Talking About My Father 

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My sister's husband left when my nephew was a child. He sounds a lot like your Father. She had to tell my nephew that some fathers aren't fathers, they are just people who are an aquaintance. He is truly that.

Lots of people don't learn how to forgive or take things in even after they get old. You might have gone through hardships but you dealt with them in a wonderful way. Wishing you best always.

from what you've described, I would say you probably got your fathers looks, and charisma... you got the best parts of him, and managed to leave the rest behind, and that says something wonderful about you and your mom...

Don't worry Shinichi about why you love you father. I have an odd relationship with my parents. I have a lot of reasons not to be happy with them and feel like I do better with a distant relationship with them as they can affect my mental health. But as they're still my parents I love them even if I'm not happy about things they put me through in my past. The fact that I can recognise it now is an achievement.

I don't know if you've seen the Japanese movie "Departures" but I think you could relate to the movie. It's pretty cool.

Thank you for sharing this very private side of your life with us brother! It takes a lot of courage to open up the way that you did, and I have-and always have had-nothing but the utmost respect for you! You are very forgiving and very loving! Your father is lucky that you’re who you are........Wishing you the best on your upcoming meeting with him. Sending you lots of love! ♥️

I'm glad you learned to accept the situation of your father being who he was. I still can't understand a parent not doing everything they can to be part of their child's life and help their child grow.

Thanks for sharing Sinichi! My father is basically the same person your father is. My parents separated when I was young, I met him the day my mother passed away when I was 9. After that he was in and out of my life, instead of taking my brother and I to live with him when Mom died he sent us to live with his sister and her husband. Come to find out he has a wife in Mexico whom he never divorced, he had legally married my mother here in the states, and while my parents were separated my dad met and "married" my step mother, since she was here in the states all she could do was change her last name to Mendoza and act like she was his wife.... My life is full of drama too! So glad I'm not the only one!! Sending love and good vibes Sinichi!!

Its good to verbalize it, and self-analyze. Heartfelt for sure. XOXOX

Even though you two are not that close right now but he is your father and you need to try to be closer. I lost my father in 1993 from suicide and lost my mom to cancer in 2016. I have my sister but she lives 850 miles away. The rest of my family I don't know because they won't talk to me. What I am saying is enjoy your family while you have them because they won't be around forever. You are an amazing guy, you are very attractive inside and out. Satoshi is a lucky guy to have you. Keep your head up and keep your family and friends close! ♡♡♡

Hi Shinichi. Glad to see you lookin better now. Your comments were touching, specially when you said you still love your father despite the past. I cant say the same for myself, although i will help him when he is in need but i cant love or care for him like i did when i was a kid; cause of all the things he did to the family then and even now, though he's old he's still not 'grown up' in behaviour & attitude by gambling. Btw, mayb ur looks did come from him but i think ur mom contributed a lot too. Bet she was a very pretty girl then. 😄

It took me a while to answer to this wonderful, open and honest video.....but it struck a chord with me! Just one sentence you said: "Do I wish I had a different father? Not really!" My dad died when I was 25 of multiple cancer issues....and being the second child of 4 who also is gay, you can imagine he and I did not see eye to eye at times, but I have very much fond memories of him from me being young. When I hit adolescence and became a part of the alternative/punk/gothic movement he always enjoyed watching me do my own thing and encouraged me to do whatever I always wanted to myself In my early twenties we had some major fights and before we could come to terms, we discovered he was terminally ill...and that's when we began to let go of any animosity between us. I'm glad to have cared for him until his final seizure and we had to call the emergency number here in the Netherlands, before he was rushed off to our local hospital where he died. So: in the short 25 years I have known my father he was quite sometimes an irritating, ignorant man...but on the other hand he's done everything for his kids he could do, so I would never have wished for another father! Thank you for making me open up, because of your beautiful video!

If a child can forgive AND love their parent, then there are two winners; the child/ person who can forgive & love their parent, ultimately can fully and truly love their own self. True happiness!

