I can relate . I had a meltdown over not finding something that was not that dire. I even heard myself think... Chill it's not that important . Breath. Then I was better. I am glad I saw this video Victor, Thank you!
I have been through the dark night of the soul before, this one has really forced me to my knees and I have been judging and doubting myself so so much throughout it. The other day my higher self wispered to me; “can you forgive yourself?” I remember this being the key to the end of the last one. And so I’m currently working on it. You just reinforced that guidance and gave it new nuance. Thank you for sharing 🙏🏻
Yep totally experienced that crap last week.. it was ridiculous!! I let myself feel the irrational negativity associated with these ego based arguments, and I was fully aware that is was a version of myself Im ready to let go of. I was angry and sad for a day, with the awareness that is was not me , and recognizing how the new me responds in much more sane balanced ways that are more rational . Yay!!! We’re evolving and growing up !!! Thanks Victor for yet again confirming that Im exactly where I need to be in this moment!! 🙏🏻🌈😘
Congratulations Vic!! You experienced a spontaneous soul retrieval! 💗 In my shamanic training I was taught that this is what it is all about; becoming whole through integration of all the pieces of the self that have been rejected, splintered off, or left behind. Beautiful!!
I love you, Victor. Thank you for so openly sharing. 🙏Our inner child loves us unconditionally; we need to fully love and accept them, too. Bonus - doing so will set us free, every part of us integrated and whole and Free. ⭐️💖
Ohhh wowwee Just yesterday happened to me.... Very much resonates with me too... It's Such an amazing feeling on the planet earth.. shifting of energies towards the higher self., spiritual awakening stages are Such extremely beautiful... Everyone... Stay happy and healthy... We all are connected... M so happy inside out
I can relate to this video! I recently faced the jealousy demon within! I have always been a very jealous person & never looked at this as a problem. However, after my awakening I was able to do the work to find the resolve to work through it & ‘Accept it’. Thank you for sharing your story Vic!
Oh Victor.....you have no idea how badly I needed this. It's EXACTLY what I've been going through since 1am and I've been searching for this answer. You beauty!! It's like you read my soul. 🎉🎉🎉🎉 THANK YOUUUUU!!!! ❤❤❤
Your content is always on point to how i am feeling, i started watching you in 2020 and you've been so in line with collective consciousness its crazy.
Dude straight out the gate - that's me, to a T. Sorta freaking out getting reads from people thinking they're mocking me, oh, they hate me... I had a breakup recently and it's triggered all my abandonment issues. I feel so ignored and alone and I've had this CPTSD stemming from this pattern of friends and even family just not being stable, secure, trustworthy, lots of people ditching me, abandoning me, never really feeling appreciated, never having that sense of belonging... this is all so intensified lately.
Holy crap, this is exactly what's been happening to me of late a recent incident had me nearly punch the fridge, I paused honoured my anger for showing me when thing are wrong and then honoured my strength for holding back, this recent incident has had me seeing others treated in this way by the same person which kicks me off even more, I've shut down this person but im now feeling her behaviours steaming through and at me from others, I'm now in an honest attempt to shut her down from harming others as ive finally grown a pair and bought her behaviours forward to the boss. On the plus side I'm feeling literally drawn by an invisible force to other with the same vibration and for all of this I'm feeling overwhelmingly blessed, it's been a crazy journey 🌀💕✨ thanks victor this clip resonated hard and I'm going to use your wife's rose theory and honour my thorns. Love and light ✌️🦉💕
Your video resonate with me so much! 🙏 Your message arrive at the right time. This is exactly what is happening to me, old stuff come back to the surface and I did not know why and I felt ashamed 😔 But now I know what to do for myself! ❤ Thank you so much! I send you many beautiful energies from Québec city 🙌 ✨ 😘😘😘
WOW!!! Wow!! WOW!!!!!!!!! I just went through everything you are speaking about within the last 24 hrs… I sat in meditation about 4am looking for answers…. THIS VIDEO IS THE ANSWER!!! WOW!! Thank you!!
