Feeling sick of myself Think I'll try to be someone else Can't be hard to paint a person In my head create a version The parallel Pull my head out the sand Try as hard as I can Guess I must be satisfactory You said you love me exactly the way I am And you know I find it hard to understand Pay a visit to the doctor 'cause I have A sweet tooth for you I'm wide awake The sugar went straight to my brain Feel like a kid, I double tap My chest with my fist I like you Say it back Say it back Never had a cavity Never had nobody as sweet as you Smooth around the edges, good as new Gently into it and every rendezvous Got myself a brand new pain It's like you do I know every line and curve of your tattoos A sweet tooth for you I'm wide awake The sugar went straight to my brain Feel like a kid, I double tap My chest with my fist I like you Say it back Say it back Sweet tooth for you My dreamin' space It's filled with scribbles, tore the page Decipher them with coloured paint Repair the stitches in my face Sweet tooth for you My heart, you do I'll see you in my garden soon Beneath the skin, it's cardiac A safety pin I like you Say it back
do this checklist with me. it's worth it. - did you do that thing you were gonna go do? - did you remember to drink water today? - did you try to eat something today? (chips count) - did you do something you like today? - did you get dressed/change? - did you shower/take a bath? - did you go outside? - did you get up or stretch? - tw, unsafe binding: did you take your binder off if it hurt/was on too long/was on during sleep or exercise? - did you turn in that/that assignment/s? - did you take a deep breath (or meditate!) to ground yourself? - did you check in with yourself mentally? ex.: am I okay? - tw, s^lf h^rm : did you not cut today? - did you take care of yourself today? if you said yes to at least one of these, well done. I'm so proud of you. you've gotten so far. doing at least one of these things means you punched depression in the face today. fuck yeah, man !! if you didn't say yes to any, that's completely fine. you're going through a dark place or recovering from something that hurt you. whatever it is you're going through, I'm so sorry /gen. trust me -- it does get better. you don't know if the thunderstorm will go away until it's over.
This was The music i used to propose to my ex-girlfriend (the original version)and now I gotta live as the best friend and just want to die but at the same time I don’t I just wanted to be happy as I was with her Just one more time The only time I was truly happy and nothing was wrong Just one more time…
