The Versions of Myself 

Oh Carrie. None of us ‘let’ ourselves be manipulated. The way manipulation works is we don’t realise it is happening. And loving someone and trusting the person we love can only be seen as a bad thing when THEY turn out to have treated us badly.

As someone who’s been here since the beginning, turning 25 this year, this was lovely. I remember each of those versions, and the versions of myself that I was then, too☺️

I love the idea of looking back on our lives and seeing the regenerations of ourselves. I think it gives us so much more freedom to grow and change, and at the same time, look back on our past selves with kindness more than judgment. This is something I’ve been struggling with, so I want to thank you for introducing this idea!

I love this video and feel it so much. I'm 24 and I feel like the formative years in my early twenties were taken away because of covid and I'm only now starting to think about who I am as a person and getting the help that I need to become that person. I'm sure others would also agree that we can see the changes you've made in the last year and see how happy you've become.

As someone who has been here unwaveringly from the beginning- it seems really obvious to me that you are not only at your happiest but you are your most content, comfortable and settled self and I think that’s a really important distinction to make. Thank you for sharing this with us!

When everything happened in 2013 it felt so awful and huge just as a viewer and I remember feeling so sorry for you - I don't think anyone would've known how to handle that situation. I'm glad you can look back with kindness on your younger self! x

I am only 26 but I already have a lot of regret about how things have happened in my life and how I have dealt with things, but I love now that I can look back as you have and realise that I just didn't know at the time and I was a different version of myself. I hope we all keep growing and learning how to deal with this crazy thing called life and whatever is thrown at us! Happy that you have found the happiness you have 💕

I started watching your videos back in 2016 when I was about 14 or 15. I really needed a big sister figure in my life and you welcomed me in as my "internet big sister". I'm about to turn 22 and I can also say that right now this is my favourite version of myself. I'm really happy to hear the joy you've found in embracing yourself. As your internet little sister I am proud of you and sending as much love a stranger on the internet can

"This is my favourite version of myself" YES! 👏👏👏👏

In two months I will turn 30, and I've been here since the whole time since I was 19 or 20. It's so nice for you to do that and be gentle to yourself and share with us about your past versions. I am so judgemental with myself because during all my 20s I felt really lost and vulnerable to people who end out hurting me.

I’ve been here since you were 20 and I’m so proud of who you’ve become even still with fondness for who you were. Also so pleased that the horrid ness of the past is just a page in the book now ❤️ not the whole volume

I'm 28 and currently going through a breakup of 7 years. Hearing you talk about how the life you originally imagined for yourself turned to rubble is exactly how I feel. It sucks right now, but I hope I manage to put my best foot forward and find a new version of myself that radiates this confidence and happiness you have! Your words really are such a comfort and a reminder that this feeling of sadness won't last forever x

I loved this so much! I think I started watching around your early 20 phase when I was lonely in my first year of college and have gone through a lot of those stages and changes too. I’ve also found my happy Franken-version of the pieces I missed of my past self. I see such a light and joy in your eyes these days, it’s so nice and inspiring to see. Cheering you on in the next phases! ❤

I'm so glad you talked about how big of a deal getting so much of your hair cut is! I lost 6 inches of my hair and had to wait a year and a half to grow it out again so getting it cut again felt like a new chapter in my life. Fab video!

This was such a great video! It has me thinking of all the regenerations I've been through while watching you go through yours. What sticks with me is how you said this version is your favorite version of yourself. I think this might be my favorite version of myself, too. Knowing I'm bound to regenerate again in a few years or so makes me want to cherish and take care of this version of me as much as possible because our time together is so short.

Can't believe I've been subscribed to you for over 10 years! Proud of the person you are now and everyone you've been before now 💖

I’ve been watching since the beginning (it’s crazy to think it’s been that long). But being able to watch you grow into this version of yourself has been wonderful. I, too, went through a massive breakup in early 2022 and have spent this past year piecing together my favorite parts of myself. I’m so glad to see you are thriving.

I have been watching you since the beginning and have to say what a pleasure it has been to watch you grow and change and fully realize who you are. I was probably 15 when I started watching you and feel like I’ve grown up with you and learned alongside you. So happy to see you happy!

