Suicide Note - *SAD* XXXTENTACION Type Piano Song 

Rest in Peace X, you will be missed..

“Just because I’m *breathing* doesn’t mean I’m *living* ...”

'Just because I make u smile doesn't mean I'm always happy"

the saddest thing is when no ones gonna be sad or miss you when you're gone..

The saddest feeling is when u have a lot to talk about but you just can't. Only tears falling down and you cried so loud but no voice...

I live a life of joy and happiness. Just in my imagination.

A sad feeling is when: You are used to being sad so when you are felling happy you feel weird. You cant feel anything You want to do something but you are stuck... You dont socialize enough and when youre old people dont even notice you. and even if they do they think you want to be alone. You want to be alone, you wanto feel sad, its like somethings pulling you down... An anchor..

I just realized something I can't get out of my head. _Why can't I love myself?_

If you are here and listening to this.. I'm so sorry. Be strong.

R.I.P Mac miller R.I.P Paul walker R.I.P Jonghyun R.I.P Lilpeep R.I.P Avicii R.I.P xxx R.I.P Cheester R.I.P Stan lee R.I.P Juice World R.I.P Cameron Boyce R.I.P Kobe bryant R.I.P Black panther _ ' Thanks for everything '_

If you’re freaking sad and completely broken and you came here to hear something painful to cry out on then im so sorry dear ♥️💔 life is really painful

My brother passed away recently from suicide. It has been a really tough pill to swallow, we were very very close. It feels like he was a part of me that has now died. There was no note, or any explanation. He just wanted a way out and took it. When I first found this song I started bawling my eyes out, as it brought a lot of memories up. Rest in peace, William 2002-2021. Please, if you are having suicidal thoughts call someone, if you don't have anyone to talk to, call a hotline! Your life doesn't have to end now, even if things are really bad now doesn't mean it's going to be like this forever.

Big fan of X, already wanted to make a piano song dedicated to his songs for a long long time. Let me know if you feel it!

2019? 👼💔

Never thought I'd come here just to cry my eyes out.

Who Comes Here Just To Cry?

2020? Wow, what a rough start to the year,

RIP DAD RIP MUM RIP UNCLE ERIC

I am literally crying alone, in the dark. Not having anyone around me sucks, especially when going through a rough time.

"when i die i will be remembered for the life i live not for the money i make" #AVICII :) , YOU DID IT BROTHER.

Beautiful. I think X or NF could go on this

**** I WROTE THIS WHILE LISTENING TO THIS PIECE*** I ask myself why. Every time I pick up the phone I cry You don't see the way my heart breaks You don't see every day how this pain aches every bone every vessel You made a mess out of someone who was down for you till her last breath Every promises broken Your words unspoken I look up to the sky asking Him why. Why. Why did I let a man break my heart a thousand times? And then maybe I thought I wasn't broken that it was my head making up the stories shaken Anxiety and stress and depression takes over Now I feel the weight of the world on my shoulder I just wanted you to sacrifice Not adding up another lie Still I ask myself why. Why. Why did I let you in my life? I can't blame you for the pain that you caused I let you in my life we were both in distraught You should've let me be Till you can figure out what you're meant to be Cause I don't know if you even believe in me or in you. You don't see the way I see you. I see marvel, I see grandure I see lights in the stream its like mother nature made you perfect, all the cells in your body made you a somebody but for a nobody like me. Why. Why. Why did I ever call you mine?

The sad thing is that everybody saw you as a strong person, and you lend a shoulder to anyone to cry on, but then no one, lend a shoulder for you to cry on, cause everyone thaught your fine, strong and cheerful, not even an "Are you okay?"

I lost my daughter a few months ago, and this music captures my grief perfectly. The emptiness I feel is unreal.

