evil. He KNEW how this would affect his ex! He did the wrong thing … and KNEW it would cause all this pain and anguish. He was much more sadistic than suicidal. WILLFULLY SADISTIC

I’m so sorry for your loss. A child isnt suppose to go before the parent. You seem strong, you’re going to be ok, but it’ll take a while. God bless you for putting this on utube…this is the start of your healing🙏🙏🙏

Exactly and we can all be here for her always..I feel ao deeply saddened for Rachael. Alls i want to do is go hold her.😢😢😢😢

Me too❣️

My heart is breaking 💔 for her. I found myself wanting to reach through the screen to hug her ❤ Prayers, love and healing to you and your family - Wendy

I feel the same way, just wish i could hug her! So sorry!​@@nicholreed7008

What a sweet thing to say 💛🙏 I’m sorry for your loss. May he and Oria rest in eternal peace 💛

I am so very sorry for the loss of your husband. You just shared such a beautiful, selfless gift with her. This speaks volumes about who you are, and I am thankful the world has you. Lifting you up in prayer.

Oh God bless you honey - I am so sorry you lost your precious husband - a public servant. I pray he is a peace.

That was a beautiful comment❤ I'm so sorry for your loss, and my prayers are with you.

I am so sorry for your loss. No one deserves this. I have been deeply moved by your story. I pray in time you will be able to find some peace. You have a tough journey ahead. Bless you and your heart. Please hold onto life and lean on those close to you.

Idk if this helps any, but the people you saved will forever be grateful to you. I wish I could find the paramedics who took care of me (multiple GSW's) and just hug them. They were also comforting me because my loved one passed in my arms while I was attempting to keep him alive till the medics got there. I still live with survivors guilt from that. But THANK YOU for your work as a paramedic. Paramedics and EMS are the calm and safety in the middle of the worst storm of your life. So from the bottom of my heart, thank you for your service. ❤

I cannot imagine the heartache & trauma first responders endure for the people they help! We forget about this

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I couldn't imagine having that job seeing stuff like this. It would affect me in the darkest ways possible in ways I couldn't imagine. I'm so grateful for that job but I wouldn't envy it for anything.

Thank you for your service!

Beautifully said. ❤️

I was thinking the same thing, but didn't know how to say it. Rachel is such an inspiration. I couldn't be more grateful to hear her story. Absolutely beautiful ❤️

She is inspiring.

I agree

That’s what hit me, too. Such a beautiful soul, just like her Oria.

Amen ❤✝️🙏🏻 I pray for ❤️‍🩹Healing from head to toe heal your Heart your mind your soul .

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IN JESUS MIGHTY NAME

Amen 🙏🏽

Thank you for your wisdom ❤️

For now I wish you strength🌸

I’m sorry for your loss.

That was well described. I’m sorry for your loss.

Please take care ❤

It pop up on mine aswell

​@@private8937I'm so sorry, it must be hard to find the worst in everything. That was a nice comment.

​@@private8937Really? I wonder what the Lord thought of your comment. That was mean

Ewwww troll

Stop the stupid question on a grieving mom​@@private8937

Had to pause at 10:37 mins in.... Just to say... Your pain is felt through the screen. I am in canada.. . And although I havnt finished the video yet or found out what the police revealed fully... that I am sending you love and prayers and that I hope that God takes away your pain and heart ache and makes everything whole for you ❤

I am sorry honey. Come to my country costa rica . I d like to see you and take you to visit this paradise country. It really hurts me to hear your story

⁠ @@josedanielchavarriachevez2087CC B C

Yes yes. How much pain can one heart hold? Thankfully we are all here hoping our presence can soothe this poor mother even a tiny bit.

What a cruel, cruel man.

He even called her to let her know that he was on the way. 😭

@@abigailandino6251😩😩😩😩

Like to brag he had the last moments with her... & clearly he had issues & she wasn't in the wrong to split with him. This is murder & this poor mum got exactly what he planned, complete devastation and misery...

He was a complete sicko who couldn't handle a breakup. He did all that because she got a new boyfriend. He could of killed himself but he had to kill her young daughter to cause her pain the rest of her life. What a sick twisted man.

