i hate how i came from being a consistent top one in our class to 5th place, it feels like everyone is improving while I'm stuck at being like this, theyre doing better than me and i hate it (don't come at me ,just pouring my emotions at the moment,ik i sounds selfish but i just want to vent it all)
Sometimes I feel the same, but it usually helps to know (for me at past) that just because some people may be better doesn’t mean you’re worse. It’s something m6 brother told me that I still think about a lot. You don’t seem selfish at all to me, you just seem like someone who wants to feel special and smart. I think your both of those things and more. I know it might seem more empty coming from a stranger, but I really do think your just as good no matter your place, and if you need or feel comfortable you can vent more in this thread. Idk if I helped at all, and I’m sorry if this comment is worded weird or it seems like I’m lying but I’m not. I’m not good with words, and now I’m just rambling. Just know that no matter where you are in school or life you always have your strengths, something to offer, even if it’s just yourself. You are amazing, never forget that
Asuka kinnie behavior, tbh this happened the same for me but i fell at third place, I hate it alot. People are happy for me but it just doesn't seem enough for me??????? I have this greed that wants my place back. I had a huge pride for being at the first place before. But now I'm just quiet and aggressive towards others ARJSNFNW BUT THEN I'M NICE ONLINE IDEK ANYMORE, the aggressive me is just a facade honestly... But i hope your doing better now and keep on trying but if you have been doing that all these years. I gotta say, I'm really proud of you not having to go insane.
I feel very identified with this song. In all the things that I liked, there was always someone better than me, to the point that I stopped doing that because nobody really cared what I did, because the other person did it better. I don't mean it in a self-centered way, I felt that I was good for nothing, that I didn't have any talent that made me special. I was looking a lot for the appreciation of other people, just with an "Oh, cool" from someone, from anyone, it would be enough for me but I was never really good at something for people to appreciate my "effort". It didn't matter what I dressed in, what I did or didn't do, I was never going to excel at anything.
Do you know how much I relate to this? Like I'm crying so hard rn fr,, Since I was a kid, I loved drawing and reading. All my class loved my drawings and they all begged me to teach them how to draw animals. I felt special and talented. That was until I grew up, and started meeting new people. I realised a sucked so much at drawing. Literally everyone was 100 times BETTER than me. Even at the age of 8-9 years old I started to blame myself for everything and I felt so useless. The only thing that made me feel special in this world suddenly disappeared. It wasn't even just myself, but everyone stopped giving me that attention. In that age I also started written my own histories and I thought that I finally had found my talent. I kept writing my own creations through the years, struggling with the idea that maybe I didn't deserve to even publish a book because literally everyone would do better than me. Now, even being 17, I still feel the same way. I'm always stopping myself to do things that I would love to do because I think I'm too useless to do them, and that I'm not as able as others. I still love writing, but the fact that I need people complimenting my projects to validate them is horrible. I'm not able to create anything because I think that maybe nobody will like it and nobody will validate me or my work. I just need someone to see me and say "hey, that's so cool". But I also feel I don't deserve it. Because everyone is better than me. They DO deserve it. I don't. Sorry I vented so much I really need a therapist right now and it shows bye😭
For the love of all that is holy, please tell me that you don't feel like that anymore, Pls be in a better place now yea? I have a lot of survivors guilt. I was in a Chinese program. Full immersion thing. Once you were in the Chinese classroom you were only speaking Chinese. That was the rule, and I started in first grade. I immediately found that even through I was more passionate and excited about learning Chinese, most of the class was better than I was. But everytime I went home I was met with a loving family and just enough for food on the table, and they always told me that your accomplishments aren't measured by how close to are you someone else. It's measured by your own efforts. "Chinese is a hard language, and your listening comprehension is off the charts, it's okay if you can't read well." I am blessed in that regard, and I'd like to give others that same reassurance. I know it's hard to feel like your efforts are unvalidated, but sometimes you need to block out the world and give yourself the reassurance. Yourself needs it, you might need to provide that for yourself. And remember that there's no such thing as a useless person. Everyone has their own way of contributing to the world. There are no talents, only skills. You aren't born with the magical talent of singing, you work and you practice and you keep doing the things you enjoy, and therefore develop a skill. You're full of skills that are waiting to be created. (Idk if I'm making sense anymore, but I hope this made you feel better)
It hits different when your classmate who is suicidal and depressed like you have friends to talk to, hang out with them and eat lunch with them during recess at school while you're alone all day at school because you're insecure about your voice and doesn't talk at all unless someone talks to you.(And that classmate is only going to come to you when their friends are absent because you're a back up friend)
This is a vent comment, Today I had an awards ceremony for the end of the year. This year has been difficult with loved ones leaving or dying, making some assignments late. At the end of the year I felt I had made significant difference with how my work was. Today throughout the hour long ceremony, my name wasn’t even mentioned once, while all my other classmates had earned at least one, leaving me one of the only ones. I don’t know why? I didn’t fail any on my classes. My average was 80 and I had gotten 100 on 2 of my classes. It’s so unfair that all of the “popular” girls got the chosen ones by teachers. I had been nice to everyone that year but they just pass me off as one of the “quiet nice kids”. That’s all they know about me. I wish I could be more but to them I’m just an object they use to get closer to their crushes because I’m friends with them. I hate this, I hate everything. I don’t wanna go back to school ever again I’m just so mad and sad. What did I do wrong? Did I say anything? I hate myself.
