How do I know I am watching the space of the mind itself and not a projected image of what it would be like after this beautiful meditation? And why are thoughts and feelings etc said to be coming up, couldn't it be my awareness that is moving and directing a light the midst of the flow of the thoughts, feelings and images I am passing by? Sometimes I feel everything else is still, is my awareness that is moving and picking up content in the "frozen" pool of my mind. Can someone share thoughts?
I really wish Alan wouldn't attack medication or brain stimulation. My OCD would be too powerful for me to meditate if I had not been treated with both. It's still very strong and constantly seeking to undermine my practice, and I'm placing a lot of my hope in precision brain stimulation and psychedelics to break the endless looping that has hounded me for the past 17 years.
