The 15 WEIRDEST Psychological Disorders 

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Derealization is fucking trippy, wasn't comfortable when I had it a while back, but looking back it's actually quite interesting how something like that forms. The fact that I wanted to be so distant from my environment that my brain just decided it wanted to leave and make everything feel like it wasn't real. It's wild what we are capable off, and how we are barely in control of ourselves.

Remember Psychopath doesn’t mean murderer Sociopath doesn’t mean criminal OCD doesn’t mean perfectionist

Derealization is so dangerous. I used to have it a lot and one time I started viewing my family as random strangers. Sometimes I will be hanging out with them and then my mind will suddenly decide that I don’t actually know these people. They notice it too when it happens. I also used to think of my body as not mine, and my belongings were someone else’s. I sort of become empty, lifeless, with no emotion, doing tasks like I’m on auto pilot.

Mushroom was good to Me

I have Alice in Wonderland syndrome, the episodes aren’t very distressing as they are confusing, it’s mostly altering to my perception of sounds and time, feeling like everything is very loud and repetitive, or time quickly speeds up or slows down, and it becomes impossible to count seconds. It’s very odd, but neat

I have suffered from Truman Disorder since I was a little kid (like before the movie came out). I assumed there were cameras on me at all times filming me, and everybody around me was just in on it. No paid actors, no set, I was the living the original reality tv, but created by scientists to study human behavior. They air some parts of my day with doctors explaining what and why I do certain things or at least their suspicions as to why I do them. My family always brushed it off as me being silly (different times, folks). It was always very present for me, and I just accepted this as my life, but would have bigger flare ups where I would be afraid to do anything because I knew I would get caught. When I was older and finally in therapy, it took a while to bring this up, because obviously, I didn't want the camera people to know that I know they exist. Even though I knew this wasn't real, I still went through a lot of "but what if it is really?" moments. And treatment took forever, because I lied during most of it. Because if it was real, of course the therapist would want me to think it wasn't real. My thought process was always me trying to play it cautious, because I don't know what kind of consequences I would have if I admitted that I knew about the cameras. Even though I'm better than before (yeah, I can finally do things like have sex without freaking out about accidentally making a porn tape), I'm still not convinced. Just writing this is making me anxious, because once I hit the button and post this, it's out there. Every day can be a struggle because I know it's not happening, but it's also 100% happening. Nobody can prove me wrong, because they would make sure that I have limited access to information so that I wouldn't ruin this decades long study. So if this is real, sorry about the most recent episodes and how boring it's been. You've seen what I'm going through and I'm exhausted.

Man I thought everyone constantly questioned their own existence. I constantly have these anxiety attacks where I think I'm fake and everything else is fake and I don't actually exist. I thought it was normal this whole time.

Alcohol and cigarettes addiction actually destroyed my life. I could remember several years ago after divorce with my wife which brought me into my disastrous journey on Alcohol and cigarettes. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Got diagnosed with cptsd. Not until a friend recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 8 years totally clean. Much respect to mother nature the great magic shrooms.

I was not expecting to see depersonalization/ derealization here, it’s something I deal with daily. Thank you for explaining it so well and in a way that didn’t make me feel crazy.

Alice in Wonderland Syndrome is surprisingly common. In my case it was first induced by a fever I had as a child. I used to often lose my perception of size, and it actually felt incredible when I experienced the illusion that my own body was undoubtedly as large as a continent or a planet.

I have recently discovered I have “exploding head syndrome”. Caused by stress, I will be in a deep sleep and suddenly a loud noise (explosion, fireworks, window breaking) will happen inside my head but not in real life. Leaves me with anxiety for hours afterwards. **Edit** almost 2 years later I didn’t realise this comment got so much attention but I was diagnosed with PTSD. Turns out lack of sleep, high anxiety and a traumatic experience will do this to you. Appreciate all the nice comments

I actually have Alice in Wonderland Syndrome. I’ve had it since I was little but it’s not as common in my adulthood luckily. It’s quite the experience and trying to talk about it with others as a teenager made me feel like I was going crazy 😂

Derealisation is something I live with. My health team and I have never been able to identify what in my life caused it, which makes me feel like I always have to justify it or question it. So already, I never feel quite attached to my reality, and then I question that feeling even more because we don't know what causes it. Just stuck in a gaslighting cycle within myself!

Depersonalization and derealization are so much more common that you’d think. It’s usually a response to trauma as the brains last ditch effort to separate itself from the threat of danger. My gf has had several episodes of this and it’s very surreal every time it happens. The brain is such a fragile but complex thing.