Pretty wild to hear your takeaways from all of these eras! I've been a viewer during all of them, but I wasn't exposed to most of the news stories, so I didn't have much context apart from what you put forth on RU-vid. I can say that, from the beginning, you've ALWAYS been a person that I have incredible admiration for. I remember learning a lot about myself as a 12- or 13-year-old from hearing your 20-year-old wisdom. And I've always been impressed and excited by your transformations as you matured as an individual. Thrilled to hear that you're truly doing well! If the past decade is any indication, you'll always have a fan in me.

This just made me think about how different I am to me about a month ago which is crazy as it’s such a short amount of time to become such a different person to who i was before!! It’s always hard to look back on the past, but this video definitely helps so much to show how it’s normal and acceptable to become a new person and just think back to different versions of yourself without feeling bad or maybe even guilty in a way. I really enjoyed this video and i actually can’t wait to see what the future brings for you and others and how much everyone changes in such a short amount of time

Thank you so much for this video Carrie! I've followed your channel and career for this whole period of your life and I've always appreciated how genuine you are about your growth as a person. You've inspired me so much over the years and I'm so happy your journey has led you to be who you are today. You are a pure light ♥

That’s such a cool way of reflecting! I love the idea and it works so wonderfully. The ability to look back on your past with less judgement and more sympathy is such an important thing I think, to acknowledge that you did the best with the knowledge you had - something I still struggle to do 😅 Also it’s so evident in the way you just came into your full sparkle at the end of the video just how happy you are and it’s beautiful to see!

This video feels so nostalgic and I loved getting to see all the old clips from videos I remember coming out. I can't believe how much time has passed, but I also can because I'm completely different now too. It's nice to remember that change can be very nice and not frightening actually ☺️

Carrie I adored this video! Listening to you talk about the different versions of yourself really resonated with me today. I’m 26 and going though some big changes in my career, something I thought would look entirely different a few years ago. I’ve learned from my past self to not listen too much to others opinions of what I should be doing with my life, I spent so long hung up on that and ended up feeling hugely unfulfilled. Hearing you speak about your past self with such kindness has encouraged me to do the same. Thank you! ❤

Thank you so so much for sharing all of this with us carrie! I feel like I have grown up watching you, and although I am a few years younger than you, I strongly relate to your journey. It has helped me greatly to look back on past versions of myself with compassion and kindness, and remind myself how far I have come and grown. I feel like I am beginning to enter into the stage where I truly love who I am and feel confident in it. I became a mom almost 2 years ago and it led to so much reflection and growth that I am truly grateful for. It has been a joy to watch your journey alongside my own!

I’m also 30 and I’ve been following you since I was about 20! I’ve seen all of these stages of Carrie via RU-vid. It was awesome to hear you go through your 20s because it made me evaluate mine too. I’m also happiest with this current version of myself. ❤️

As someone who's watched you since near the beginning, it's been lovely watching you grow and growing (up) with you. Thank you for sharing your journey with us!

As someone who is a long term subscriber to yours and has grown up with you, it's so lovely to see you so happy right now and I only wish you more happiness and good fortune in your current and future regenerations. 💖

As someone who recently turned 30, I really think this kind of shift happens when you hit that age too. Everyone told me it would happen and I didn’t really believe it but it was almost like a switch flipped on my birthday. My 20s were a real rollercoaster but I’m already thinking so differently about my 30s & I’m really excited about this new decade of my life and who I’m becoming in this era of me.

Wow. It feels like just yesterday that I subscribed but it's been over 10 years. Thank you for this video. It's fascinating because I feel like I regenerated around the same times and that's probably why I was so drawn to watching you. It was like watching a friend who knew exactly what I was going through when I felt alone. It's lovely to see how you've grown and to reflect on how I've grown.

