First heard this song in the car with my dad. This was his all time favorite song, and is now one of mine. He passed away almost 2 months ago just after my 17th birthday. I play this song every time I get in the car just like I know he would. Rest In Peace dad.
He loves you so much brother it’s up too you to follow in the footsteps he left and to make your own use his mistakes as learning lessons he made them so you don’t have to and pray to Jesus believe me when I tell you he was holding your hand and crying with you it’s hard world but god will never turn his back on you
Godspeed to your dad. You're so young. My mid 20s kids lost their dad a few months ago, he also loved SP. We went to see them live a few months after his death, it was special.
I believe that Billy Corgan didn't really intend for the song to be about anything. I remember him saying that he thought the lyrics were crap and were pretty much just a bunch of one liners stitched together. Still, they're beautiful. So is the song.
This song reminds me of all the years that feel wasted in the military while everyone on the outside keeps on living moving forward, your life stands still.
Difference was you moved forward on the inside, building a better you and getting it right... everyone on the outside focuses precisely there and do a horrible job of building anything in the rat race. Good on ya brother 🤙🏻
The grass isn’t always greener on the other side, though it looks it. We have to take pride in our choices. I understand it can be trying, but it’s like that for all of us. Thank you for your service.
man i love this song so much. i remember being at university and id dropped some bad acid and i put this on and it changed my trip and blew my mind, i was in tears man, i couldnt stop crying, but they were happy tears. i was so overwhelmed by the music that humans make
This album reminds me of all the cool times I had with my best friend who got his shit together and now isn't even the same person. It's better sweet, I'm so happy for him but I miss my brother.
I'm a dyed in the wool metal head. I also play music and have since I was 5. I've always been struck by a great harmonic. My best friend since childhood, when this came out, said "listen to this, you'll love it!". He was right. I loved it. Unfortunately he took his life not even a month after we had this discussion, which was in August of that year. I've heard this song 5 times last month. I cried every time. Much like I am now. Suicide fucking sucks.
@skinny from the south it's all good man. Every day makes things easier. It helps to have some friends from our circle around. Went to a metal show last weekend with one, and we both felt like we were 20 again. We both needed that. For sure.
Just found out I have to move and go to a different school for the 5th time in the past 5 years. Sometimes I just want things to get better, so I come here to listen to my comfort song.
Having moved a bunch and changed schools will serve you well when you're older and can easily make new friends and others enjoy your presence... because you've been exposed to more people and had to make efforts to make friends, as opposed to those who stay in the same town forever. Strong roots are great, and moving is hard, but your character won't suffer.
the first time i ever heard this song was late at night, in my drive through while smoking off a bong with a special friend i no longer have in my life.. everything in that moment was so perfect i miss him i often wonder if he listens to this and misses me ꨄ
I know the feeling, I first heard this song when I hung out with a small group of friends that I felt soo comfortable around. I'll never forget cruising around, listening to Smashing Pumpkins, and specially when all of us slept in a mall together a couple times because we worked there lol Fun times. I was broke as hell, but money didn't matter, only our friendship. I too wonder if they ever look back and miss what we once had.
i remember being stoned for the first time in school. i must have drained an entire bottle of visine in my eyeballs. played this in my headphones during lunch. at some point i realized i had left school and was walking on the highway. that was when i first realized you could be fucked up and almost die. wasnt the last. its a dream to be alive at that age. you dont realize how beautiful you are-you just think of your acne and your clumsiness and the sheer inexperience of your life. but i think of my friends who didnt make it. i will forever miss all my friends who i moved away from who took their lives. i wish i could have been there for that one moment you think you can help that person. but i dont think it works like that. this song is beautiful to me, it shimmers so loud. it also puts me exactly at the place of empathy- i never thought this song sang my life but i knew it sang it for someone who was really struggling. i dont know why but thats how it felt in the 90s. like i was so angry and sad but also ambitious to be alive. i knew some of my friends who were bullied and ignored and beat up for being gay or punk or just for being weird-i knew they werent gonna make it. we related on the first two things but not the third. i refuse to count how many people ive lost to suicide. but its a lot. i dont curse them. i think about them and i miss them and i love them and i play music for them. i make paintings for some of them. its constantly on my mind. the things i thought i left in high school continue and we all know people who have killed themselves. what else can we do but remember. theyre gone but youve got to keep a memory to move forward. the irony of life is that it is sometimes horrible and full of disappointment and horror. life can be boring and we all wait in stupid lines and deal with stupid people. but it is also full of wonder and friendship and unbelievable beauty and music and sunshine and romance and love and amazing ridiculous luck. it will all fade, but i believe its worth it to see it and feel it and even the loss is worth it. even the dying light is worth it. and you sometimes remember the laughter hours & days & years later. its worth it for that in the end.
