the desire to not exist (and its solution) 

whenever we judge people we are close to learning why they are that way. fortunately you’re intuitive and intelligent and think it through. ❤

I love your candid approach to this, it does more than you know to speak to someone's soul no matter where in life they currently are.

I have TOTALLY felt the desire to not exist, really makes me feel better to see other people experience this as well. Such a weird feeling, like I don’t want to live but also thinking of killing myself or just dying also doesn’t feel right. Like I never should’ve been. Love how you speak and describe things, thank you for this video much!! ❤ I love you because I love me ahhhhhhh!!!!!!

We really are all abstract data points on the same set like the mandelbrot, aren't we? The seahorses, the spirals, gradients are all part of the same one existence

This may sound odd but thank you man. You definitely changed my perspective on a lot of things. I’m one of those people you used to not understand. Sometimes I wish I just never existed or that I could just disappear. I want to be more whole and feel better but i didn’t know how. But I’m really listen to what you’re saying and I’m gonna truly try and become one with certain aspects of my life and try and coexist with everything. I have been off social media for awhile at least most except yt, but I deleted all my social media accounts due to me feeling kind of bitter to people as a whole. I made a new google account to make this comment, I just felt that you deserved a thank you for making a video like this because i needed to head this at this time.

I’ve had this thought a few times in my life. I’ve had thought so real and genuine that maybe it actually happens, who knows. But then all of a sudden there’s that moment of realization. It’s real. No matter how much I hate reality I keep coming back for more apparently 😂 We’re all just a thing that’s happening and wishing ourselves the best. Just combing through the noise, and finding meaning where we can and for some reason we’ll keep doing it, forever!

Thanks, that's beautiful actually, the ego longing to... desappear. For more soul to appear. It's a kind of healthy feeling in a way, as long as it doesn't last for ever and the needed change happens. Much love

I needed this today. I wrote down today in my journal that I wanted to not be here. I didn’t know what that meant but you guided me right where I needed. Thank you

9:42 - 10:06 this is actually very good. I have a physics background, I'm currently on the last year of my PhD. I was relating what you said here back to quantum field theory, and yes, we really are fundamentally wave excitations in the quantum field. This made me wonder if it's actually correct to equate existence with the quantum field, and I think it may be. Fascinating insights, thank you!

Too beautiful. I remembered what I felt as a toddler.Thank you.

Your making a lot of sense Steph', very deep and profound wisdom mate, and very helpful, thank you.

My daughter committed suicide four months ago, and I feel the same now. I’m so glad I got this video right now.

I recently got to a dark place where I was like damn I felt the fear and presence of death and it was empty. It was hard to shake but I came to the same conclusion. Existence itself is the gift and from that perspective how can everything not be beautiful

I understand this and I love the way youve framed it. Yet I still have the deep desire. Its the undercurrent to all things.

I needed to hear this. Thank you bro. ❤❤

I really appreciate this video,thank you ❤️

Great pointing bro, love you.

thank you for sharing this video!! it really resonated with a lot of thoughts I've been having recently :) I've been playing with the idea that we, as well as all things, exist in our varied forms as manifestations of beauty in different macro/micro levels (Like the leaf, the tree, the forest, etc.) I have a number of thoughts on the subject, but I'll keep it brief here lol I just think this idea of oneness and unity that you're touching on really clicked with me, particularly in that the "tapestry" of the present moment would take on a more literal semantical meaning by this conception. Our consciousness (in an ego-self sort of way) is defined and limited by our knowledge, especially in the sense of our understanding of concepts and words, and I appreciate you bridging the gap between these higher cognitive concepts and everyday life. I really liked when you said "when you hear a chord, a triad of notes... it creates a whole greater than the sum of its parts," because I initially heard it as "accord"-- I think the entendre was also powerful for my understanding of the video, and I think that's harmonious in a way :)

I don’t wanna be here either watching you but I liked, commented and subscribed coz I want to.

Thank you so much for this. I hoped to find an email address or a way to reach you. I have been going though something heartbreakingly profound and reached this conclusion. Except ive been in this feeling for about two weeks since i lost the love of my life. Like you its just a desire to become no thing, having had enough with existence itself. This video has literally saved me. from myself, from the all, nothing and existence simultaneously. Thank you so much. I love you!

Why can I save this video to watch later? Thanks for the great work brother, very insightful message. Its great to see that I'm not alone with this thoughts.

Very Zen

Thank you i love you way of thinking ❤

Thank you.

beautiful video :)

Appearantly that's not even existence, those objects thoughts and sensations, they an illusion, a veil, unreality .. can't use timestamp for some reason but I'll continue watching lol

2:58 says a lot how this particular videos of his got the most views

Thank you Steph, this was a nice and well explained video. I enjoyed it and it made me feel whole and present🩵

I LOVE YOU!!8!!

Imagine having that mentality for your entire life...

You love me!! You dont even know me - someone probably

my dude just casually came upon Wahdat-Al-Wujud while reflecting. mA.Consider reading Ibn Arabi and others like Meister Ekhart. David Bentley Hart's book The Experience of God is a great resource on this topic. may you stay blessed & upright my friend.

Perception is an individual thing. Good luck 👍

Maybe sit alone in quiet and be with God if you can, and ask for bonus information?

very wise love to see it ☯

Thank you!

Thank you 🫶🏾

What were the 3 videos u mentioned at the beginning?

Lovely to listen to you. 👀 Your compassion and energy somehow reminds me of this creator www.youtube.com/@KidologyCO/videos even though you talk about completely different things and are just complete opposite but it's so nice to listen to both of you.

You are what psychiatrists would refer to as 'neurotypical'. A lot of people who are chronically suicidal have experienced long term, ongoing trauma.

I mean you could have just said meditate and practice mindfulness….

I really needed this 🥲