@@ItsJogus its crazy how surreal certain things in life feel. Its important not to overthink and get caught up in your thoughts. Sometimes feeling like you're dreaming isn't a bad thing but for limited amount of time, cause at some point accepting reality is an amazing thing.
RIP STEEZ! I'm battling depression myself. It's crippling at times. I thank God for my brother.. hes def my guardian angel on Earth. If anyone else is going thru it.. hold on.. you matter. its going to get better. Spread Love yall!
You'll be good someday bro! It's a cliche but it one day just gets better! :) 5 years ago I didn't think I could be happy, I haven't had a negative outlook on life in years. It aint like battling addiction or drugs, its fairly easy to overcome once your realize it, unless you had serious trauma.
A disconnect to yourself is the hardest thing to explain to anyone...and yet I think its what leads to most of the suicides with younger people. The desire to be on a higher/deeper level and yet everyday you feel like you are failing or not progressing at all.
I can see why steez felt like he was dreaming, sometimes I dont know whats real and I have to constantly keep my mind working, or my thought process will drive me to a point where im stuck in my own head and nothing around me makes sense. It really does get scary and tiring not being able to ever really relax, because relaxing for me is just another battle with reality
It's called derealization. I had it really bad after a crazy high one time. I thought if I died that it wouldn't not matter and that it would just be, and that the nature and roads I see seemed to be lying to me but still existed with me. Just weird shit that didn't make sense to me.
bathed in black one thing that activates fear in me just reading this is that it’s very hard to fully understand what you describe. Like I get it kind of but to the degree you say it it’s hard to really imagine firsthand, and that kind of lack of understanding in others could easily lead to more isolation and harmful shit from those suffering it. I wish you the best going forward and realizing yourself.
@@z1lla4 Honestly it's a real problem , i didn't know that it had an actual term LOL . I figured i was always a thoughtfull person who was overthinking way to much on a daily basis almost to the point of paranoia ( thought i was going paranoid at a point aswell) and smoking weed made some anxious feelings get the best of me just because i would always overthink so much.
i can see why steez felt like he was dreaming sometimes I don’t know what’s real and I have to constantly keep my mind working or my thought process will drive me to a point where im stuck in my own head and nothing around me makes sense. It really does get scary and tiring not being able to ever really relax.because relaxing for me is just another battle with reality.
Can I just say the saddest part for me is the vulnerability in Joey's eyes. Black man are not allowed to hav softness ANYWHERE, and we are all still the little boys we grew up from inside. But when we have pain we don't get to process it or work it out. It's tearing me up, but I so appreciate this brother's gangster to be vulnerable without shame, and with much courage. Love you Joey, and God bless you. You show us our true strength.
This is really why therapy can be so valuable, most of us struggle with the reconciliation of our persona and our true self, a therapist can allow us space and opportunity to face emotions and thoughts we might never have expressed before. I think true strength is vulnerability.
ATTENTION: To anyone on the path towards the most high, especially the “spiritual path”, there is a such thing as ‘knowing too much’ before you are ready. Take your time, and strengthen your vessel for you to receive and handle this type of energy/ information. Remember, it’s a MARATHON not a sprint baby. Every soul is reaching towards the same center just at different paces 🙏🏽💯
Yea I jumped the gun with my growth and caused myself a lot of unnecessary pain but it actually was helpful. But I realized that people are supposed to be guided through spiritual awakening not just jump into it alone
our reality is a shadow of the fourth dimension the same way the things in the second dimension are projections of stuff from the 3rd dimension. everything is linked by math in ways we couldnt imagine. did you know when your brain thinks or remembers things its creates shapes and based on the complexity of the thought different shapes will be created, like if you have a thought composed of over 4 neurons linked together your brain will create a shape that exists on higher dimensions than we can perceive. and if you have a thought that uses 4 neurons it will create a 3d shape. and there are accounts of people throughout history supposedly receiving ideas from a different dimension from some sort of being, i believe that if your thoughts are on a high enough dimension you can be accessed by beings that exist in those dimensions and your thoughts can be edited. ialso believe the beings giving us these thoughts are also us from the future making sure that time doesnt change so that they dont cease to exist. also since our dimension is full of things that are projections from the fourth dimension and the 2nd dimension is full of things that are projections from the 3rd i believe the things that are being projected to our reality are the concepts of good and evil, since the 2nd dimension is full of basic ass stuff like straight lines and what not the only thing that would exist in the 4th dimension that is being projected would have to be an abstract concept like good an evil.
