Gamer rage is usually funny, but not when you can make a 29 minute video of the same person failing to reach the same goal. I'm so happy he finally beat it.
Hi GDlightshade. Hope you are doing good with your wife and kids. (I won’t tell her you cheated on her with your ex). I told ur kids tho. They weren’t to happy about it. Jimmy said (that son of a b-ch).
The random screams followed by him apologizing for being loud are so heartbreaking, he's trying so hard to keep his cool but sometimes cracks under pressure, really hoping he's doing better because watching this was genuinely painful, his comments on how he should quit because he's "bad at the game" is something I can relate to a lot and it really shows how hard it is to have motivation to play this game when you get upset really easily The moment at 15:28 especially stuck with me, wanting to accomplish something but feeling like you can't make any progress regardless of how hard you try is one of the most soulcrushing feelings ever, and you can tell he was definitely going through that a lot while playing this level, that coupled with the fact that you're slowly losing consistency at the later parts of the level due to dying at the beginning a lot when it really feels like you should get far everytime is probably one of the most frustrating things one can go through playing this game
i know how stressful trying to keep your emotions hidden while you are streaming is, and i genuinely think npesta should give himself some credit like cmon a new hardest in a month?? thats just insane
I feel a deep remorse for him. I’ve been around since the kenos streams and I can tell his mental capacity for the game has shrunk. I wish him the best with return 0
oh 100%. Npesta shouldn't be this hard on himself. I can see why hes being angry because zodiac is really lengthy and you have to have a lot of stress control. I hope he gets a nice break :)
I wish he was, but his videos have been getting striked left and right over a channel that has no right over his vids, losing over half of the money he’s making (gotten from his posts on Twitter) hope it’s resolved soon
He calls himself an embarrassment only because hes a bit stressed and he feels like he shouldnt be dying to some of the places hes been dying to but he knows very well hes not an embarrassment
This brings me phyisical pain to watch. I knew npesta was struggling, but never to this level of emotional torture. I am glad that he has this done, but it's really sad to see him beating himself up over progress that I could never imagine achieving. I hope he has a much more pleasant experience with Return 0 than zodiac.
It's hard coming back to this after knowing that he's gone through 2 harder levels and mental anguish for both, both being Oblivion and now Edge of Destiny
I struggle with mental health as well, and I feel like when I have nothing else I turn to games for comfort, and when I start underperforming all I can think is "wow you even suck at video games". I can only imagine this is amplified for Nathan as a streamer and I really hope he's okay, i know he has been going through a lot. He's such an inspiration to me and seeing him go through this feels like how I used to feel.
I just want to hug you, honestly. The way you said that made me feel really sad now. I hope you're doing better. (Yes, 8 months later but i don't care)
I was there during the Zodiac streams, so I saw this experience firsthand. Knowing now that he has limitless ambition yet very limited capabilities is very sad. I hope he's doing alright, especially when he does Return 0.
Yeah, I even gave up on Monolithos, an easy demon because of its length being 2.5 minutes. I think that one needs to be like really good at nerve control to beat levels that are 3 minutes or longer.
i almost gave up on reanimation 2 minutes 53 seconds i think and i died at the last ship part and boss 5 times on ship and 1 on boss b4 completion@@vedantsridhar8378
@@vedantsridhar8378I beat an easy demon of 10+ minutes (my nerve control isnt so great), the way i beat it was go 0% - 10%, pause the game, then go from 10% - 20% and so on, i guess this doesnt always work with long levels, like if theres no way to pause the game and play on later because the level is too hard, so there is no place to pause. But this tactic really helps with long levels, i reccomend it.
I always had this image of Npesta as an amazing, happy, comedic genius and I'm going to be honest, when I went in to this video at first I was expecting to laugh a bit. But the way that he raged, the way he talked about himself really broke me... This was a genuine struggle to watch and seeing him beat himself up on "mild" really made me feel dread when I saw it change to "strong". Same when "Severe" came up... I see him in a new light now as a true human who is struggling, not just an entertainer, and could see depression really leaking through there. I hope he gets better with time and hard work, and I hope his community will stand strong with him the entire way. I know I will.
stop throwing the word depression around; going through a hard time doesnt necessarily mean ur depressed; neither does having bad mental health. until people come out and say they have depression dont call it tht. its bad for both the person ur talking ab and everyone with actual depression. depression affects 3.8% of people worldwide… even the percent of people with blue eyes is higher than that (8%). So stop, until someone comes out n says they have it dont say shit… and even if they did pointing it out at times like this doesnt help anyone
@Marah Manasreh if he had depression, he would NOT enjoy geometry dash, right? I think that because I have heard that when you have depression, you enjoy nothing anymore
it hurt so much to be in his streams while he was playing zodiac. he was berating himself constantly and it was so tragic to see him like this. I’m so happy he got it out of the way
Smart water is the dumbest thing ever they advertise that it is “Vapoury distilled” yet the only way to make distilled water is by turning it in to vapor and then letting it settle after. It makes my brain hurt why people think it’s better then regular tap water.