You are indeed very handsome! Thanks for sharing your relationship with your dad. I had a very hard time with mine for much of my life, but for different reasons from you. We're on very good terms now, which I never thought was possible. I also discovered how deeply his experiences in internment camp affected his life, and it helped me be empathetic and forgive him. I hope that things improve with your father. But do know that you're a wonderful person regardless. Hugs to you.

So brave. Thank you for sharing. Not happy this was your circumstance by any means, but comforting to know someone else has gone through similar issues with their past..

) love your transparency, Shinichi san....

So proud of ur mom n of u shinichi ❤️ love from kuwait

Not everyone understands what that can be like, I had something extremely similar when I was growing up. Thank you for being so open 💓

I have been watching yr tabi eats. N now I stumbled upon this. Tk u for Sharing. Be strong

Thank you for sharing. I hope your meeting will bring more conversations between you. As someone who has lost my father, I miss those conversations the most. The random, off topic, and mental ones that make me smile. Always wishing you good health and happiness!!

Thank you SOLO much for sharing some thing like this...cuz is VERY difficult/hard to speak about it. And I hope you can keep in touch with your father. 💜💜💜

Thank you for sharing this private, personal story of your father with us. I'm proud of your mother, and I'm proud of you too! You learned to forgive, I'm still in that learning process...

I appreciate these vlogs so much. Thank you for bringing so much to your youtube family. Along with heart, I know that you help and empower many people. Best!

Shinichi, Thank you. And I will also say, welcome to my world. We have similar experiences growing up.with regards to a father and I am glad you mentioned you have no regrets about your dad. Life teaches us in so many ways and I believe you became a lovely caring person bcoz of your past. Thank you dear man for the truth.

I feel u ! So brave to be able to open up as u did! Always cheering u on! God bless!

I am glad you can still have a relationship with yours. That's just never going to be something I can do anymore. I havent spoken to my parents in two years now. They are incredibly toxic people and were beginning to treat my daughters the way they had always treated me. So, no. I am happier and more able to be myself now than ever before.

Your childhood to adulthood situation sounds a lot like my own in some ways. I've made peace with my father too. My sister has not and I find myself worrying about how she'll feel when he's gone. He tries to reach out and build a relationship with her but she rejects it to this day. I hope for the best, still. I find it's easiest to understand him when I look at my father as if he's just a man, a human, like everyone else. Flawed.

Thank you for sharing something that is so personal. I mean, that's what you do about 99% of the time on here, but it's just... I mean, it isn't something I would have the guts to do. Your panic attack videos keep getting recommended to me and I would love to watch them, but seeing someone else panicking or thinking about panic attacks has a tendency to trigger panic attacks in me, so I probably won't watch them. Which is why I would like to go ahead and say here that it means a lot to me that you are open about your panic attacks and anxiety. It really makes me feel less self-conscious about my mental health when I see people like you who have some of the same issues I have, but still go out into the world and do awesome things and kick butt.

thanks for sharing. 3 years ago my father left my mother after being with her for 40 years ,as you said because he was a"ladies man" , it was a surprise for all of us, there was no indication that he was doing something , and there hasn't been much communication between him and i since then, it still feels fresh sometimes, he just left and that was that . But i hope someday to have some type of relationship with him.

Thank you for sharing this with us. It's really personal and of course you didn't have to share this about yourself. Thank you for sharing and everyone will always support you :)

Thanks for sharing your story. Your dad kind of reminds me of mine. My mom and dad never married, but he left when I was 5 because he was messing around. He would come around during holidays, birthdays, and such, but we have never been close. He now lives on the west coast so I really don't see him, but we try to stay in touch since I'm his only daughter and I have his only granddaughter. I love my dad as well, and dispite his not so good qualities, some of my best qualities came from him. 😊

Thank you for sharing your fathers story. It would be nice to see a vid of you and him together hanging out. :)

This is Cat from Brooklyn NY!🐱 That was a great video. Thank you for sharing it. It is difficult for me to talk about my father too. I love my father very much. He died when I was 10 years old. I don't think anyone else in my family really liked my father that much. I look forward to hearing more about your father! Next month I'm having surgery! I am very scared and nervous! I love everybody! Be well!💝☮🐱

Thanks for sharing your life's story about your father.