I think Steez was going through depression and extreme anxiety over the world. It's called DP / DR. Derealization is where the world doesn't look real. It can happen after you smoke cannabis but can come out from just anxiety. The world doesn't feel real, doesn't look real. It feels like a dream. It's very scary but you can overcome it. It will take time and you will feel like you're at square one at many times. But keep strong and know that you're not going through it alone. RIP Steez, hope you found your peace
I got it after smoking dmt for the first time a few years back. I dont think it is completely gone but i have learned to live with it, to the point that it doesnt feel like a struggle, just a new way of seeing things
The whole "looking through" bit is one of the most accurate descriptions of what happens in depression that I've ever heard. I never knew how to describe it, but Joey did it perfectly.
Joey if you see this. Be happy. Make sure you are happy before trying to reach your goal. Being successful and changing the world is something im very very ambitious about but letting my goals stress me out because they are not happening right away will make me and anyone else unhappy. Be kind, respectful and have fun at all times. Dont beat yourself up all the time bro, all that you wish for will come along. Just work hard and be the greatest you can ever be. This goes for everyone. FOLLOW YOUR DREAMS. Mine are... To be the greatest musician ever and change the world using my music and spreading my personal energy to All. Just be yourself and be the greatest ever. Simple. AND one other thing. I WILL ACCOMPLISH MY GOALS, BELIEVE IT !!!
@@hotornot5470 I'm speaking on his demeanor and his philosophical disposition. As far as Pac goes he embraced the life he claimed. He ran with thugs and threw down with them as well. Just check online. A lot of rappers some gang members; vogued for how true Pac was to what he represented.
This is crazy I was literally thinking about my inner sadness and demons before I clicked on this video. I experience similar feelings where I want to move so fast that I don’t enjoy the present and I let the past portray how I will react in the future. I’ve been learning how to let the past go and keep my eyes ahead of the road but still appreciate how far I’ve come. For me making one major improvement is as simple as looking up to eye level as posed to looking down at the ground when I walk around.
If you're struggling with mental health, don't give up. Some professionals won't be able to help you but others will. We're all different, so keep searching until you find what works. It might even take years but it's worth it. Don't give up. Peace everyone.
I have a feeling that Steez may have used psychedelics a bit too much. That would make sense since Joey was talking about him going "too fast" spiritually... A possible exploitation of psychedelics with a depression on top of that, and Pro Era growing so fast... It would make sense to me at least
Eye think STEEZ was probably speaking about transcending Earth. Even Meechy said STEEZ wasn't super into psychs tho. He experimented with shrooms but he wasn't into it like Juice, Issa, or Meech.
@@LowkeyMav I agree. I believe he wanted to transcend. Ascension was what he was seeking. His consciousness was on a really deep level. I especially thought this even more when Joey specifically said he was talking about ascending. And when he said he would look as if he was seeing thorough him.
lookatyourpastside Exactly Bro, It's hard af for me rn. It drives me Crazy when I'm trynna talk to somebody and they didn't open their Mind yet.. It's like you're speaking an other Language You have some Tips ?
@@madmax.maxwell I dealt with the same thing, tbh all i can say is give it time keep opening your mind, keep observing and don't let it distract you from reality cause that was the worst for me.
The session reminds me the quote by Jean-Paul Sartre stating that "If you are lonely when you are alone, you are in bad company", along with the saying "everywhere you go, there you are" you cannot escape yourself.
I relate to this very much. Unexpected kundalini awakening and I started flying high. It took five years of pain and grounding for the energy to calm down. Thank God I had elders around. Spiritual awakenings are not all butterfly’s and rainbows. Be careful, folks. Great discussion, though. RIP to his friend ❤️
Depression is real sometimes it's something you can't explain as someone who suffers from bipolar disorder and manic depression it's not easy on a day to day love life and check on your friends
The root cause of mental illness is traumatic family dysfunctional programming fueled by emotional abandonment (can be physical as well) and addiction, as well as toxic shame passed down by generations. The only way to heal is experiencing a long term grieving process, which can be done many ways, the most effective through inner child healing.
Suffer will make it worse, trust me been there, do things you would never do go to the gym heal your body eat healthy be Kind to everyone even if you dont like em dont fake it dont look at bad side of people dont judge, and pray. Believe in yourself you are a haply person you mindfuckdd yourself that you are not
Please tell me how I can heal my "inner child". My childhood was very traumatic and I'm only just realising now, this video was a huge eye opener for me as I related to it so well. Now that I've discovered my problem I want guidance on how I can heal/improve myself so I don't end up falling like my brother Steez. RIP ♥
No way... I had as good a childhood as one could ask for and still suffered through depression and multiple other mental illnesses.. There are way more factors at play here than just family issues.