Time stamps: 15.)Diogenes Syndrome 2:55 14.)Conversion Disorder 3:40 13.)Jerusalem Syndrome 4:16 12.)Visual Agnosia 4:49 11.)Depersonalization/Derealization 5:22 10.)Truman disorder 5:51 9.)Apotemnophilia 6:27 8.)Walking Corpse Syndrome 6:48 7.)Alice And Wonderland Syndrome 7:11 6.)Dissociative Identity Disorder 7:33 5.)Boanthropy 8:10 4.)Clinical Lycanthropy 8:34 3.)Capgras delusion 8:52 2.)Phantom Pregnancies 9:18 1.)Koro syndrome 9:38

Been struggling with clinical lycanthropy for years, it's embarrassing and frightening constantly questioning not who you are, but what you are and what type of monster you may become at any given time in the night. It's been going on for a long while but I'll be able to get long term therapy sometime soon though. God bless whoever reads this 🙏

I knew someone with lycanthropy disorder. He also believed he worked in the Navy despite being 15. Dude also kept a gun in his book bag just in case of a shooting at school. he actually pulled it on me during a conversation over the name of the song Chop Suey by System of a Down. He was arrested. He was also the councilors son which is ironic.

Derealization feels like everything is in liminal space. It’s so odd to observe, especially when you’re seeing it in places you’ve been at for years, and it somehow looks and feels different, even though nothing has changed. It can feel so unsettling.

alice in wonderland syndrome is such an odd disorder. i was on call with a friend when they experienced AWS,and they described it as "feeling like they're the size of a thimble" and "time simply didn't exist". from a psychology and psych student perspective it's rather fascinating.

super cool you talked about these :) i’ve been diagnosed with derealization/depersonalization and it was comforting to hear it talked about on a video with a million views. it’s really hard and a lot of people will respond, “oh, i get you! i dissociate all the time, like when im driving home”. no. it’s not that at all. there really no break from it or lull in the symptoms. im constantly doing mindfulness exercises. it’s scary, isolating, and it causes me the most frustrating memory issues ever. anyway be nice to people because their brains probably aren’t being nice to them.

Derealization is like thinking you're in the matrix. You don't know anything outside reality but you know that it isn't actually real. At times when you feel extremely stressed it feels like someone is trying to unplug you from the matrix, everything gets foggy and kind of numb. It's like experiencing all the characteristics of life without experiencing life itself.

Honestly feel bad for anyone who has to go through any of these or any other psychological disorder, what makes psychological disorders almost scary to me is the fact that we really know so little about ourselves in that matter, great video as always though

I happen to have conversion disorder and I really appreciate you bringing more attention to it. I didn’t know about it until I was diagnosed with it and many many people don’t understand before I explain it.

I have OSSD 1b, which is a disorder like DID but without amnesiac barriers between alters (basically we are able to know what others do while fronting) and I’m very thankful that you did not say that the host was the “original” personality. It’s a very common and irritating misconception that one alter is the “real” one and the rest are from the disorder but the fact of the matter is that the reason we have the disorder in the first place is BECAUSE the mind never solidified into one identity so there can BE no original.

I remember a guy with Capgras Delusion who was at a psych ward at the same time I was. His story was so, so sad... I remember once he was talking about it and usually he would say "I thought my parents were replaced by aliens" but that time he said "my parents were replaced by aliens". He didn't turn violent towards them, though. He had a dream in which he was told he had to perform seppuku at the main square of his city for his parents to be returned. Fortunately, his friends realized something was very wrong so they caught him before he managed to do that. I hope he is better now.

To anyone who experiences derealization, this is what I’ve learned that’s helped me: Learn to recognize when you start to feel it (if it’s episodic). This helps so much because once you’re all the way there you feel like you’re in a different world. Recognizing it allows you to say to yourself “this is what’s happening, this is real.” And then ground yourself. Activate your senses to make you feel grounded in reality. I listen to music really loud. It help me to focus on the words and the sounds and to activate my brain. Or else I’ll just hear people talk and immediately forget bc it seems like a dream. Touch things! Feel the texture, know that this is where you are and this is what it feels like. You’re not floating outside your body. All this really helps me to stay in my body and in reality until I can come out of it. It’s so hard to focus on the world and details when it feels like you’re dreaming. But it’s not a dream, find the details. Let your brain know you’re there

I think Fregoli disorder or foreign accent syndrome would be interesting to put in. Fregoli disorder is where you believe everyone you know is one person in disguises, and foreign accent syndrome is a condition, most often after a stroke, where you seem to speak in an accent from another country even if you’ve never been to that country and aren’t of that nationality or ethnicity. For example you could have a stroke and end up with a French accent even if you’ve never been to France or are French at all.

I don’t usually tell people this but I have DID, I was professionally diagnosed by a psychiatrist about 2 years ago. I am still confused about my own disorder. Currently I know of five other personalities/ altars. It feels nice not being portrayed as some kind of monster like in the movie split.