My heart breaks for the loss of your daughter! Be strong and have faith in God ! Your daughter is with you always! I am sure you see signs of her, she will not leave you ! God bless you !

And a forgiving heart...

So courageous she is for sharing her story.

The healing power of this video…I hope it helps her and so many more. 🤍

I cannot imagine your pain but I hope, somehow, you can rebuild your life in time to remember and honour your precious daughter and fight on. I am sad and so angry you have been through this. 😢 I genuinely hope sharing your experience here helps you. It is brave and raw and you have my respect for doing it. ❤

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I think it just changed my life. How I do not know. I've been through tragedies and a hard life. It all made me who I am now but one malignant narcissist who took his life before I could bring up legal charges for things he had done to me and my family in just a few months of dating. He was so jealous that he would rudely stop me from praying 🤷🏻‍♀️ I'm trying to find peace but it's not easy especially with all the hate, judgement and wicked things going on and sick people in the world. With everything I've been dragged through and lost loved ones etc THIS story moved me tonight to be more open to let peace and tranquility back into my life. To take care of my mental health and health in general. THIS woman's story moved me tonight. I'm watching the funeral service for Oria as I write this message to you. These videos popped up in my suggestions and I wholeheartedly believe she was godsent, it was meant to be. 🙏🏼 God bless you 🙏🏼

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It's the worst I've ever heard in my 58 years too 😢

You poor, poor dear. My heart goes out to you.

I hope you feel mine and strangers hugs and strength. You're going to need it. You're right, there are no words we can say that will lessen this pain. You are allowed to take this time, feel the pain and slowly with help join life again. It will be a different future for you but you will get through it in Oria's name. She will help you through memories. ❤

I’m watching all the ads because I’m just a broke college student but this poor mama😢

I'm so sorry you lost your daughter. I have 2 daughters and I'm not even able to imagine how it might feel to be in your shoes because it's too painful to think about. So the fact that you are living a reality that i can't even bare to imagine just breaks my heart. I know I'm a random stranger on the internet, but I am sending you all the love i can muster. I don't know if you believe that sort of thing, but I hope my love reaches you and embraces you. I really feel it, so i hope you can too.

My heart aches for you. I wish I had some pithy uplifting words to encourage you, but they seem insultingly hollow. All I can say is I have hope that there will be reunion, someday, and then nothing will part you again, in the world without end. This is my heartfelt prayer to the universe I need to believe has better things in mind for us. My best wishes to you for grace and happy moments to ease the interval until that joyful time.

❤ 🌈 😇

Bless you for your loss. Much love ❤

Oh my lord so so sorry for your loss 😭❤️

This was a sweet thing to say. Compassionate of you.

Was this guy the classic narcissist? He wasn’t just depressed. If he was, he would have put your daughter some place safe and then finished himself off. He succeeded in weaponizing a little toddler against you bc knew he was losing control of you. He was incapable of rational dialogue. This is the work of the Enemy. The light you have comes from God. Now is the time to turn to Jesus. I am happy for your soul to have found forgiveness in your heart because you will spare yourself the devastating effects of bitterness. He is a healer, the Shepherd of the lambs who choose to be born again and enter His fold.❤

@@radixdudetteAmen, Jesus is the only Way. She will see her baby again in heaven so there is tremendous hope when trusting in the Lord. It doesn’t have to be hopeless or the end. Nothing is hopeless with Jesus. God bless you and this poor woman who has been through hell on earth.

​@@radixdudette i think he might have been. This was about control. He was prepared to take the life of an innocent child just so he could destroy the life of his ex. I see there are people judging the mum but this isn't about her, its about the choice to destroy an innocent life. That is just the most vile, disgusting and unforgivable thing anyone can do. I don't care how much you hate your ex or want to ruin them, a child is NEVER a pawn for that. My father was /is a narcissist and behaved terribly towards me and my sister not because we had done anything wrong but because he knew it was the best way to destroy our mum and manipulate her into submission.. This is the most extreme escalation of that , a suicidal narc is the most terrifying jugganaut of revenge and quite dangerous. My father is a terrible human but his need for self preservation means he has limits.