R.I.P. Xxxtentacion R.I.P Avicii R.I.P Chester Bennington R.I.P Paul Walker 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😦😦😦

I'll never forget the day, the day you left. I woke up feeling this heavy weight on my chest. I knew something was wrong, but I never thought Something was wrong with you, more or less. As the day went on, still had this feeling. I felt like all of my insides were bleeding. I tried ignoring it, but the feeling wouldnt fade. Something was wrong, didnt know you had stop beleiving. The day was almost over, I began to forget why I felt so tense, all I could do was sigh. Then that night I rememeber getting a call from you. I picked up the phone, and it wasnt you. It was your mom on the other end, crying and sobbing. She couldnt find the right words to say to me. I was confused, my mind was racing. All she could get out was, "Im sorry." I started to cry, for I knew then and there. You were gone from this world, it wasnt fair. I threw my phone down, I was in peices. You wrecked me, I hope youre happy knowing that you cant erase this. I couldnt even make it to your funeral, I guess you could say I was angry. I talk to some people who went and they said it was beautiful. But that doesnt change the fact that you left me. Many months later, your mom found a note. It was written for me, and I choked. I opend it expecting it to answer "Why." But all the note said was a mere goodbye. How could you do this to me? How could you leave me here without even talking to me? I dont understand why you had to go out this way! Didnt even ask if I wanted to go with you or stay! You never even told me you were suffering! I wish I knew, than maybe I couldve stopped this from happening! But you just kept it locked away, huh? Didnt you? I thought we were close and I had nothing left to prove to you! Why did you have to leave me? I may never see you again, not even in the next life. Once was blind to it all, but now I see! I wish I could've been there, but I guess you buried yourself in strife! Why did you do this, man, why did you do it? You had your whole life ahead of ya, but you blew it! I guess we honestly will never know why. Unfortunately, all I can say is goodbye. Link to song: Goodbye - soundcloud.com/lumin808/goodbye

The saddest feeling is when.... When you know you've been used :^)

Este instrumental forma una parte muy importante de mi vida, con el me desahogaba y con mis lágrimas en las mejillas miraba al techo pidiéndole a Dios que me ayudara a salir de ahí, a salir de donde estaba, no lo entendía y solo quería morirme, lo intenté varías veces, por suerte nunca funcionó o tal vez no tuve el valor, hoy la escucho y me hace llorar porque me viene a la mente todos esos momentos que solo Dios y yo sabemos como los pase, fue duro, pero aquí estoy, Orgullosa de no haber perdido la batalla!.

I'm sure when I was younger I never wished to become a dead person. An artist? Sure. A teacher? Yes. But never dead. Oh how I wish I could go back to those days.

I show my best to the people that it’s around me, Smiling and saying that everything it’s okay. But I don’t really confess my concerns to anyone. I’m behind a mask I keep asking to myself * Why I’m here? * What I should do to be okay? * What’s my purpose? I consider myself as a dreamer and I say that all my dreams will became come true, and I will make it happen But people are blocking me, I just want them to let me go and give me my wings to fly away from here. I don’t want to be in this world

I like the sad side so much make my feel strange feels

When I was young, my mother told me that even when I was older, she would still love me. But now I'm older and My mother doesn't love me any more

Verse 1: She, she is strong She is loved She is kind She is nice But she will never know She will never know ohh She losing hope She a home But it's so cold Her heart is out of control People think she's fine But maybe just listen to her one time One time, She needs help I reach out my arm I reach it out But she doesn’t take it No she doesn’t take it If only they knew If only they knew Maybe then they help her get thru x2 Verse 2: she gets so stressed She doesn’t sleep at night She is depressed She is putting up a fight I hope she doesn’t let go Of hope Cause its all she holds People just let her go Life feels slow I wish they help I hope she knows i help I’m here for you I will listen to you I will not judge you I will not judge you Yes it isn’t easy But i'm here if you need me….. If you need me… If only they knew If only they knew Maybe then they help her get thru x2

every time I listen to your music my sad memory embraced me and my tears started to fall endlessly... I feel the pain.. The wound is still there it never heal.. I'll be a prison of my dark and lonely past.. 🍃🍃🍃

A star can't shine without the darkness. You have the precious gift of music. Thank You for sharing this with us.

People who are depressed... Know that somewhere in the world every minute that passes someone thinks of you, someone want you to be in the arms 💖💖

So beautiful.... I'm crying so hard now...

I hate life why? Because I lost my dad. I just can't forget him. In past I always said "I can't live without you dad ". But I live. I'm dead. But I am alive. Impossible yeah? I hate everything. My dad always said " I won't leave you alone " And now where are you dad? This is not fear you can see me but I can't see you. I just want to hug you. But I can't. I miss you dad. I love you MY HERO.😳😔

The older I get the more I say goodbye too...family....friends...loves.... some time soon I will look to see nothing left but an old man. Growing old doesn't just take our age, it takes our life.

in this blue journey of my emptiness life your music is the only thing I feel like it does understanding & talk to me sometimes, thank you for that

THIS IS EPIC BRO! XX Should jump on this!

