The Spiritual Desert 

I believe I’m at a similar stage to what you’re describing. I can identify my ego fairly thoroughly, however I also am working towards the reality that there is no seeker to begin with, which makes meditation and spiritual development feel very pointless to me currently (somewhat of a spiritual depression). If “I” am not in control, then surely “the universe” will show me what I need, so I’m in a phase of what feels like waiting, even though I know everything I need is in the current moment. It is frustrating being unable to see what is apparently so obvious; I simply feel like any effort is useless. And yes, I know to question the “I” in these sentences. I’m falling back to old addictions / mind numbing activities, and I’m not sure where to go from here. Thank you for your videos, they are tremendously helpful.

exactly this, just this happening.😐 I kept think I broke my journey until you turn up Angelo😂

Exactly! It’s like being in a nice airport lounge, all packed, nothing left to do. Just enjoying the pause. 😘

I had this experience exactly as described. Many hobbies and interests I had seemed much less important. At first it scared me. But I came to realize that many things I previously found interesting or important were ego based. I figured out that my motivation for playing music for instance was not truly for the love of music itself, but because it made me feel cool, or important when I played for other people. But as Angelo described, the peace and mystery I felt when the "volume in my head came down", felt way more real then my imaginary self. Basically, I was creating a fictional story about myself, and even more ridiculous,... I believed it was true. Ha ha ha on me!

This is where I am. Seeking has dropped and there is just this, just presence. I'm finding inquiry more potent here. Thank you Angelo 💗

I feel this. My “progress” seems to have stalled. Not knowing what else to do, I’ve decided to alternate between self inquiry and marinating this meat puppet in the experience of presence. Those moments of life without the “director’s commentary track” ego chatter are sublime.

Just happened upon this video. It described my experience exactly. THank you Universe. Thank you Angelo ! never heard it explained that way before. Love to all !

I am here. Personal will is fading.

Oh my gosh! Yes! Probably doesn’t matter to give it a label since that’s just something my ego will latch onto…but this is exactly where I find myself. I’ve been kinda thinking that maybe I won’t ever wake up…but after all these years of seeking, that doesn’t bother me like it once would have. And…my intense seeking (daily reading, researching, notetaking, studying) is far less intense than it once was…and I’m not really bothered by it. It’s kind of like a contented place, but with a very vague background that there’s still something there to open myself to. And I very much notice that things that once triggered me hold no sway over me any longer…even things that might have been very big triggers just kind of appear fleetingly and then are gone. I have no time to react because I just look at them and wonder why I am bothered at all…and they dissolve. Very interesting and different from the person I once was. Maybe there’s hope that I will wake up after all! Or maybe there won’t be that big “AHA” for me, but just a gradual awakening. LOL! Thanks Angelo!

Thanks for the video! Something simple that really helped me see through my egoic desires was just asking "and then what?" Like "I want a 315lb bench press" "OK and then what?" And there never was a real answer other than the fact that I knew when I got there, there would be something else to chase. The ego never has a true end goal in mind other than to continue to create itself with endless desires and seeking 🤯 its so obvious now 😂 these desires aren't even mine

am in this place now and have been for a while. have let go of a lot of things and there was some grieving in the beginning. now, as things continue to fall away, there is no emotional reaction, which feels really, really nice and makes the sometimes blah feeling okay. i am working with trust that these things need to fall away before something may or may not come to slot in. either way is okay because the peace of this non-drama place is new to me and truly wonderful.

Gratitude.

It’s great to finally know which spiritual biome I seem to be living in. Thankfully, the desert has been an enjoyable place to spend some time. Thank you, again, Angelo. Your teachings are the greatest thing since the Beatles. ✌️🙂

This is incredibly helpful, and I’m so grateful it is coming at this time. For a while it has felt like a sense of dullness or blandness was the most definitive element in my experience, just like you describe. The intuition was just to honor it; it felt similar to what happens when you normally like to eat a lot of spicy food but suddenly you have to give up on it. This place of quiet is starting to feel dynamic as of late: the relationship between more regimented practice and non-practice gets fine-tuned; more subtle identities and narratives that were nearly invisible are revealing themselves; emotions are energetically expressing themselves more expansively; inquiry has a much more spontaneous feel to it. And best of all it seems there is a possibility for a more compassionate way of relating to all those elements of experience to come forward. The desert might be hiding an oasis :)

Thank you. I feel like I am so in this desert. I cant go backwards, dont know how to go forward. My life is calm and OK. But just feels flat and empty. I dont want to go anywhere or do anything but I dont want to stay home and do nothing. I dont like this at all. Its been going on for several years now. So I just keep breathing and going thru the motions.

