appreciate the perspective. my grandma was a very strong sort; resourceful, pragmatic, fiercely devoted to family and faith. she always expressed to me 'focus on the community at your reach is most meaningful and watching birds to pass the time is also fine too.
a time and space for all things right. it seemingly so easy to let conciscious expierence slip out my ears. yeah, perhaps being constantly aware of shit so out of range of personal life is so easy now. truly brain rotted. learning how to engage with the outside world must be lost wisdom. damn. i think im cooked.
