I know how you feel mate you only have one dog in your life that kicks you right in the nads when you lose him/her for me it was big blue rotttie cross belgein Shepard there will never be a more loyal friend than that boy for me the ten years I spent with him were the best loved that big dog cried like a little girl when I lost him.that was 24 years ago when I was a pup of 25 fuck I'm old lol