We’re almost the exact same age, and I’ve loved growing up with you. I love the excitement you have for the future, and I’m so glad you’re feeling so happy and comfortable in yourself. Wishing you the best, as always. 🧡

hi Carrie i would just like to say a massive thank you,i went to your Open Book show in Edinburgh and the way you spoke about self love and being true to who you are and not living everyday life playing a character really spoke to me,i have suffered anxiety most of my life and im 29(30 in Nov) I too have split from my gf of almost 4 years (in feb 2023 )and was in a bad place mentally .Once I stepped away i have began to fall in love again and the person i am loving more and more each day is myself and i feel like for the first time im living life not just stuck in a current being dragged around. what you said at your show was 100% right why would you want to swap your suitcase of dirty unddies for someone elses suitcase full of dirty unddies. I just want to say thanks for sharing and thanks for inspiring me to be me. Ian

Watching this video gave me such a sense of warm comfort. There is so many exciting things to come but all our past versions really help get us here and its so great to look back and embrace. Thanks Carrie for always being an awesome voice of reason, love and kindness.

Love this video! I am 32 and i feel that at age 30, that’s when the ‘i couldnt give a ****’ switch turns on, in turn making us happier people 😂 . I have found the best version of myself since turning 30 and having my daughter!

Seems like everyone is going through a big Saturn return period this year. I listened to The Midnight Library, and feel like this video hits a similar note: change can happen anytime and anywhere, you just have to embrace yourself. Thanks for sharing all of this Carrie, it's really validating to know we're all going through our crazy journeys together.

I'm so shocked too hear about your experience with the letters, I had no idea and am in awe that really, you never let that come though in your videos. I think your stronger that you'll ever give yourself credit for. And on a really frivolous side note, that jumper is the most amazing piece of clothing I have ever seen. xx

I worried for a long time about growing up, not fully thinking about how one changes as they grow. But I find the older I get, the more comfortable I am with myself and how little I care about all the stuff I used to worry about. I love seeing other people as their happiest selves and I can't help but smile when I see you where you are now knowing (at least a little bit) of where you were only a few years ago! Keep smiling and keep doing what makes you happy!

How lovely to hear! For you, happy that you are where you are right now. But also for me, being 24 and going through a rough year right now, hearing you talk about previous years have been rough but also how right now you are feeling great (which is visible in all your recent content) is hopeful.

It's so hard to look back because we can easily fall into the trap of "shoulda, coulda, woulda" and I love that you don't. Where you are now looks wonderful and we're so happy to see you winning and hear that you feel like you're winning too! 🎉🎉🎉🎉

Loved that radio metaphor, and the regenerations as a reflective tool. As someone that's been watching a long time now I'm so grateful that you're still someone I can continue to both take inspiration from and cheer on

Been watching you for ages, really feel I’ve grown with you, so I loved this video. The current version of you is so strong and inspiring, it’s so awesome to see you so happy and confident, thank you for all the content throughout the years:)❤❤

It's quite amazing to see how much we learn, grow and change over years. I have been learning to look at the old versions of myself with more kindness, and actually accept that I am who I am today because of all the rights and wrongs, good and bad things that have happened to me. Those things don't define me, but they brought me here. Therapy has been helping me so much through these times of change. It is really a blessing to be able to put things in perspective and respect our own journey. Also, I felt very nostalgic watching you talk about all your old versions hahaha I've been watching your videos for 10 years, and it got me thinking about how much you've changed but also how I've changed over these 10 years. Thank you for sharing your journey, Carrie!

I relate so much to your talk about therapy and the relief of feeling validated. I had a similar experience where before I was blaming myself for all the negative thoughts that popped into my mind and to have someone tell me that it’s not my fault for having these thoughts, was such a weight lifted off of me! I really appreciate you making this video and hopefully we can all strive to being the best versions of ourselves that we are accepting of xxx

This was a really reassuring video to watch and I’m so happy you’re at a place in your life right now where you’re happy and like who you are! I’ve just turned 24! I turned 21 the week before lockdown started so my whole year of growth and change was snatched away from me and I ended up in a position that kind of ended of breaking me! I feel like I’m slowly healing from it, I’ve found a new path I’m just starting to tread down and I’ve found a way to help me express the depth of what my head is throwing at me but baby steps. It’s nice to see from someone I admire that things do get better and that eventually we can look back and learn from these past versions of ourselves! Thank you for thsi Carrie ❤️❤️

