it's been like 6 years of dark night of the soul and I see no exit, i'm dying phisically can't even use my conscience. hope it will stop one day and things get better, but kinda lost hope.
Try changing your beliefs..if you “hope” for things to get better you’re only perpetuating the idea of DOUBT. Doubt is the only thing stopping you from achieving this liberation within you. It goes in this stage.. belief ~> emotion ~> thought …. So when you believe something.. you get an emotion about that thing then your thoughts will crystallize and made manifest in your physical form.. so now.. ask yourself what do you have to believe is true for you to be feeling that way… OWN THAT FEELING.. you must not ignore it.. you must own it because you can’t change anything you DONT OWN. So once you own this belief and love it UNCONDITIONALLY.. then you have the power to transform that OLD belief.. give yourself a new belief that you are worthy of being liberated in this life.. own it and walk with it.. practice sitting with yourself in meditation.. do things for you that excite you because that is who you truly are.. any pain physical or emotional or whatever is resistance to the TRUE SELF. Follow what excites you at any moment in life and don’t hold any expectations of what the outcome will be and stay in a positive mood the entire time.. you will start to live your life in a beautiful flow of synchronicities ❤️ my unconditional love to you and know that you don’t have to do anything anyone says.. just find out what’s right for you but tools like this can help you if you allow them.