You are so precious beloved brother ❤ forever I thank you for your service for the light ❤ you are a Braveheart ❤ l am always with you and the family of light ❤ om
wow, thank you so much be or sharing victor! i‘ve been warching your vids for years on and off and i gotta say that they‘ve helped me immensely and made me feel at ease many times. i‘ve never commented on your vids and in my whole life i‘ve commented on probably around 5 vids in total… so this means a lot to me. to me it seems totally insane that you had (maybe still have) these issues about yourself and how you looked… you‘re TOTALLY HANDSOME and have an amazing body, not only that but also your energy and the way you think and speak about things in an honest and transparent way… you‘re just awesome, i hope that thoughts like that just pass by your mind and that you can see yourself fully as this super human being! i’m sending all my love to you and your wonderful family :)
The part about being inclusive and accepting of parts of ourselves that are imperfect and taking them with us like you said and including them as part of our imperfect human condition..
Wow this is so powerful Victor it's amazing how you can put into words what I am going thru right now so glad to know you too have been thru this. Thank you 🙏🏽
This video is so real and raw and relevant. Thank you for going through your healing journey to inner-stand and for sharing your process and awareness! This is such an eloquent shadow-work video. Blessings to you Vic! 🖤✨💫
Wow! So I have been watching your content for most of 2023 and just in the past few months I actually look forward to watching your posts. Today while watching I found myself just boohooing out of nowhere. Your words moved me and my awareness and most importantly my acceptance of my inner child was acknowledged. In turn, made me realize that this is also something I need to accept and acknowledge about my grown children. Idk if that made sense but thank you. I hope one day I can join in to one of your retreats. Keep on keeping on brother!!!!
I had a bout of jealousy earlier today and I finally said "i see you, i don't understand where you are coming from but i want to..." one thing led to another and I realized it was the abandonment wound. I was feeling jealousy because I was afraid the Universe would forget about me on this promise for love in my life that I've been on a path for recently- completely immersed in the healing journey and making huge strides to overcome fears but still afraid the Universe wasn't going to follow through with the things that have propelled me forward on this journey. With the abandonment wound also still that unworthiness theme.
wow, had no idea there's this stage but how pertinent again to hear this right at this moment as now my latest experience makes sense. thank you so much for sharing these insights from your own personal journey ~ it's been a few times that your updates just happen to highlight my recent steps though the actual experiences may not be relevant it feels very metaphysical.
I refreshed my page after clicking out of content that wasn’t resonating. I asked to see what I needed in this moment. Your live was the first video at the top of my suggested feed. I watched completely memorized with how personal this conversation felt…… I literally struggle with that exact past wound. Cheated on in high school. Realizing now that I have told myself since it happened to “just get over it”. It was a 2 year relationship, very close with his family, etc. my intuition told me something wasn’t right and I didn’t listen. Which I think I shame myself for. This whole video was exactly what I needed to hear, Vince. I was crying throughout and then you hit me with the Rose part at the end & it was like you were speaking directly to me. Totally trippy to be honest! Haha. Thank you so much for sharing this. Infinite gratitude for you, your wife, your channel, the knowledge, sense of belonging…🙏🏽 Blessings
I agree about the thorn thing too. I've come to recognize, I can't ever "be healed enough" and it's actually abusive to hold myself to unreachable standards. It's the conundrum of this spiritual path, so many people and teachers preach an idea that you must heal BEFORE you can experience love or your dream life... but what that does is it forces this internal battle where I used to really try to defy myself. I perpetually felt "not healed enough - not spiritual enough" thus ironically kept guilting myself, wanting to be better, breaking down because I couldn't "heal enough". I would get rejected by my partner for my wounds and told to "go heal that" as if it was something I'd been slacking on - like a quick fix. What if I'm alright how I am? Who out there is without sin? Who is without fault? NOBODY! Yet ironically, there IS no fault, there is no flaw. When we see ourselves and our wounds and triggers and all that shadowy stuff and we accept it and realize it doesn't detract from us, so much as it is a part of us, these are all things that in time, may heal, but it actually hurts you more to fight against them. Imagine you are your own partner or child, and then think about that partner or child breaking down crying. Are you going to look at them and scold them and tell them to go heal themselves better and stop crying, or are you gonna hug them and let them cry it out and tell 'em it's okay?