It is strangely nostalgic watching this , having been here during every regeneration and thinking back to where I was in my life during these stages. Having watched you grow and change over the years into who you are now has been amazing, just wanted to say you seem so happy right now, and it’s so lovely to see when watching your videos. Much love and peace and happiness Carrie✌️🫶

I've watched your channel for about a decade now and seeing you grow into the wonderful person you are today has been incredible. I've never thought of my life in this regeneration sort of way but maybe that's something I start doing. The last few years have been tough to say the least. Not only did lockdown isolate me physically, but emotionally and mentally too. I lost all confidence in myself and my abilities (not that I had much in the first place). This year has already been a fresh start for me. I graduated with a distinction in my masters degree and have recently started a new job that I'm so passionate about. The new environment has given me a new sense of purpose and confidence and I feel the most like myself that I ever have done. Thank you for being a part of my journey, even if you arent aware of it ❤

You are 4 years older then me and I have been following you from the states since the beginning. You have been a wonderful constant in my life, your videos are uplifting and educational on life. You have shown me more then anyone else just how much is possible to achieve in this life. I can’t believe it’s been 10 years.❤🎉

Wow, I can't believe that it's been 10 years already, I remember how warm youtube felt back then. This was such a lovely video to watch, I wish you all the best and I hope that in 10 years you'll have a similarly wonderful story to share. As someone who's currently very very lost in life at an age where I thought I'd have everything figured out, this video gives me some comfort, so thank you.

i'm really thankful for you talking about that relationship. so many of us were going through similar stuff at the same time and it's always so helpful to hear your perspective here xx

I've also been here for at least a decade with you, and we're the same age. It's been so wonderful to tune into what you've been doing as we've had similar kinds of regeneration through our twenties. Thank you, Carrie. ❤️

I really appreciate you acknowledging the way that you handled the experience of 2014. That's a massive deal I'm sure for the victims of that time, and it's an incredibly important lesson for anyone who hasn't handled a huge and difficult situation.

i LOVED watching this because honestly, we grew up together. When i followed you, W was only a year younger. I've been here since the very beginning, Lady Godiva and all. Watching you grow, fall in love, cry, succeed, fall in love again repeat always seemed to mimic something in my life as well. Thank you for all of the years Carrie. I'm so excited to keep living on this rock with all the versions of you as well

I love how joyous you are about who you've become and excited you are about where you are now and where you are going 🥺💖 Really interesting and empathetic reflections ♥️I remember loving the original video when you posted it (10 years ago oh my god haha)

As someone who has watched you from literally your first RU-vid video, watching you grow as a person has been a pure pleasure. You deserve all of the success you've had both professionally and personally. You've grown into a strong, talented woman but, most importantly, you've always remained grounded and kind. It's true that we only really know the you that you've shared but you've done a great job at allowing yourself to grow and change and be willing to leave behind the things that don't serve you. The fine line you've had to walk of remaining personable but setting boundaries is incredibly difficult. You've done well.

It's also incredibly possible to be self-aware, recognizing there are things that aren't perfect about yourself and actively working on yourself, AND still love who you are. It's sad that your self-love has to be justified/explained. Loving yourself doesn't mean you think you're perfect, but you're right in thinking some people will interpret it that way. I've been a viewer since very nearly the beginning and I've grown alongside you (on my own journey, obviously) and I just have to say I'm incredibly proud to see how far you've come. And I'm looking forward to where you go, should you continue to choose to share it with us.

To be honest, Carrie. I've loved every minute of this journey with you. I haven't been diligent at every video as others may have. But I love to check in on things once in a while. Turning 26 this year, along with a whole load of others, you've been a lovely bonus of constant unashamed you, which may not feel like the same to you. Obviously, we have all been evolving, but the you you show us is insightful, mature, thoughtful and creative. And I thank you so much for the time you've taken to let us all in to your life in this way. Much love and hope for a bright and bubbly future for us all ❤I haven't left a comment in ruddy years, but for you, I think it's important for you to know you're great 😊👋

Get it girl! Self love to the max here! Thank you for your honesty and it in return helps us be honest with ourselves and gives us hope for the future! Thank you Carrie! ❤❤

This was such a great reflection, thanks for sharing it with us. I remember the first video, I can’t remember when I started following you but I’ve loved watching you grow and change and I’m happy to see you happy.

