I was as hyped like everyone else about this release today, and we all knew this was going to be a heavier topic, I don't think any of us thought we would all be sharing tears openly like this. Powerful. Human.
It felt almost wrong to be hyped for something so serious but that’s just how good Ren is. We want to experience his art. Even knowing what it was going to be about though, that ending still hit so damn hard. There was no way to be ready for that level of vulnerability and raw emotion.
Thank you for your consideration of your audience. Thank you for not shying away from the emotions. Thank you for sitting with it. Thank you for sitting with us. Thank you for sitting with Ren.
This song is so hard. That he blames himself, still, might be the hardest part. Thank you for reacting to this. I hope that you know that you aren't crying alone.
I can call it a night. The reaction that was meant to cap off this roller coaster ride I have been on since 7 pm GMT. I feel heavy watching all the emotion and empathetic loop we are on. But I am happy. There has been thousands of us talking about a censored topic on this platform. Mental health issues are hushed about and sweeped under the rug, here. This makes my continent one of the leading statistics in suicides. We in the Rencord have a lot of respect for you, friend. You are a star human being and fucking fantastic reactor ❣️
I've never heard any track in my 50 years with so much rawness and vulnerability. This had me sobbing by the end of it, I felt his pain, we felt his pain. I just want to cuddle him and tell him he's gonna be OK. Rest in peace Joe ❤️
Thanks for honoring this raw emotional song with your own real emotions and being willing to share them like Ren did. Isnt it ashame such powerful important songs as this could never be played on the radio? I think radio really diminishes what music can be on it.
I love your heart on your sleeve breakdowns of music. ❤️ Watching you share your soul makes me feel less alone in this world. REN’s new song hits like a gut punch. Thank you.
The sentence "I see the world through Fibonacci sequences and double dutch" is a metaphorical statement that can be interpreted in several ways. Here's one possible interpretation: The Fibonacci sequence is a series of numbers in which each number is the sum of the two preceding ones, usually starting with 0 and 1 (0, 1, 1, 2, 3, 5, 8, 13, 21, and so forth). In many ways, the Fibonacci sequence is associated with patterns, growth, and principles of beauty found in nature and the arts. Therefore, "seeing the world through Fibonacci sequences" could mean the speaker has a structured, mathematical, or patterned approach to understanding the world, or that they appreciate the underlying natural principles and harmonies that can be found in many aspects of life. Double dutch is a game played with two jump ropes turning in opposite directions simultaneously. It's often associated with childhood, teamwork, rhythm, coordination, and a degree of complexity. So, "seeing the world through double dutch" could mean that the speaker views the world as a place requiring coordination, rhythm, teamwork, and the ability to navigate complex situations. It might also suggest a playful or nostalgic view of the world, as double dutch is a game often played by children. Combined, the sentence could suggest that the speaker sees the world in a way that appreciates both the complex, patterned beauty found in natural principles (like the Fibonacci sequence), and the rhythmic, coordinated complexity of human interaction and play (like in double dutch). The speaker might be expressing a perspective that blends a deep appreciation for both structured mathematical patterns and the chaotic, playful patterns found in human activities.
I think the reference to fibonacci sequences is him saying he still goes back to that past trauma. Like how you have to look back to add the numbers to get the next number in the sequence idk
And maybe the double Dutch is referring to how he has two opinions spinning through his head like the ropes. He has one side that's telling him it's his fault, and one that's saying it isnt
A lot of people with mental health issues actually know and deal with the Fibonacci Sequence, it is a mathematical term for number sequences with infinite possibilities, the same could be addressed within word play, saying one word and making connections between that word then others and so on, imo this is where the double Dutch comes in, words, connections and then becoming incomprehensible, without making much sense in the end.
Since I was first introduced to Ren, I been hooked on watching as many reactors as possible (and I do mean MANY). While I agree that the Wolf Johnson is great, you are by far the best I’ve watched . You should have a much much higher sub count and number of views. You are going to go far once the masses stumble across your videos!! Keep up the great work!