Watching this without skipping anything has to be the hardest challenge humanly possible, I'm glad he's done with zodiac now and doesn't have to go through any more pain
“I’m so garbage i’m the worst player” *verifies kenos* jokes aside, i didn’t know that he was being mentally tortured by this level when he was streaming i only watched the completion D: hope he feels fine now
I'm really wondering if he's just saying that out of anger or if he really thinks he's the worst player. I mean, he probably knows that only one in a million has the capability of completing the levels that he is completing now.
I need to watch his streams more. I didn't realize behind the highlights he almost gets as mad as I do. (I have broken 2 mice and a monitor over GD rage)
22:35 bro did he really expect to pass pennutoh first try? i get dying there 5+ times is frustrating but i would honestly be happy when i finally made it there the first time, this actually explains a lot of the stuff in the video, npesta expects too much from himself and often ends up disappointed
I mean he practiced the hell out of pennutoh, its definately frustrating as fuck when you can consistently pass a part whilst doing runs and then die there several times there from 0
I am going for zodiac at the moment. And this video honestly helps me with what to expect and npesta's reactions help me to know that I will indeed get mad at the level no matter what. If I know what to expect...the experience will be less painful probably...hopefully
I went into this video thinking there were going to be funny rages but damn after watching this i genuinely feel bad for him, Especially the 84% death like I really am happy that he beat this after all of the mental struggle. He isnt a bad player he is like better then like over 99% of people who play this game
Npesta's one of my favourite content creators. I'm dearly hoping he's mentally recovering. He's a great player despite his hinderances. If he's still planning to verify Return 0. I'm really hoping he's taking a long, easy break to take care of his health. Mental and Physical. He'll need all his determination for that 17 minute long leviathan. If he gets far fails on R0. The good thing is. He can be happy with his consistency. Best of luck to Nathan. 👍
i watched the first zodiac stream skipped a couple and then watched another and then watched some of the ending ones and it was extremely sad watching his confidence disappear throughout them
His mental health started going downhill when he came back to gd after 4 months re learning celestial force and died to a transition bug. Who knows it may be sooner then that.
His 'Strong' reactions genuinely scare me, I don't know how I'll go with his 'Severe' reactions. I really hope he's ok and is going to continue to be ok, it's not fun to be in a mental state like that at any point and it's even worse if you're infront of Hundereds of people.
i knew npesta had bad mental health, but i didn't think it was this bad. I've never been more hurt by what he has been saying. I really hope he gets better.
Well, he looks like he is perfectly fine in his streams and has completed Edge of Destiny lol. Yes, some levels are more stressful but the more you struggle during completing it, the happier you'll be once you complete it!
He was just disappointed in himself. He mostly rages when he dies at the same places like tmn, failiure, pennutoh or slimjim. This level is very chokepoint heavy.
13:57 exactly what I was thinking the moments before I quit this game, like I destroyed my mouse, I put so much time and effort just to finish a singular level and get 1 digit on my profile (demon count) on a 3$ game. Like what was the point? does it even matter? this game ironically gave me a new perspective on games that eventually helped me quit gaming.
this is a very interesting video,someone finally not treating fails like "top 50 best reactions" or something like that,It's right that we all can look apart from the npesta's tipical jokes and sarcasm and pay attention that his mental health is ruined with a simplistic game (I'm not saying he cares too much about It,I also got very raged at this and had depressed times)
zodiac is just not a good level for people with bad mental health. its horribly unbalanced and super stressful meaning that you get stressed and die to an easy part or die to a hard part and get pissed because its the last one for 30 seconds
It's a hard level. There are no free inputs. It's balanced overall. Doesn't make sense to set an expectation that you will *never* die to certain parts.
I don't get why people laugh about this. Everyone who does surely have no clue how difficult it is to keep a solid consistency while also putting yourself under a huge pile of pressure. We can call this his emotional rollercoaster again ig. Especially when being as unlucky as npesta, it just hurts to see how he suffered with Zodiac. ...