Go and run to see him. Cause one day , it will to be too late!

This was really nice to hear 😊 . Haha yes, you are a very handsome man Shinichi 😍 .

My father and I were estranged for a long time because of how he raised me. He was a volatile and abusive person. After I was on my own, I rarely saw him because he, his wife, and one of my sisters moved thousands of miles away and he only came back every 8 to 10 years to visit my grandmother. After his wife passed, he and I talked on the phone periodically. Both of my parents passed last year. I was closer to my mother even though she didn't raise me and I'm still dealing with her passing. However, despite our differences, my father was still my father. Because my father was so abusive and he did everything he could to keep me from interacting with my mother when I was growing up, I've never really felt as though I belong anywhere.

You're lucky to see and know your dad. I've never met mine. But I have a step dad. He's been in my life since I was 7 and I just turned 31. We don't talk or hang out much but he helps me in ways. He got me a car much like your dad got you the apartment. It hurt me when you said your dad never did anything for you. That's probably his way of trying to be in your life in a way that he could never have been in the past.

Thanks for sharing this personal story...

My father was similar. He's still married to my mother and I liked him enough, but I realized years later that he helped enabled my mother's abuse and contributed to the sick system that was our family. I haven't spoken to him in years but I don't think I love him, it's just that he's there and he's my father I guess!

Thank you so much for sharing this with us. About 9 years ago, this past early December, I started dating my ex. I didn't know it at the time, but not only would he turn out to be the father of my son, but an abusive alcoholic. He only ever hit me once. We were both at fault, but I don't for a second believe I deserved it. I didn't know it at the time, but I was already pregnant at that point. I took him back, which I regret doing now, but things, predictably, got worse. There was every form of abuse, other than physical, under the sun thrown at me. By the time my son was 5 months old, (and only a year and a half into my relationship with his biological father) I left. It was the well heard "nothing but my baby, and the clothes on our backs" story. I stayed with family, and raised my son on my own. After only 2 weeks, I moved into a new apartment, and a dear friend of mine helped me a sick as he could. I was very fortunate for that, as so many women in my situation have to go at it alone. Now on top of all of this, I have an aggressive form of severe Rheumatoid Arthritis that was just starting to come out of a multi year remission. (I'll skip the slow progression and just say that last night my excrutiating pain woke me up multiple times, and often times, that dear friend, who is now my fiance, has to carry me to the bathroom. I've been bedridden for 3 years.) The ensuing, year long (which is actually considerably short) court battle, and extreme fear with and of my ex, was and still is, a nightmare. Sometimes literally. Even longer story short, I sometimes worry how all of this will affect my son. He has need for nothing (and want for nothing but a $500+ Star Wars Deathstar lego set, that no sane/poor parent would ever buy... it's okay though, he's saving up for it :P) and this includes a father figure in the house. But hearing your story, Shinichi, is inspiring. He has a good head on his shoulders, like you, and I am hopeful that he will take a similar mentality to what you have. I do have a question, however. Did you ever resent your mom for leaving your father? My son knows I left his, but all he knows is that his biological father wasn't very nice to me. I refuse to go into any extent further than that with him until he's an adult because I never want him to think he has "bad genes". Luckily, though, if he finds out earlier, my ex's siblings and parents are amazing people who collectively fix bridged in their communities, help cancer patients, and provide a save place for Aids patients to get help, information, and support in regards to their disease. Sorry for the novel, and again, thank you so much for sharing ♡♡

It's good that your parents recognized how things wouldn't work out between them early on. Some parents force to "stay together for the kids" and it's never pretty. The way you described how you feel about your father is how I feel about our mother. I am only thankful for her sort of good looks (though her genes carry a lot of illnesses that I hope will not surface in me or my older sister).

