The Cosmic Egg -  

That thing about judgement hit me hard. Thanks for expressing that. I dunno, just blurting out what came to my mind for no reason. 😆 Ego-death is absolutely real. I am no longer the person I used to be. Unwhole? Unmatched? Precisely lacking? No clue what to name it. You're not just telling your story simply to help others, but you must process it. That's what I'm also doing through my art. I'd love to include people like you in it. The things that I'm doing with my project are literally to help me relearn my own self at all/any given moment(s), as well as for leaving the parts of me & who I am today out there for my son, my loved ones, etc, as he might glean from it who I am/was deep inside, instead of who I used to be (who had been molded from the outside in through programming, instead of the me I am now, post-memory loss - the myself from my insides out.) It hopefully will be a recollection, not just a collection. I hope through the compassion and creativity of others helping be will teach him that the world isn't always so closed off or cold - which he may one day feel. I want him to feel less alone when those moments inevitably come to him. (Things I didn't imagine to ever think much about until I lost my dads/2 fathers both in less than a year's time.) Know anyone else who might benefit? My project is a #participatory #arts #collaboration on a #metaphysical level - it happens to be something anyone can do together, because it is about each of our own perceptions of yourself, instead of my version of each person participating. #100monkeystheory

I'd really like to bury myself and celebrate my new person, who was likely the real me all along.. 🤔 Maybe I'll have a funeral/birthday for the anniversary of when my Amnesia occurred - September 4th (2013)! Yeah... I totally should. Any ideas hope to pull this off? 💕 (Eternal ruler King of the world of light (s)!!!) The reptilian brain is so Nick easier, hey?! I think so. 😊 I wrote that 100-monkey things before I heard the part about the chaos theory type thing about the monkey at a typewriter. Look up the #LCDthoughtexercise , not disappointing.

Thanks for all these messages 😅 Couldn’t make sense of all of it, seems like it just burst out of you haha. Glad it resonates with you. Good luck with your project

​I had a seizure that day and No, it was -all- not making much sense. So sorry. I should write myself a now to not communicate until my brain functions again. 😅😮😅​@@LambPear Thanks for your ability to be chill about such things - and for not making it even weirder. 😉