This happens when you drag your child into adult drama

2 Corinthians 1:3,4 John 5:28

I lost my son, 17, Aug 27, 2023. My heart hurts for you mama ❤️

I’m so sorry. I wish you peace.

Same. A drunk driver hit the woman and she was also terribly injured. No parent should have to bury a child. Let alone three. Prayers to your friend. 🙏🏻

I'm so sorry for your lost also

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You are such a strong, brave lady. I'm so sorry x

I know what you mean ❤

@@HarleyChiky ⚡️cuz we want soo much to find a way to ease her pain 😥💔🙏🏽

I feel the same ❤

​@@winterlite3243because Father God is the only one who can ease her pain. Her little girl is in Heaven waiting on her. Waiting in perfect peace. Waiting with Jesus and all our family and other children. She waits on her mother to finish growing up. I know these things because this is what the Lord told me about my babies in Heaven, since I miscarried them. These WORDS OF LIFE came from the Lord THE MAKER OF LIFE so He soothed my soul and depression left me. And, joy overwhelmed my heart. The LORD is Good and His mercy endures forever and ever.

Add me to this list. I have no words. It broke my heart to hear this story & I want to help - to reach out - to say we are here for you. But it seems so flat. No one knows your pain. You are in my prayers 🙏🏼

I know what you mean, I'm a mother to 5 and these last few days have been rough. This video... I couldn't imagine losing a single one of them. I felt her pain, it brought tears to my eyes, I will be content in my circumstances and grateful for each moment. I pray that I never have to know the pain of losing a child.

So so true ❤ God bless this sweet girl!

I’m so very sorry for your loss❤️🙏

💔🙏🏼✨

I lost my baby girl to drugs 3 years ago. I miss her so. Love and prayers to you.

I, too, lost my young adult daughter to accidental pharmaceutical toxicity. Today, I heard the last song we sang together in the car. I'm so sorry for your loss. 🙏🏻🙏🏻

Amen I will pray for you ❤

I am so sorry for your loss x

Thank you for being open to his communications because I can’t imagine how much effort he goes through to let you know he is okay. I wish I would have kept a journal of “signs” that were sent. My heart goes out to you and I’m so sorry that you lost your son. Thank you for posting your comment. It gives others hope. Sending virtual hugs. 🦋🦋🦋 You know deep down inside he’s okay, but your heart and mind are in shock right now. You should watch videos on YT about NDE (Near death experiences.) That helped me a lot. I’m here if you need me. 🙏🏼

I feel the same way. I lost my son too.

God bless you. My great grandson was killed by 2 oilfield trucks. He was 6. We bury him tomorrow and are unable to view him because of the severe damage.

@@ritablackmon5162 Prayers for you and your family my deepest condolences

@@crazeelotta thank you

@@SnakesNSquids you have articulated perfectly what I could not.

my thoughts as well🙏

@@Beth_1982-h2severything u just said is so strange

​@@rinnitttyes, shadow is psychoanalyzing her, saying because she knew ashley's mental state that she then must have known he would harm the child. With shadow's thinking it would follow that victims of abuse are guilty for the acts of their abuser. Twisted.

@@Beth_1982-h2sI would love to hear YOUR story, the one in which you thought the unthinkable and saved the day. It’s so easy to sit on the sidelines watching tragedy unfold and talk a big game. Watch the news story or see something on the internet that are so many degrees separated from you and your life and make epic declarations about what should or should not have been done. In reality, life isn’t that damned black and white and usually the most righteous and judgmental people are the ones who have exacrly ZERO experience with the ugly grey area reality of situations like these. It takes a special type of cruelty for someone who would point out, to a grieving mother, that it was HER fault that someone else made a horrible and unimaginable decision that cost her her child. The guilt a parent feels when their child dies, accidental, homocide, suicide, cancer, doesn’t matter, can be detrimental and even deadly. Someday I hope you can feel what it’s like to have someone rub your face in the mud and pass judgement on YOU when they know a small fraction of details shared under extreme emotional distress to the point the details might not even be presented properly. Do you feel mighty? Stomping on people you don’t know from the safety of your home and anonymity of the internet? If you don’t like it, shut up and move on. You’re nothing but a bully and everyone knows that a bully does what they do in order to compensate for and hide insecurities over their own personal weaknesses and shortcomings. Only pathetic people force others down so they can raise themselves higher. Unreal.