That is a Jreg title

I remember one of my first derealisation episodes. It happened back in highschool, I was sitting at a bus stop, numb and dissociated. The anxiety of being in a school that I hated, surrounded by people that I hated really took a toll on me, and I'd often zone out to deal with the constant stress. I was looking at the road in front of me, not really thinking about anything, and suddenly it began to rise and fall slowly. It looked as if it were breathing. It didn't disturb me, I didn't feel anything, I just stared blankly as the tarmac pulsed in front of me. I've dealt with derealisation for years, going through life as if in a waking dream. It's not fun, and I have memory problems now because of how long I've dealt with a combination of derealisation, depression, and a fuck of a lot else

i have a kind of conversion disorder known as psychogenic non-epileptic seizures, and one thing i learned recently from my neurologist is that its entirely possible to have non-epileptic AND epileptic seizures- sometimes these can occur in the same episode too. conversion disorders like what I have are also commonly treated using cognitive behavioral therapy or dialectical behavioral therapy to help learn skills to better manage triggers/pull yourself out of disregulated states

(This is an extremely long one, I apologize) As someone with OSDD (basically a "mild" form of DID), I want to applaud you for your explanation and also clear up a few things. (If you don't want to read all of this, skip to the second section, that's where the important stuff is). First, that disclaimer is really important and I'm glad it was started that way, especially with the video title being "15 weirdest disorders". Second, dissociation is something I've struggled with since around 5 years old. Whenever I looked at myself too long or thought about my name too much, I started to question if I was even real. Which are disturbing thoughts for a 5-12 year old to be having. More recently it's come in the form of feeling like I'm just a spectator in my own life, or a "camera" that's just filming anything, not a living being. Also thank you for normalizing dissociation, because it is a completely normal thing to experience once in awhile, especially after periods of stress. People with more "mild" disorders can also experience greater amounts of dissociation, like people with ADHD, autism (I believe), and those with other trauma disorders. I do want to clear up/add some information about DID, though. The basic description was good for a surface-level overview of the disorder. Something that rubbed me the wrong way however was the "causes". It is indeed caused by childhood trauma, specifically severe, repeated, inescapable trauma. However, "clinicians inadvertent suggestibility has caused DID" is not correct. This implies that DID is not a real disorder and is caused by clinicians telling their patients they have this, which is not the case. I'm sure there are some who are misdiagnosed with this disorder, in most cases doctors will diagnose a patient with everything under the sun before diagnosing one with DID. If a patient has "symptoms" but doesn't actually have the disorder, they likely have another disorder called Munchausen syndrome (a mental disorder where a patient fakes illness to gain attention and sympathy). DID is a very real disorder that already has a lot of stigma and people believing it's fake, so it's unfair to display it this way. *Resources: www.docdroid.net/arPAtHT/van-der-hart-2006-the-haunted-self-pdf (Onno van der Hart, Ellert R. S. Nijenhuis, and Kathy Steele's "The Haunted Self); did-research.org/ (DID Research); www.isst-d.org/ (The International Society for the Study of Trauma and Dissociation, a professional organization which specializes in trauma and dissociative disorders)* For anyone interested, I will explain the science behind DID/OSDD. For more information, see the resources above. For simplicity's sake, I will just be saying DID, but the same can (typically) be applied to OSDD as well. The current leading theory an dissociative disorders is called "Structural Dissociation", outlined in van der Hart's "The Haunted Self" (first listed resource). It explains that the mind does not start out as a whole consciousness, rather a group of "ego states" control the mind. These states are very simplistic, controlling different needs and desires in an infant/toddler's life like hunger, thirst, love, things they enjoy, etc. As one matures, these ego states fuse together to create the whole self. However, repetitive denial of these desires can cause the ego states to not fuse properly, resulting in a split consciousness. The traumas have to occur before the age of fusing, which experts believe is somewhere between 3 and 5 years old, though some research goes as high as 9-11 years. Dissociation of this severity is the brain's *final* defense mechanism against severe trauma, when fight or flight fails repeatedly (which babies and toddlers normally don't have anyways). Most children will appear to develop somewhat normally. Though some may show signs of PTSD or mild dissociation, symptoms of the disorder normally don't arise until late teens and beyond. However, some may live their entire lives without knowing they have this disorder. This is because DID is meant to be a hidden disorder, to protect the body and conscious mind from it's own trauma. The purpose is to keep memories out of the conscious, "working" mind, so the person can live their life as normally as possible. People with DID often experience denial and the feeling that their alters are fake, even if their symptoms and behaviors are affirmed by medical professionals and loved ones. Symptoms don't normally start appearing until the body/brain has been in a safe(r) environment for a long period of time, or when diagnosed by a clinician (which might be where "clinicians inadvertent suggestibility has caused DID" came from). Once the brain has registered that it's in a safe and stable environment, it is typically able to begin healing. The healing process for DID is often very messy, as things seem like they're getting worse for a long time before they start to get better. Patients with DID often have to spend decades in therapy to heal, including years spent in therapy before diagnosis. DID is considered very rare and is also highly stigmatized, as seen in the movie "Split" or recent media. However, DID is not as rare as many think. The estimated prevalence for DID is as high as 1% of the population, which doesn't seem like a lot, but this means there is likely at least one person you know who suffers from DID, whether they know it or not. There is *way* more I can talk about, however this is already very, very long. If you read this far, thank you for bearing with me 🥲 Make sure you do research before talking about things, especially highly stigmatized disorders (not saying this video didn't, but that one part- 😬). If you have questions I'll be happy to answer them 😁