Una amiga se quitó la vida hace unos días. Y porque digo esto, porque el suicidó es cosa seria, por más que muchos dicen que solo los cobardes hacen eso, dejenme decirles que no es verdad, sentirse vacío, sentirse mal consigo mismo, tener problemas de sobra con los que cargar, son varias de las razones que traen consigo depresión, ansiedad, trastornos, mala salud, etc. Después de tiempo esas cargas se vuelven más pesadas, es difícil controlarlo y simplemente creen que su vida no tiene sentido, cuando uno no sufre de eso, ojalá que no les pase, tiene la costumbre de criticar a los demás pero acaso sabes que es estar en su lugar, tener los problemas que tiene, unos son más fuertes que otros, cada quien tiene su manera de reaccionar, así que antes de decir algo que puede dañar alguien, escuche se primero y piensen que como tú vives tu vida, no es como lo viven los demás.

The notes reverberates just like how empty my heart is. I feel overwhelmed by sadness but I can't cry anymore. Everything seems dull and colorless.

When you realized that they only need you when they're down or having a problem. Besides that... you're just a statue.

(0:16) All I can see is flashes in my head, memories of back when we were kids, the world was so different, we were just living for the hell of it, no pain, no depression, nothing to regret, and it feels weird talking to you now, the way you are it really breaks my heart and I just cant....I just can't understand, why you called and I didn't answer shit, it's been years since we last spoke, the last words you had for me you left on that note and I don't know if I'll ever be able to cope with that I could of been there to stop you but I wasn't and that's the fact, I was feeling bad for myself when you needed me most and that's the hardest part, and I still regret it, even now while I'm screaming at you "why'd you fucking do it?" while you're laying in a box, I'm sorry I don't mean to scream but I just want to know the answer now I cant even see your face, only thing i got left is pictures now and tears always falling down my face, I saw your dad and I didn't know what to say I've never seen a man break down that way, fuck what the others say to me you'll always be more than a memory to me, Never thought it'd end this way, Now I'm thinking to myself as they lay that dirt on your grave, there's so much more to her than they'll ever say, I saw perfection in your flaws, I saw heaven in your heart, even when you were fighting hell in your head, even though you had demons catching up quick, even though you listened to what they said, I forgive you, I miss you, and I wish that I could see you again, came close a few times just to be with you, but I forever live on in your memories think about the times we had when I finally have a family and hopefully grow up to be everything you'd thought I can be. I just can't stand to let you down, rather make you smile, wherever you are now, I hope you got everything you wanted, I hope it's better on the other side now, hope the pains gone, hope the scars all faded, hope you don't have to drink to get away and just know I will ll see you eventually, I can't pretend it doesn't hurt to see you go this way, All I can see is flashbacks and memories, in a world that's changed so much since you and me. If I could turn back time I would, Picked up the phone just to hear your voice, maybe this all could have been avoided, I don't know, I just wonder what you would have said if I answered the phone

I've lost so many people in the past few years... I wish I could have heard their last thoughts before they left, none of them left notes...

This music reminds me how everything changed in my life when I turned 11. At the start of this year my mum was abusive.. ever since I turned 11 things have changed.. all because of Corona. I feel like I'm just.. the hated child.. what is worse is I'm the youngest out of my siblings.. I dont understand what I've done to make them treat me like this.. once my dad almost kicked me out of the house. They often embarrassed me.. made me cry.. they just left me to cry.. feel broken.. worthless.. alone.. they treated my brothers a lot more different, one of them was autistic.. like my parents even told me they hated me a few months ago.. I just don't understand.. my best friend also tried committing suicide once.. I dont even know why I'm telling this.. people probably wouldnt care anyway.. I don't have anybody to talk to.. :)

I feel your emotions in all the songs "sad" I am now going through a bad time in my life, I ended a relationship of years and, somehow, your songs accompany me... thanxs for playing

Me pone a pensar y pues yo afuera de mi casa soy uno pero cuando regrese a mi casa soy alguien diferente😞 pues afuera de mi casa hablo normalmente, me rio, hago locuras y pues cuando llego a mi casa es todo lo contrario😞 Afuera finjo que todo va bien ago reír a la gente que conozco pero no saben q detrás de mi cara feliz ay una llorando😭😭😭

R.I.P Xxxtentacion 💔

I love these types of piano pieces. As someone who feels this way on the inside often, knowing I'm not alone in these feelings helps me feel less broken.