So true are Your words. But if I was in Her shoes I just couldnt imagine my feelings. She will never be the same but hope Her Family will be thete to comfort and hold Her and Ashley close to Their 💔

What a sweet young man!

You are a kind and wise young man ❤

Well said young man 🫶🏼

I'm proud of you too kiddo. Very sweet of you. ❤

What a kind and compassionate young man you are! So proud of you, kid 🙏🏻

Bless your heart, you're in my prayers

Beautifully articulated. Thank you.

❤don't you want to go to heaven....or burn in the Lake of Fire 🔥 for all eternity....ask Jesus into your heart today, He's the only way to heaven, now I've told you, it's up to you to make the choice...Jesus or Satan...there is no in-between...just believe that Jesus died as payment for your sin and was buried and rose from the dead and ask Him to be your Lord and Savior ❤

​@@lovesJesus448there is a time and a place and as a Reverend i can advise you neither of those is right now. Please try to have some common decency and respect instead of copying and pasting generic unrelated comments everywhere

@@courtneygreene7213god bless u, this was well said 💜

Amen. It's clear she's a kind and caring parson.

So so very sorry for you

Right?! The way she wept for the police officer who likely deals with this regularly made me cry even more for her💔😔 Just watching her(a complete stranger) talk about this is causing me physical pain right now, my heart literally hurts, and my stomach is in knots...I cannot even BEGIN to fathom how she felt when it happened, recording/posting this, and every day since. I truly don't know if I could go on, and she's so strong for choosing to every day. I really hope that this video(or anything else) gave her some sense of closure and I'm glad she recorded it so that she never has to speak these words again if she doesn't want to but wants somebody to know or understand. I wish her so much healing, peace, support, love, and comfort. And if she wants to, I really hope she has the chance to have more children and a family again, not that it will ever lessen her grief, but just add so much more love and heal parts of her broken heart. On the other hand, I wonder if losing a child makes some women just never want to even risk potentially having to go through it again😔 On a semi-related note, my grandma(in-law) lives with us now, and there are a lot of great, active people her age in our neighborhood and community. But, because she's lost SO many loved ones, she refuses to make friends bc she just can't bear even 1 more loss. She was orphaned as it was, and then lost her brother when she was 5. Then she lost multiple friends, 2 husbands, both her children and her step children, her God child, a neice and 2 nephews. She's 76 and was very stong and healthy while working/socializing, but she's been deteriorating ever since she moved here(where she knows nobody, 2.5 years ago) and just refuses to meet people or have friends. It's tragic, and sometimes I catch her just holding jewelry, pictures or staring at the night sky while crying and it breaks my heart knowing how much pain she's in 24/7. I can tell she's really starting to want to go "home"💔😔

58 years here and i feel the same, so painful to hear , can’t imagine , just can’t imagine 💔💔

Thank you for your service, what a heartbreaking role

❤ Having a breakdown is certainly not pleasant but it's your mind and body saying...I can't do this anymore ❤ There ain't nothing wrong with that. Take care of your soul. You have a good one ❤

Thank you for what you do ❤

@@miracles-f2oAmen🙏🏼❤

i was thinking the exact same thing !!!!! i just don't know HOW people can do those types of jobs !!!!! first responders, or drs or MEs..... NOT when kids are involved !!!!! 💔💔

I felt this exactly. Rachael’s pain, horrendous to share part of was also healing in a way. One day at a time Rachael; keep on keeping on. 🫂🫂

What an incredibly wise and validating thing to say❤

Me as well, she's a true fighter. Oh the lives we live. What we survive, it's amazing

I'm so very sad to read what you've been through.