A good dose of psycadelics alone with the intention of healing works wonders. Also breathing excercises ( look up elliot Hulse ) to release that trauma
This was beautiful. The way Joey opened up at the end and realized that money, fame, and fashion didn’t bring him happiness was the turning point. That is the true message many of us fail to realize. I’m glad he was able to understand that. Stay up Joey, you become wiser with age. Patience and love for yourself is a virtue.
Understanding that you can’t change the past and that your time is much better spent proactively searching for solutions to your problems rather than wallowing in your own sorrow will change your life forever. ⚡️ #Perspective
You can tell something means alot to someone when if they tell you about it. When they dive right in and it pours out and they have a million details. You can tell it's on their mind 24/7.
An artist seeing a therapist, video tapes it and shares it is so powerful! Let's start with the breaking of ice for asking for help. He's in a way probably saying "it's okay to seek help." With making this video. Then there's breaking the stigma of mental health. Let's not even forget his story he's sharing with us so we can learn from him and grow. This is just beyond awesome! Respect bro!
I currently have depression and have had it for 3 years. I used to find joy in things I love like soccer. I just don’t anymore, I feel like I’m in a fantasy world and in a dark place. I can’t seem to accept that life has many problems but also many ups. I can’t wrap my head around it, I just feel like leavin this world sometimes. and it just gets worse and it gets to the point where I can’t do anything. I can’t smile I can’t eat I feel like shit when I hangout with people I just wanna be in a dark room and die.
Sometimes you never know how depressed someone really is. My best pal was all smiley and outgoing,next thing he's taken his life out of the blue. It's been 5 yrs,but I still wonder what I missed.
I feel this is one of d best sessions I've seen and it was pretty much effective cos joey was willing to open up and be vulnerable....u could see in his eyes how he traveled back in time with the therapist to his most innermost pains and traumas...
man I already loved his music, but now that I started seeing him in his normal form I love him even more! I also love his acting skills can reccomend anyone to take a look at. Mr Robot and that netflix story that is called smt like '2 distant strangers'or smt, peak performance from joey he really going places man!
I feel like steez was in a dark place and depressed but when you really know what's going on in the world like he did its harder to find happiness. I think he died to have a spiritual awakening.
When I discovered Joey and Pro Era it was just after STEEZ (Jamal) had transcended. I was intrigued by him and his story. I went on his Twitter, Tmblr, Facebook, read his posts was trying to understand why such a talented MC with such a bright future would take his life so suddenly at the blooming of their careers at just 19. He was very troubled and I myself at times have felt so informed and enlightened that I believe most don’t understand. Happy to recognize that it’s the ego that desires to be understood. I’ve made peace w understanding myself. I hope Joey does too. ONE LIGHT ONE LOVE!
When he said Steez got to the point where he would talk & no one would understand him, that resignated with me so much because I always find myself going on tangents about spirituality & other stuff & I always end up feeling that no one knows what I'm talking about, & I feel that I don't belong anywhere in this world because no one understands what really goes on up here, my thought race a million miles an hour & I feel like I've fully evolved as much as I will in this lifetime. It's a lonely feeling in that dark place.
I appreciate this young man's honesty about the stuff not making you happy and relating it to an unrelenting drug. That isn't to say dont pursue it. It's to say know its place, pursue the passion and if stuff comes understand it's worth in comparison to your true self.
Steez went too deep man. R.i.p. Everything in a balance ya'll. Don't burn out. Be safe. We're all humans. We're all on the same boat. Lets embrace the one thing we all have incomon. Death. Your respect for death can light the fire to live your life.
I like what you're saying but I sort of disagree with your take on steez. I don't think it was a result of going too deep but of mental illness. I don't think those in that state of mind understand reason.
You know after all this time I still dont understand why he was found holding a bible in his hand considering the type of person he was and what he believed in. Its still weird
@@maxsmart9116 Well technically "mental illness" Is when something is sick, Ill compared to being stable and healthy. I feel like What we considered "normal" steez considered average or basic. So in a sense I guess you can say yess he was mentally Ill, (mentally unstable) but I feel that came about and was the result of going too deep with no control and no guidance.
@@elcat4677 when I say illness I'm talking about an unidentified instability. It's something I used to struggle with as well, trying to heal myself through spirituality, changing my beliefs quite often. I found a holistic practitioner that helped remove blocked energy and gave me some techniques to use at home. I don't want to go into too much detail since not everyone believes in holistic modalities, but it worked wonders for me. We don't know what Steez's instability was, but mine was on the anxiety/depression spectrum. You were right when you said he had no guidance. Mental instability is one of the hardest things to treat.
