Hallelujah, thank God I have a future Prayin' I don't waste it gettin' faded 'Cause I'm smoking 'til I'm coughin' up tar Through the surge, energy curve like a lumbar I don't act hard, I still read Babar Trippin' out, lookin' at a bunch of Google map stars, shit They got a app for that But me, I'm still trapped inside my head It kinda feel like it's a purgatory So polite and white, but I got family who would murder for me Think I'm living paradise, so would I have to worry 'bout? Dealing with these demons, feel the pressure, find the perfect style Making sure my mom and dad are still somewhat in love All these backfires of my experiments with drugs And I experience the touch of my epiphany in color form The difference between love and war inform me, I'm above the norm Give me anybody though I'll gladly chew his face off, them bath salts Rhyming like it's summertime on asphalt, hot Haven't picked a major label, think I'm blackballed I still don't got the heart to pick my phone up when my dad calls Will he recognize his son when he hears my voice? I put this music against my life, I think I fear the choice And I don't know what I'm running from, but I'm running still I conversate with acquaintances, but it's nothing real I'm from a city that you hear and think a bunch of steel So a hundred mills wouldn't make me sign a fucking deal Money kills, that's the truth, it's called the root of evil But I want that Rolls-Royce that the homie Lennon drove So, if you ain't talkin' bout some money I'ma send you home Unconventional, special but unprofessional Adolescent expression that's letting me meet these centerfolds As troubles fill my mind capacity, I let them go If I was Johnny Depp in Blow, I would let it snow That's just me all wilding out and being extra dope, yeah And if God was a human it'd be yours truly Watching horror movies with some foreign groupies Thinking this decor suits me I do drugs to get more loopy I'm in tune to ancient jujitsu spirituals it's blissful Looking out as far as eyes can see I'm glad that me and this elevation could finally meet I think I'm JFK's final speech They try assassinating all of my beliefs But I'm asleep so whisper to me for some peace of mind And he be high some weed to grind on top a Jesus shrine 20 thousand on my watch 'cause I needed time If y'all would leave me the fuck alone, that'd be divine, yeah Can't decide if you like all the fame Three years ago to now, it's just not the same I'm looking my window ashing on the pane Shit, wonder if I lost my way Yeah, don't you ever wanna hide away (hide away) Poseidon triumph in the eyes of rain Won't give a fuck about tomorrow if I die today I'll greet the devil with a smilin' face Shit, that God fellow may reside in space As time's a wasting I'm freebasing with Freemasons My girl's switchin' the locks, the keys keep changin' (keep changin') Dreamin' of places my own personal creations If there's a party in heaven I plan to leave wasted (leave wasted) Retracin' my steps way back to biblical times We-We all gon' end up meetin' at the finishin' line
My forgetfulness often gets in the way of me making a change in the wave of uncertainties I face on a daily basis faceplate into a plate snow I'd place my faith in before any ability I once had to grow to stall the tide I find myself swimming out to I venture out look for excuses and by the time I'm back the sober me's been put to bed an awake is my self destruction ready to serve whatever unhealthy need I have...
I've been a baby headed for hell but not toward satan I heard a bell down that well that ringing If the Angel's singing Dont listen its probably those hateful demons trying to take us before we leaving, if I'm ungrateful I should just be bleeding and adjust to death it's that season, the reason for my sinning is when you not a winner you chose you inner demons, and me I started feasting of the beast of the night in me, I couldnt leave him, I hear him speaking to my head, I'll probably be stuck with him until I'm dead