I really related to the part where you talked about receiving criticism without any form of validation or praise. It completely describes the experience i’ve had in high school band. It’s really affected me negatively in regards to my mental health and has really brought down my confidence as a musician. It’s really nice to hear someone who’s had a similar experience. It’s also nice to hear that you were able to get through that feeling by being validated for that feeling. Thank you. ❤️

Wow Carrie, it's so interesting to listen and hear your experiences and know that you've gone through all that and still tried to be the best version of yourself at each point. I know for a fact that I am a completely different person now to who I was when I was 18-21 years old and that's ok, because I like who I am right now and feel I can be more of who I want to be. Somethings I have done slowly and thought about for a long time and others I've just gone f it let's do it. Everyone is different and has their own boundaries and hurdles to cross when they feel ready and that is perfectly OK. It really can take its toll on you both physically and mentally when you are your in a bad situation or time and just by stepping away and viewing it from different angles you realise how to make you, you again or a better version of you. I love that your word of the year is embrace and that you've embracing every version of yourself and enjoying yourself while you do. I wish you luck on your journey of exploring and embrace the versions of you. Xxx ❤

Carrie, thanks for sharing your journey. One of the reasons I watch your videos is because I always wanted to be a musical theatre performer and it never happened, so I kind of like to see the behind-the-scenes of what it would be like. At 45, one of the things you said at the end about how you're really now at a place where you've taken certain parts of your previous selves and come to a version that you really like - I think that's a journey everyone goes through in some way or another and it can't be done without living and growing up. The reason you love yourself now, is because you learned lots of things from those other versions of you. The details are different for everyone, but we all sort of grow up and go "Oh. Wow. I had no CLUE when I was a kid." LOL Thanks for sharing your lives with us.

This is so peculiar to watch knowing that I’ve been here with you every step of the way. I was there at the beginning, I remember “boys in books are better”. I have a signed copy of “All I Know Now”. I remember you moving into your flat, I remember you on each tour that you went on. It’s so surreal to realize I remember each of these “regenerations” of you, that I was there with you and loved each one of them. I feel like I’ve grown up with you, and have seen you mature and grow into the wonderful person you are now. While you may view certain parts of your life with distain or pity, just know that there’s someone out there that loved each and every one of them, and will continue to do so. You are a wonderful person Carrie, and I’m so thrilled to be here for whatever your journey may bring.

After watching this video, all i have to say is... I appreciate you Carrie! I was grinning by the end about how happy I am for you!

I think your 20's are something that are not talked about enough in life, you have such a preferred outlook on life that you try to do whatever you believe to be right, but at such a young age, you haven't had the experiences yourself to be able to make the right judgement. I'm only 23 and still there are so many things that seem so unclear and you take it out on yourself so much for not living up to standards of where you should be by that age and its not fair! I've been watching you since 2012 and its honestly been such an amazing time watching you grow and develop into such an amazing person, keep doing what you're doing, you deserve it all❤

This is the perfect video to sit down with a cup of tea and watch. I went through some shitty things between 25-30 and it wasn’t until I went to therapy that it was all made clear it was a build up of things I had gone through between the ages of 17-24. I found this so relatable. 😊

As someone who is mid 20s it is always lovely to hear people talk about their 20s and how different they all are shows there isn't a right way or wrong way to do it. Thank you for this video

For whatever reason, the idea of being different people at different points in your life always gave me anxiety. Like moving forward with my life and growing up felt like a betrayal to my younger self and was preventing me from fully living my life, so I started thinking of growing and changing in terms of layers. The youngest version of myself is the first layer and all the layers after that are just additions. All the ways we act at different stages in our lives are all based on the layers that came first, whether we’re at a “good” or “bad” stage in our life. Thinking of it this way keeps me feeling whole, rather than worrying about losing a version of myself. I wanted to share incase anyone else relates to that feeling.

as a 20 year old who is constantly finding out new things about herself, this was very comforting ❤️

I have been here for a long time, and I'm so glad to see how happy you are now. To quote the doctor, we're all different people all throughout our lives and that's okay, that’s good, you've got to keep moving, so long as you remember all the people that you used to be.