this just might be my favorite song of all time? absolutely, stunningly, gorgeous in every way, shape, and form. listen with good headphones and turn it the F up.
This song will always remind me of either waking up in the morning to get ready for high school, or coming home in the afternoon to get back to my AIM chat and then put this song on while I’m stoned 😊 this song is like a warm blanket around my soul.
I've been an enormous Smashing Pumpkins fan for over 20 years, but for some weird reason I didn't really start loving the song Mayonaise until recently. It makes no sense to me either. Maybe the lyrics mean more to me now that I'm in my 30s & have gone through so much more problems & pain than in my teens? Regardless, Mayonaise isn't just one of my favorite Pumpkins songs, it's one of my favorite songs in general (although there are quite a few Pumpkins songs in my top 100 list). You can tell by listening to this and many of their other songs that Corgan and company have gone through some real shit & felt true pain, as opposed to some of the crap that's come out more recently where the worst things that happen are some asshole's gf leaves him for another dude or some other artist's parents are just horrible people for buying them a Toyota instead of a BMW. Sorry, but I'd rather listen to music where both the lyrics & the melodies speak to my mind and soul as opposed to making me feel like I just lost 20 IQ points whenever I'm forced to hear it. I wish I didn't feel forced to listen to music that came out when I was in middle or high school just to feel like my brain isn't dying from the stupidity of more recent music. Oh, and totally off subject from the song and band, but the Han Solo 'solo' graphic was absolutely awesome. I've never seen anything cooler on a lyrics video to mark the location of the solo before & I don't think I ever will. I enjoyed this video a lot but having Han Solo ther gave it an extra 5 stars.
That is very well put. I feel the same about this song. I think it might be looking back in hindsight it works. Almost like puzzle piece was missing and it was just experience in life. Good comment.
They had such a mix of hard and soft. I’m just coming back to their older stuff after being in love with them since jr high in the 90s and being like “wow”. Truly one of the greatest of the era.
Thank you BEEF for unlocking a core memory. As soon as I heard the first riff,I knew.. and it brought back all the angst and heartbreaking but thrilling teenage years. Thanks for introducing new generations to gems like this!!
I heard this song right before my best friend died. I will always think and remember him, it doesn't make me sad. It celebrates his life and all the good times we had from kids until that day.
I think this is my favorite song. I had this CD as a teenager and cannot remember hearing it. I heard it first at a moment in my life I'll never forget, just a few years ago. Thanks for the awesome video, I about died at the "Solo" that was actually so perfect, big Star Wars fan here ♥💚
Kimberly ...you so rite ...this song makes me cry in self defeat...and yet it makes me realize my triumphs and my gifts ...let alone my self worth that dont ever seem to be as easy as they should to be to acknowledge....
My favorite song ever!!! I was lucky enough to see them play this live at Dayton Hara Arena in Ohio. They ended with this song. It was awesome!!! I wish I could bottle the way this song makes me feel. ❤
I first heard this song when I went to day camp. I thought it was decent. Then I became and adult, and I went through chronic unemployment because of my disability. That's when this song got me in the feels. Every lyric is an affirmation. This track is the story of my life and the best song on Siamese Dream.