That’s so shocking I would never imagine you thinking that! Wow you are so not ugly in any way thanks for sharing it make me not feel so crazy for being insecure mor often than other people would expect also! Totally helpful!
I do believe a part of it is about releasing and letting go. The frozen emotions from old trauma need to be released and let go so the next time I experience a trigger, I no longer fall into the same mental story from the past. Then it’s healed. Thanks for sharing your cheating story, it turned out to be my divine assistance because I had that happen to me too and it still lingered around my liver hence two days of swearing this week after a similar incident where I froze my emotions but then went on a 2-day swearing rant. Those feelings had been buried since 1990. 🖖🏻✨
The rose ,is a great symbol for that analogy to accept yourself as you are! I love it! And thank you! 🙏 I have been doing some inner child healing recently and this is a good topping to what I have been working on!
Oh, how I just love to listen to you sometimes I break out laughing, but more out of a nervous familiarity with what it is you’re describing. I feel now more than ever not only myself, but it seems like everyone around me, my neighbors, my community people are triggered and traumatized. I really believe that what is happening in the world is causing people to be forced to face their traumas whether they want to or not , and then it’s a choice whether you awaken and have the courage to face those traumas and those deep shadows that are within you. But my issue is more what you first described and that is thinking all kinds of strange things lately about what other people are thinking and then I snap out of that and realize that I don’t really care what these people are thinking because everybody’s messed up right now and they’re projecting everything onto everyone else that’s just the way I see it … I have never felt such energy as I’ve been feeling this past few weeks but especially since the holidays began and it’s not too positive, there’s a lot of anger I sense and impatience and people rushing and rushing and rushing around. I almost can’t wait to get home and sometimes I got it take a day or two to recuperate because I’m so sensitive to these energies .. I keep trying to seek advice on how to deal with it, but to be quite honest with you it is so strong that even though I’m aware of it, the only way to protect myself, is to get myself home and just vegetate for a day or two meditate and just relax and be silent. The world is so chaotic right now and so noisy , it’s just a bit too much for me at this moment and time. I sure hope it changes soon.
"Shaman Dave"! Lol. I love your humanity, openness, vulnerability, honesty, and bravery to just be yourself and share that. Very powerful. I often laugh out loud listening to you. We all have totally nuts parts, and they are entertaining 😂❤
Wow. Thank you Victor. I've felt similar in my relationship recently and it's been difficult. This has been an amazing help. Theres a part of me so closed off and scared of being used, abused, hurt and unaccepted that I have trouble being vulnerable and allowing others in. I've been resisting and running away from opening up and allowing.
I really needed to hear this video exactly at this time. Things are coming up where it’s this same story of feeling abandoned and left behind and all that’s happening is my boyfriend is busy with work so he isn’t texting me constantly and I’m seeing that as he no longer loves me, even tho he explicitly said he loves me and he’s just swamped with work at the moment. 😢it’s a story I’m healing with my father and my masculine energy. It’s all related. Coincidentally I’m also sick at the same time so it feels like a massive purge. I also met a lady yesterday who is going to help me heal my psoriasis, a disease I’ve had since I was 16. She said to me “what happened to you 5 years prior to getting psoriasis? Who left you? A parent?” Well my father went to prison when I was 10 and left our family. We struggled to survive without him and my mother was also abusing me and my sisters when he was gone. It’s all connected. I can’t make this shit up.
Acting like a weirdo...😂😂😂 u got me. I agree with you. I call it Radical Acception. And just from there, start understanding through acceptance that things were always for a reason even for the reason we can't understand! With this RA comes peace within. This is it. Now, what do I have to start building myself again...? Everyday a little bit (helps), it's easier when we are jn peace with ourselves. Much love❤
Listening/watching this video as i get ready for work, as you talk about your wife and rose, which i also feel connection to, i start to cry as you say she says the rose gives no fucks about it's thorns. Very beautiful and profound thank you Victor ❤
Spot on Victor, it’s enhanced big time in your awareness the looks of people. Sometimes it’s unresolved fear in the body from childhood to release. If you feel Crystal energy charoite is wonderful to stop picking up other people’s patterns. ❤
Wanna know my "why I feel ashamed"? It was 5th grade and all the other guys were making these bad ass origami type spaceship folded airplane type things. I remember sitting for days at home with my paper trying to make anything that even came close until I finally had to accept that I just didn't have it in me.