Stendhal or “Florence Syndrome” would’ve been interesting to add here; where people, almost exclusively foreigners, would suffer from tachycardia, profuse sweating, hallucinations, or even loss of consciousness, when in places like Florence, Rome, or Paris; thought to be due to the overwhelming stimuli made more intense by subjectively-summated objects or art of beauty. I remember as a kid growing up in Italy, sometimes the news would talk about tourists fainting at St. Peter’s or in the Uffizi.

I've got DID. It was nice to see a respectful overview of it, considering how violently it is portrayed and treated in media. There's a lot of stigma and fear-mongering, and not a lot of good research on it. It's a pretty invisible disorder most of the time, even to the person who actually has it. It's meant to be a quiet way for the brain to cope with trauma, but it can be pretty distressing to the person who has it, whether or not they know what's going on.

My brother had the video in his recommended, pointed at it, and said “that’s you”

Conversion disorder is also know as Functional Neurological Disorder. I developed it a few years back. My speech was massively impacted and i had to use a cane to get around. Life revolves around avoid stress, because thats the only way to reduce the symptoms.

DPDR happens to me after panic attacks and I can describe what it feels like. It’s like an exact copy of yourself sitting behind your eyes using them like windows to watch your own actions. Like a first person game that lets you look around to see your legs and arms and body. The feeling of moving your muscles or speaking barely registers it’s like you are just commanding your shell (your body) to move. You’re essentially being two people at once, one that thinks and observes and the other that interacts with the world. This feeling is temporary but for me can last for almost a month. When I first felt it, I would panic and think I was stuck like this forever which would begin a loop. I’ve found that trying to live completely normally and act as if nothing is happening helps me to recover faster. By now I’ve experienced it so many times I know it will end and I can be comfortable until then. Stay healthy everyone.

when the pandemic just started, my whole family never left the house for a whole year. This is because both my mom and my grandmother suffer from autoimmune diseases and with all the paranoia of the first months of the pandemic, they found no more rational solution than to completely lock us up in an extremely hermetic way. details aside, this generated a huge psychological impact on me the first few months and with the passage of time I began to develop a quite apparent derealization. it was wild. I will never forget the day where I looked in a mirror and I couldn't recognize myself, I was very scared because I didn't know who was behind the glass. my days felt weird, i felt like floating, i was too disconnected from my own body. I stopped feeling things like stress, that feeling of urgency, fear, happiness, enjoying the things I like all because nothing I lived felt real my days felt like when you make up a fictional story of yourself before bed... nothing had real weight. I spent a lot of time hiding from mirrors, and living in a kind of alternate reality. my family's extreme measures started to loosen up a bit and when I started to go out again, to talk again with other people who were not the same ones who are in my house, and gradually return to the routine I did before everything exploded, I slowly began to recover. As of today I'm pretty mentally healthy (from the derealization, I still have a few different things to deal with haha) but i still get a little scared when i see a mirror for the first time in the morning, it was a very surreal experience. I hope I never feel it again. It wasn't THAT bad really, but for a long time in my later years I didn't feel like a real human being, I felt like I had been imagining myself for several months.

Definitely subbed loved everything about this video from the sarcastic but non-emotional facts to the funny art style.

I could remember several years ago I suffered from severe depression and mental disorder. I was addicted to illicit pills, alcohol, and smoking until I was recommended for psilocybin mushroom treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly I'm 8 years clean now. It's quite fascinating how effective they are against anxiety and depression.

When I was going through a period of bad mental health I was in a medical setting with other patients. There was this one girl who seemed perfectly fine, rather friendly, and empathetic about how all the other patients were feeling. However, she was insistent that her su*cide attempt had been successful and she was now dead. She refused to wash (idk why but I guess because dead people don't shower?) and would claim that the smell was "proof" she was decomposing. Never heard of Walking Corpse Syndrome before this, and obviously not going to diagnose someone I only briefly met like eight years ago, but makes me wonder.