Such a lovely video, was quite comforting seeeing that your close group of friends came in your mid twenties as I’m currently at college and although I’ve got some lovely people it’s not a group of people I could easily turn to and it’s nice to know that at this age you don’t have to have everything sorted out just yet. ❤

Really interesting and thought provoking, Carrie. And good on you for being able to look back without giving across any sense of bitterness - just acceptance and openness to learn more which I’m sure is a point that’s taken a lot of work to get to. The key to happiness for sure, as well as the amazing people you’ve found along the way. You become so sparkly in the last couple of minutes talking about where you are today, just lovely. x

Wow, what a walk down memory lane. Thank you for being part of my own past. You've always been an inspiration.

It was interesting to hear all of this, but I was particularly interested to hear you talk about that first stage all these years later. I was there for it all and it rocked the viewership and I can't even begin to imagine how it impacted you in the thick of things. It was genuinely horrible and I'm sure it's been hard to deal with. I'm sorry to hear you were harassed by the media over it too when it had nothing to do with you. So good to watch you grow and change over the years and come into yourself :) xx

Carrie, hugs, love, thank yous & fabulous luck & positivity for the future x

This video was so refreshing, in some way! I’m going through a weird moment with A levels and making a massive decision to not go to Uni, but I finally feel excited to see what’s going to happen next! I really needed this video to realised that these decisions 100% needed to be made!! Here’s to the next version of me AHH thank you Carrie as always! 💚

such a lovely and comforting video 🥺 so lovely to watch how you've grown and changed throughout your life and dealt with things...i'm 18 and still young but i'm apprehensive as to what's to come in the future, but this video was relieving, thank you..❤

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH! you are the most amazing, sweet, loving, kind, talented person ever!!! Pls never stop being you!!

Turning 30 is great. I spent my 20s essentially waiting for it. Now I'm here it's a huge relief. Not to say I'm not going to stress, make mistakes and learn lessons in the future, but the 20s held so much of that at its core that I feel my 30s can relax a little. I've enjoyed growing up with you 😊

I came to Les Mis for the first time, and first musical experience, to soley see you perform in 2015, and that's what started my love for musical theatre and I'm still watching your content to this day! ❤

Awww i am so happy for you and that you love who you are right now. It makes me happy 😁

What a beautiful message to share with us, your viewers. While Covid is an incredibly negative thing, I really love that you've engaged with that period of time in a rather positive way as a moment of reflection. Lockdown was most certainly a time to be reflective whether internally or externally, as we navigated the horror wreaked by a global pandemic. So many of us in a place of privilege were able to use that time to reflect on our lives and the value of that time is irreplaceable. It's so cool to see you discuss that time of reflection and how it changed you as a person. I've watched your videos for years and have always admired your honesty and grace as you move through both difficult and joyous periods in your life. Thank you for being a wonderful role model to a young woman in the US still finding herself and her own path! I think of your videos often, and they're a constant reminder to approach life with kindness and empathy.

I loved this video as I’m going through the same as you. Where I went through a massive breakup I was with him since I was 17 and broke up when we were 29 (last year) and it took a year for me to say I love this version of me which I have never said ever and I’m so excited for my future. Congratulations on your new version and your marriage ❤

This was such a good video for me to watch. I've just turned twenty this year and have started uni at a small college. This is super reassuring for me for my future. I truly admire you and how far you've come. Thank you

This was so beautiful to hear right now. I feel like I am currently going through a "regeneration" right now and I can see myself changing and growing before my own eyes. I am turning 24 soon with this deep seeded loneliness and I have no idea how or where to make connections with people. The fact that you found your people in your mid 20s is a wonderful thing to hear right now

Loved this video so much!! Made me look back at all the past versions of myself and try to be a little kinder with the me of today. Thanks for all you do! ❤❤

Love this. Been here all through these versions and since before the video you made 10 years ago. Really glad you are happy as everyone deserves that

I found this video so interesting. Made me think about some of the things in my life- not the first Carrie Hope Fletcher vlog to make me do this. Love watching her videos!