Oh my heart breaks for you. What an incredibly strong woman you are. I know you are spreading the light and love enough for all three of you. God bless you ❤

Im so terribly sorry and I know there’s nothing I can say to take the pain away. You give me hope to live if anything happened to my two boys. When my husband died (military fighter pilot) I was 3.5 months pregnant. I understood how people died from grief. It was so deep…and lasts forever. And that’s not the death of a child, let alone two. But here you are, giving complete strangers hope to go on, to live one more day….because you have…and I thank you for that. Sending huge virtual hugs. 🦋🦋🦋

We must trust God, I won't give you my story, pain is it's own story, we can only trust God threw our screams we can only trust God, peace will find you

I really cannot imagine what you had to go through. My deepest sympathy! I hope you can find calmness of the soul and even some happiness in your life. I wish you the very best!

Yup and only God knows if dad is in heaven or not!

My husband died and it was the most painful experience I’ve known. My husband came to me many times, I always knew he would and it was so comforting.

​@SherryBaby2003 How true, more than people will think about from merely reading your comment. He grieves our losses right beside us even though at the moment of tragedy, we aren't thinking of that. He IS the Prince of Peace among many other things. I cannot begin to put myself in that place even though I've had my share of loss and tragedy. We must strive to eventually find the messages in this SHORT blip of life on this side of eternity. I have 100% confidence in the fact Oria is beaming with life and joy as the angels and Jesus watch over. I have deeply studied NDEs for several years and it's a sure fact that the "innocents", children are so ultimately special to Him and the Bible even states the punishment for those who purposely harm them. I'm not alluding to her father, for only God knows what her dad's mental state was. However, everyone can receive His free gift of salvation if you only ask, for He is a gentleman and will not force Himself on you. Our world is presently in the last days just as the Bible tells us. Please seek Him while you cab and be assured of the beyond understanding of His promise to His kingdom, free of ALL heartache of any kind and to this particular story, the reunion with our loved ones. I pray for strength and purpose this grieving mother is showing and that ALL will willfully accept His gift of forgiveness of our sins and the promise of eternal life in His Kingdom. Be strong, put on the armor of God EVERY day (Ephesians 6) and do NOT give in to the temptations of THIS sinful and temporary world. Believe me when I say I'm speaking to myself as much or more than anyone, for these times are SO difficult. Much much love to all who've stuck through this comment. I want you ALL to be loved and blessed. ✝️🙏☝️❤️

She saw a butterfly and knew it was a sign if not her daughter supporting her! She is so strong, so incredibly strong! I hope as her community and have heard her story we can send her all the love strength and light she needs and wants to bring forward into the world in her daughter’s memory! ❤

My daughter died in 1975. Nearly everyone in my family dreamed of her and always told me of the sweet visits. I wanted so much to dream of her but never did until several years ago. I was saddened in the dream and sad when I woke up extremely distressed. She was an adult angel. She died as a child. The dream shattered all my memories of her. The child is lost forever now, and I will not see her as I remember her. She came to everyone as a child but not me. I'm still troubled by that dream.

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So sorry for not understanding how it works.......but to give Rose all my love and strength to get through. You're not alone, never so accept all the kindness and support from caring people that you don't even know. Just allow God's love to fill you and keep your memories close to you. I'm so sorry for you and your near ones. So much love

I feel like everyone criticising him he was clearly in pain too to take his own life

@@OliviaClough-o9k i agree, the life of himself and his daughter. he must've loved Oria

I was trying to digest her pain, and find the words to confort her, then I read your comment……thank you, nicely put….many blessings and prayers 💕💕💕💕

Rachael, I don't have the words to express how very, very sorry I am. God bless and keep you 🙏

This is truly encouraging. I also lost my sister suddenly last year December. I miss her terribly, some days are harder than others. My parents are having a hard time at the moment. I do pray for better days.

So sorry ❤

Thankyou ❤​@@nikkireigns

So sorry for your loss, this is such a hard time for you, I can only imagine. I do hope you celebrate your son's birthday. I am sure he is with you every step of the way! Thank you for sharing your heartbreaking story too.