I have Truman syndrome. It was worse before, but from time to time the suspicion resurfaces with great strength and puts me into a very detached state of mind. Say I'm talking to someone and my Truman suspicion gets triggered for some reason, it makes me interpret every word from there on out as if I'm being conveyed a secret message. This is of course a state of mind very incompatible with conversation. It has gotten better. Through exposure therapy I experience these episodes less frequently and with less intensity. But I notice that underneath I am going about my life with the constant suspicion that there is something everyone else knows, but me. And that is a very uncomfortable suspicion to have. My suspicion is not a TV-show suspicion, like Truman himself had (and revealed). Mine is a spiritual one. I have seen the DMT realm, and yes, that is definitely what made me question all this. Me knowing this does not make the suspicion any less rational, though. I do not think I'm being watched by other humans. But I do believe I might be watched by otherworldly spiritual entities, and that maybe even I am not really human, but chose to forget I am not for the sake of entertainment, and that my otherworldly friends are watching my experience. It is fucked up anyhow. Regardless if it's true or not. If it isn't then I'm crazy. If it is then the world is crazy. Edit: Oh. And I forgot to mention that I at age 14 went through the norwegian utøya massacre. Pretty traumatic. So if this is simply a mental disorder, and not a suspicion that turns out to be true, then it is not just due to having played with psychedelics like DMT, but also because of that experience at age 14.

The animation is adorable! I love it. This video is very concise, sensitive and helpfully clear. Thank you.

I love how this video was done. Very informative and well thought out

I used to get Alice and wonderland syndrome occasionally. It never happened perpetually, but usually it would happen when I woke up and I was completely thrown off. Like my mind turned off depth perception completely. Reaching out for a door handle it appeared literally 20 feet away even though it was within arms reach. Hallways sometimes only a few feet long but as I walked they got longer and longer. I had to slide down the stairs because there was no getting around that.

I love hearing more conversations around conversion disorder; it is just as real as a neurological disorder, just not as life threatening such as geniuine epilepsy. It is all in our heads, but that doesnt mean it isnt real.

This video made my mental state so much clearer thank you alot!!!

6:13 this was me as a kid. I never even watched The Truman show as a kid. I just always had paranoia about it

My grandmother had Alzheimer's, and the first major symptom that let everyone know something was wrong was Capgras. Looking back, she'd had minor signs for at least five or more years, but this was the first noticeable one. When it started, she seemed fairly mentally "normal," except she was convinced her husband (of 50+ years, who was suffering from another form of dementia himself) had been "replaced." She wouldn't talk about it in front of him, and at first, she was afraid to tell my dad and aunt (her children) what she believed. She would say somewhat cryptic things that could jokingly be taken metaphorically, like, "that's not the man I married" and "who are you and what did you do with my husband?" She would even say them jokingly, but then look at my dad with a wink, as if she was giving clues. When she finally shared her thoughts with my dad and aunt, it was clear it was very upsetting to her. They only tried to convince her he was her husband to comfort her, but it didn't work. My dad moved in to care for them, and during that time, both got sicker, with her Capgras becoming more obvious. My grandpa passed away first, and my grandma did not understand that it was her husband who had died. At the funeral, she externally "played along" that it had been her husband, but later, she would refer to him as "the other man." Just curious one night when she was talking about the other man, my dad asked her, "where do you think your husband is?" She said, "I don't know! That's what I've been trying to figure out! It's a big mystery!" A few minutes later, she exclaimed, "I know how we could solve it! DNA!" I'm very thankful to the hospice team who figured out what it was and explained it to us.

it's sadly rare that anyone talks about dissociative disorders kindly and without judgment, thank you for that :)

Derealization is TERRIFYING. Id cry thinking i wasnt real, i almost opened a car door while driving to jump out. Im so glad i learned to ground and recieve therapy, it definitely helped

Can we appreciate for a moment for this wonderful video style of a masterpiece? I absolutely love the “trippyness”

I have ADD and sometimes reading something is a lot like how you described visual agnosia. You'll look at the words and string together the sentences but you can't interpret them, or at least keep them in your head long enough to remember what they communicated after a couple seconds.

i used to experience derealization a lot when i was a kid because i was being bullied at school. Everything I saw seemed grayer and paler, and everything I touched felt like it wasn’t actually me who was touching it. When derealizing, I felt like I would see things from a perspective about a foot above where my eyes are. My thoughts were always a second too long apart from each other. I had to remind myself to breathe, even though I felt like I was not in control of my body. Idk if this is even a possible symptom but everything smelled different too. Like, the scents different things had felt muted or far away or wouldn’t instantly smell, like if I directly sniffed a flower or candle I knew to be strongly scented it wouldn’t really hit me right away. I would try to converse with my sister during these times and told her what I was feeling. She looked up what it was for me and was concerned, but it never occurred to me until now that she didn’t judge me for it. Just wanted me to feel grounded again.

it is SO wild to watch videos like this and have something you actually have just... be in there- I had to rewatch that specific DID section like thrice because I was just genuinly so surprised to have it in there lmao