Love this! Really glad to hear that you are the happiest you’ve been! You’ve been through a huge journey in life so far and navigating it must have been hard at times. You’re a wonderful human and deserve to be happy xx

In 2014, I took a trip with my mom from the US to the UK with the only plan being to see Les Mis and go to stage door and meet you. I was 17 and you were so kind and spoke to me for a few minutes and took a picture with me. It’s crazy to think of how long it’s been since then and how far you’ve journeyed!

This was SOO lovely to watch! And a very inspiring reminder that sometimes we’re not in control of who we turn into, but sometimes we are! It’s put me in good spirits!

I think this is exactly what I needed to hear today. Thanks Carrie ❤

You’re only a couple years older than me so I do genuinely feel as if we’ve grown up together. I have a RAWRY shirt! I remember the TINS project. I remember bonding over your videos with my best friend because we were both bookish theatre kids. It has been a wild ride, and I’m happy to have been here for it. ❤❤

As a long time supporter and a fellow woman in her 30s, it is a joy to see your happiness and growth. Thank you for sharing your reflection and here’s to making each new version of ourselves our favorite!

I'm in Canada, and discovered you when Cinderella was being released, I've been a follower ever since. This video is beautiful. I hope one day I can piece together past versions of myself as you have. ❤

I will be 30 this year and have been watching your videos since I was a teenager I just wanted to say I absolutely agree with feeling like you are an adult when you are 20 and that I cannot imagine having my life be public at that time. I’ve always loved your videos and I am so glad to see that you are doing so well❤

Thank you for sharing your regenerations and your reflections on these regenerations with us. Although I feel stagnant in some ways, this video makes me want to dig a little deeper into myself to see who I've been over the past 10 years and who I have the chance to be going forward

I'm 22, and I'm only just now starting to reach the tipping point of being excited for the future and the maturity I hope to develop into, instead of looking backwards towards high school, and the person I was when I was 17. I'm still scared of changing, but there is some genuine excitement mixed in there as well. The postgrad blues are slowly turning pink...

This video gave me a lot of feelings. I'm 28, and used to watch all of your videos when we were teenagers/early 20s; you were (are) a bit older than me, but only a bit, and I really loved hearing your thoughts and feelings on things. 'When did you become the version of yourself that you feel like you are now' is one of my favourite questions to ask people, and has been for a while (I've heard a lot of good answers), so of course I watched this video despite not being as hooked on youtube any more. I have no right to comment on your life, as we have WILDLY different experiences, but I just wanted to say 1) I always hugely admired how you seemed to be coping with things - I didn't know the half of what was going on e.g. f**cked up written abuse, but even just the theatre life and fame seem like such an emotional rollercoaster. I know you get to choose what you present to the world on your channel, but how insightful and kind your thoughts often are is super lovely. Not in a like 'she's so perfect' way, but in a 'this person who in some ways is quite similar to me seems like a really good soul, and maybe I can be like that too' way. I sometimes think about my past self, and I don't usually have much judgement, although of course there are things I'm particularly proud / not proud of - I usually just want to hug her and tell her she's trying really hard and doing the best she can. You had to deal with many more complex issues than I did; all I'm trying to say is that it sounds really rough, I'm sorry, and you're wonderful. 2) I'm so glad you're feeling so good about things now

We're about the same age (I'm 32) and I've been watching your videos on and off since I was in my early 20s. I feel like in my 30s I'm really just coming into myself. I have some grace for my younger self now, though I wasn't so kind to myself back then. Here's to our 30s and becoming better and better versions of ourselves!

Carrie, recently the filmed version of your appearance in Les Miserable debuted on the silver screen as a Fathom Events presentation at theaters here in the United States.... To me, hearing your name heralded in the promotional advertisements (TV commercials) as one of the performers, after watching you and your exes' videos for over a decade, to me that ad spot confirmed you're officially a celebrity in your own right. I cheered when I saw that a few weeks ago!!