I think it’s more of a “glad it’s over” type thing. We can be happy about it because it’s over. Just like when someone who’s suffering a lot dies, it’s sort of relieving in a way that they aren’t suffering anymore. Just on a milder scale
@@BladeMK Sure there are these kinds of people. However I am only about those people who are just laughing at him raging. Just like those who laugh their asses off while seeing someone cry in pain on a Lifestream. Those ones who see this as actual entertainment instead of a sort of a show off of a bad time that you can look back at.
His new videos makes me realize why he gets so irritated and annoyed a lot, its really sad because he also underestimates himself a lot. I wish nothing but the best for him.
I want to share a piece of advice to people who rage a lot and hopefully calm them, so I have had this experience in the past with hard demons and insane demons and when you start losing progression you start getting impatient and want to beat the level already. With this, you start to try less and set expectations yourself to beat it right then and there. Geometry dash requires skill and patience to beat hard levels, and when you stop trying, your less effort causes you to die more and when you die you lose tolerance and start raging. It only gets worse from there. This has worked for me every time when I was playing levels like toe 2 v2, Fairydust or 8o. Those levels did not like me and it caused me to rage a lot, but I decided to take a few hour break, eat something, and do something useful. When I came back I felt in a better mood even when I died 90% and a few attempts later, I beat it. Sorry for the long story, but moral of the story: If you're ever raging, take a break, you will feel better and maybe be able to beat the level you were playing more comfortably. RAGING SOLVES NOTHING!
It's not that easy, some people have anger issues and they increase while doing something stressful, just like playing a hard level in this game, taking a break help, but if you're like this, it won't be enough and you'll still rage playing the game.
raging is inevitable in this game, and it just takes lots of practice to learn how to control your anger. I agree with you tho taking a break is really helpful
@@IBM-5100 true but they could practice control and lower their anger very slightly each time just baby steps. You cant really just improve overnight people could practice control and improve at it very slowly that eventually, they will have most anger controlled and they will be happier
@@cnea8378 raging is not inevitable. I have never once raged at this game even when I got 99 on bloodbath and 94 on wow I had a straight face both times and took a little break to calm my nerves. Maybe I am yet to experience it but I just don’t rage at this game.
its surprising to see him like this during the kenos streams i thought he was so well put together for dying past the 70 wave a uncountable amount of times
Npesta: I'm so garbage, I'm the worst player. Little did he know that he would complete Oblivion a year later! I'm sure that that would be an impossible challenge for the 'worst player'.
@@zzyunogd ofc all of his deaths were "his fault" because thats how It works in GD apart from Hz bugs. that doesnt mean that the nerves don't play a part tho
But I seriously don't understand Npesta. I'm sure he knows that he is one of the best players on literally the entire PLANET to be able to play a Top 10 demon of his time. If he thinks he's bad, he can just remember that there are people out there who have the dream of just beating Bloodbath alone, and Zodiac is like 1000 times harder than Bloodbath.
It was mentally hard for me to watch these streams, it got to the point where if he was far into the level, I would mute the stream to not hear the pain and rage.
I've never seen someone's confidence fall off a cliff so much in this game. I truly feel bad for npesta. Having such a hard and terrible time with Zodiac, every tiny mistake putting a dent in his confidence and making him more demotivated and miserable. I'm just happy that he finally managed to beat this living hell of a level. GG npesta on beating Zodiac and conquering the Extreme Demon Roulette. 👍♥️
Nobody who thinks that would be willing to watch something like this, unfortunately. Also, if they did, they would just assume the people like Npesta just have anger issues and it’s all on them.
Seeing Npesta completely get ripped apart at 5:50 was so sad. You can just see the look of disappointment in his eyes and it even hurts to watch. I'm very glad he ended up overcoming it and ended up beating it though, especially because of how much pain it caused him.
@@oozychubs5-3 Platformer mode is not the only thing in this game, it is just a different type of rhythm game. You might as well say ADOFAI is not a rhythm game from your POV.
@@Spod1s have you made progress in Zodiac at least? Has a practice run become easier for you than when you first played it? How consistent are you? Are you already playing Normal Mode? If yes, then that's a major skill leap! Very impressive! Don't worry, even if you fail now and rage a lot, that just shows how happy you'll be once you beat it. Those who haven't suffered during the beating of a level won't experience the amazing feeling after beating it.
i think he calls himself the worst player because he finds himself always getting worse in a way, not his actual skill. Development matters more than achievements.
@@cnea8378 I’m doing zodiac myself since I stopped caring for digital descent which I have 83% on and rn I have 13% on zodiac with 5k att and even if I don’t manage to beat it at least my skill has improved a lot depending how long I’ll do the level for.