I hate how my school waters my intelligence down because I have autism, they think that it’s normal for me and that I shouldn’t be rewarded for it. the school system is the most dumbest and pathetic thing ever and they never notice how much i try and just get me all the stuff on what i need to improve on.
It makes you wanna scream and regret for all of the stupid things you've done, all the mistakes and shit, and it makes you wanna restart all over again, wishing to undo all the bad things that you've done/gone through. You want to be just like them but you just cant, everyone is just, *better than you*
This sounds even better when you listen to it while ur having a mental breakdown in ur closet and covering ur mouth till u can't breath so no one can hear you🤩🤩
I hate that other people Is doing better than me, everyone has high honors in all subjects, but did you know what I get?? Honors at Health while the others got science,math, English etc. i really feel dumb and useless (sorry had to vent cause it’s been a long time I spilled my emotions out haha:’D)
Every girl from here to Soho Loves to tell me things I don't know Beautiful and smart, and not good for me At all All your boyfriends go to film school Nathan was in plays in high school (how 'bout that?) Me, I'm gonna play the imbecile, oh Who keeps choosing you even though you're bipolar and you're selfish I hate you, ah! Everyone is better than me, I think Everyone is better than, better than me Everyone is better than, better than me Hey, hey, oh, hey Look what you've done, now I'm a mess Today I even thought I'd wear a dress It's beautiful, so smart and no good for me At all Yeah, everyone is better than me, I think Throw your hands up if you agree with me Now everyone is better than me, I think Everyone is better than, better than me Better than Ooh, hey, come on now! Oh, oh Whoa, whoa Whoa
Every girl from here to Soho Loves to tell me things I don't know Beautiful and smart, and not good for me At all All your boyfriends go to film school Nathan was in plays in high school (how 'bout that?) Me, I'm gonna play the imbecile, oh Who keeps choosing you even though you're bipolar and you're selfish I hate you, ah! Everyone is better than me, I think Everyone is better than, better than me Everyone is better than, better than me Hey, hey, oh, hey Look what you've done, now I'm a mess Today I even thought I'd wear a dress It's beautiful, so smart and no good for me At all Yeah, everyone is better than me, I think Throw your hands up if you agree with me Now everyone is better than me, I think Everyone is better than, better than me Better than Ooh, hey, come on now! Oh, oh Whoa, whoa Whoa
I have nobody to vent to so.. Why do I fall for anyone who is nice to me? I hate it. I don't want to be like this. Why do I think like this. I'm supposed to like boys. Do they even like me. Everyday I just sit there thinking about nothing, listening to this. Am I okay? Well never know. I feel like everyone is better than me, and I'm so beneath them. Maybe I'm just some wannabe who they only hang out with because I'm always talking to them. I just don't know. People will only love you if yiur attractive. I'm not even very pretty. I try my hardest but nobody seems to like me because I'm always th rone hwo starts conversations. Why does nobody care about my feelings. I'm th eonly one sitting alone every day. I need friends but I can never get close to them or i'll just dump my problems on them. Nobody deserves that. But I don't want them to leave me. I can't have anyone leave me again. I read a lot, I don't socialize, but Im so nervous and shy. And nobody ever goes out with me for some reason. I feel so nice when I'm alone but I'm just so lonely. My mother an Di don't even have a nice relationship either but I can't say all my problems to strangers on the Internet.
Hey there its ok to vent, i feel you but don't worry too much, you'll eventually grow out of it, im sure you'll figure it out. If no one is gonna take the first step in reaching out, maybe you should reach out to them first, have some confidence. Ur good, ur unique, ur nice. No one would feel or know or care for you if you pushes them away, you are loved, you are awesome, you are enough.
@@brainrot4099 this made me cry. tysm for this it rlly made me feel alot better. thank you for writing this omg ilysm for this its just sometimes im lonely. and i dont feel enough but for someone who doesnt even know me to write all this nice stuff i just hidf osiigofg tysm ily it rlly made me happy reading this
I have come to a realization that I don't really like these people, I'm just really jealous of them. Even with so much validation and people saying that I am enough, I don't feel good enough for ME. Thus, I think everyone is fucking better than me.
Genuinely curious and trying to make someone’s day better, how do you think other people could help you? Like if I wanted to make someone feel good how should I go about it??
Literally what i think about everyone around me even my family i joke and dont take what i feel seriously so others wont worry am i doing the right thing
Every girl from here to Soho Loves to tell me things I don't know Beautiful and smart, and not good for me At all All your boyfriends go to film school Nathan was in plays in high school (how 'bout that?) Me, I'm gonna play the imbecile, oh Who keeps choosing you even though you're bipolar and you're selfish I hate you, ah! Everyone is better than me, I think Everyone is better than, better than me Everyone is better than, better than me Hey, hey, oh, hey Look what you've done, now I'm a mess Today I even thought I'd wear a dress It's beautiful, so smart and no good for me At all Yeah, everyone is better than me, I think Throw your hands up if you agree with me Now everyone is better than me, I think Everyone is better than, better than me Better than Ooh, hey, come on now! Oh, oh Whoa, whoa Whoa