I honestly fear so much that I'm developing schizophrenia. I've dealt with hallucinations ever since I can remember, which were usually just visual hallucinations at like the age of 3-4 and onwards. but as I'm getting older its slowly getting worse I'm seeing things constantly, hearing things and feeling things that are not there. I get some comfort when I'm not alone but when I am in the house alone I end having panic attacks and having to phone someone to come get me as I fear my life is in danger. People keep telling me not to self diagnose my self and that's not what I'm doing at all but all of my symptoms point towards schizophrenia and possibly derealisation as the hallucinations make me question my self and surroundings. its honestly becoming a huge problem as I'm in my last year of school and I've been failing since my second year. I actually tried to talk to my mum about this but its frustrating as she doesn't really believe in mental illness unless its extreme and visible, which is just even more frustrating as her herself struggles with multiple mental illnesses but she's afraid ill be placed into a mental hospital over schizophrenia. Also although it is constant I sometimes get episodes which I cannot fully remember where it is extremely bad and I only really know about them because of people who were around to witness them but for the most time I am alone when I get these episodes. I literally don't know what to do in getting help as I don't know who to turn to :|

I like how both Sisyphus and Jreg uploaded mental health related videos in the span of an hour. This can't be a coincidence.

6:27 This is not the term for this disorder that most sufferers of it use, or that recent scientific papers use. It is called BID, meaning Body Integrity Dysphoria (It is also frequently called BIID, meaning Body Identity Integrity Disorder. The term BID is kinda recent so you'll probably see BIID more often really.) I have this disorder, it is not sexual in any way (although I do not deny it may be for some), and it is more complex than simply a "desire to mutilate parts of the body". It feels as if my left forearm (the part of my body affected by BIID) is not mine or in someway does not belong to me, like some sort of parasite, so I believe I _need_ to be rid of it. I cannot speak for those who desire to be blind or paralyzed or anything of the sort, but I imagine it is fairly similar in concept. I am very aware that this is not a healthy desire, is not normal, and that my arm is perfectly physically healthy, and it's removal would cause great disadvantage to me in many areas, I am aware that I am fairly lucky to be in a completely able body. I am not delusional. BIID is a neurological condition, and stories about how much of a struggle it is to be disabled is not going to cure it (I see these very frequently on videos discussing BIID, calling the existence of people who have it "disrespectful") I personally wouldn't liken it to being transgender, although it I won't deny that it is similar in concept. The thing is that gender is a social construct that we've merely associated with genitalia and such, meaning that, for example, a trans man identifies as a man, and therefore is a man. This is very much not possible to do with most disability. Very much sorry about the wall of text. If I have more to say I'll do it in the replies. If anyone stumbling upon this actually reads it and has any questions, feel free to ask them. TL:DR apotemnophilia is not called that, and is also a bit more than just wanting to mutilate yourself.

I love your channel very insightful

getting whiplash hearing some of my disorders on the list, thank you for the respectful portrayal :3

This channel helped me pass psychology. Much love, man.

Derealization is so terrifying and draining it feel so real and nothing can snap you out of it no reassurance can help only until your mind decides to snap back but it doesn’t feel real it’s kinda like you went into one world to the other and back and forth

Hi! DID system here :) small correction at 7:45, a host does not necessarily carry the body's legal name. Any alter can become a host, there can be multiple hosts, and hosts can change over time. On the other side of the spectrum some systems have no host at all

I lived with episodes of derealization for years without having a word for it. It was such a relief when I figured it out a few years ago. I cried tears of joy. It’s so hard to explain if you’re not experiencing it. For me it’s like suddenly my view of the world is as if my body is a giant fleshy mech and I’m looking out through my eyes like I’m a tiny person in the head of a power ranger mech. It’s the closest description I’ve come to getting it across. I don’t get depersonalization, so it’s mostly just a visual perception thing. For me the only thing I can do do get the episode to move on is ignore it as best as I can. My episodes last a few weeks to a few months, but it’s the first week or so that takes some time to adjust.

I experienced Alice in wonderland syndrome (or something very much like it) when I used to get migraines. For me it was distortion of my perception of space. It was absolutely terrifying whenever it happened. Looking back I realize it was similar to how non-euclidean geometry looks.

Having someone talk about depersonalization/derealization made me feel a surprising comfort. It’s been a battle for over 10 years. Thanks for talking about it!

I have conversion disorder. The confusion around when it first started and later when I was diagnosed was horrible, and trying to work through the trauma that causes it is dibilitating.

I experienced derealisation for a number of years, it petty much disappeared after I started medication for anxiety symptoms. It was really surreal to just feel like the world around me is fading away like I’m being isolated from the world physically, usually when feeling overstimulated.

