★ WATCH ALL OF THE GLOW UP DIARIES: bit.ly/37O0bX6 ABOUT: This is a 6 year docu-series of my coming of age story. I originally thought I would end this series after a few months but ugly truths unraveled as I went further into my glow up journey. I began recording the glow up diaries at 17 years old and finished when I turned 22 years old.
All of the little snipits of ur glow up diary is RLLY motivating! 😁 I'm going to make one soon, since I don't have piles of hw. U have been such a huge inspiration to me Alivia! TYSM 😁
9:15 when she said she didn’t want to reveal her weight so that other people won’t compare their weight to hers, i literally was so surprised as i was going to do exactly that. i wanted to compare my weight to hers so that i can feel bad about myself. Alivia, i hope you realise how many people you are helping. THANK YOU.
I guess it’s just the way you perceive yourself and how others perceive yourself, like someone getting a new haircut and they hate it but everyone around them thinks it suits them you know
I remember somebody saying something like “you are the main character of your life. I mean its your life, your show, you are the cast director. If you don’t think that you’re the main character, it’s because you don’t give your self enough love and appreciation you deserve not because ‘you are not good enough to be the main character’.”
When you had the Jeans on at 8:35 I literally said out loud „these look SO good on you“ :( And it made me realize we are always so unfairly harsh on ourselves .....
Tip for everyone : walk around with less money or not enough spending money so you’ll either not spend at all or not even have enough for extra and snacks.
Alivia, your journey reminds me so much of myself. Especially with Asian beauty standards to be unhealthily thin, I have and continue to struggle with myself. Your series had given me hope and motivation to love myself one day and be healthy for the right reasons. Thank you so much 💕💕💕
When you started crying, I started crying as well.. I’m someone who struggled with weight, but it’s quite the opposite. I’m not trying comparing, I just want to share my experience, I got corona last year twice, and a horrible sickness this year, which made me lose 6 lbs. for my age and height, my average weight should be in the 100’s, however my weight was 92, making me 86 after my sickness. I looked myself in the mirror and I was disgusted, my collarbones stuck out even more, my wrists and arms were even more slender, and my thighs and legs were much more skinnier (I was trying to make my thighs thicker before and seeing that my thighs were popsicle sticks really saddened me) after I tried eating the most, with a mindset of “oh I won’t gain that much weight since I have a fast metabolism” or “it’s fine I’m trying to gain more weight” without thinking. After a month of doing that, I looked at my body, and I was still unhappy with what I saw, it was the same, those collarbones, those legs and those arms. Then one day I lost my appetite, I was trying to think of foods to eat, but every time I tried to think of one, it made me nauseous, and I threw up. After that I tried eating more and more again, constantly going on the scale to see if I gained weight or not, but instead went down from 86lbs to 84lbs, I tried eating and eating and eating, but I threw all of it up. A week after I kept losing weight, 84lbs to 83lbs, and soon it hit 80lbs. I realized this isn’t right, so I searched up whatever I can, asking my friend, and I realized, exercise. I wasn’t exercising, which also made me lose some of my body image, and binge eating when I felt like I didn’t need to wasn’t the trick. I’m not trying to flex “oh I have a better metabolism than you” or “my experience was way better”, I’m trying to say with these type of mindsets, you aren’t going to reach your goal. Currently I am slow making my way back to 90lbs, with control this time. I am currently 88lbs, but seeing my progress makes me even more happier than I was back then. With those mindsets, counting calories, and feeling like you need to exercise to lose weight, it won’t help. Like our parents, they will love us no matter what weight, looks, or whatever we were born with, and if we can’t do that to ourselves, we should change our mindset before our body goal or weight first. Alivia I’m so glad you shared your experience with us, also thank you for giving a link to the book, please remember to take care of yourself! Thanks Alivia