“Fool enough to almost be it cool enough to not quite see it doomed pick your pocket full of sorrow and run away with me tomorrow June We’ll try and ease the pain but somehow we’ll feel the same well, no one knows where our secrets go I send a heart to all my dearies when your life is so, so dreary dream I’m rumored to the straight and narrow while the harlots of my perils scream And I fail but when I can, I will try to understand that when I can, I will Mother weep the years I’m missing all our time can’t be given back shut my mouth and strike the demons cursed you and your reasons out of hand and out of season out of love and out of feeling so bad But when I can, I will words defy the plans but when I can, I will Fool enough to almost be it and cool enough to not quite see it and old enough to always feel it always old, I’ll always feel this No more promise, no more sorrow no longer will I follow can anybody hear me I just want to be me When I can, I will try to understand that when I can, I will”.
They played this song at my step moms funeral and it hits so different now. I miss her. But I love listening to this because it brings up feelings I should’ve felt.
If the stars align and the Gods are with is there’s a plan to re unite the members of two of my past bands from 20 years ago and record this in December with a proper genius and close friend at the controls.. if it happens I think I’ll probably have a hard time choking back the emotions but man it will be one of the best weekend I could possible wish for.. God bless you Billy, James, Darcy and Jimmy.. you have truly been the soundtrack to my life to date. 😘
I love everything about this song! The lyrics, melody, the harmonics, and feedback from the guitar, the drums, it's a masterpiece of music, as well as many SP songs are! And there were so many other great songs on Melancholy and the Infinite Sadness besides 1979, it's too bad that's all that most people know of that album.
I miss my brother Josh Craig Grey he was my best friend he loves smashing pumpkins I listen to them to feel close to him again r. I. P brother he sounded just like Billy corgen!
I have so many memories of this song. An ex that loves me so much this songs takes me back to our room chilling out hanging while he grew Cryp bud. In the 90’s his weed was the hottest weed in Boca
I feel the same way. This album came out when I was 16 and I blasted it all year in my first car. Magical times especially for rock and alternative music.
Was in the backseat of the car feeling down because i felt like i had messed up, so i had my earbuds and played this song and it just made me rethink about myself and some of my flaws and it got me emotional. My brother was in the backseat with me, and my parents were in the front, and i was just crying. They didn't notice tho, and im glad it stayed that way.
You weren't ever there except for the first 3 years of my life. You passed on after 20 years and now I'm lost. I hated you but you were the one i wanted to love the most.
Glad I found a version without the comments turned off. And the whole comment section absolutely passes the vibe check 💯 I'm just over here wondering why the other vids had the comments disabled? 🤔🤷♂️
[Verse 1] Fool enough to almost be it Cool enough to not quite see it Doomed Pick your pocket, full of sorrow And run away with me tomorrow June [Bridge 1] We'll try and ease the pain But somehow, we'll feel the same Well, no one knows Where our secrets go [Verse 2] I send a heart to all my dearies When your life is so, so dreary Dream I'm rumored to the straight and narrow While the harlots of my perils Scream [Chorus 1] And I fail But when I can, I will Try to understand That when I can, I will [Guitar Solo] [Verse 3] Mother, weep the years I'm missing All our time can't be given Back Shut my mouth and strike the demons That cursed you and your reasons Out of hand and out of season Out of love and out of feeling [Chorus 2] So bad When I can, I will Words defy the plans When I can, I will [Bridge 2] Fool enough to almost be it And cool enough to not quite see it Dull enough to always feel this Always old, I'll always feel this No more promise, no more sorrow No longer will I follow Can anybody hear me? I just want to be me [Chorus 3] And when I can, I will Try to understand That when I can, I will
In the mid 90s I joined the US Navy and went to submarines. My first few patrols were hell, missing home, my girl, friends and family, learning to be on my own and be a man. I would lay in my rack and just crank Pumpkins on my CD player (yes I'm old) and drown it all out, kept me sane.. Rock on..
I had a dream a few months ago and in it my Dad "get ready son,you're next,thats all I can say".My Dad died 20 years ago. Ever since that dream ive been re-living the music I adored.