My father & I were very different people. We rarely saw things the same. He was pretty traditional & narrow minded. When I came "out" to him.He point blank said to me" everybody deserves to be loved. If that's how you do it okay". "You're my son & I love you"" He was a big Jerk....but he was my Daddy.

Remember your past life was drama, but your today now future life isn't drama in the negative at all. You should go see your father if your thinking of him, he's getting old. He will be gone soon and you don't want any regrets. All will be well for you.

Thanks for sharing, Shinichi. I never knew who my father was but in a way I'm grateful for that and I don't care to connect with him. My mom was an amazing lady and she was all I needed :) Also, you got the good looks, for sure! :D

We have the same story in life but you are right we must accept it . I envy you coz you are good person and bright , top .We are happy and enjoy your channel watching and learn many things . A very educational and I learn many Japanese cooking. Thanks ! Arigato gozaimazu !

Thanks for explaining about your father shinichi!!

I love learning more about you. I'm so intrigued by your country. How does your dad feel about you being gay? Is Japan as "open" with gay/lesbian relationships as America is?

Thank you for sharing your story. When I was younger, I often fought with my father. We have two very different views on life and the world and it was always his way or not at all. He's very conservative and I'm more on the liberal side. Our relationship improved much more when I moved out and started living on my own. We still disagree on things, but we no longer have arguments.

your life is not a drama....it just your story Life line .... thanks to shared story about your father...yes ! your good looking face came from your father and I agreed with you 😉👍👏🎉

Hi Shinichi how you doing good to see you thanks for video

thanks for sharing shinichi 😀

Happy Birthday

Repair the relationship, and heal what's wounded you, if you feel it's necessary. As one gets older, the end of lifespan is near. Don't wait till it's too late if you want to do something.

Thanks for sharing I never knew my father an it was hard to get info about him that wasn't always negative. Sometimes I wonder what he would have been like. But sadly I won't get that chance an I'm okay with that it's like you said I wouldn't be hear if it wasn't for him so I'm happy with that. An hey don't worry about your room mine looks the same way I'm very good at washing my clothes but folding them is such a chore 😂😂😂 well I have talked to much back to work I go. Have a great day/evening/night

You think of him because he thinking of you. I hope you have seen the movie Departures. It is a highly acclaimed movie which also happens to be one of the BEST MOVIES I’ve ever seen. Very healing as I’m also the product of painful divorce and an absent Father. Please know Life is short and don’t have regrets. Please watch this movie if you haven’t. It’s a Japanese movie.

Thanx for sharing. I have a similar past also. My parents divirced when I was 12. Since then life was hopeless but I didn't run for alcphol or drugs. Insead I learned at alot through experience. They are dead though I kinda figured out their cause of action. Not mad at all. I also learned to forgive as I get older

Lots of love❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️😄😄😄

I don't know what to say except my dad passed away last year and I wish I got to know him better but he's the stubborn kind. anyways, my point is you should spend time with your dad. we're not getting any younger and life is short. don't be like me and regret.

Shinichi...I’ve searched for your video about your relationship with food and I cannot find it. I never got to see it I only saw the title. Could you please do a video on this subject again or send the old one out again. Thank you.

It really is horrible when a parent can't. Stand up. My biological father called me a bastard and he still hates me to this day. At times he does help me and I do love him still in my own way.

I thought your dad was a nice guy for helping you out on your first time living in Japan despite being the way he was, he didn't have to but he did... curious if you have step siblings and your relationship with them. How far does he live from you?

That is life but at least its not mean't to be .just forget and forgive my friend .