Keep going! I think strength training (like weight lifting) would help build muscle, and if you eat enough and halfway healthy you'll gain the weight soon enough! Don't pressure yourself u got this💗💗
Ana T I’m so sorry! I used Chloe Ting exercises and also found some videos that show that you can also eat non healthy while balancing it out for exercises, but instead of regular fast food, I also tried doing homemade food as well, and eating fruits or overnight oats or what ever as a snack. I recently started my “time of the month” so that made me lose even more weight, however I’m trying to not let that affect me with my mental state currently, but also don’t push yourself and do your absolute best, and remember that it’s mindset first and then your physical goal
So, I was an exchange student in the US this school year, and I got addicted to eating, I loved eating even before coming to the US, but once in the US I developed the same exact mindset that Alivia had in these series, I wanted to eat all the time, especially unhealthy snacks and gained 15-20 pounds in one semester, after coming home my urges died down and I restored my weight and I wasn’t addicted to eating anymore, somewhat I feel like the snacks in the US were the reason I had the urges and I believe studies have shown that they have chemicals in them that make you addicted to them and making you to want more and more, and sugar is more addicting then cocaine as well, so be careful out there and know that sometimes it’s the chemical reaction talking and making you wanna eat, so just reduce junk food and sugar and you will see your eating urge go down a bit, also listen to Alivia, she is saving lives at this point, sending love ❤️ and know that you are beautiful no matter what
the way this made me cry because it reminds me so much of myself, with the mindset, relationship with food and the scale, her dad.... agh i force myself to never think about these things so i can be “happy” but then i start sobbing when someone brings up weight, food or the scale
Her series has seriously helped me so much , ever since i started watching her i started wanting to recover and not bash myself up when i overeat or lose myself and rn i was really stressed about not losing weight and not being happy with my body but she helps me not feel so stressed and actually rethink about my mindset This video showing herself like this is really what I’m feeling right now and it makes me feel better to know that I’m not the only that feels this way
Your glow up diaries are the exact depiction of what I experienced the past year. Every second of the video I could relate to. Not only was I binge eating, I was depressed, anxious, confused and much deprived of self-love and confidence. I am not completely recovered but am at such a better place than I was back then. Anyone going through this I want to reassure you that it will get better. Do not give up. Stay positive. Thank you Alivia for documenting and sharing your rocky journey, because I would have never gained the courage to do so.
you are unreal. you really are. you are so inspiring and so is your story. you are beautiful and i couldn’t be more proud of you. i’m sad that there is only one more season left of the glow up diaries but i’m happy that you are in a good state now. congratulations. always remember you’re loved. 🤍
If you want a perfect diet I recommended not to count your calories, it’s toxic. Stick to the mindset of avoiding sugar, check your ketchup, “healthy” yogurts, “healthy” bars, and more... you’ll be surprised of the amount of sugars there is. The only time you can eat sugar is at special events and social gatherings which is completely fine. But please..if you’re full please stop eating, think about the pain afterwards mentally and physically
a perfect diet doesn't exist. pleasee do not spread this type of message in these types of videos bc the videos are helpful but your comment may trigger someone..
I put in the food I eat on an app, and you can look at the calories. But, I only focus on the vitamins, minerals, and other important stuff and make sure I hit those percentages! I know that is toxic for some people, but it can help others maybe :)
Calories actually help me! It helps me calm down that I didn't overeat because I cannot really 'feel' when I start feeling hungry/full. But I can see how it makes people too reliant and dependent on it. I feel like there has to be a balance.