"just because I'm smiling.... Doesn't mean I'm happy..."

Estoy sad😔.....quien la escucha en 2019

se me hace imposible escuchar esto sin llorar :(

You’re an amazing pianist . I discovered you not too long ago. Have listened to most of your songs. You are the master of sad music. I don’t know if this is how you’re really feeling and this is your way of expressing and hinting this to us. Just know you’re not alone. You have many fans and we all support you, your channel, your talent! Please reach out to someone if you need to talk. This message goes to everyone else who’s reading this. You’re not alone.

The saddest Part of Life is when Someone you had much memories whit becomes and Memory RIP grandpa but if Someone you loved die doesnt mean its over it just means the live in your Heart and they will always stay there Till your ready to See them at the Gates of heaven ik you dont know me but trust me things will get better stay strong i am here for you just know That

Es increíble cómo una simple melodía trasmite Miles de cosas... Sea como sea es increíble la verdad!!!

Es difícil seguir adelante cuando alguien ya no esta a tu lado , ya que no podrás volver el tiempo en donde esa persona siempre te apoyaba 😞

when I was sad and lonely I just wanted to cry, but these tears were reluctant to come out, so I came here so that I exhausted all of it, then there was a little relief that came out with sad tears. thank you for such beautiful sad music.

Your singing touches my soul..

Todo cambió, desde que nuestra sonrisa se apagó...

Man, this really hit home run with me. I mean, if you think hormones run high, my emotions skyrocketed. I felt everything from numbness to an emotion that can’t be described with words, only tears. With every key, some sort of feeling set itself in my chest. It choked me, if I’m being completely honest. Thank you for those emotions.

it’s so sad to be not able to decide but them deciding most the things , I really wanna know what freedom feeling is

Thank you for this song I really love to listen to it when I was sitting alone and nearly 5 day more i will die so I leave this messages that I'm still here for support your youtobe I really miss this world of sadness in my whole life and I really hate myself that I can't found my happiness and even can't with parents , I'm just a shawdol but after 5days I'm completely desapear..😊

This reminds me of the time when my pet rock died... RIP pet rock 2017-2017 one like : one person who cares

You know, guys, life is just a big challenge for all of us out there. It challenges us dealing with really hurting problems as well as with good aspects of life and how we handle them. But in my case, life just hurts me more and more. I recently dreamed about the early death of my lovely grandma, then it happened after the night... ._. (R.I.P. Grandma 2019) After 1 month, my two little kitten died and the pet-doctor couldn't tell me, my brother and my parents, why... (R.I.P. 2019-2019) I just hate my life. I am crying every single night. ._. If you don't care about that, why would you read through this? ._.

The most beautiful sound I've ever heard in my entire life feels like I'm flying to the space 🛸✨

I've often thought about the ocean's refusal to hold onto anything too long, constantly pushing and pulling. It reminds me of how some people are like that too, unable to let certain thoughts or feelings settle deeply within. They surface again and again, like an ever-restless sea.

Please play this at my funeral.

life is a choice if you want to give up or not if you want to be happy or not if you want to move on or not everything is a choice and all choices in life has consequences this choices can be very difficult sometimes when there is someone involve because if you make a wrong choice it could be the end of ones life! choose to be with GOD choose to love choose to forgive choose to be happy no matter how sad your life is....................... choose to help other people choose your own path!!!!! and choose to be alive no matter what! even wen life always knock you down , even if they betrayed you so many times, even if they hurt you countless times, even if you feel that there is no hope in life. always choose to be alive because nobody cannot take that away from you! life is a gift from GOD! Never Give Up!!!!!

Incredible!!! Absolutely love this and the emotion put into it and the emotion it pulls from us! Speechless actually how beautiful this is....