This morning i was meditation on a question and your video explained everything I'm feeling and going through. Thank you for your wonderful message and thank you for being you!!❤
Hi Victor great video! Can you tell us more about what it meand? To come home? I find that im in a phaze like this and i dont know what its gonna mean right now its so difficult rn and i hope coming home means something really awesome But there isnt alot of videos out there on this particular subject Thank you! 🙏 ⭐️
I had something happen last week like I wasn't accepting something about myself or I wanted to keep it hidden and I was getting pummeled until I let it out. Whatever it was I completely gave up resisting then everything was OK. It's like I had to surrender but that was exactly what I was supposed to do. : )
Yes I can definitely relate. It's amazing how quickly our Childhood Insecurities show up unexpectedly. I then remind myself that I am living this life for Myself and No One Else, so why would I think twice about what anyone thinks of Me. Also you have Nothing to Worry About since you are Absolutely Gorgeous & Sexy. Plus you have a Beautiful Soul. Sometimes I wish you weren't Straight. Thank you very much for your Videos, they have been Very Insightful/Helpful and Inspiring for Me. Especially the Videos that Help Empaths. I am Now Much More Informed and My Life & My Spiritual Journey has Improved Significantly and it Gets Better Every Day. Thank You. I send you much Love & Gratitude for your Service. :o)
this is the real inner child/shadow work. if you're trying to heal out of self rejection or to become perfect it will never work. your shadow can smell that shit from a mile away 👹
My Higher self told me that my purpose is writing songs for children and I'm doing that, I have about 40 songs and they are about how to be happy and have a great life, all that I've learned, it's written so kids can understand it. Anyway, few days ago I felt a strong urge to start crocheting and now I'm doing it and I LOVE IT! I feel excitement and can't wait to sit down and crochet. 😂 I'm laughing because I never saw myself as someone who would do that. 😄 But I'm wondering what's up with that? Why I love it, even more than writing songs and writing should be my purpose. Yeah, I'm a bit confused. Is it a hobby just to keep my vibration high? Any thoughts, anyone? TY! ❤😮
Thank you so much Victor! 🥰 This issue is definitely a sore thumb. Every time I walk into a room, people start freaking out! It's something that makes me really uncomfortable, and made me even stop socialising or joining communities. I really do not want to have to deal with peoples projections. It's incredibly unpleasant when people don't even give a them to get to know you and start creating all these fantasies in their head about who you are supposed to be. Even worse, is when people continue to cling to their projections of you even when you have made it clear what you are about. I used to feel like I had to go around justifying myself all the time. Now I am embracing this creepy quality of mine, sorry not sorry, I am basking in your horror haha😂
Okay! I am laughing. Do you and Aaron Doughty know one another. I taught with a young man at juvenile court in community schools who are used to like to show your videos. Me, I found Aaron on RU-vid and had a real cool experience in a crystal castle while we were doing meditation. I guess my point is it seemed you were a part of Illde Ojeda‘s family and Aaron is a part of my family and you are friends… just a cool side.
I so respect your vulnerability to share personal stories! This video opened my eyes a lot. I'm always in fix myself mode but all inner child me is to say "Hey it's Okay I got you!" 🥹🥹 "Walk with me". Thanks Vic, May God continue to bless you, your family and your beautiful Rose! 🌹
That IS trauma. Unresolved trauma. When the universe is clear on you having to heal something, it will bring in the opportunity. That was the opportunity that showed you that there were unresolved traumas needing attention. Healing doesn't mean removing something. Rather accepting it
i think wut i want to do in life is simlar to a mohill, but as beatiful of a walk around like its a mountain , lik a circular pattern ascendin up the mountain as it will be a brisk walk when u let it, but i dont have to scathen and crave and bewildered on the side of a hill climbin, i can simply do a brisk walk while still integratin and takin stops and letting i the golden light and watar and being and upgradnig along each stop each checkpoint up this hill kind of lik in kingfupands and wwe will achieve and it will all be worth it