How can any human with even the slightest bit of empathy in their heart not cry listening to this vulnerability, rawness, and sheer pain pouring through those lyrics? Tell the people in your lives that you love them as much as possible! Ren has singlehandedly broke us to help us rebuild our troubled souls... he's a masterful lyricist and a necessary artist the world needs desperately! Emotional reaction as it should've been.
Great reaction and truly heart felt. Was great seeing you in the chat today. This song pulled my heart out of my chest and shattered it. I was sobbing by the end of it. Ren has given such a powerful and raw song. I have cried during it and every reaction so far. It hits so hard. Lots of love to everyone and please if you are in dark spot please reach out for help. RIP Joe.
I returned to your channel to watch again. I needed your deep humanity again. You are the best reactor for me. You are so special. You give us a very real place to cry together…and to celebrate together. Thank you again.
THE PIG IS BACK!!! 😂 To all of you who reads this know you have the strength to go through anything that's thrown in your way! In my low moments I'm watching your reactions my man, there's something in your way of being, something clean and I'll be around to support this journey. Thank you for all you do, let's stay strong together, form a great support community! 💪
The recently added ending really completed the song. And made it absolutely heart wrenching. Beautiful vulnerability and song. Ren is doing something very important with his art by voicing things we don’t talk about enough. And he is bringing us together as humans that feel empathy and share similar emotions. We relate. We are less alone.
I feel like I'm discovering Ren in order of heart-wrenchiness. Hi Ren -> Tales -> Chalk Outlines -> Freckled Angels -> How To Be Me -> Crutch -> Su!c*de (add Depression, Dominoes and Dear God somewhere along that line). Every step of the way, after watching countless reactions and crying every time, I reach a point where I'm able to sing along without choking up and think that maybe I'm ready for what comes next. I was not.
I know exactly what you mean. When I saw Hi Ren, it cracked open my own 'plaster cast' I've had on for years, I was suddenly feeling things again after being completely numbed to any emotion for so long. I spent the next month or so going through his catalogue in depth and taking a weird pleasure in the tears I was able to cry listening to them. It was almost disappointing as they became so familiar that they didn't hit quite so deeply. I was beginning to worry that the emotional effect his music had on me was going away. Holy crap this song has made me cry 10 times harder than anything else. I feel like Ren is teaching me how to feel all the nooks and crannies of a rich emotional life and each track expands it more and more. It's been beautiful to experience.
I wonder if the first part of this masterpiece is Ren reciting all the stories, all the different thoughts that poison the brains of those who ultimately choose to die. And the second part of this masterpiece shows the devastation reaped on those left behind who will miss you if you jump.
I feel that Ren always hits me in the heart, with his ability to make me feel... With his ability to put words and music to feelings that have otherwise been locked up. He makes me cry, in sympathy with him, with myself and with others. Thanks for the huge gesture and his incredible ability
Thank you for sharing this. What's so beautiful is that Joe has lived on through Ren and his music. Thousands of people across the World know who Joe is and are thinking of him. What a beautiful tribute from Ren.
You can't stop re-thinking what could have been done differently.. And it`s not a choice.. Its just there all the time.. What if.. Great reaction.. Shit i love Ren
Was good seeing you at the premier. You delivered on this reaction! Took me 4-5 passes over that last part just to be able to absorb it all, my mind kept drifting on his words. Knew i might crack, but this freaking broke me down. Sure felt better after though.
This one broke my heart. Ren crying in the end was too much for me. “I still can’t find the anger, all I find is missing you” 😢 💔 Thanks for being honest with your emotions and reaction to this.
Out of all the Ren reactors I have watched (a I-probably-need-a-12-step-program absurd amount), I swear you are my favorite. Thank you for representing all of us.
What is amazing is how vulnerable Ren was at when he wrote this and created this video plus currently releasing to it all of us. 2nd is Ren’s loss of his childhood when he lost his innocence and feeling of immortality. He reminds me of the Maestro Tuomas Holopainen who composed most of Nightwish songs, poetry in his lyrics, and music. One theme Tuomas has is Dead Boy meaning a loss of childhood. Finally, while emphasizing the pain Ren’s friend Joe was going through also showing how hurt he was by the choice his friend Joe made along with the guilt of just possibly missing getting to Joe in time to save him or even to say goodbye plus Joe’s body was never found for closure. In other words, the choices one makes affects more then oneself. As Aurora has sung ‘Let the River Run’.
