I hate when people tell me they think I’m beautiful the way I am it almost fuels my eating disorder because I always see people tell that to bigger people as a sympathy compliment so I eat less I’ve passed out several times I know it’s not healthy but I don’t know what to do.
you have summoned me anime quote of today "I won’t run, I will stand and look ahead to what I must do, I must face the fear, I won’t let it control me anymore, I will use my heart that holds my courage and my bravery to move me forward to what I must do.” ~ Gray Fullbuster (fairy tail)
At this point it's so bad to where I even despise the word "eat", and having the word associated with me brings a bitter feeling in my gut. I have to say "have" instead of "eat" because anytime I hear that word it makes me feel horrible. It's making me sick just typing it out. I thought I was getting better. But, I suppose I've fallen back into my (not so) old habits again. And, this time, I can't ask for help.
Idk what I have ik its not anorexia or beliemia because I don't purge and I don't necessarily starve myself I just can't eat infront of people not even my parents. So at dinner I barely eat then after when everyone is headed to bed I hide away in my room and eat. But I also suffer from ptsd issues where if I do purge at night I remember what my ex used to always say to me. Things like "wow that's a lot of food" and "men only like petit girls" and By the way I'm 18 and only 104.5 lbs. I'm not on the heavy side and when my ex told me that I was 80 lbs and that WAS LAST YEAR. so girls and guys. Please take care of yourselves and don't become like me I beg you
for some reason, i just lost my appetite the other day but when i came back to this- i was like "MOTHER BUY ME 3 BIG MACS" thanks a lot! now i gotta press that sub button -.-*
I had an NG tube put in in early March before surgery and it was my first that I can remember(premature at birth and sick with a kidney disease until age 3)and it stunk. I almost had a panic attack when they told me and while they did it. Then they said they were flying me by helicopter to another hospital(you guessed it,first time that I can remember for that,too). The whole way there I had a rag over my eyes because I am terrified of heights. I really,really appreciate all the doctors and nurses that have taken care of me(and now my daughter)throughout my life. If it wasn't for all of them doing what they do all the time,I wouldn't be able to have had my little girl or even my life. They all rock!!!!!😇😇😇💚💚💚🏥🏥🏥
I skip lunch and dinner and I can barely breathe during band. I feel like I’m gonna puke just thinking about food. And yet I’m forced to eat by my parents and I feel bad for wasting breakfast. I’m 12 and I fear I have anorexia. I am very skinny and people always say it’s genes, that they wish they were skinny like me, or that I’m too bony. I feel like I’m wasting away and I don’t look like models in pictures. I know it’s unrealistic but I can’t help myself. I can barely breathe I’m crying is much!! My stomach is growling at me… please help guys, what do u think..?.
I won't lie. I need to start eating regular. It's been very stressing for the past month. I only eat when I. Hungry which is one meal. I guess cause I get so stressed out to the point where I literally black out. I even sometimes es will go days without eating cause stress and all kinds of stuff. I once went a week without eating cause I had do much to do. But I'm trying to get back but it's been hard