YOU ARE TOO GREAT FOR THIS JURRIVH!! I LOVE YOU ❤️❤️

You know.. you really making me move on.. when I lose someone within my heart someday, i started to think "is this the end for me?" Then going all alone in the night, talking to yourself, saying "why did this happen for me?". Then I go home, go to the bedroom, starting to lose myself. But then I found the sad music, i started crying hard, now I know why did this happen because I was wrong... so I really thank you ;)

R.I.P Sulli :") March 29, 1994 - October 14, 2019

U r a criminal. U kill me with your music. Thank u. Each time I cry and feel better

beautiful piece. GREAT

R.I.P Paul walkee R.I.P Avicii R.I.P XXXTentacion. :'8

His eyes look so sad... his expression he look so numb and lifeless you can tell this is something he has experienced for himself

Hello, Sad girl from Indonesia who always feel lonely and alone 😞😞 08 Sept 2021 🥀

This 2:39 point where there's silence, and then a different kind of melody starts

Tears don't come out anymore.....my face remains plain....😐😐

*XXXTENTACION* _o rei das músicas tristes..._ 🥀❤️

omg 😞 this is what I was looking for a long time ago, damn how I didn't hear this before, this will help me a lot for my sleepless nights 🥺👏🖤

The song I needed, my cat passed away at my dads house recently, I stopped living there abt a year ago and never got to say goodbye to my cat, rest in peace Ramsey, you where a good boy and deserved the catnip stash you constantly broke into

Expressing our words and emotions through music is god gifted...so only least people can do that...i m not gifted so that that makes me unlucky

Yes , could feel a lot of hurt and sadness in this song. You captured the moment and the sudden ending drifted and ebbed away like in real life.

makes you feel a great peace I love the piano its beautiful melodies

😪 So sad... And beatiful melody!

Oh it's so beautiful, I love this sad music😍

I just wanted to say that if you are going through anything please stay strong, the pain the you’ve been feeling can’t compare to the joy that’s coming ROMANS 8:18. If you are going through something and you don’t want to be like that anymore please seek God, trust me when you look for him you will find him and your going to have peace and happiness in your heart ❤️ please stay strong guys. I know I don’t know you or don’t know what you are or have gone through but I love you!! I really do and please know that there is people who truly care and pray for you everyday 💙💕✨✨

Beautiful 🎶

Jurrivh is one of the best piano man for me...

Yesterday was history, tomorrow is a mystery, and today is a gift thats why its called present.

In the title it says suicide note and I can imagine someone sitting at a desk writing on lined paper crying

I love melody ❤

My very first jurrivh music i had listen, so much memories and depression feeling, thank you jurrivh i already move on from my depression now salute

R.I.P😣😢

He sits down so quite he can't speak, use to be strong now so weak, feeling so empy incomplete, Use to feel like he was winning now the only thing he sees is defeat,fuck listen to his lungs he can barley breathe, trying to reach out yet nobody sees, say depression is nothing but its a disease, cry out for a helping hand with nobody to reach, leave a note a final speech,maybe this will help to teach, but its too late gone 6 feet, Mom comes home calls out for her dear little boy, doesn't know her whole world is about to be destroyed, calls out several times no answer starts to get annoyed, mom walks down the stairs step by step, not realizing about her son's regret, opens the door the sight is hard to accept, standing beside her little boy was death, Tears running down her face yelling at the top of her lungs, hers sons battles over but hers has just begun, looks for her phone to call 911, it's too late you lost your son,Operator says hello only thing that she hears, just the sound of mubbles and mom whipping her tears, mom says hello I lost my son, he came home early and I found him hung, his skin turn blue I know he's gone, no pulse and his eyes are rolled into the back of his head, Is my son gone or can you bring him back from the dead, Operator alright I need you to remain calm someone is on the way, Alright thank you the only thing she had to say, Mom feels a cold touch on her arm, its her little boy realizing what he did wrong, never thought his mom cared so he didn't belong, freeing himself never thought he'd bring this much harm, He puts his lips up to her ear, says mom don't worry you have nothing to fear, Im sorry for everything I wish I seen things more clear, Stay strong mom I have to go they're here, The door rings mom gets up to open, still feeling in her heart hopen, they can bring him back motion, they knew it was already to late when she started showing, one comforts her they already knew where he was going, black bag, toe tag, off to a better place, Copyright@MikeSoul

Beautiful! - I just bought this for my short film. THANK YOU.

Be happy don't despair If you stop at the world, it won't leave you happy So fight it and live the rest of your life Making you smile baby doesn't mean I'm happy Years passed, tears of the past are still I am a prisoner of the past Be happy, don't despair