wow. this episode hit me hard. I've been struggling with self love ever since I was 11 years old. My father insulted my weight, and told me I looked like a pig (even though I had/still have normal bmi). I wanted to lose weight so much. So I'd work out without eating anything and then binge from the hunger. this cycle continued. I felt disgusting. I still struggle with self love, and I feel gross after eating a meal. But your series has been helping me a lot. I watch your videos when I workout :) Thank you Alivia
Oh geeezzz this is giving me terrible flashbacks I had to go through binge eating disorder all of 2019 and lord I am so happy I’m free of that DEMON. If you’re going through this there is a way out Just don’t give up 🤞
i went through the same thing and i really appreciate your honesty and bravery to share this story. its comforting to know that i'm not alone nor are you or anybody else who struggles with BED
@@annasame7395 yeah i agree with you but wearing air pods while swimming can is quite dangourouse... cuz u see if the the water maneges to get inside the airpod it can send an eletric signal to your ear wich will be quite .... well can shock you or worse orrrr it might be waterproof or somthing thats why it dosen't affect your her ears (not trying to be rude sorry if i offended anyone)
THIS IS JUST WHAT I NEEDED. I've never been really insecure about my body, like I love myself, especially my face, like a lot. But ever since I could remember, everyone around me has always fat shamed me, especially my mom (for the record, I'm 13, 5'6 and 148 lbs). She said that if I don't start to control my eating habits, I would regret in the future. And that's what made me start seeing myself in a new light. I've never viewed my weight as a problem but everyone else does and that affects me a lot. I don't think I look so ugly, fat, and gross or anything. I just felt like any weight I could lose is a positive thing. But the real thing I want to change is my eating habit. Because there's definitely something wrong with it and this video helped me a lot. Thank you for sharing your journey here. You're a really brave person. I think I'm gonna start filming my daily life from now on, not to make a channel or anything, but having tons of video that document your past is SOOOOO COOOOL. ❤️❤️
Hey, I feel so bad for u, I know how u feel and it sucks! I relate to u so much. I know how it hurts to get mean comments to your face. I can't believe you've had to go through any of that... 😭. Also healthy looks different on everybody's body so nobody can judge you! It's your body and you know what's right for you! Please never have the mindset to do it to "look prettier" do it because YOU want to do it! Because you want to be healthier, like Alivia says, body image is just a plus side to a much bigger effect. Do it to be healthier and happier. For two reasons, it makes it much easier and also YOU ALREADY ARE GORGEOUS!! 🥰 And it is a great idea to start vlogging!! I wish you the best of luck!! I started my own journey about 90 days ago and I did have days where I felt down but never give up on your journey!! Pick yourself up and do better the next day!! I'm 12 years old and I am still on my "journey" to being my best self, I'm no expert but I would tell you to definitely document your results so that on days you feel bad or you don't see a change you can go back a see what you did wrong, or after a while, you can see your progress and remember that YOU were the one who did that. Writing down your goals makes them more likely to happen and they are the biggest motivation of all time. Also, a couple tips I want to give you; always remember to love yourself, loving yourself is not only being confident but also knowing what ur limits are and when you tried ur hardest. Second tip, don't restrain yourself from any food, it will only make you feel worse. Just control yourself. If you restrict yourself from food the food will control you. The third tip, don't overwork yourself, you are just going to get more tired and upset. Fourth, don't focus on the number on the scale! Focus on how YOU feel otherwise the number on the scale is going to make you go crazy. And lastly, get inspired. Find something that inspires you, something you love to do, or even a person. For me, I used Alivia and BTS. (We both have Alivia in common and she gives great advice 🙂.)When you feel down watch or do whatever inspires you to feel different. These are just some tips from me, I'm still learning to love myself and accomplish my goals but so far I have lost 25 pounds, I haven't eaten junk food, I work out often, I feel more confident, and I'm more productive. ☺If it can work for me it'll work for you! I always said "one day" or I thought "I'll never be able to do it." You just have to make "one day" "day one." So good luck on your journey!! I'm rooting for you!! 💞
these videos just feel so relatable thank you so much for being SO honest. I am currently struggling with binge eating and my fitness goals. its the hardest battle ive ever fought, and ive been in it since i was 11. but every video encourages me to keep going. definitely getting that book, thank you so much for not being afraid to share even the hard moments
I am a few years older than you, and I couldn’t make some of the decisions you have made. I am really proud of you and what you will become. And your journey have had a great impact of me to acknowledge mental health, body image and so on Thank you and can’t wait for season two👏🏻❤️
I think the pure pain and brutal honesty documented in this season really makes the happy place she found in season 2 even more meaningful and amazing!
I just wanted to thank you for sharing this with us! you get really personal and arent afraid to show vulnerability and that’s so inspiring! you’ve really helped me to make a positive change in my life so thank you :)
I'm so sorry that I did not find you before I mentally broke. You're my big inspiration. Only because of you I start changing my lifestyle, my daily routine, my whole life. Now I'm not lazy and now I can follow my dreams no matter what.
