You know Fang Yan wanted to go all the way with Shi Meng....... Why? (1) Fang Yan tells Shi Meng, she is not ready for it, she know what it is, since she has already kissed him alot, its not kissing she is talking about. Then she proceeds to get ready for what she thinks they will do like its okay. (2) When Fang Yan went back home Fang Yan told her friend (Zuo Yao) who she live with that her and Shi Meng slept together for 2 day but its okay because her and Shi Meng only held hands during the 2 nights they slept together, and Zuo Yao looked at her and said "You looked disappointed".