I hate laundry, I will wash it and dry it but then when it comes to the putting away part I'm like do I really want to do this? hahahahahaha the answer is usually no. Thanks for being so open with us. As I get older I question why my mum puts up with my dad. They have been married almost 50 years now but as they get older his health is deteriorating and he does nothing to help it. My mum tries but he refuses to listen. His political mindset is another area which I won't go into, but I just don't know how my mum deals with that on a daily basis. Maybe your mum wad the smart one...She is fierce ( you can tell just by looking at her and her very soft spoken demener which means shes hiding some explosiveness inside)and maybe she knew that even though she loved your father, she didn't want to put up with his shit just as a charade for the kids. I also don't ask my mum questions or question her either because she is also tiny and fierce. hahahahaha

Thank you, but other sides of the story matter too. Love and thanks.

My Dad disowned me when i was 16 and came out as a Lesbian. :(

I'd NEVER forgive my own father

Omg Sinichi i was watching this vlog for a girl called Charmander its call vlogmas 17 one of the stories on a mistery box was about a boy named Satoshi that would eat ampan and pull out his weewee and show the girls. I almost chocked i laughed so much. I know it was probably not your Satoshi it was just really funny.

YOUR AN AMAZING PERSON .YOU HAVE BECOME A BEAUTIFUL PERSON. .THIS ISTINA MARKSWIFE

I think it was for the best your parents had their own lives, I used to ask my mum why she stayed with dad. Today is her birthday and she is so unwell, especially after chemo at her age. However, my father does not even know it is her birthday, let alone support her through her life of struggles. Mum never complains and whilst I understand my father cannot help being self absorbed, it pains me to watch innocent people suffer, especially my favourite person So today my prayers go to my saint of a mother wishing her a peaceful day. I let go of my early anger for my father as not everyone has the ability to be nurturing. I know you keep a lot to yourself and that can cause issues Take care and strike a balance & I hope you like what is on it's way to Japan as your very relatable Ciao

You are sooo sweeeeeet.

My father did not want me and was angry at me for being born until the day he died. We never bonded and only tolerated each other for 49 years. I'm glad he's dead. I hope never to see him in the next life - if there is one.

Hi Shinichi how you doing have a great day take care 😘❤️😘🤩🥰

Handsome genes. XOXO

Please pay him a visit,while he is still alive.

Shinichi you are a very sensitive person as I am. I never look at the past and say why didn't my parents do this or that because what use is it? It's gone and done. Your father is what he is don't ask him the whys because he may never see that what he did was not good. Just concentrate on the now. Even though your mom had issues with you when you were young I am sure she loves you. When Satoshi visits his family does these feelings emerge in you?

My dad stayed around but I rather wish he hadn't. He was always someone to fear growing up. He had an explosive temper and one never knew what would set it off. He slapped my sister and I around a lot growing up and psychologically abused us. My mother wasn't too much better when we were very young. Mostly because I think they were both horribly abused by their parents and that always makes people mean for some reason. Children should never need to be afraid of their parents.

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... I'm just... i, too am a homosexual japanese whose parents divorced because of the father's alcoholism. Do you feel as though your mother took her frustration out on you?

Mmm very interesting. It has to be a biiig cultural differnece between you and me. I can't understand how you can have a good relation with your father or your mother after how they treated you. And it's even harder to understand why your mother keep comming to visit you after you told us using youtube what she did to you when you were a teenager. Is she not angry with you? I though japanese people were very reserved.

yes, your life is drama...like TV drama...and you are drama queen...wooooooops...hahahahha...so your parents are 100% Japanese? and but your mother is in Hawaii now...and your father is in Tokyo...why she went to Hawaii.???..and your sister is in Hawaii....interesting life you have..by the way, I am Japanese and my father died by lung cancer...he had a very close female lady so called mistress...which we didn't know...but he was very nice father to us but very strict ,,,.everything was secret...anyway, i know what you mean. be happy with your partner,satoshi and enjoy rest of your life,too....