I thank you so much for this. I started binge eating in June 2019 and I haven't been able to stop. The things you showed in the video are exactly my thoughts and the progression of my problem as well. I have been getting a bit better recently and now I feel like I am not alone and I can really beat this. Thank you.
i have almost the exact problem with binge eating rn which makes me constantly feel disgusting, i haven’t been gaining too much weight because i do dance but binge eating is making me too obsessive about food and my body and this video gave me the motivation that i can get better so tysm for this video alivia!
Something that I have realized through my own journey was that obviously bingeing never helps, but it is a relief because I allow myself to stop restricting and cut loose. You can still have things like breads and candies but you need to exercise self control when consuming those. Something to use to bring yourself relief from the stress of having to control yourself around such delicious things is that you can eat as much salad as you want. You want a whole head of lettuce? Eat it! A whole head of broccoli? Eat it! You get to feel like you're eating so much more when the food is really healthy, nutritious and low-calorie.
The fact that you doesn’t reveal your weight make me think about how I am treating myself .. because at a moment I started to compare each other and feel bad about myself because I was(am) doing exactly what u were doing that time. So thank you so much, this reminds me to stop thinking like that and to start at least being kind w/ myself.
Just completed your season 1 don't know if you'll ever read my comment or not but I have limited time to change myself and I am already too late. Wish you upload season 2 Early so that I can get a direction to change from what I am to who I want to be. Alivia you are real an inspiration for enumorous people and so many are desperately waiting for your season 2
thank you so much for this series! It has rlly opened my perception on how i’m living my unhealthy lifestyle not only physically but mentally. Also the helpful tips r rlly great to :)
As an addict, I recognize these patterns well. When I would suffer throughout the day because I was hungover, I would beat myself up all day "I'm never drinking again! you're a terrible person! I have no control" but around 2 pm I would start planning on getting alcohol after work. By the time I left work I was powerless, my trajectory was set. It was a tortuous vicious cycle. I feel for everyone that goes through this in any way. It's hell :(
I just wanna to Say THANK YOU, for being strong. When I was on the worst part of My eating disorder I was unable to talk with somebody about it. So thanks for giving a voice for us, and also THX for making me stronger and powerful. You are beautiful, brave and kind. You deserve to me happy. Greetings from México 💞
Love how this series is so relatable even if you are not on a weight loss journey. It's really about glow up in every single way. 💖✨ You are so precious Alivia! Thank you for sharing with us your journey. Sending love 💕
The greatest advice i ever took was to accept compliments, if you believe you are great, then you will be (you already are great tho. Yall are beautiful)
you are such a beatiful girl and inspired me our languages not same but i really understand what you feel,what you think and i’m so thankful full to god i discovered you
Alivia, I am incredibly grateful that you have shared your story here. Thank you for expressing so clearly what I fight through in my daily life, your factual explanations truly make it easier for me to understand the burdens in my own mind, and I don’t feel alone any longer. I support you tremendously in your journey, and I hope you’re doing well ✨
"A rural life of moral simplicity,despite its monotony, is the preferable personal narrative to a daring life of impulsive passion. Which only leads to tragedy."
i found myself watching thru this series because i'm also struggling w something else. thank you for the inspiration alivia, and i'm glad you are doing great 💖
Negotiation is more powerful than tyranny. You can force yourself to do something in the short term but the best way is to ask what you would be willing to do and start from there. Forcing yourself to "be better" than what you are is a great way to burn yourself out or just breakdown full stop. It's a terrible way to live but its so easy to forget your doing it. I've never had an eating problem or a body problem but I know what it's like to force yourself to the point that you don't have control anymore over what you do. It's terrifying and would not recommend.
Same when I let go of my weight I let go of my appearance , no make up now , old clothes that don’t do me any favours 😔 I made a instagram to document my journey too because you’ve inspired me !