"inside your skull is the greatest mystery of universe" - the brain

i used to experience something similar with truman syndrome, i would believe i was constantly being watched and that everyone around me knew something, nice to know it has a name haha

i have depersonalization and it was nice to hear you talk about it in an educational way. thank you for talking about it in a way that doesn’t make me seem crazy

i like watching videos like this. it’s interesting to see how people who most likely don’t deal with mental illnesses interpret them. i really appreciate how you didn’t alienate us. you didn’t make us seem like freaks or people who should be hidden from society and shunned. i struggle with depersonalization/derealization, and dissociation is a scary thing. it’s not simple at all, and deserves a lot more research. time, talking, hearing one’s voice, objects and vision, and more can appear altered and dream-like. it can cause identity struggles and cause numbness. it’s common to believe you’re dreaming or someone else is controlling your actions and thoughts. the world feels fake and the person themselves. according to statistics, most people experience dissociation once or twice in their life, but many (including me) deal with it chronically.

4:29 Jerusalem Syndrome seems like the kind of feeling you get after watching out of a really good movie and feeling like you're within that world when the credits roll 😂

8:33 This comment is for reference, in case I need a refresher on the aerodynamics of a cow

glad you approached the topic with respect, also good video.

I was diagnosed with conversion disorder back in 2018 and I also have derealization with awful dissociation. Thank you for this video shedding light on these. It's definitely a trip living with these.

I have dissociative identity disorder, and it pains me to see so many people on the internet faking this disorder. People don’t understand how hard it can be and how serious it is.

I experienced almost all of these while in an asylum. It's absolutely terrifying. I've been on good psyche meds now though. Thank you for this list

My brain is so weird. And yes I hate it. When I get hurt or shocked I yelp like a dog... when I get threatened I will growl and show my teeth... and when I get very sad and cry I sometimes whimper... this started as a child but it’s hard to stop as an adult. It’s weird. It’s all in my head and I fight myself to undue the things my mind does.. but it feels so natural that sometimes when I’m alone, I just allow myself to do that... I haven’t been alone for a very long time now and it can be hard.

i remember experiencing derealization a few times but the longest i experienced was thirty minutes. it was terrifying. i just watched myself sit outside as i felt paralyzed but it was like i was watching myself from the tree above me. i started seeing little black dots and red dots around the corner of my eyes but was still out of my body. but when i “went back” to my own body, i couldn’t even tell if my body was mine anymore. i kept looking at my hands and moving them just to make sure i still had control over myself.

When I was a 10 years old, I had encephalitis. Afterward, I experienced Alice in Wonderland syndrome(for me, it was a sudden sense that I was shrinking or moving very fast, along with sounds seeming to rush away or become like an echo-chamber) and musical tinnitus(hearing phantom music, like it is playing outside your head). As a kid, I didn't have a way to tell people about it. I'm not even sure there was a name for these conditions, then.

Watching this video is a real pleasure! It's not only interesting but also very useful for personal development. I'm incredibly grateful to the author for their work!

I experience derealization and depersonalization on and off, my main theory about why I personally experience it in episodes is my body and my brain don't communicate very well (evidence: I have broken my toe without noticing, I literally forget to eat for entire days if I don't have cravings or remind myself with alarms, my circadian rhythm seems almost nonexistent) so when I really really need something (think food, water, sleep, the basic basics) and my body is sending all these signals and my brain just leaves the chat. I feel like I have been placed about half a foot to the left of my own body, or that my legs never end, or that my head is completely weightless, or just this general feeling of *off* where everything is just wrong enough to freak me the hell out but trying to communicate what is actually wrong is impossible, or any combination of all that bullshit. Usually it goes away if I resolve whatever I've been neglecting, and even if it doesn't, hell even if Im completely off base and it was never the root cause in the first place, having some quick food and water and then taking a nap is never a bad response to "aw no my brain broke again"

As many here, I not only suffer from derealisation that happens in episodes, I have constant derealisation. I‘d describe it as being detached from your mind and reality. This is different for everyone though! - Some people only experience the detachment from reality, while others might just experience detachment from their mind. Your thoughts might feel slow, as if there is cotton in your head. While you might not feel visual or auditory effects, you know something is different. If it is your first time experiencing it, you might feel as if you are going crazy, some people feel as if they are in hell. Being detached from yourself is one of the worst things we can feel, it damages us while it is actually supposed to be protecting us against trauma since derealisation is a stress response. No matter how disgusting you feel, it is not harmful, you are not going crazy and it will most likely fade over time! - sometimes quicker, sometimes slower. My life has been challenged by it quite a lot. Wether I had to leave class because I‘d start having problems hearing properly, sounds would be louder or quieter, my perception of time was messed up and objects and distances were bigger and smaller than they actually were (This also seems to be Alice in Wonderland Syndrome). Often I‘d feel as if I am not real, as if nothing is. I knew this was not right (therefore not a delusion) but it felt as if it was. I started panicking and it made my life hell while I was already suffering from other disorders. My memory got worse and so did my concentration, speaking wasn’t difficult but i‘d often forget words or mumble around. The only thing that helped was stopping the constant research on how to stop it and trying to ignore it. While I still feel it, ignoring it every time i notice it makes everything easier. Derealisation is the only time when forgetting is the better option! Just know that if you ever feel this way feeling scared is alright, but there is no need to worry. Life goes on, just make sure to talk to someone you trust about it.