Thank you for this video Angelo ❤️ It describes my experience accurately, flat and empty.. On one hand there isn't any motivation to achieve something, but on the other hand something still feel unease. Sometimes it feels like there is a motivation to find motivation 😅 Any tips on how to inquire this discomfort sense when it seems like the act of inquiring suggests it's wrong and it is what causes the discomfort in the first place? Thanks 🙏

it feels like i'm at a crossroads. i can see through the seeking yet there's also less incentive to work through deeper layers of shadow work and explore the senses because i do feel a lot happier than before. mind identification seems bearable at this stage... even though i know there's more to unravel....feelings of anxiety and fear brought me here though, so suffering is doing it's job 😂

This resonates, thank you ❤️

Thank you, Angelo. You've had a powerful effect on things over here.

I've been feeling like that of late it's hard to describe sort of like in limbo neither here nor there

Reminds me of a buddhist term. I don't believe it relates 1:1 with the spiritual desert, but they absolutely relate. nibbidā: Disenchantment; aversion; disgust; weariness. The skillful turning-away of the mind from the conditioned samsaric world towards the unconditioned, the transcendent.

I cried watching this… thank you

it's interesting to see here ,who's doing the inquiry and what inquiry is🙃

Thank you Angelo for your gentle voice and back drop soothing us into an accepting mood of guiding us through this phase. I don’t hear people, in this forum anyway, speaking of automatic writing or receiving help from communicating with their guides. For me this mix of my team on the other side and Angelo on this side as well as some ‘channels’ is invaluable. I feel The multi-universes are bursting with abundant love, guidance and gratitude for the evolution we are going through here . . . one person at a time. My grateful heart is over flowing for all of ya’ll. Group hug.❤️🤗 As I ruminate on what I’ve written, I want to add that when I ‘talk’ to my team on the other side through automatic writing they are on the same page of evolution that Angelo explains to us. For instance, this morning they were very gentle with me as just being in the present moment unfolded - very ‘desert’ like if you will. . . At one . . . At peace. And then I listen to this from Angelo and he’s explaining a stage in the process which the guides help me feel this morning because they know me so intimately. I trust them but many things are left for me to discover and there is Angelo describing the process it’s like getting a cheat sheet from him 😂

Good to know.I thought it was because of low T

This describes exactly where I have been for some time! Lately it has gotten even flatter where nothing is interesting and I have felt a bit dissociated. It feels like apathy and thoughts come wondering if something is wrong. Thank you for putting this in perspective!! How long can this phase last?

I am into it. Thank you

Yes the desert 🏜 Where all beliefs turned out to be mirages. Every drop of water of glimpse vapored. Only thing available to grasp or rest on is cactus 🌵(which will quickly end fixation on any view point, practice, belief etc) No place to hide. The awful and wonderful desert

I love it here ! Feels like the seeking stopped and I can breath better . I keep saying this is it ! This is it ! Haha just here and now ! That’s it lol 😂

Thanks Angelo, your work has been a tremendous help to me, I can only guess, this is roughly where I am at right now and I'm quite happy with it, considering I assume I have a fair amount of inquiry yet to do, from what I've observed about my actions and un-coscious thoughts frequency, old triggers etc. I'm again very grateful to you for I can observe I've made a tremendous improvement for my development on this journey thanks to you big part!

This is me exactly for past few months :)

I never thought I’d say that I wish I were back in the spiritual desert 😂🙃 Great video as always Angelo 🙏🏼

Dude , how do you know ? Not only I’m on the Sahara but it’s calm , quiet , non stimulant Not negative nor positive Just there , I think now I feel what Buddha talked about! The witness

Angelo, Currently I’ve been experiencing a lot of distress around an important career choice I need to make and lately I’ve been paying close attention to my thoughts and have noticed how my mind is constantly shifting and making up stories and beliefs. I’m so exhausted and don’t know how to make a decision anymore lol it’s like I’m tired of all the blah blah blah going on in my head, the thoughts are almost psychotic! I wanted to ask you, how do I follow my intuition and not get carried away and swallowed by the confusing thoughts?

It kinda feels like what tickled my fancy before doesn't anymore. I'm not the kick seeking type I once wad and and don't know if it's normal but my interest in sex had changed. It feels like I don't need it anymore and it's kind of depressing. It's a weird feeling though. Content but still not content somehow

Wow, I have´nt found such a detailed description of what is going on inside of me. I feel like beeing in this state for two years now. Is this a usual time span?

Thanks for the video this has been my experience for the last year or two. I haven’t been able to watch any nonduality video for the last year without losing interest immediately whereas the 3 years before that I was listening to non dual speakers almost 8 to 12 hours a day! That three years was full of bliss and despair in big waves and experiences and I figured I was at the end of the line and done with the whole path left in a very ordinary flat place unable to hold any belief and just going about my life with no need for inquiry and definitely no seeking but this video seems to imply there is something else to come? Like a noticeable final dissolving? Which seems counterintuitive to my current experience.

Would another description of this be dark Night of the Soul? I feel myself to be in this spiritual desert although it’s been a lot longer than 40 days

Hi Angelo. Can this stage also be caused by a "drop out" of the environment ?

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So what comes next?

I want to find this desert in the OASIS 😅

Activities based on - identity - biological survival drives -overlay of the above two When met create freetime.