I just want to say thank you for releasing this series. I’m going through a similar phase of life. And watching this gives me so much peace that I’m infact not alone ❤️
My mom called me fat today. I almost fully broke down then and there but we were in public. What hurt the most was she KNEW how hard I’ve been exercising, eating healthy, doing everything to really better myself and she just had the nerve to tell me I was fat and it was happening cause I kept exercising. I’ve been pushing myself really hard these past few months and I’m just tired of feeling as if all my efforts are for nothing. When will this end? When will I finally reap the benefits of all these workouts, eating healthily, and everything else? I’ve been putting my mind in a healthy mindset as well, that I’m doing this not just to lose weight but also to make myself healthier and better but for what? Nothing’s happening. I’m still stuck in my old mindset that I feel as if all I’ve done so far was suppress all these negative emotions to the back of my mind that just comes rushing out again every time someone throws out a comment about my weight. Why do we live in a society where we’re so pressured to be thin or fit and looked down on if we don’t meet these standards? Yes there’s a lot of body positivity nowadays, but let’s face it. Deep down there’s still that innate feeling of judgment when a certain person looks differently that a lot wouldn’t classify as beautiful. I don’t look at my reflection for too long in the mirror anymore because I’m afraid if I do I would do something irreversible. Something I’d regret. I feel as if no one would ever really care about me. I’m reading all about these people going through the same thing I am going through some even worse, but I just feel so alone. I don’t feel like I can open up to anyone in real life cause I’m in fear that they’d judge me or look at me differently because of these thoughts that I have. I wanna just end it all. I don’t like feeling this way.
STOP SCROLLING. READ. Whoever you are, if you are depressed, if you have anxiety or if your just so stressed in the moment... Remember, it wouldn't be worth it to end your life. You are NOT a waste. You CAN do it. You CAN stay strong, throw away them razor blades because you should never use them. You are NOT too fat or too skinny. You are NOT ugly. You are NOT a nerd. You are NOT stupid. You are wonderful. You are not a waste of time. I went through a really hard time, but here I am. I am strong and I need you to be strong with me. You can do it. Never even think about giving up. You aren't perfect, but who is? Nobody is perfect (Hannah Montana told me so). What even is 'perfect'? I know everybody has flaws, but this flaws makes us special. You are special. The scars on your skin don't make you ugly. They show you that you made it through it, that you are strong and you didn't give up. Just remember every time you think of giving up: You are worth it, you are not a waste of time. You can do it.
hi alivia. i don't know if you are gonna see this or not. i just finished the whole season. (yes i discovered your series really late) :)) wanted to say that you inspired me. when i watched the first video, i was amazed. you amazed me and inspired me so much that i was a lot productive then i was 3 days ago. im sooo thankful for what you've done here. (sorry for my english im from turkey) i just love you soo much. keep the good work!!
I am so grateful for these series! You really inspire me to love myself and try my hardest to reach my goals. Also I’m really proud of you and your progress, you have come so far! Love you, Alivia!
Idk what happened to my brain, but watching this series suddenly shifted EVERYTHING in my mind. I hope this lasts because wow I feel kinda good about myself for the first time in a while since gaining just 3 fricken pounds that I’ve been going crazy about. Wow thank you 🥺❤️
I think I like a little part of me belive in me when I hate my body,acne, choices...But that part always says "It is OK. You are not a bad person I belive in you".I want to listen her.She is me. She knows REAL me...I am really grateful for that.
New subscribers here. I just watched the entire season and I can’t wait for season 2. Watching it in its entirety has made me realize a lot of things about myself and I’m sure it’s done so for many others as well. Thank you for this💕✨
I see myself through you a lot of times, you gave me a lot of answers and reasons to keep going. Right now, my exterior is the reflection of my bad decisions and relationship with food, that is what I'm gling to change. I genuinely wanna be healthy and happy. Thank you for this, you made me realize how wrong my thoughts were. I hope you are doing fine, Alivia ♡♡
I am sooo proud of Alivia she has had a bumpy road but she got there, these videos have given me so much happiness and hope. I also feel like I can relate to a lot of things with her like; my family saying I should not eat that or I will get fat or just binging and its really hard to control after making a habit out of it. I am so grateful to have found her channel this has helped me so much I can not even tell you how much it means to me and it has helped gaining confidents and I am exited to start my life 💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕
I know this series focuses on your Glow up journey, but allow me to say, I think it is so cool that you lived in Taiwan for a year! As someone who's trying to plan a study abroad for just a semester (and it's daunting), I think it's really cool!