Thank you so much for this beautiful message, even more beautiful because today is my Son's birthday. Much love Kelly​@@naturallywonder1279

My the Lord continue ro comfort you. I too have 1 beloved child. I fear thia very thing. Sending you hugs and praying for you. X

I am so sorry for your pain, and if I could lessen it I would. May the angels wrap you in their love as they hold your daughter. Our bodies die, but We do Not die. Google NDE of Anita Moorjani. The cruelty of your ex-husband is unfathomable. Know that those of us who experienced similar are sending the warmth of our love in hope that it will at least ease your pain and grief, even if it is just a bit. I lost a daughter, Chelsea, on April 4, 1987. The sane day that she was born. My daughter in law, who is pregnant, called and told me her due date is April 4. Her name will be Emma or Emily. ❤️❤️🙏🏻🙏🏻🦋🦋

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Dear dear Rachael. So sorry to watch you pour out your grief like this. As a mother and grandmother My heart aches for you. Wish I could just enfold you to encourage you to look ahead to better and stronger days as well as for inner healing. May the love and peace of Jesus that surpasses our understanding surround and comfort you. You are so brave to have made this video. But because of this video, now many others will be praying for you. Stay strong. Love from South Africa.

Loss is always hard but I am so sorry you had to find him like that. I pray that you find healing and get the rest you need. As a lifelong insomniac and someone who is also dealing with grief, magnesium threonate and a supplement called Cortisol Manager have been helpful for me. Gaia Stress Response is an easy to find alternative to the Cortisol Manager. ♥️

Such a lovely moving comment grief is the worst thing in life or one of the hardest things to accept iam sorry for your loss i too am grieving losing my partner in august so my pain is raw iam not sleeping either i hope in time its not so painful but right now its killing me but thanks for writing that to rachael ❤

That was the verse I had put on my thank you cards after I lost my daughter and then I lost my other daughter. Only memories

@@Blueerer730My heart breaks for you, Sweetie!! I cannot even begin to imagine the pain and the grief!! I never know what to say, knowing No Words will ever help, but just know: I prayed for you!! God is Truly your ONLY ANSWER!! ❤❤❤

@@Blueerer730Im so sorry for your loss, so sorry

@@Blueerer730 I'm so sorry for your loss in this life. Nothing anyone can say will change things that have come to pass and the loss we suffer but I myself always find comfort in this verse because it's true! Our loved ones energy has returned to the universe and they are everywhere and everything. That means they are also a part of you and god ❤

"The most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known struggle, known loss, and have found their way out of those depths." ~ Elisabeth Kubler-Ross

❤❤❤❤❤❤ sending love❤️ ❤️ ❤❤❤❤❤

I agree

I read up on this and in his letter he said "there was a sense of relief and calm knowing the end of life was near' and he was 'going to be with my daughter.” - I sincerely hope that guy is in hell where he belongs and got a rude awakening upon arriving that he will forever be separated from her. I will continue praying that this woman is like job in the bible where everything was taken from him by evil and God gave job back twice what he had before. I'm impressed that she's forgiven him but only bc that's the healthiest thing for her, but he doesn't deserve it. Biblical forgiveness does not mean what someone did to you is ok, it just means you aren't going to let it affect you any longer. She's honestly being too nice to him.

@@Trogdor1365 BTW, there's evidence that he killed her before the crash.

@@IWriteEssaysSorry Yes, according to The Daily Mail, Ashley Henry suffocated her before driving into the Lorry. I really hope there's a hell.

@IWriteEssaysSorry so fvcking sick. He _was_ with his daughter. Her mother did not keep the baby from him. Did he think that baby didn't want to be with her mommy? No. He wasn't thinking about her. He didn't care about "being with" her. He cared about controlling her mom, and when he couldn't do that, he just wanted to inflict pain. I despise people who use children to hurt the other parent.