A great reaction video, showing your emotions the same as Ren did in the song is how this song will save lives! Speaking about these things instead of bottling them up inside our 'masculine' exterior shows the path out of these dark situations
❤this song hit us all hard I definitely didn’t think I was going to break down like I did 😞 today is my dad’s birthday he passed 5 years ago not far after my birthday and I seriously just relived so many thing’s listening to his music… my father was a singer song writer and was also in a band back in the 60’s-70’s he taught all of us how to express ourselves through music! !!!!!This is it!!!! I wish he was here to witness this moment in music history! Rens gift of storytelling through his art has brought a community of people together who are non judgmental, kind, considerate,compassionate, and supportive! We are lifting each other up instead of treading over other to get to the top of a meaningless game of popularity and wealth. Life is so much more than that and I seriously feel like this is what is going to change the world! This human commonality ❤ we are all human as he says in *Hi Ren * and the more we learn that we are all trying to survive on the same planet as a race of humans we will be better off! Love your insight into some of the lyrics you made me see it from different angles❤
I’m an old lady, I could have been your grandma. And if I was your gran I would take you on my lap, cry with you, dry your tears and try to comfort you! You are so genuin in all your reactions, don’t ever try to be other than yourself! ❤️
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I heard this walking to work and had to pause it afraid some stranger would see how much it moved me. It’s seems at every moment that he is so abundant, so spontaneous, so daring in his passion, so full of surprise, that his work will never be in need of defense. He writes from life itself, not above it, and that’s why we’ll give him our love.
I absolutely LOVE Ren's music! But I'm in absolute awe of the way you catch EVERYTHING in the music AND the videos. You truly appreciate his art, as we all do. Thank you for being you SnakeVenom. Not afraid to let the music move you 😘🤞🏼 @RenMakesMusic you should listen to SnakeVenom's reacts, he feels every note you sing and play ❤
Great reaction. This is a great song. The end is hard though.. I think for me when he calls himself a jerk, it breaks me every time.. I can't even imagine..
Hi Snake. Your reactions never ceases to amaze me. Your bar breakdowns are great and you never refrain from showing your feelings when the song strikes that chord. You've quickly become one of my favorite reactors and I hope more people will find your channel. Keep up the great work!
There are a few songs that you can not only hear every word but also feel the emotions attached: Jim Croce "Time in a Bottle", Harry Chapin "Cat's in the Cradle", and any of Gordon Lightfoot songs. But this is like a process each time we hear it and experience it.
This one has been hard for most of us; fans and reactors both. I have dealt with depression for most of my life and much of what has kept me here is the realization of how it would hurt those I love. The second half of this song is brutal but it is also a good reminder of how it hurts those left behind. Musically, it's another masterpiece! The video is beautiful as well. I think the animation was a great choice for this one. Louis Mardlin is the video editor for Ren's animated type videos and he did a fantastic job. Thanks you for your honest reaction and willingness to share. Just a thought about the 'draw forth the sword and drive through the armor' line: Psychologically we armor ourselves against the world. We hide parts of ourselves away. So the armor that he is piercing could be the act of opening up and talking. I love the shifting faces. There's a Frankenstein type face in there too!