I don't even know his music or much about him but you can see the vulnerability and pain in his eyes.. so young to be going through so much in his life. My heart goes out to him. I pray that this will be the beginning of healing for him so he doesn't have to carry this burden anymore.. 🙏🙏
I said as soon as I heard about Steez passing that I think he went too far too fast. Spiritually and mentally I felt like he was ascending at a rate that his mind couldnt fathom. The journey to enlightenment is a slow one. If you go too fast, it could lead to your demise.
Love how vulnerable Noisey allowed himself to be to record and share his therapy session and allow others to view it. This will definitely help normalize therapy for so many people. Thank you, Noisey!
I almost did that to myself. I got too stuck in another spiritual dimension. So dark I didn’t know what to do. I didn’t even realize I was holding my own breath cause my mind was racing so fast, taking in so much . And I too became depressed. R.i.p Steez. I can only imagine what kind of knowledge you would’ve let go in your music.
Joey if you see this I love you and steez Kirk and Nyck you guys are so inspiring to me, no disrespect towards Steez when I say this but we need to recognize this for what it was, psychosis that turned into schizophrenia. This same thing happened to my friend except he tried to kill someone rather than killing himself. Mental illness shouldn't be hidden / not spoken on. The mind is very powerful, but very fragile.
Longlivesteelo from summer knights was one of my favorite of joeys songs. Although I absolutely love and can appreciate all of his discography, that song just touched my heart because it related to me on a spiritual level. It’s on the list with big krit’s-the vent, liberation by OutKast and in due time. Just very in tune spiritually
working everyday to live in the moment helped me relieve anxiety . even just enjoying the mundane things . I really try to enjoy the motion of cleaning or driving . cuz thats what we are really here for . to experience . :)
Hey brother, understand that your a spiritual being with many gift, and im not talking religon, but the fundamental understanding that you create the reality you perceive and vibrate at different frequencies exerting what you feel in the real world. If it sounds like some bs it did to me to until i did my research and understood that most mondern religions all in corporate the universal law that gov us! To summarize all im saying it with a negative approach like that not much with ever change as u have the power in your hand to change your life, this is coming from an ex opiate addict who lost too many beloved ones and crumbled down depression
I dont know if im depressed i know i been detached from reality or something maybe because anxiety. it felt like i was going in a backwards spiral then i broke down to my brother saying before we die i love him , he will be in my heart wherever i go . he hugged me back told me no matter what stay strong cause he understands . i felt like i was in a spiritual warfare then i started praying hard . now i feel better honestly .I fear nothing now 💯 everybody faces different battles.
L-STORM The MC its best to stay distracted . i visited an aquarium recently its really therapeutic . you'll get through this phase. stay strong explore your inner self 🙏
*A lot of openness here, their speaking on most things people avoid talking about. Depression is real, and it's ok to talk about. I'm glad he got this message out here. You never know what people are going through*
This is some of the realist shit I've ever seen. I'm glad to see Steez's legacy isn't forgotten and also Joey being very open about the impact Steez had on him.
Joey is such an inspiration, one of the best rappers out there. He can flow, style, and lyrically is a genius. I hope he can overcome he things he’s gone through and spit more fire.
Becoming famous at 17 isn't that great of a thing, has its financial benefits but he never got to fully develop himself as a person, he had a persona hes needed to uphold
Ever since I found out about this therapist series, I can’t stop watching these are so 🔥🔥 you can learn a lot from these and view them from aspects in your life. These are really therapeutic Fr
man forget x, he's dead. you are just tryna bring up an argument where 1230123 butthurt edgy x fans will jump in and say how x saved his life and how he's such a good influence
People in the comments are so quick to blame situations on drugs or mental illness but there is a such thing as SPIRITUAL AWAKENING. Most people will laugh about it because they don’t wish to understand but those whose eyes are fully open to the world can grasp this concept that he is trying to tell us. #facts💯✨
I have always had a soft spot for this young man because he looks a lot like one of my brothers and I really want him to listen to what the Doctor said...the deepening of his contentment. He's special.
therapists often help people with discovering things on their own and coming to conclusions on their own, not necessarily just telling people things they know
Joey shows his inferiority to the therapist several times. You most likely just relate to Joeys energy easier, but the therapist speaks from a higher frequency. He is an educated adult with far more experience, which is harder to relate to.