I think it's more complicated than spite. Somebody suffering with mental illness, is just that. Mentally ill. You can't see it like a lost limb. But mental health can deteriorate to the point it kills you. It's a horrifically tragic situation. One that that will be exponentially more involved than simple spite xx

​@@carlydriver9741It's not mental illness. It's straight up evil.

​@@carlydriver9741 very well stated. Thank you for your comment.

No it's because the person who commits suicide is so in pain themselves they can't even put it into words and they don't know how because they were not allowed to experience emotions or Express themselves and they were so stifled and destroyed in their own childhood, everyone carries their childhood stuff into adulthood without knowing they're doing it. And they're running on those subconscious programs. They want to offload their pain into another and they want someone else to connect with them and feel that level of pain that they think is so deep. The people that I know have committed suicide really do just want to get back to source energy, to creator, to the light...... so that they don't have to feel pain. And perhaps, since children are high vibrational light beings, just as animals are which is why animals and children connect so well... there are those who cannot be around children because they are authentic and transparent, and then there are those who want to engulf them, similar to the movie poltergeist. Suck their energy, so to speak. People are not thinking and coming from the headspace when they're in a lot of pain in their lives, they're running on programs that are programmed within the body for survival, to navigate and survive each day, even if they're not actually experiencing the same situation that they did in childhood, because they cannot see things with clarity, because of the childhood trauma and emotional neglect and abuse. You must always dig deep into someone else's childhood but we must always dig deep first into our own, and introspect and do our healing, in order to bring a healthy child into the world..... however most people's childhoods are traumatic, even if it is a parent that wasn't fully present, animated and engaged and encouraging and supportive, honoring and cherishing the child and setting them up for success, Uno's parents do their children such damage if they don't create their own joy and happiness in their own lives within themselves first..... so they're not draining and sucking from the children... and trauma abuse and neglect is often covert and families, parents especially😢 put on a show for the outside world. And then people minimize their trauma and neglect because they think it's no longer occurring in the physical world, but yet it has impacted them in so many subconscious ways, they cannot even imagine😢

@@jenifernadeau wow, you wrote all that bs to excuse a disgusting family annihilator who was jealous and insecure at the thought of his ex moving on and that another man might be involved in his daughters life. Gross.

I am so sorry for your loss. Sincere blessings to you 🙏💚

Its horrible and i undestand perfectly you, my husband died january 2023, we found him in the bed our daugther 2 years old and me. He was not sick. Heart stop. Sorry for words, im french ...

Thoughts and prayers for you. ❤

So sorry, my heart goes out to you. Hugs to you and your little girl. I'm wishing you peace, comfort and strength

​@@Lo.A2023I'm so sorry 😞

Holy shit! I hope you and your children are safe.

I can not imagine why people do this. Taking your own life fine, but delibarately taking inocent people with you or traumatise them for life (lorry driver) that's the worst you can do.

My mom ...30years ago( I was five) drove both of us into a brick wall at high speed,after she told me she was ending it, I'm the youngest,my siblings were at school and before hand we sat in her car for hours behind a grocery store straight away from the wall and I remember becoming hungry and she fed me matches.... 😢 I still remember screaming and begging her to stop when she hit the gas pedal and floored it and we hit head on. I remember screaming as I slammed into the front dash full body force.I didn't know God consciously yet,but looking back I know he was there 😢❤️‍🩹he never left me, and he never leaves any of us. May you be blessed momma ,may God comfort and carry everyone of us thru this sinful,dark world .may we rest in KNOWING,this isn't it.were all held by him..biggest to smallest 🥹❤️‍🩹prayers for healing and strength momma ❣️🙏😢

​@@lindaraterink6451 y'all are insensitive superficial simpletons. Have you got any idea what difficult mental state those people who do those things enter and how it happens.. No, you don't care, you just like to point fingers and instead of helping such a person you make it even worse by belittling them as "gutless" to escalate their already declined mental state. A man wants a family unit, not a broken family. 80% of divorcing is done be females leaving the man.. connect the dots and you'll discover the answer on how a sane man is driven into insanity..