Thank you man. Ren exposes his heart like no other and for those of us with understanding and empathy, its a difficult listen. But its important for us to understand and learn how to grieve with Ren. Thanks for being real ❤
I'm gonna say it again.......Ren brought the internet to tears yesterday. We all shed some tears together. And remembered his friend Joe. I myself,while not actively trying to end it,didn't care if I did. I crashed my truck into my ex's doing 70mph and just didn't care. I should've died that night. Walked away with a broken finger and a busted kneecap. Thank GOD. My son,when he was 24,made this attempt. I was home to stop him,but he then spent 10 days in a mental health facility. I still have PTSD from that night. He's now almost 30,married to the most incredible woman,and getting paid well to do a job he loves. It could have all changed in the blink of an eye tho. I lost my 13 year old son to kidney failure 12 years ago. If my older son had succeeded,well,I think it would've been more than I could take. He Shines now,and I'm so incredibly proud of him..... Thank you for such an insightful reaction❤
Iv watched 20+ reactions to this video, and iv cried everytime, thought i was getting stronger but you just made me cry again, loved your reaction ❤ keep up your awsome content ❤
This is what makes Ren so relatable to all. His open, honest and rawness that we can all relate to, one way or a other. Not banging on about how cars, b!tches and how much money he has....its real...real life! Su!c!de is a subject we all need to be open about but the aftermath is just as important, aswell. Thanks for your vulnerability along with us all. This song hits hard but it is what the Internet needed. #checkinwithpeeps Much love ❤️
We never met but I love you my brother. And anyone else that reads this I love you too. We've all been blessed and cursed with fellings and emotions and we're all trying to figure out what this existence really means that we we've been involuntarily thrown into. A bunch of imperfect beings on a spinning ball of mud circling a star as we hurdle through space. Be kind to one another and most importantly be kind to yourself.
Ren takes the bs surrounding our basic mental status and shows us for who we are. Then guides us on how to escape and survive for another day. Basically, that is all we have... tomorrow, followed by another tomorrow. But it doesn't have to be a bad tomorrow. Ren is lifting us all up to be stronger and be aware of lifting others with us as the strings of life are entangled with loved ones
I watched this mins after it posted but after watching i just wasnt in a place to comment.... this song wrecked me but i knew that it was going to. I lost my dad to suicide at 13... we didnt have a relationship... he hadnt been in my life for years... i still spent years blaming myself... i thought if i had just tried harder to have a relationship with him hed still be here....but in time i did realize i was a fucking kid!! It wasnt my fault! I swore to myself i would NEVER put anyone thru that kind of pain!! However.....i was 17 or 18 and i almost broke my vow.... at the last i sec, i stopped and got help!! It wasnt easy and it took work but i made it thru. I TRULY WISH everyone who falls into that deep dark empty hole saw that there taking your own life ISNT THE ONLY OPTION!!! ❤ Thank you for your reaction. The raw emtion you show is what people need to see. We should never have to hide or be ashamed of showing our feelings. ❤
Thank you for becoming as strong as you are and helping others by putting your message here! I respect your openness and appreciate your support. ❤ Much love to you
Freckled Angels hits me hard. I listened twice and bawled heavily both times. It triggers me more than anything after losing my husband 7 years ago to terminal cancer. This new one upsets me when I see others so torn up by it. Ren has the ability to make people feel stuff and he expresses his thoughts and feelings so expertly. I don't think I've ever experienced things like this before through music. BTW, this is DEZtini from the other day!
Deztini sorry I didn't reply to your comment sooner, I was just looking back through them and found this. I appreciate your openness and I'm sorry to hear of the loss of your husband. I hope you've been well friend, I know you hang around the stream occasionally even if ya don't say anything lol. I haven't been able to listen to Freckled Angels one time without crying. Much love to you Dez ❤
I cried so much listening to this song! I’ve gone through something similar a couple of months ago. Your reaction was so amazing. I think it’s so easy to blame yourself after something like this ❤
Ren for making this song and music video masterpiece and you for shating your insights, emotions and letting us see the depth of the brightness of your soul with us. It has touch the world into a emmense tear drop for Joe Hughs and Ren. The best of you is always around you, so grasp onto it with your greatness. Keep dancing in the sunshine peace out with the love you have.
Wow, stunning reaction Snake, we all feel so moved by his beautiful words and we do not even know Joe. A truly moving piece of work. We are blessed to be living Rens work first hand
Going through these reactions and feeling the love, support and empathy in the comments is healing. So much positivity and comfort going around. This song is heavy but it opens up a conversation that is needed. Lots of love to you 🖤
I liked right away b/c you were sitting on 666 likes. That couldn't stand. YW Oh, and great reaction as well. Glad I subbed recently. That hour of J&S went by fast!