I remember that when I was a kid and I had fever I sometimes got CRAZY hallucinations, I would see things that weren’t happening, I would feel like my body is not actually where I am and I would feel trapped and other rlly weird shit. Once I was with a bad fever and I was screaming and crying my eyes out on my bed because I literally saw that everything around me was on fire and I wasn’t able to move my body or to perceive my surroundings properly. I remember my dad holding me and talking to me trying to calm me down. When I came back to school my teacher asked me in front of the whole class why I’ve been missing school, I said that I was sick and literally having hallucinations from the fever and everybody laughed. It felt so disgusting as I did suffer a lot. I still have no idea if it was normal to have those symptoms.

i have conversion disorder it presents as catatonia symptoms mainly for me- let me be clear the sufferer experiences these symptoms like we will have non-epileptic seizures and actual blindness but it’s our mind causing us to have it because of a delayed reaction to trauma, it’s not fatal on it’s own but very debilitating and if u can’t move speak or blink for days on end (what i mostly experience) you will deplete your body what it needs and starve to death so it is something to take seriously!

I suffer with DID. I have 24 distinct parts, and have been managing it somewhat successfully for 3 years now. The symptoms have been present for as long as I can remember, and DID also inherently comes with Depersonalization and Derealization. And I can confirm it comes from childhood trauma. I was put through some of the most horrifying things as a child... and I had my symptoms appear before even ever seeing a therapist. Even as early as 5 years old my family members have told me stories about my strange unpredictable behavior, using "funny voices" consistently, changes in demeanor, and memory problems. These kinds of disorders can really make one question what is real and what isn't. Oh, and for those curious, I am on good terms with the other parts. We're a team. It's called integration!

It's so wild to see something I have (derealization) on a list like this - I always forget that it's not something everyone experiences and that it's relatively uncommon, since it's just kinda my everyday

5:32 i have DPDR, its actully terrifying sometimes. It feels like you have been alive for 10 seconds and dont know any of your surroundings. It is VERY hard to explain the feeling tho.

I have depersonalization disorder and I occasionally have episodes of it every couple of months or so, it usually happens in places with too much stimulus like a laser tag or night club. It usually only last a couple of hours to a day for me and honestly it’s kind of terrifying. I technically know who I am and my name and who is around me but I feel like I’m outside of my body, almost like watching a tv show or video game and putting myself in the character.

Diogenes syndrome is a misnomer because Diogenes hoarded nothing and no possessions except a bowl that he eventually threw away.

having derealization disorder is like watching your life through a foggy tv screen and its so werid when you randomly become aware and everything feels real again its very overwhelming

I have Conversion Disorder, its honestly really frustrating because the doctors excuse it as "its all in your head" and though its true it still hurts me when they say that

My mom’s been having Conversion Syndrome show up as non-epileptic seizures for about a year now. She spent a week in the hospital and there was nothing out of the ordinary so she was just sort of sent home until her doctor could properly diagnose it

It feels good seeing derealozation talked about. I feel insane when I start to experience everything as fake and it feels like there’s nothing I can do. My psychologist told me that it can occur coupled anxiety.

i've had derealization for as long as i can remember, though the nature of it has changed since i've been put on meds. sometimes i don't think about it, other times it's crushing and it feels like the curtain could fall any second. at worst, it feels like everything makes so little sense that it almost _has_ to be fake. it's like having a 6th sense that just returns a binary answer to the question "is this real?", and the answer was always no. i'd have weird sensations about needing wider, larger eyes so that i could see everything in "full screen," rather than through a tiny window. it's a hard thing to articulate because my vision itself is the same as ever after starting ssris, things became very pronounced and deep, like suddenly experiencing depth perception. colors started really standing out to me, and i'd constantly move my head from side to side to watch how nearby objects move much more than further ones. felt like being a baby and seeing the world for the first time. it actually felt like way too much pretty frequently at first, but i'm getting used to it. it still doesn't feel real though, it just seems like i switched derealization flavors from "bland and far away" to "silly and weird." things are just kind of a lot now, and i'm wondering if this is maybe why my derealization was a thing in the first place lol. i worry that this is just what being alive feels like and it'll never feel real, but i just ignore the thought. my guess is the drugs make it all silly, and when i get off the antidepressants, i'll be able to defeat the derealization by squashing all the little bugs in my brain myself. everything is just a lot and nothing at all, silly and stupid and limp, and i think it could all stand to be less so.

Really cool animation style along with nice narration and pacing!

I remember always having depersonalization. It drained me, it goes away soon and it kind off shapes your person. I remember the existential thoughts of not existing while literally not feeling real.

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