May god and virgen Mary wrap their arms around you to give you comfort and resignation for the lost of this two lives Amen

Wise choice of thinking. I think this woman's light has started spreading.🙏

This comment is so beautifully and perfectly worded

@@f-bradbeautiful ❤️

This.

Beautifully said

Amen

Amen 🙏

Amen🙏

Amen

@@cynthiaamitrano8915I found it difficult to eat after the death of my dad. My boss took me to lunch one day and it helped so much. We must eat, and eat decently. We need the vitamins and protein, etc. And yes, if you don't want to visit with people, be among people such as a coffee shop or grocery store. Say hello to people there. Also the lights are bright at grocery stores and that helps. When I had severe depression, I was not functioning well. Had a hard time preparing food (grateful for people who brought meals). I kept the curtains closed. The darkness and isolation did not help the worries and depression so I was hospitalized to be safe and get on medicine which helped. I thankfully was able to return to work. Sometimes women, after their husband dies, don't cook dinner anymore. They have lost their role. Sometimes don't think enough of themselves to eat a real meal.

I'd react the same way. Cry copiously, walk, run non-stop aimlessly until I fell on the floor, exhausted. Just to repeat it when I woke up. This planet is a mystery. A cruel and unfair mystery.

Well said, my dear; well said. You have my deepest sympathies on the tragic taking of your precious daughter. Much love to you from another fellow traveler.❤‍🩹

May the Grace and Peace of our Savior comfort you ❤

Our pastor and his wife lost their third child well over 10 years ago and the grief still lives with them; one statement I remember they made is that you will never lose the need at times to go into your closet to cry out your grief. Do not punish yourself for giving in to that grief for the moment, but know that you cannot remain in the closet because you still have your life to live.

What a wonderful comment. I too lost a daughter. It is a pain like no other. She was on life support and it was not helping her at all. I don't know if I'm lucky or cursed but I was holding on to my sweet girl when she took her last breath. The doctor came to check her and I screamed at him "She's gone. Leave her alone". He was just doing his job but I was filled with anger. That anger turned to rage. My marriage fell apart. But we have another daughter and I had to go on for her. The pain never ever goes away but we learn to deal. Every milestone my daughter reached I secretly thought your sister would be doing this. Yet we move forward. And we learn to laugh. We learn to love. We learn to live again, even though it is a different life. Thanks for your kind words. I wish peace for you, peace for this woman as well as a more positive future. God bless you all❤

​@mesalily-TeHWoRld what an incredible woman you are, you had the strength and fortitude to do what was best for her, and free her from her broken body. Thank you, Mama, for that, so much Peace and Love to you.

Putting a name to the event, doesn't make it any easier. I have loss a child and a husband. I have loss a brother and both parents. Labels don't change how your heart hurts and the anquish you feel. Rest in peace precious Orien.

​@@Emy53 I'm sorry for your losses. I do know the story of one woman who lost her baby at a week old... And she suffered for many many years over that loss, and she was ready in her mid thirties to try to have a baby again... And she was revisiting buried feelings about the loss from in her early 20s... But until her therapist called her a mother... "You are a mother who lost her child"...she didn't feel the same release that she did until that moment. I know it's not a word, it's a phrase... But that phrase was very meaningfull to her, because nobody had ever said it before. That she IS a mom

This was intentional not an accident or natural. Intentional. It's a sick parent that was selfish and hated the child and used that child to retaliate. That's what it's called. Mental illness...a narcissist who wanted attention so harmed daughter to hurt the mother. He controlled her and wants to torment her for life. Hopefully she remarries and builds a family with new beautiful memories. This teaches us to set boundaries with these men...and laws need to help women with those gut instincts to save the children so I'm they aren't victims.

​@@michellepernula872 Sadly, you could be right about this. It happens far too many times.

Mother or father. They are always a mother or father. You can’t take those experiences away from the parents. Even if they don’t have any other children. My sister lost her child the day after Mother’s Day. It’s hard to celebrate Mother’s Day now. I reminded her, she always be a mother. Your head will always turn when a little voice says mom, when a child cries you want to kiss the boo-boo. When they lay on the floor, you give that mom the “it’s okay, it gets better” look.